Part 20
The drive home from SFMH was awkward for Piper, her every attempt to communicate and break down the barrier that Phoebe had up was cut of by one word answers and mumbles. Piper pulled into the drive way of the manor, and turned to Phoebe, "Phoebe look we really need to talk about this" For the first time now Phoebe actually turned from the window, and looked at he older sister, she spoke with such a build up of different emotions Piper knew she was going to creak, and it was going to be some time in the near future.
"I don't want to talk Piper, I don't want to talk about how somebody that I trusted, stabbed me, ironically with my own knife...I don't want to talk about how my oldest sister, who I used to love with all my heart has hit me...walked out on me...and practically chosen Roger over me. What is it that you guys do not understand about that? What's so hard to comprehend about NO! I can't speak, about what happened that night, about my own sister who has turned her back on me and I defiantly can't be me right now...I can not be the Phoebe that you want me to be Piper...Not right now." Phoebe was getting stressed, her eyes red with anger but also a more mundane shade of sorrow. Piper put her hand across the car to take Phoebe's but before she could Phoebe pulled it away, "I can't Piper, Please don't it's all too much" Piper just nodded, "Okay, I get it! Really I do...but Phoebe, there is one person in that house who is unable to and that is Paige, she doesn't understand why when she has been to see you at the hospital you have not spoken to her, haven't hugged her...she needs to know Phoebe, She thinks you do not love her" Phoebe looked at her now trembling hand, "Too hard Piper, way too hard. I can not take it...I love that girl more than life it's self...You know that but right now I can't show it...this Phoebe, the Phoebe that I am right now can't show that little girl love. You have to do it for me Piper, make her see I still love her, because I can't even bring myself to look at her, I failed Paige, I messed up, and I feel guilty, the same guilt I feel when I look at you...It's too much Piper... Not now...I'm sorry." Phoebe got out of the car before Piper could say anything else and she walk towards the door to the manor.
Piper took the bag with Phoebe's clothes and followed, as the youngest walked in the door to the manor the first thing that she hared was the little voice of the little girl Paige came flying towards her, Phoebe saw this and as she felt the nine year old wrap her arms around her she just kept looking straight ahead of her, unable to speak or move, this was all too much, "Phoebe, you're home!" Phoebe was close to breaking, she could feel the love from her baby sister, 'I have no right to be loved, I failed her' Phoebe's mind screamed, she just mumbled a little, "Yeah..." She managed, then Paige stepped back, Dean came up behind the little girl and put his hand on her shoulders, "Hay squirt, your sister looks tired maybe you should give her some time" Paige smile was unsure, Phoebe could tell she had yet again hurt the little girl.
Dean looked into the eyes of Phoebe, who looked into his, no words were spoken it was the first time since a string of arguments at the hospital that the two had seen each other, yesterday Phoebe really went mad at him and through a jug of water at him before overturning a small table next to the hospital be, She had hurt him, hurt his feelings really bad.
Paige nodded and walked over to Piper, the older sister wrapped her arms around her, giving her the love she needed, the reassurance, Phoebe felt so evil, never before had she felt so bad, not since the night that she stabbed her dad. Dean took a step towards her, "How do you feel?" He asked,
Phoebe still looked into his eyes and shook her head, "Not sure" She spoke, He opened his arm as if to hug her, but before he could she turned and started walking towards the stairs. Leaving Dean looking at her back as she walked from him, Piper looked at him, she saw the sorrow in his eyes, the hurt, and Phoebe had just cut him deep. He nodded his head, and lowered his hands to his side, "So Paige, I think Phoebe's a little tired so how about we leave her to have a nap, and get some food for dinner?" Piper could tell he was hurt, and he was putting up a front, Paige nodded, "Phoebe's favorite?" She asked,
"Chinese, sure" He spoke, "Go and get your coat and we'll be off." Paige skipped from where she was and out of the room.
Piper walked over to Dean, she put her hand on his shoulder, "Give her time, she'll be fine" Dean shook his head, "I love her Piper, she's killing me" Piper understood, "I know, I'll talk to her while your out, I'll fix it Dean I promise" Dean hugged Piper, "Thanks Piper, I'm sorry, you have a lot on your plate all you need is to have to sort out our problems"
"Dean you have been here for me, and Paige, I owe you one"
"I just love her and I don't want to lose what I have with her..."
"I know, she's going through a lot right now, that is what Phoebe does puts up an unbreakable barrier, I'll break it down" Piper told him, "Now take care of my little sister" Dean nodded, "Thanks" He was still hurt, but Piper knew best.
Paige came running through the door, the cap that Phoebe had brought her, the other week, when she had taken her out on the sister day, perched on top of her head, and her coat hung open. "Ready dude" Dean asked,
"Yep" She shouted, "Let's go" Dean smiled, then he turned to Piper, she still saw so much pain in his eyes but she nodded and smiled reassuringly, "She loves you dean, I know it...She loves you okay" Dean nodded, "Thanks" With this he turned and walked out of the house.
Piper made her way cautiously up the stairs to face her little sister; she had to be told the truth, no matter how harsh she had to be told. Piper was not going to let things continue like this any longer, she was the oldest now; she had to hold together what was left of the Halliwell family.
Dean made his way out to the car, he and Paige sat in the front, he backed his car out of the drive way and although he was not aware when he returned, he would understand more of what was wrong with Phoebe, he would understand and he'd hate it, things would turn, taking a drastic rout towards a pit of pain and chaos.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------
The drive home from SFMH was awkward for Piper, her every attempt to communicate and break down the barrier that Phoebe had up was cut of by one word answers and mumbles. Piper pulled into the drive way of the manor, and turned to Phoebe, "Phoebe look we really need to talk about this" For the first time now Phoebe actually turned from the window, and looked at he older sister, she spoke with such a build up of different emotions Piper knew she was going to creak, and it was going to be some time in the near future.
"I don't want to talk Piper, I don't want to talk about how somebody that I trusted, stabbed me, ironically with my own knife...I don't want to talk about how my oldest sister, who I used to love with all my heart has hit me...walked out on me...and practically chosen Roger over me. What is it that you guys do not understand about that? What's so hard to comprehend about NO! I can't speak, about what happened that night, about my own sister who has turned her back on me and I defiantly can't be me right now...I can not be the Phoebe that you want me to be Piper...Not right now." Phoebe was getting stressed, her eyes red with anger but also a more mundane shade of sorrow. Piper put her hand across the car to take Phoebe's but before she could Phoebe pulled it away, "I can't Piper, Please don't it's all too much" Piper just nodded, "Okay, I get it! Really I do...but Phoebe, there is one person in that house who is unable to and that is Paige, she doesn't understand why when she has been to see you at the hospital you have not spoken to her, haven't hugged her...she needs to know Phoebe, She thinks you do not love her" Phoebe looked at her now trembling hand, "Too hard Piper, way too hard. I can not take it...I love that girl more than life it's self...You know that but right now I can't show it...this Phoebe, the Phoebe that I am right now can't show that little girl love. You have to do it for me Piper, make her see I still love her, because I can't even bring myself to look at her, I failed Paige, I messed up, and I feel guilty, the same guilt I feel when I look at you...It's too much Piper... Not now...I'm sorry." Phoebe got out of the car before Piper could say anything else and she walk towards the door to the manor.
Piper took the bag with Phoebe's clothes and followed, as the youngest walked in the door to the manor the first thing that she hared was the little voice of the little girl Paige came flying towards her, Phoebe saw this and as she felt the nine year old wrap her arms around her she just kept looking straight ahead of her, unable to speak or move, this was all too much, "Phoebe, you're home!" Phoebe was close to breaking, she could feel the love from her baby sister, 'I have no right to be loved, I failed her' Phoebe's mind screamed, she just mumbled a little, "Yeah..." She managed, then Paige stepped back, Dean came up behind the little girl and put his hand on her shoulders, "Hay squirt, your sister looks tired maybe you should give her some time" Paige smile was unsure, Phoebe could tell she had yet again hurt the little girl.
Dean looked into the eyes of Phoebe, who looked into his, no words were spoken it was the first time since a string of arguments at the hospital that the two had seen each other, yesterday Phoebe really went mad at him and through a jug of water at him before overturning a small table next to the hospital be, She had hurt him, hurt his feelings really bad.
Paige nodded and walked over to Piper, the older sister wrapped her arms around her, giving her the love she needed, the reassurance, Phoebe felt so evil, never before had she felt so bad, not since the night that she stabbed her dad. Dean took a step towards her, "How do you feel?" He asked,
Phoebe still looked into his eyes and shook her head, "Not sure" She spoke, He opened his arm as if to hug her, but before he could she turned and started walking towards the stairs. Leaving Dean looking at her back as she walked from him, Piper looked at him, she saw the sorrow in his eyes, the hurt, and Phoebe had just cut him deep. He nodded his head, and lowered his hands to his side, "So Paige, I think Phoebe's a little tired so how about we leave her to have a nap, and get some food for dinner?" Piper could tell he was hurt, and he was putting up a front, Paige nodded, "Phoebe's favorite?" She asked,
"Chinese, sure" He spoke, "Go and get your coat and we'll be off." Paige skipped from where she was and out of the room.
Piper walked over to Dean, she put her hand on his shoulder, "Give her time, she'll be fine" Dean shook his head, "I love her Piper, she's killing me" Piper understood, "I know, I'll talk to her while your out, I'll fix it Dean I promise" Dean hugged Piper, "Thanks Piper, I'm sorry, you have a lot on your plate all you need is to have to sort out our problems"
"Dean you have been here for me, and Paige, I owe you one"
"I just love her and I don't want to lose what I have with her..."
"I know, she's going through a lot right now, that is what Phoebe does puts up an unbreakable barrier, I'll break it down" Piper told him, "Now take care of my little sister" Dean nodded, "Thanks" He was still hurt, but Piper knew best.
Paige came running through the door, the cap that Phoebe had brought her, the other week, when she had taken her out on the sister day, perched on top of her head, and her coat hung open. "Ready dude" Dean asked,
"Yep" She shouted, "Let's go" Dean smiled, then he turned to Piper, she still saw so much pain in his eyes but she nodded and smiled reassuringly, "She loves you dean, I know it...She loves you okay" Dean nodded, "Thanks" With this he turned and walked out of the house.
Piper made her way cautiously up the stairs to face her little sister; she had to be told the truth, no matter how harsh she had to be told. Piper was not going to let things continue like this any longer, she was the oldest now; she had to hold together what was left of the Halliwell family.
Dean made his way out to the car, he and Paige sat in the front, he backed his car out of the drive way and although he was not aware when he returned, he would understand more of what was wrong with Phoebe, he would understand and he'd hate it, things would turn, taking a drastic rout towards a pit of pain and chaos.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------