Title: So Close Yet So Distant
Written by: Yueh Miko
Summary: Michiru finds out that she is pregnant but she doesn't know how. Haruka doesn't believe her and Michiru fears she will lose her. How did Michiru get pregnant and will Haruka leave her?
A/N: This story has been in my mind for a while and now that I am concluding "To Love Is To Live" I thought I might start this one. Please tell me what you think so far. ~_^
NOTE: Any characters that are not from from Sailor Moon solely belong to me.
Dedication: For Kira, Nik, Camellia, Kei, Sabira, Kanukle, Kime and Yuy, the friends that I miss so much and for Zero who is always so close to me but yet so distant that I can't bring him back.
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I took a deep breath and held it in.
"Michi..." I felt Haruka's hand slide onto my back, "Relax! It's just a dumb test."
"But what if it's..." I asked trembling. Why was I scared? I mean I had nothing to worry about except the fact that I didn't have had my period for two months and that I was facing nausea in the morning. I had nothing to worry about. They were only pregnancy signs. I couldn't be pregnant.
"You know it's not going to be positive." She replied soothingly, "I can't get you pregnant and you know it."
"Still..." I breathed out slowly, finally, "It seems like..."
"Michi?" she pulled me in an embrace, "You sure you want to go alone? I really don't mind coming with you. Honestly."
"No," I whispered, "Like you said. It's a dumb test. I can take it."
"Hmmm." She whispered kissing my ear and then my neck, "That's my girl." I reached back and tangled my fingers in her soft hair, urging her on to touch me more. But I couldn't help but feel guilty. I didn't want her to come because I was scared the test was going to come out positive. I had never slept with a man in my life but it was scaring me for some reason. A gut feeling, and as much as I hated to say it, I trusted my feelings a lot. If it was going to be positive, first I would have to calm myself down. Next I would have to do the hard thing. Tell Haruka. She moved my head toward hers and claimed my lips. There was no reason the test will come out positive. But if it was going to, I was scared that I was going to lose someone very special.
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I hated the way hospital smells. I just hate it still. It just makes me feel sick even if I am not. So I did not go in right away. Instead I took out my phone and called Haruka.
"Hi sweetheart," came her deep voice. Some times I hated caller ID's.
"You busy?"
"No." she replied. I could hear the grin in her voice, "Never when you call."
"Look if you are busy..."
"No I am honestly not." She said, "Now what's wrong?"
"I don't know." I sighed. There was a pause.
"I can still come." She supplied.
"I am so sorry." I said softly, "It's just this is annoying me so much." There was a pause again.
"I am coming." She said.
"No." I knew she had heard the tears as well as I heard her grin.
"I can't take it." She replied, "I have to..."
"Haruka I am ok," I insisted, "I am being stupid."
"No you are not."
"Yes I am," I replied, "I will be fine. I promise. I will call you after the test."
"Ok," she sighed, "I love you."
"I love you too."
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There were five other people in the waiting room beside me. One was a woman with a child. Another was an obvious pregnant girl with her husband. And the last was an old man. I picked up an old magazine and started to skim through it. I kept thinking about the test. After a while the old man was called in. The child was walking around. When he passed by me, he gave me a shy smile. He was utterly adorable. Then it was finally my turn. First they made me do one of those pregnancy tests. Then I was sent to a nurse to give me back the reports. She was a grim looking gray haired lady with her lips pressed together so tight that you could barely see them.
"Now...Kaiou Michiru...no spouse?" she asked. I shook my head no.
"Ok then lets see...when was the last time you had you period?"
"Two months ago."
"And you did say you have been facing nausea in the morning?"
"Yes."
"What birth control do you use?" she asked narrowing her eyes.
"I am homosexual." I stated. Her lips pressed together even tighter. She looked down at the report then up at me again.
"Let me ask this in another way...How long have you been bisexual?"
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I twisted my hands together. I should have called Haruka but I knew I would have broken down on the phone. Sitting in a park I looked at the happy people around me. I felt out of place, lost. How could I be pregnant? How? I tried to remember back to the time when I had my last period. Between that time and now I how could I have gotten pregnant? It was impossible.
Someone said hi to me. I didn't respond.
"Michiru?" It was Makoto.
"Oh hi Makoto."
"You okay?" she sat down, "You look sorta tired."
"Yeah, just tired," I replied worrying. How could I have gotten pregnant?
"Where's Haruka?" she asked.
"At work."
"Oh okay," Makoto sort of looked away and saw Minako waving her over.
"I gotta go, now take care of yourself!" Makoto said and ran off. I watched them walk away hand in hand. How easy their life seemed. They didn't have to worry about how they could have gotten pregnant. Either they'd know or either they wouldn't be pregnant.
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"Michi?" I curled into a ball at the familiar voice.
"Are you home?" keys rattled. Bedroom door opened and then footsteps echoed.
"Michi are you okay?" I felt a hand on my arm.
"Yeah," I lied.
"Why are you all curled up?"
"No reason." I replied biting my lip.
"How was the test?"
"It was okay."
"Okay?" Haruka came on the other side and looked me in the eye, "Okay meaning negative, right?" She was worried for me, so worried. I wanted to cry. Should I lie? I wondered if I lied how I would explain a swollen stomach in a couple of months. Maybe I could get an abortion. Maybe I could lie and then tomorrow get an abortion. Her hand slipped off me. Her eyes were wide, in horror and disgust.
"Oh my god..." she whispered getting up. I knew she knew. And she knew that I knew she knew. I felt a sob escape my throat. She didn't come to comfort me. She just left the room. Left me there to cry to sleep.
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A/N: Only one request. R/R plz! ^_^
Written by: Yueh Miko
Summary: Michiru finds out that she is pregnant but she doesn't know how. Haruka doesn't believe her and Michiru fears she will lose her. How did Michiru get pregnant and will Haruka leave her?
A/N: This story has been in my mind for a while and now that I am concluding "To Love Is To Live" I thought I might start this one. Please tell me what you think so far. ~_^
NOTE: Any characters that are not from from Sailor Moon solely belong to me.
Dedication: For Kira, Nik, Camellia, Kei, Sabira, Kanukle, Kime and Yuy, the friends that I miss so much and for Zero who is always so close to me but yet so distant that I can't bring him back.
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I took a deep breath and held it in.
"Michi..." I felt Haruka's hand slide onto my back, "Relax! It's just a dumb test."
"But what if it's..." I asked trembling. Why was I scared? I mean I had nothing to worry about except the fact that I didn't have had my period for two months and that I was facing nausea in the morning. I had nothing to worry about. They were only pregnancy signs. I couldn't be pregnant.
"You know it's not going to be positive." She replied soothingly, "I can't get you pregnant and you know it."
"Still..." I breathed out slowly, finally, "It seems like..."
"Michi?" she pulled me in an embrace, "You sure you want to go alone? I really don't mind coming with you. Honestly."
"No," I whispered, "Like you said. It's a dumb test. I can take it."
"Hmmm." She whispered kissing my ear and then my neck, "That's my girl." I reached back and tangled my fingers in her soft hair, urging her on to touch me more. But I couldn't help but feel guilty. I didn't want her to come because I was scared the test was going to come out positive. I had never slept with a man in my life but it was scaring me for some reason. A gut feeling, and as much as I hated to say it, I trusted my feelings a lot. If it was going to be positive, first I would have to calm myself down. Next I would have to do the hard thing. Tell Haruka. She moved my head toward hers and claimed my lips. There was no reason the test will come out positive. But if it was going to, I was scared that I was going to lose someone very special.
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I hated the way hospital smells. I just hate it still. It just makes me feel sick even if I am not. So I did not go in right away. Instead I took out my phone and called Haruka.
"Hi sweetheart," came her deep voice. Some times I hated caller ID's.
"You busy?"
"No." she replied. I could hear the grin in her voice, "Never when you call."
"Look if you are busy..."
"No I am honestly not." She said, "Now what's wrong?"
"I don't know." I sighed. There was a pause.
"I can still come." She supplied.
"I am so sorry." I said softly, "It's just this is annoying me so much." There was a pause again.
"I am coming." She said.
"No." I knew she had heard the tears as well as I heard her grin.
"I can't take it." She replied, "I have to..."
"Haruka I am ok," I insisted, "I am being stupid."
"No you are not."
"Yes I am," I replied, "I will be fine. I promise. I will call you after the test."
"Ok," she sighed, "I love you."
"I love you too."
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There were five other people in the waiting room beside me. One was a woman with a child. Another was an obvious pregnant girl with her husband. And the last was an old man. I picked up an old magazine and started to skim through it. I kept thinking about the test. After a while the old man was called in. The child was walking around. When he passed by me, he gave me a shy smile. He was utterly adorable. Then it was finally my turn. First they made me do one of those pregnancy tests. Then I was sent to a nurse to give me back the reports. She was a grim looking gray haired lady with her lips pressed together so tight that you could barely see them.
"Now...Kaiou Michiru...no spouse?" she asked. I shook my head no.
"Ok then lets see...when was the last time you had you period?"
"Two months ago."
"And you did say you have been facing nausea in the morning?"
"Yes."
"What birth control do you use?" she asked narrowing her eyes.
"I am homosexual." I stated. Her lips pressed together even tighter. She looked down at the report then up at me again.
"Let me ask this in another way...How long have you been bisexual?"
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I twisted my hands together. I should have called Haruka but I knew I would have broken down on the phone. Sitting in a park I looked at the happy people around me. I felt out of place, lost. How could I be pregnant? How? I tried to remember back to the time when I had my last period. Between that time and now I how could I have gotten pregnant? It was impossible.
Someone said hi to me. I didn't respond.
"Michiru?" It was Makoto.
"Oh hi Makoto."
"You okay?" she sat down, "You look sorta tired."
"Yeah, just tired," I replied worrying. How could I have gotten pregnant?
"Where's Haruka?" she asked.
"At work."
"Oh okay," Makoto sort of looked away and saw Minako waving her over.
"I gotta go, now take care of yourself!" Makoto said and ran off. I watched them walk away hand in hand. How easy their life seemed. They didn't have to worry about how they could have gotten pregnant. Either they'd know or either they wouldn't be pregnant.
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"Michi?" I curled into a ball at the familiar voice.
"Are you home?" keys rattled. Bedroom door opened and then footsteps echoed.
"Michi are you okay?" I felt a hand on my arm.
"Yeah," I lied.
"Why are you all curled up?"
"No reason." I replied biting my lip.
"How was the test?"
"It was okay."
"Okay?" Haruka came on the other side and looked me in the eye, "Okay meaning negative, right?" She was worried for me, so worried. I wanted to cry. Should I lie? I wondered if I lied how I would explain a swollen stomach in a couple of months. Maybe I could get an abortion. Maybe I could lie and then tomorrow get an abortion. Her hand slipped off me. Her eyes were wide, in horror and disgust.
"Oh my god..." she whispered getting up. I knew she knew. And she knew that I knew she knew. I felt a sob escape my throat. She didn't come to comfort me. She just left the room. Left me there to cry to sleep.
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A/N: Only one request. R/R plz! ^_^