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Chapter 9
Don't you ever, never again, not to him, at all.
"Would you just hold still for a second." I tilted Riku's head back and to the right, examining his bruise. It was 9:45 pm, we'd made it to Cloud's house with the help of that lady so kindly offering us a ride in her itty bitty truck. I couldn't thank her enough. She hugged me so many times that her perfume was still in my clothes. I liked her perfume. It had a mother's scent. She literally picked Riku up like he was a baby and cradled him for at least 5 minutes, telling him that everything would be okay. That sweet boys like us would never be hurt again in this place. That if we ever needed anything to come to her. Her name was Mary. I like that name. Maybe I would call her up sometime. She had kids of her own. A son my age and a daughter about 4 years younger then me. They were all so nice. It was like a dream world. I found myself having a hard time believing it to be true how wonderful I felt being here now. It's like that perfect place you dream about but can never find.
It's cool. Way cool.
"Oww..." Riku winced and pulled away from me with a quick jerk. I sighed and reached for him again. "Sorry." I said and frowned. He was glaring at me as best he could considering I had his head held back as far as it could go. After we'd gotten our stuff into Cloud's apartment and settled into the guest room I immediately turned to care for Riku. That bruise of his was turning more purple and blue with each minute. As pale as he was it looked like a black hole was eating its way across his face.
"Hold still... I need to... Riku come on." I whined as he stood up and walked to the other side of the room, by the large window over looking the city. Urg, why did he have to be so stubborn. It'd taken me forever to talk him into letting me look at his bruise. He wouldn't even let me look at him at first. But finally he gave in and took off his jacket and lowered the hood of his sweater. His wound was most defiantly worse then it appeared. It had this weird heat radiating from it.
"I just... wanna put some of this astringent on it. It's going to sting, but the bruise will heal faster." I tried to rationally explain to Riku why it was important for me to take care of his injuries. He didn't want to hear it all.
"I'm fine." He huffed and sunk to the floor in front of the window. I pulled myself up from the bed and went to stand over him. I glared down at him beside myself.
"Riku, no you're not fine. Do you want to know how I know you aren't? Because you keep saying that you are. It sounds like you're trying to convince yourself." I kneeled down and leveled him with steady gaze. He looked back at me with an equal determination. I smirked.
"Are you challenging me?" I hissed playfully. Riku looked taken aback in a good type of way. He frowned and tried to brush me off by turning his head away. I grabbed his face in my hands tenderly and made him look at me.
"Well?" I said again, trying to initiate a staring contest. Riku snarled, I know he was playing, and tried to turn from me again. I wouldn't let go of his head but minded his bruise.
"You'll lose." He said after a moment in a flat tone and with a slight shrug. I gaped slightly and then poked out my lip.
"You think so hmm?" I made him look at me again. He kept his face slack. I gritted my teeth and started straight into his eyes. Oh boy, what had I gotten myself into. Staring contests were like duels to the death with mister no reaction here. Riku did always beat me in this particular game.
I was doing good for at least 5 minutes. My eyes were burning. Riku showed no signs of distress or of giving up. WHAT was HE? A robot! Christ, blink already. I gritted my teeth harder. I was going to win this time. Riku's lips perked slightly.
DAMN!!
And then he blew sharply into my face.
DAMN HIM!!
I scrubbed at my eyes and blinked wildly. Lubrication was a good thing. Riku blinked once slowly and turned back to the window.
"Told you." He murmured.
I snarled. "You cheated! That didn't count! You can't blow in my face! That was foul play!" I huffed and sat back on my bottom. Arg, I'd win next time. I'll put some freaking tape over his mouth. Yeah...
"Come on." Riku was suddenly standing up. I watched him curiously as he went to the bed and sat down. I stood up and walked over to him. He tilted his head back and turned it slightly.
"Gently." He warned. I grinned and picked up the cotton swab and the bottle of astringent. I dabbed a bit of the liquid on the swab and then patted tenderly at the bruise. Riku sucked in a breath quickly but didn't complain.
Aww, by baby was so brave.
I took my time mothering Riku, it had been awhile since we'd spent any type of quality time together. I wouldn't exactly call this romantic, but it's better then nothing. Riku was watching me absently over the bridge of his nose. I had to admit he looked rather cute with his face all turned up in frustration like that. It felt good to see him being at least slightly himself.
"Done yet?" Riku mumbled in a bored tone. I scowled playfully and sat my medical tools down on the dresser. Riku massaged the back of his neck after sitting in such a awkward position for so long.
"It should look better in the morning." I told him and sat down as close to him as my hips would allow. Riku sighed and flopped backwards onto the bed and closed his eyes. We didn't say anything for a long time and I just stared out the window. It was raining again, but somehow this rain was soothing and made me feel all tingly.
This place... can't describe it...
"I think you need to see a doctor." I sighed before I said this and turned just slightly so I could see how Riku reacted. He just made a sound in his throat that pretty much said, "Like hell I am." I sighed a bit more irritably this time and crawled up onto our very nice big and soft bed to loom over Riku. He opened his eyes and regarded me questioningly. I stayed quiet and just poked out my lip. He'd understand what I was trying to say.
"I'm not going to the hospital Sora." His tone was final and he sat up and ran his fingers through his hair. I whined and shook my head.
"Why are you being so stubborn hmmm? Riku... you could have serious injuries. Leon is a grown man and I doubt he was giving you love taps." Riku turned and glared at me.
"No." He hissed. I was getting angry now. This just wasn't a time for him to be fighting me. He was physically and mentally unstable right now. There was not telling what he would do to deal with this life changing event that he'd just experienced. It was different for everyone who had to suffer through this. And I know Riku, he deals with everything.... rather violently.
"No." He said again. I guess he realized I was trying to think of a way to talk him into going to the emergency room
"Riku..." I tried to keep a reasoning tone and made him look at me. "I saw you cradling your abdomen earlier. That's... where it hurts the most after.... after... you know what I mean. You could be torn or something. I mean on the inside you know." Riku's face scrunched up in disgust.
"I think I bled enough the other day.... I'm fine..."
I winced when he said that.
"How much..?" Riku pulled away from me.
"Leave me alone." He hissed just slightly. I felt hurt for a moment. I knew this was going to be hard. We were slowly treading to the topic of his rape. Maybe it was too soon.
"... I just want to make sure you're okay... If Leon was rough with you... you really might need to see a doctor Riku."
He was standing up and pacing very slowly. That told me instantly that he was really hurt. Inside.
"Please rest." I begged him and reached out to him. He jumped away and looked at me. He had a slight crazed gleam in his eyes and I to force myself not to go on alert. Riku was just coping. It was just setting in that's all.
"I'm never going to be okay again... Okay Sora. Christ... I don't want to see a doctor... I mean, there isn't very much he can do anyway. I've been raped, I lost about a pint of blood, my ribs hurt like hell, but I'm alive and walking... I'm straight okay!"
Riku sat down suddenly and covered his face with his hands. I bit my bottom lip hard enough to hurt, probably enough to bleed.... I hope Riku was just over exaggerating.
A... pint...
"You... bled that much...? I really think you should see a doctor now. And your ribs could be broken..." I ran a nervous hand through my hair. Oh shit....
"They are..." Riku said so softly I had to strain my ears. And I knew he wasn't lying. Riku knew about this like that. His dad was a doctor after all.
"They are..." I repeated and went gently touched Riku's back. I realized then that I hadn't seen the rest of his body since I discovered him back at the house. He had on this baggy gray jogging suit that made him look like a really sick bear. I started lifting the sweater in the back and felt Riku flinch and try to pull away.
"Don't...." He pleaded softly. Now... this was Riku, he normally couldn't wait to show his body too me, and I ah heh, couldn't wait to see half the time either. But now, to hear him clearly say he didn't want me looking at him made me move even faster. I got the sweater about halfway up and noticed a small bruise just at the small of his back.
"I... ran into the doorknob trying to get away..." Riku told me. I winced sadly at that.
"Lift your arms..." I said. Riku complied without arguing. Once I got the sweater over his head took in a sharp breath. I guess it was agitating the bruise on his jaw. The sweater was tossed aside once I'd gotten it over his head and I had him lye back on the bed. I choked at the severity of his other injuries. I couldn't see his broken ribs but there was a viciously huge bruise spanning over where his ribs rested.
"How... the hell...?" I stammered. Riku was staring up at the ceiling like it was really interesting all of a sudden while he said.
"7 times.... with his fist."
Oh my God...
"That's it, your going to the emergency room." I was on my feet and slipping on my shoes before Riku had barely sat up. He looked at me in disbelief.
"He's fucking crazy hitting you like that. Like... you're a grown man." I almost slipped putting on my left shoe. "Son of a.... Come on, put your shirt back on." I looked at Riku, dead set on getting him medical attention.
"I'm not going. I don't... feel like dealing with all the questions and stares."
I paused. Riku had this look on his face that said. "Oh, now you understand." I scratched my head out of anyway better to express my sudden brain stutter and sat down. Riku glanced at me.
"They are going to want to know what happened. And if I let them check me... they'll know it was rape Sora.... Then there's the police getting involved, and them wondering why we're living alone... and a bunch of bullshit I just can't handle right now."
Riku had a very good point.... But still.
"Then... okay if not tonight... then in a few days. You should be...."
"I'm torn... Sora... I probably need stitches... I'm just not going period..."
ARGGGG!! RIKU!
"But... Leon sleeps around. He could have... an STD or something."
YEAH, this would make him go the doctor. Riku had a completely horrified expression on his face now. I hadn't meant to scare him like that. But I had to make him see reason.
"...Oh shit.... he didn't use... oh my fucking god..." Riku gasped really hard and covered his face again. He was chanting, "This can't be happening.", over and over and over again to himself.
"Riku...."
I shouldn't have told him that. FUCK!
"Riku.."
He looked at me, trying to compose himself.
"Tomorrow. No exceptions." That was final.
Riku just nodded and lowered his head in defeat. I didn't say anything else to him. I'd just leave him alone for a while. I guess.. maybe I wasn't giving Leon enough credit. I mean... he may have been a 2 dollar he-whore but he always had protection. I think he collects condoms. Anyway, he hadn't used one this time. Which was stupid on his end too. What if Riku had had something? And Riku's blood had gotten all over him.... And Leons.... his... I started shaking my head at that thought. I knew exactly what that felt like. It was nasty, especially if you didn't want it in you... I gagged and held my stomach. It made me sick. It was like having a virus running rampant inside of you.
Leons... his... baby juice...
ICK!!
ICK !!
ICK!!
"We could go to the police. There's physical evidence. " I just had to bring it up. We would have to eventually. Better to talk about this part now. Riku stood up and again and sighed.
"No there isn't... I took a shower right afterwards."
Okay... that was shot to hell.....
"Inside..." I started. Riku growled.
"NO, NO, and NO! That requires going to the hospital. I don't want them looking at me like that okay."
Fine Riku.
"Okay." I said in defeat. This was going no where fast and I was getting more and more upset with each passing moment.
I'm done for tonight.
"You win." I said ending the conversation. Riku huffed slightly and went into the bathroom. It was quiet for a moment then I heard him gag. I jumped up and went to see what was wrong. Riku was on his knees over the toilet violently heaving up... what looked like... pizza maybe. I covered my mouth and turned away. I could never stomach hearing or watching someone puke. I guess all the talking made him ill. He was gagging for a long time. When I finally heard him calm down I went back into the bathroom. He'd put down the toilet seat and was resting his forehead on the cool porcelain and he was gasping really hard. I walked over to him and sat down on the floor. He looked at me through heavy lidded eyes. He looked a little green in his skin from just throwing up. I ran my hand over his arm. His skin was cold, sweaty, and clammy.
"You okay?" No he wasn't, but I had to ask. Riku nodded slowly.
"....yea.... just.... felt sick...." I nodded in understanding. Complete understanding.
"You wanna take a shower?"
Riku dragged his head off of the toilet seat and let it fall into my lap. His hair was damp too. You know.. I think he's running a fever.
"Baby..." He croaked.
"Hmm?"
"I.... need your help getting up... I feel to weak..." He said. I let out a soft laugh at that. I pushed him up and leaned his head back onto the toilet seat so he could stay up right. I stood and went to the tub to turn on the water. I ran it until it was hot but comfortable and plugged the bathtub. Riku had managed to lift his head and turn in my direction.
"You know... we can both fit in there...." he said. I frowned and looked back at the tub. It was true. The thing was basically a small hot tub.
"You want me to get in with you?" Of course he did. That's why he'd mentioned the tub being so big. Ah der, Sora. But I just wanted to make sure he was comfortable with me being naked with him.
"I'll drown if you don't." He was sitting up now. A bit of color back in his skin. I chuckled and tugged at my shirt. Riku was watching me really hard. I felt special. Knowing he didn't find me still being slightly intimate disturbing after what just happened to him. That was a very good sign.
"Want some help?" I asked him and pointed to his drawstring pants. He shook his head and pulled the tie holding them closed free. The pants fell loosely from around his hips and he squirmed out of them. He tossed the sweaty pants aside and remained on the floor in his boxers. This was slowly turning into a game of 'strip-for-me' I found it to be nice though. We weren't being sexual, just playful. And considering some of the shit we just went through.... If Riku wants to play I'm not going to stop him.
"Help." He said and reached out to me. The steady roar of the water filling the tub hid his soft whimper of pain when I pulled him up, but I saw the discomfort on his face. I silently apologized and helped him grip the sink. He legs were trembling. I unbuttoned my pants and let them pool at my feet and there we stood almost completely naked.
Whoo... this was starting to feel like our first time together all over again. I ran my hands up and down Riku's torso, marveling at how beautiful he still was despite the ugly blue bruise marring his otherwise perfect physique. I inhaled sharply, from pleasure or pain I have not idea. I looked him in his eyes and ran my hands over his shoulders.
"Are you scared?" I breathed. I wanted to know just how he was feeling. I wasn't aroused at all, I was just comfortable and glad to be with him. Riku seemed like he didn't know how to answer. He was shaking harder then ever now.
"Yeah..." He said, his usually strong voice wavering. I stepped up to him and wrapped my arms around his waist. He didn't hug me back and that was okay. I leaned my head onto his collar bone and closed my eyes.
"Don't be. I would never every hurt you."
I looked up at him and he swallowed hard. "I. Love. You." I paused at each word to make sure he knew I meant it. I would help him heal. I would go slow. His pain would be my pain.
"You can trust me." I pulled down his boxers and let them fall to the ground, the free my own from my hips. I took Riku's hand and helped him step into the tub. He must have gotten a chill because he shivered really hard. I laughed. I couldn't help it. Riku sunk into the water and scooted to the other side to give me room, not like I didn't have enough. I shut the water off and leaned back to rest. Riku didn't say anything and just kept cupping water onto his shoulders. I stared at him and noted how much he looked like a tattered but gorgeous little angle. He didn't need wings or a halo. He was my angel. That's what I would start calling him. Personally, I think only people who have suffered through hard ships and overcame them despite all odds are REAL angles. That's what Riku was. You can't be innocent until you've suffered. Or... something like that. It sounds good in my head.
So... did that make me an angel... nah.
"Want me to wash your back?"
I sat up and reached for a wash cloth on the rack over the tub. Riku pursed his lips and then nodded once. He turned his back to me so I could baby him. I took the towel and soap and started to build a nice foamy lather. Riku was staring forward at his own reflection like he was in a trance. I didn't like this silence between us at all. I had to think of something that we could talk about, but something not dealing with our current situation. Something nice.
"We haven't eaten anything today. Want me to make something for you after our bath?"
He'd just thrown up and I was talking about food. Way to go smart guy.
Riku shrugged slightly and I felt better knowing I hadn't made him sick again by mentioning food.
"Soup..." He just said. I nodded. That was fine. Next topic.
"You know, I never asked you this before, but how come you never seemed to tan when we were back on the island?"
Riku lifted his head slightly but didn't turn to look at me.
"I didn't really.. like the Sun much." He said it like I should have known that. His response struck me as a bit strange. He was born on Destiny Island, how can he not like the Sun? But then again, there were a lot of things Riku didn't like that he should. I think he just put up with them because they couldn't just go away.
"Hmm.... well, do you like it now?" I said that because of Traverse Town's lack of natural light. The place was always gloomy. Every now and then the Sun would peek out for an hour or two from behind the one to many ominous gray clouds that seemed to hover over the city. But it just wasn't enough to give you a reason to want to get up and go. I remember back on the island, if the Sun was up I was up. So that was every single day from dawn to dusk. The Sun was my natural caffeine.
"I guess..." Riku started again. ".. I just got tired of it you know..." I stopped washing his back for a moment. He kept going.
"I was just so tired of that place. The same ocean, the same salty air, the same sand... It was just getting so old. I felt tired and always bored. Even when I was with you. Being around you made those things tolerable though. The people irked me. I just couldn't understand how they could except the same old thing every single day. I just wanted to get away so bad...."
"Do you miss the Island?" I asked and Riku turned fully around to face me. He pulled me to him, putting my legs around his waist so he could move closer. I caressed his shoulders and chest with the soapy towel and let him speak.
"I miss... the safety of the Island. At least there I knew the only thing we had to worry about were natural disasters. Even then we were utterly and completely safe. But the Island itself... No." Riku took my wrists in his hands and put my soapy hands in his hair.
"You are my Destiny Island Sora."
I smiled lovingly and leaned in to kiss Riku. He timidly kissed me back.
"You don't have to hesitate. I'm okay now." I said and let my hands slide down his chest and stop just above his navel. I felt him shudder. I knew this was awkward for him. The last thing anyone who had just experienced rape wants to do is have sex or be intimate.
"We don't have to do anything. I just want to show that with me it's okay."
Riku's cheeks were flaming red. I grinned and kissed him again. It felt kind of nice being the dominant one. But this wasn't about being in control. I would guide Riku through this.
"Okay, more back washing." I said and freed my legs from around his waist so he could turn around. He looked flustered. I laughed at that. So this was at least slightly turning him on. The healing had already begun.
Or so I thought.
Riku complied and turned to let me finish cleaning his back. His skin was so soft and smooth. I spent a long time just taking the towel and squeezing water from it to watch it glide down his flawless and quite powerful shoulders and spine.
Riku's so beautiful.
After a time of soaking until our skin was pruning up we both washed and climbed out of the tub. Riku let me dry him off and he did me in turn. These touchy feely activities were quite fun and really romantic to me for some reason. We left the bathroom together and stepped into our room. I was glad we had our own bathroom. We didn't have to worry about Cloud catching us half naked in the hallway or something. It just made things all the more comfortable.
Riku was bolting at his hair, which I'd spent a good 10 minutes washing just for fun, he was watching me change into my pajamas but didn't try to talk at all. I would never get used to him not talking to me. I remember times I'd have to tell him to just shut up he'd talk so much.
"I'm gonna go make your soup. Was there anything else you wanted?" I asked once I'd finished dressing. Riku was pulling on his pajama bottoms over his boxers and he paused to look at me.
"A.. sandwich. No cheese and no mayo." He said and went back to dressing. I nodded and noted to add a cup of warm ginger ale to his meal. Something to settle his stomach. I left the room leaving the door cracked slightly.
Cloud was in the kitchen on the phone. He gave me a quick smile when I walked into the kitchen but kept on with his conversation. I noticed he hadn't changed out of his clothes yet, so maybe he had something else to do tonight. He sounded like he was making plans on the phone at that moment actually.
"We made it safely, thanks. No, they're fine."
He was talking about Riku and me too. Hmmm?
"Yeah... well no. They haven't said anything. Of course I want to know. But I'm not going to pressure them into telling now."
Uh... he knows I'm standing here right?
"Yes I know this is a big responsibility. I wouldn't have done it if I had thought about it first. I can handle this.... No... okay listen..... *sigh*....."
Who the hell is he talking too? And how do they know us?
"I know this is different from me living alone.... Could you just stop, please. I'm not a child. I can take care of the 3 of us just fine. If I have too I'll pick up some extra shifts at work. Yeah... okay. Bye."
Cloud hung up the phone a little too hard. Whoever he'd been talking too had pissed him off. I wanted to ask him who was on the phone, but it was really none of my business.
I turned and tried to look like I hadn't been listening to his conversation by fishing around in a bunch of drawers and cabinets. I had no clue where anything really was. I'd never really been to Cloud's house before. Whenever we trained we went to Aeris's place.
"Cid." Cloud suddenly said behind me. I yelped and turned to face him. He was reaching over me to open a cupboard I hadn't looked in yet. It was were all of the canned stuff was.
"This what you're looking for?" He asked and turned to the refrigerator. I smiled in thanks and started looking for soup. Cloud pulled out a bottle of water and opened it. He chugged about half the bottle before he said.
"He thinks I'm in over my head taking you and Riku in." I paused and turned to look at him. I didn't know what to say. Of all people I never thought Cid would object to us staying with Cloud. He had objected to us living with Leon though. Well, that I understood, but what was wrong with Cloud.
"It's because I'm so young." Cloud answered my unspoken question. "You know Cid still considers me a kid too. He just doesn't think it's wise for me to try and care for your guys alone."
I took some time to think about that. Riku and I aren't little tiny kids that can't do anything. We can go to work, fix our own meals, do the laundry, clean, and all that other stuff. We aren't helpless. The only thing Cloud would have to do is make sure we're safe most of the time. He didn't have to raise us.
"What does Cid know about taking care of kids. He doesn't have any." I raised any eyebrow. "Does he?"
Cloud closed his eyes and took a small swig of his water before he spoke. "He used too. A little girl. She'd be... almost 7 I think. Real sweet kid..." Cloud's voice just kind of dropped in volume after that. I knew the whole story with Hallow Bastion and all of that. But.... shouldn't have Cid's daughter returned to normal after I sealed Kingdom Hearts?
"She died of illness." Cloud said. Once again answering a question I hadn't asked. I felt really bad for bringing this up. Poor Cid... no wonder why he was so grumpy all of the time.
"His... wife?" I'm assuming he'd had one. He must have at least a girlfriend to have had a child.
"Her name is Shera." Cloud said and screwed the top back onto his water bottle. His tone had turned slightly icy when he'd said the women's name.
"She left Cid after their daughter died. She blamed him for it."
I knew the expression on my face was asking "Why?". Okay, this was some breaking news to me. How do you blame someone for your child dying from being sick?
"Cid was always off working on some kind of machinery. He used to day dream about going into outer space. He was actually building a rocket."
"Wow!" I said. that was cool!
Cloud chuckled slightly. "Yeah, that is cool. When he found out Shera was pregnant he was ecstatic. He couldn't wait for the baby to be born." Cloud paused and his face became sullen and dark. "But the baby couldn't have come at a worse time. That's when all of the stuff with the Heartless and worlds disappearing started happening. Cid had to give up working on his Rocket to help in the never ending battles with the Heartless. This went on for years. When Michelle, that was the babies name, was about 4 she was diagnosed with some kind of incurable illness. Cid and Shera did everything in there power of course to get her the best medicine and doctors around the world. But nothing seemed to work. Finally the a doctor discovered the illness was fatal to a child as young as her. Michelle died about 8 months later. Well.. she probably would have lived longer, maybe to be at least 10 or 11. But Cid told them to cut her life support...."
I gasped and stared in disbelief at Cloud.
"Yeah.... He didn't want her to suffer anymore. And with everything going on... there was a chance she'd be taken by the Heartless. What parent wants that to happen to their child. So.. I guess you can say Cid killed his own daughter, but I don't see it like that. I believe he did the most honorable thing any parent can ever do."
Cloud looked at me and smiled slightly.
"He let her go."
There were tears in my eyes. I had a new found respect for Cid now. I'd never think he was a mean old fart again. Wow... I don't think I could bring myself to ever do something like that....
Geez...
"Don't tell Cid I told you that." Cloud added and put his bottled water back in the fridge. I nodded. Of course I wouldn't mention what I'd just learned. I didn't want to bring up bad memories. Cloud was leaving the kitchen and I went back to making Riku's dinner. I cleared my mind of all the depressing stuff I'd just found out about. I'd cry all the water out of my body at this rate.
God... I never would have thought... Cid...
Thinking happy thoughts now.
Life sucks.
Happy thoughts!!
Arg...
Once I'd finished fixing Riku's food I made myself a sandwich and carried everything back to our room. Riku was lying across the bed watching something on the TV. He looked dazed and like he was really seeing what was on the screen.
"Dinner." I chirped and laid the tray of food onto the dresser. Riku dropped the remote on the carpeted floor and sat up. I handed him his food and he started to eat silently. We didn't talk the whole time. After we finished I sat the dished aside, reminding myself to wash them later, and went to curl up next to Riku. It was now going on twelve o'clock.
"I'm not tired." I said to Riku and leaned up on one elbow to look at him. He eyed me wearily. He seemed like he wanted to tell me something.
"What?" I cocked my head.
Riku frowned and chewed his inner jaw. "I was thinking.... If I had been a girl... I could be pregnant."
My eyebrows flew up. Where had this come from. Riku was so weird to me sometimes. He had a point though.
"But you aren't a girl. So... you don't have to worry about things like that." I said and laughed slightly. This was funny to me for some reason. The frown didn't leave Riku's face and he sat up. I could tell this was really bothering him.
"A baby..." He said absently and ran a hand over his stomach. I pushed myself up completely.
"Riku.. why are you doing that?" I asked eyeing him sideways. Riku shrugged and let his hand drop.
"I'm just saying... If I had been a girl... I'd be pregnant with Leon's child...."
"But your aren't a girl. So let's not even think about that okay."
Riku looked at me slowly. "I'd get rid of it." He droned. The way he said that bothered me.
"Aren't... you against... abortion.."
"No."
Why were we talking about this?
"If a girl wants to murder her own child who can stop her. I just think if you were grown enough to have unsafe sex then you should be grown enough to deal with the consequences. Like... getting pregnant. But if a girl is raped.... Kill it. Don't even think about it."
"... I agree..." I really did. He was right. The responsibility wasn't the girls if she was violated. Riku laid back down, turned his back to me and went silent.
"Sora... do you want kids?"
Once again, Riku was really weird to me sometimes.
But I had to stop and think about that. I really... didn't know. It was plainly obvious Riku and I couldn't have a child of our own. We could adopt. Or... get a surrogate mother, someone that looked like me, to have our baby. Riku could father it. Hmmm? I wouldn't mind having kids. Not right now though.
"Maybe." I finally said. Riku snorted and said.
"How many?"
"Hmmm." I put my finger against my lips. "6 maybe. 3 boys and a 3 girls." Riku turned to look at me with a wide eyed expression. "Well you asked." I cooed. He snorted again and laid back down.
"Fine..... but not right now."
I smiled.
Ah, my angel. He'd give me the world if he could. I turned off the bedside lamp and snuggled up to him. Before I knew it I had dozed off.
To continue.
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Author's notes: Mary, the strange lady on the street was inspired by my mom. Her name is Mary too :) Still no suicide stuff. Personally I think this chapter was had enough sad stuff to fill two chapters. I had to end it. Besides, things are about to get baaaaad. The suicide stuff is just the icing on the cake. Wait till you taste the filling. What did you guys think of Cid's sad little story. It popped into my head about half way through the chapter. Cloud's BF will be in the next chapter for sure. Who do you guys think he is? LoL.
Next chapter: *sings* Let's all go the mini clinic, let's all go to the mini, let's all go to the mini clinic *sings* And get checked for STD's *ick* Riku quits his job at 7th Heaven after he finds out that Aeris knew Sora's secret the whole time. Aeris bashing ahead. Cloud introduces his new boyfriend. Riku finds a razor. Ohh, ahhh. Yeah....
Ah.. I'm so retarded.