~A.N.: there is some rap in this chapter........uh.......some anyone who doesn't like it and still wants to read it can...read it anyway? Heh.....I don't care for it THAT much; it's okay it's cool I guess. But my friends listen to it A LOT so it sticks in my head what can I say? Plus I got an idea using it so later!

Lola~

Hold On

Chapter 11

Failed Attempt at Happiness

"Hey Gor-don what's kickin' my man?" said Ethan as he passed by Gordo in the hall the next weekday in school.

Gordo rolled his eyes and ignored him. Ethan made a face and put his hand to his chest., "Gor-don, I'm hurt"

Gordo continued to ignore him and went to his locker, "This is not the time Ethan"

Ethan pondered, "Hum...hey wait Gor-don look up at me. Yeah, come on let me see that face"

Gordo did as he said and looked at Ethan annoyed

"Yes, yes just what I suspected. It's Lizzie isn't it. A little argument huh?"

"Ethan, please"

"No, no, no," he walked over next to Gordo and put his arm around him, "you're my pal and I need to cheer you up" he went down the hall and called for Miranda. He turned back to Gordo smiling. "man you're gonna like this. Remember how you where singing for us all at Parker's lil' get together?"

Gordo blushed and turned around back to his locker

Miranda appeared next to Ethan, "Hey honey you called?"

"My woman!" he smiled at her and kissed her cheek, "Gor-don is here and is a bit blue so will you help me..." He whispered in her ear and she grinned

Gordo turned back to face them, "What are you two going to do?" he groaned

Ethan grinned and began singing, "TO THE WINDOW......"

Miranda finished with him, "TO THE WALL!"

Gordo hit himself in the head and then turned back to his locker burring his head. "Where is their shame?" he asked himself

Ethan and Miranda however kept continued rapping, "to the sweat drop down my balls ALL the females crawl"

Gordo looked at the two hurt in his eyes, "It's not funny guys"

"It's not working sweetie" Miranda whispered to Ethan

"Okay then uh....a duet! Miranda!" he whispered in her ear again

She laughed but sang anyway, "What you doin' ?"

Ethan replied, "Nothing I'm chilling at the holiday Innnnnnnnnnnnn"

"Well, who you with?"

"Me my people, but you can phone up your frieeeeeeeeeends"

"What we gonna do?"

Ethan looked at Gordo and stopped Miranda, "Uh Miranda it's not working"

Finally Gordo spoke up, "Stop guys please, I'm not in the mood for rap"

"Well you where at-" Miranda cut Ethan off but he continued talking, "not in the mood for rap then how bout some rock?"

"Ethan stop I think Gordo's had enough" said Miranda

"Good Charlotte for my good man, Miranda you don't have to sing along this is my solo" he stroked his chin and cleared his throat

"Ethan please don't" Gordo plead him

Ethan began singing though ignoring the snickering voicing in the hallway, "This world, this world is cold, but you don't you don't have to go, your feeling sad you feeling lonely and no one seems to care"

Gordo faced him anger know in his eyes, "Stop right know shut up"

But Ethan continued, all the awhile Gordo's anger rising, "you're mother's gone and you're father hits you this pain you can not bare but we all bleed the same way as you do and we all have the same things to go through"

"Stop!" Gordo yelled, "shut up!"

"Hold on if you feel like letting go, hold on, it gets better than you know, don't stop looking you're one step closer don't stop searching it's not over"

"I said Shut up!" Gordo pressed Ethan up against the locker about to blow up any second, but something stopped him.

"Gordo?" she said with fear in her voice, "Gordo, what? What are you doing?"

He let go of Ethan and looked to the ground, "I'm sorry Ethan" he muttered, "I'm sorry Lizzie" and knelt down on the ground and started to cry

Lizzie ran to his side, "Gordo, Gordo" she nudged him but he brushed her away, "look at me!" Ethan looked at her true sorrow in his eyes and she mouthed him to go away.

Gordo sighed and looked up at Lizzie his tears staining his cheeks, "You didn't go away huh?"

Lizzie forced a smile, "No, I'm not leaving you" she kissed his cheek and wrapped her arms around him

"Stay with me Lizzie, please? At least for now"

""I'll stay with you forever, just promise me you'll hold on"

"I-I can't"

Lizzie ignored his answer and just held him holding back her tears.