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Next Chapter.
"Kim honey?"
Kim lifted her stear stained face and gazed at her door. She didn´t think anyone could here her softly crying.
"M-M-Mom...?" Kim asked wearliy. But her voice was so cracked and silent that she didn´t think she would hear her.
What ever the case, Mrs. Dr. P opened the door, dressed in her night gown. She quietly slipped in and silently closed the door. She did not move from her spot but gazed expectantly at her daughter, as if she were unsure of what to do.
Kim stopped crying and just gazed at her, confused, searching for answers.
Her mother walked over and sat on the bed next to her. There was a long silence.
"Tell me what happened." she said quietly. She did not demand it, but did not ask her for it.
Kim was silent too. "....He... Josh..." She trailed off. she took her gaze off and then stared at her hands.
Even though she spoke less then three words, Mrs. P understood perfectly.
"Did he say why?" She asked gently, pulling her close.
"...He said that.... he said.... "
"It´s ok Kim, it is best to talk about these things."
"He said.....hesaidthatRonandIandJOshwerenotogethermyheartIdon´tknowImsoconfused....." and on and on kim ranted sobbingly at a hundered miles per hour.
Mrs. P just nodded when appropriate but otherwise didn´t intterupt her daughters fitfull sobbing.
That lasted until she finally pieced together in her mind what her daughter was rambling about. She then litterally gasped.
"Josh said that?" She asked disbelievingly.
Kim nodded her head.
She stared wide eyed at her daughter. She did not know whether to be happy, sad, angery, or relieved. She settled on confusion.
They sat there silently.
Kim turned her gaze to her mother, as if expecting the answer to solve all her problems.
"I think Josh is right Kim..." Her Mother sighed wearily.
"What!?" obviously, this was not the answer Kim was looking for. "How can you say that!? You expect me to chose between two guys I care about more then anything else? How can I do that? How do--"
" Kim honey, I am not telling you to do anything. Nor am i asking you to. ... Kim honey, Josh is right when he said that you should love someone with all your heart. But no one can expect you to just decide. Not even with any amount of time. You just have to use your head, and use your heart."
Kim looked at her mother confused.
"Kim, you are a teenager, you are way too young and inexperienced to try to be making these desicions by yourself, let alone at all. You have your whole life ahead of you. You shouldn´t do something your not comfortable with. Especially at this point in your life. For christ´s sake you´re still a senior in highschool."
Kim was not happy with her mother´s lack of advice. But she sat in silence, still hoping that some shred of reasonable insight would be found in all this.
Kim´s mother gazed at her daughter, and read her like a book. She sighed wearily again. "Look honey.... You don´t have to decide who you want right now, maybe in a few years,you will find out that you might not want any of them. You shouldn´t rush into anything, unless you know what you want. I´m sure Josh will understand, and I know you still have not worked out your feelings for Ron, but from what I am assuming, and i have had to do alot of assuming since your not telling me what happened at the concert, I´m geussing Ron doesn´t want to get too involved either. I think he justs wants to be your friend again. Don´t lose your friendship no matter what you decide Kim. " inwardly, she thought everyone should grow up a little, but thenrealized that most adults where just as bad at relations.
Kim, still did not approve. But she nevertheless gave her mother her attention.
Silence followed. Then Her mother got up, pecked her daughter on the cheek, and quietly left the room.
And Once again Kim was left alone with her thoughts.
Kim sat their quietly, deep in thought. For a long time she debated everything. She Began to think about her mother´s advice as well.
Sunlight crept into her room, sending shards of crystalline light unto her face, being reflectd of the crystal frame, lying on it´s face.
She went to pick up the picture but then her hand stopped once again.
'You have to move on Kim....'
'You have to make up with Ron!'
'You have to forget him Kim....'
'Ron cares about you, he would never to try and hurt you like this!'
'Josh is trying to help you! He justs wants you to be happy!'
'Ron would be willing you to do anything for you!'
'Josh is waiting Kim... Don´t make him wait any longer...'
' NO! Ron loves you Kim...!'
'BOTH OF YOU! SHUT THE HELL UP RIGHT NOW!!!!'
'You know what? I think she´s snapped.'
'I have to agree with you on that one....'
'I MEAN IT!!!!--silence followed-- Both of you are right... and both of you are wrong.... They both love me.... they both care about me.... and i care about them....But I can´t forget Ron... and I can´t chose between the both.... I don´t know what to do.....' Kim gazed at the broken promise..... And thats when she remembered her orginal plan, all along...
'You have to--'
'No! That´s where you are both wrong! There is only one thing I have to do now. And that is make up with Ron. Ron has been my best friend for as long as i can remember, and it breaks my heart that he is not here. He might not love me that way, and i am not even sure if i love him that way, but do you know what? It Doesn´t Matter. Ron has always been my best friend, and i will be damned if I lose his friendship again.'
One part of her was proud, another, furious.
'But Josh is--'
'I know, Josh is waiting, right? --Inward sigh-- Josh will just have to wait. Right now, I have more important things to deal with, like Ron.'
One part of her beamed, another scowled.
'But one thing is for sure....'
'....And that would be....?'
'...I wish.... I knew.....'
Kim stared at the Dawning Sun. It never looked so beautiful before. It was if a great weight was lifted off of her. Even though she just decided to ignore the problem rather then solve it, it still felt good.
She wasted no more time. The first thing she did was go straight to her Kimmunicator.
"Wade. Wade, you there?" She pushed the on button and found a waiting screen. But then Wade´s face showed up on the screen. He looked as if he had been derived sleep.
"Wade, are you ok?" She asked worriedly.
"Oh, hey Kim." He said not taking his eyes off the screen.
"Can you do me a favor, I need to get in contact with Ron."
Wade´s eyes did not leave the screen. "Ok, in aminute. I am three kills from making next level."
"Everlot again...?" She sighed wearily.
"One...More...level..........DING!"
She mentally sighed. Patience running thin.
"Ok just got to leave my party, camp, log out, update my clan retinue requirments, Update my Character statistics on the internet, update our clan website, update our clan forums, post our clan message on the everlot hompage, Post a new stradegy to defeat the Bug bear clan cheiftan, update my character log, and post a new picture of my character with his new level req weopen he can now equip."
Kim wasn´t following anything he just said. "And how long will all that take?" she asked irritabily.
Wade sighed "You really don´t appreciate the finer things in life, do you?"
"Apprantlly not." She replied irritabily and sarcastically.
Wade sighed again and pushed a couple of buttons. a new screen with a phone appeared. It rang slightly and then up pooped Michelle.
"Ronald Stoppable Personal line, Michelle Speaking. How may I help you?" She replied monotonlously. She looked like she hadn´t slep in a year. her eyes were half open, drooping, bags under her eyes. Hair and clothing in a mess.
"Hey, Michelle. It´s Kim, I ju--"
"Kim!" MIchelle went awake instantly. She then looked dubiously at Kim. "Why are you calling Ron....?"
"I just wanted to speak to him..." She replied defensively, although she wasn´t quite sure why.
Michelle smiled knowingly. "Ron asked me to get him as soon as you called, no matter What he was doing.
Kim didn´t know what to make of that, but she didn´t have time to ponder. Michelle had already gone and grabbed Ron.
Ron looked even worse then Michelle. Everything about him spoke fatigue. He looked like he hadn´t slept in a week.
He immediatly brightened at the sight of her face when he saw her smiling.
Kim was smiling at the sight of what appeared to be her old friend sleeping in algebra so long ago.
"Hey Kim! how is everything?" He tried to say happily, but there was reasonable panic and fear in his face.
"Ron, what´s got you spooked?" She asked curiously.
Ron looked worried, unsure of how to begin. He looked really worried.
Kim guessed the problem. "Ron if this about the recent news about us I know that´s not your fault. I am sure you didn´t mean any of this to happen."
Ron looked so relived he almost fainted. "Oh thank you Kim." he replied ernastely. "This media thing has gotten way out of hand. I haven´t gotten a moment´s rest and i also heard from wade that you were pissed at me big time! I am really sorry Kim. But Don´t worry, You know how the media exagerate the truth. you know..., about us. It´s not like nay of that could possibly be true..."
Kim raised her eyebrow, still smiling.
Ron looked confused. But before he could say anything Kim bud in. sighing, no longer smiling, she spoke.
"Ron... look i know things have been.....odd.... but I hope it hasn´t damaged our friendship any. Has it?"
Ron looked even more relived if such a thing were possible. "Of course not Kim. Why should it? We´re friends Right?--pause, answered by Kim smiling, followed by a more relived Ron-- " So everything is fine... So how are things with you?"
Kim decided to leave out the news about Josh, and she did not have alot of news, other then she couldn´t leave her house, for which Ron apologized.
"So Ron... i ws thinking.... you wanna come over for christmas?"
Ron looked shocked to say the least. " are you serious?"
"Duh, Ron. This would be the second christmas you would have missed. And were friends right? It will be just like old times. Christmas just wouldn´t be the same without you."
"Well of course the christmas wouldn´t be the same without the Ron."
Kim raised her eyebrow. "The Ron?"
"Yes Kim, you heard the Ron."
"Since when did you go by the Ron?"
"Since just know when i thought it up. It is the name of the one who posses the Ron-factor. The name afficiated with all that is Ron, the being who sheds Ron-ness. It´s a name fitting for me, as it defines the glory that is me in two simple words. The Ron." He moved his arm outstretched, his in front of him at a distance in front of him as if to scoop out some marvelous structure far of.
Kim burst out laughing. Harder and louder then she had laughed in a long while. In a long, long while. She was fairly sure she would wake up the house, but she couldn´t help her self. It felt so good to laugh. So good to hear the old ron. She was pretty sure she had offended Ron, but she just couldn´t stop laughing. It felt so good, even as her ribs started aching and tears streamed down her face. She eventually ran out of breathe and had to breathe, but started laughing again. As soon as she regain herself, still chuckling, she turned to the screen and await the torment of having insulted her friend. She saw him in his old trademark grin. She laughed some more.
Once again she regained composure, chuckling louder, she turned to the screen. "Make sure to tell "The Ron" that he can only come over to christmas if he can somehow manage to fit his head inside the door."
Ron looked comically crestfallen, as if on purpose. "ok...." he sighed dissapointed, but he couldn´t help but grin a little.
"Ok Ron, I´ll see you then. I have alot of homeworkd to ctach up on. Bye Ron."
Ron looked dissapointed to hang up, but he was also really happy and releaved.
Kim sighed happily and felt and even bigger burden lifted off of her. Her mind already picturing the perfect christmas with her best friend. But something was nagging her.
Something kept troubling her perfect christmas....
But how could something go wrong with Josh comi----
Oh.... No.....
End of chapter....
Ok, So Kim is back on track. She has a goal, not a very good understanding on how to reach that goal, but a goal nonetheless.
Once again thanks for reviews. Don´t expect another chpater for awhile, as things are screwy with studying right now. But hopefully.... hopefully....
Later....