Part 22

Dean walked through the door to the manor, "Phoebe" He called, J walked behind him with Paige he bent down and handed her the bag with food, "Hay squirt take this into the kitchen and stay there if you see Piper tell her to come quick" Paige nodded and left, J stood up.

Piper was in the kitchen when Paige walked in with a bag, "Piper Dean and J need you" Piper looked up, "J?" she asked, "Stay here" with this she ran towards the door and out of the kitchen.

"Dean...What is it?" Piper asked, Dean swung around, "Do you know what happened? To...Phoebe, why she ended up in hospital?" Piper was worried, "She wouldn't"

"Of course she wouldn't. I spoke to Dan..."

J stood forward, "Look man just calm down"

"You don't know what I know J..."

"Then tell me..."

Dean shook his head and looked at Piper, "Where is she?" He asked,

"Room, but Dean she's in a bad way..."

Before Piper could finish dean cut her off, "Stay here...I need to talk to her." And with this he shot up the stairs.

He never even knocked on the door he just burst in, Phoebe was asleep on the bed, he walked over to her sleeping form, as he looked down he felt so much pain, he took a seat and lifted his hand up to her head moving a stray peace of hair away, "why?" He asked, Phoebe didn't stir, Dan looked at her hand that was rested on her stomach, he took it in his, "I promised I wouldn't let him hurt you, the day I kissed you I promised to look out for you, why did you walk out of here?" Dean couldn't break away from what he felt, anger, he felt Phoebe shift underneath his hand and then her hand pull away. Dean looked up at her startled eyes.

"What a guy can't hold his girlfriends hand now?" He asked,

Phoebe sat up as she did a sharp pain shot through her, she took a deep breath, "Dean, hay...sorry I.."

"You're what? A bit jumpy after Dan attacked you?" Phoebe's eye's widened, she backed away from him, "Who? What?"

"Tell me what happened Phoebe, there is no one else here but me...talk to me or I'm out that door...if you can't trust me enough to talk to me, tell me what happened than it's over I'm out of here."

Phoebe snapped, "You think it's easy for me"

"You think it's easy for me here what happened to my girlfriend from her crazed ex..." Phoebe forced herself to stand, "I was going to tell you" She spoke

"When?" Phoebe shrugged, "I don't know..."

"Well how about I tell you what I know and you fill in the spaces...Dan stops me, laughs at me, slags you off, I stick up for you, I thought I knew you but I knew nothing...You went to him for..." Dan got closer to her, she backed up and looked him directly in the face she was backed up against the wall, "If you're going to hit me just do it..."

Dan clenched his fist and stepped closer, "I'd never hit you, I told you that...just like the night I found you beat up and out your face you told me you would never use it again...you did."

"I was desperate...I just wanted it to stop" She screamed,

"Stop...shit Phoebe...you could have come to me, done anything but instead you turn to your crazed ex..."

"I never went to him...I went to Justin, I thought that I could trust Justin"

"and what you couldn't trust me?" he asked backing away,

"Oh my God do not make this into a big you and me thing." She shouted,

"I'm not it already is a big you and me issue..."

"No it isn't..." Phoebe defended,

"Yeah, that's why you have been unable to sit with me, don't like me touching you or even speaking to you without us arguing...you could have came to me."

"You want to know? You want to know everything that happened to me the night I walked out of here?"

"Yeah, why don't you tell me?"

Phoebe took a step forward "fine when I left here I went to Roger's apartment, I burst through his door, I beat him up and I beat him up bad...I held a knife, my knife to his neck, and he cried Dean, Roger cried, and I could have made him pay for what he did to me but he cried like I cried inside every time someone hit me so I walked out of there, that guy was black and blue and I was a mess, I could have killed, but I couldn't kill Roger why? because, when I was stood in front of him with him at my feet beat up I realised something. I realised that Prue loves that guy move than me, so I turned and walked out that knife in my hand, I would have no trouble in killing any other person but the person who hurt me. Logical?" Phoebe walked towards him and she looked into his eye's, "I needed something to calm me, before I did something stupid, that's all, a relax-er, I went to Justin, but Dan came, he stabbed me, and cracked my head over the table..." Phoebe looked at the floor as she remembered the incident, she walked away and lent against the wall, then she fell to her knees and closed her eyes, "You say I don't love you, but I love you more than anything because you were the last person I thought of when I came stumbling through that door, the last person that I thought of before I hit that deck and you were one of the only three people that I am alive for, standing here now!"

Dean walked over to Phoebe and knelt down, he moved his hand and forced her to look at him, "Talk to me, I want to know how you feel, I want to know why, I want to understand. But I want to hear it from you, not from you crazed ex, or from your sisters insane boyfriend...from you, because you want me to know."

"I don't know what I want...I thought I could trust Justin, it seems that everyone that I ever trusted, loved...damn it even idolised and they turn"

"Tell me why you are pushing away from me" He asked,

"because I'm scared that if I let myself love you, I'm afraid that you'll...and i..."

"That I'll hit you?" He asked,

"Yeah, and I just want you so bad but at the same time I'm scared so I push you away." Phoebe was rambling, he moved her face and lent closer, looking into her eye's he spoke, "don't push me away!" She was momentarily paralyzed by his eye's she saw the love and knew that there ways nothing to be scared of. He lent forward and he kissed her on the forehead, she closed her eyes and for the first time since waking up in the hospital se felt no fear.

When he pulled back she kept her eyes closed but she brought her hand up to his head, pulling him closer she kissed him passionately, and he kissed her back. After a few seconds she pulled back, "I'll, we need to..."

"We will? But you need to rest...you are in pain." Tears started to fall down her cheeks, he noticed this, "I'm so sorry" she spoke,

"No Phoebe, I understand you were scared, I just want you to understand that you don't have to be scared, not with me." Phoebe fell into his chest, she cried, although she felt this was a weakness she didn't think twice about breaking down in Dean's arms, he was her strength, "Phoebe, you're in a lot of pain and you need to calm down...I'll go and get you some pills and you need to sleep." Phoebe moved her hand up to his face and she looked up into his eyes. "Stay with me...please, I'm scared, and I need you" Dean kissed her again and she moved closer to him, "I am so scared Dean..." He moved hs arms wrapping them around her protectively and she lay into him. "I'm SCEARED" She whispered again. Dean watched as tears rolled down her troubled face, he wanted to make this better but he didn't know how...all he knew was that Dan and Justin were to pay.