So Close Yet So Distant

By: Yueh Miko

Summary: Michiru finds out that she is pregnant but she doesn't know how. Haruka doesn't believe her and Michiru fears she will lose her. How did Michiru get pregnant and will Haruka leave her?

NOTE: Any characters that are not from Sailor Moon solely belong to me.

Dedication: For Kira, Nik, Camellia, Kei, Sabira, Kanukle, Kime and Yuy, the friends that I miss so much and for Zero who is always so close to me but yet so distant that I can't bring him back.

A/N: Thank you everyone and anyone who is reading and is patiently waiting. I finally got some time off from the "Homework Devil" so here is chap 8. Enjoy! And plz R/R!

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I sat in front of Hino Tima, Hino Rei's cousin who was an excellent lawyer.

"Michiru…" she started helplessly, "I don't understand why you can't just abort it or give it up. It's not like you conceived this child happily."

"I am not here to get advice, I just need a lawyer!" I snapped at her. Despite being a lawyer she was also my high school friend and she was extremely nosy.

"All right!" she said, "But what are you going to say in defense? Can you support this child? Can you give it time of your day? Can you raise it properly? Can you provide it everything that man can?"

"Yes," I told her stubbornly, "And I can provide what he can't. Two parents."

"Two parents?"

"Haruka."

"You said Haruka walked out."

"Only for a while," I told her hoping my voice sounded firm, "I know she will be back." At least I hope so, I thought inwardly.

"And what will you say if the judge asks why Haruka is not there?"

"Business trip." I said firmly. I had thought this out very well.

"Fine I will do it, but only because you are my friend. If it was some other person I would have said no, and you know it." She said crossly.

"Thanks Tima." I smiled, "I knew you'd come through for me."

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Before I knew it the trial day had arrived and I was feeling very nervous.

"How should I dress?" I asked Rei who was there for moral support.

"Casually yet formally. Don't look too sluttish, that is unfit for a mother. But don't get too formal cause that is too cold for a mother. Wear this!" she handed me a nice long cotton skirt that was up to my knees.

"And here." She handed me a blue full-sleeved turtleneck.

"This?"

"Yes this!" she said looking me up and down, "brush your hair nicely and tie it up. You look motherly when you do that. And don't put much jewelry but at least put on a silver chain just for sophistication." And then she went out to wait in the living room.

Sighing I showered and changed. While I was brushing my hair I looked at Haruka's cologne. I picked it up and opened it. It smelled like her, like all her clothes. I placed it back. Ever since she had left one of her T-shirts had been lying on a chair. Picking it up I hugged it, absorbing any comfort I could find in it.

Tears threatened to fall but I stopped them. If she wasn't going to be back then I needed to get used to life like this. But right now I had a trial to worry about. I got ready fast then and Rei drove me to the courtroom.

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I walked in and sat with Tima. She looked at me and I knew she saw that I was nervous.

"Michiru listen to me. Stay firm and calm. And any thing that happens, good or bad, don't let it get to you. You need a calm mind to think of good defenses, okay?"

"Mhmm..." I nodded and looked over to the offensive side. There sat Timachi-san and Shikou. I tried not to clench my jaw and glare at him. Looking straight we waited till the judge came. She was a firm looking woman in her 50s. When the judge sat down, we did too and waited for Timachi to start.

"Begin," the judge stated, nodding at Timachi. He started the offense, saying that Shikou and me had a baby out of wedlock and now Shikou wanted the custody for it because he believed that me, a lesbian, wouldn't be the right mother for it. I tried to stay calm. Think about something else...no mater I couldn't stop thinking about that evil man. The judge was watching Timachi and occasionally nodding. While I was turning into an icicle. My hands were cold beyond belief and my jaw was slightly shaking.

"I object your honor!" Tima stood up and I could see that she was angry. What had I missed? I looked sideways at Rei with a questioning glance. She wrote something down fast and passed it to me.

He said you and Haruka would force the child to be homosexual as well. That got me mad too but I kept quiet.

"...As a mother Michiru will never force the child into anything whatsoever. The child will have absolute free will. A mother cannot force her own child into such things. Timachi-san is going beyond his limits, because now he is plain insulting my client." The judge nodded at Tima and then turned back to Timachi.

"As you can see your honor Shikou-san can provide the child the best of the best. He is also thinking about getting married soon so he will be able to provide two parents for the child. Also he is a successful businessman which makes him fit for a father. While Michiru dos not have job and she will have a hard time being a single mother."

"Hino-san? What do you have to say in defense?"

"Haruka, Michiru's partner, is currently holding down a good job and she is willing to provide for the child." Tima said slowly.

"Well then, Michiru-san, where exactly is your partner?" the judge was looking right at me.

"She is on a business trip for a few days," I replied slowly.

"And is she truly willing to support this child?" Her eye brow as raised. That doesn't mean anything, I told myself and then continued.

"Of course your honor," I replied, my voice confident. I did not know how I was able to sound so calm when I was like jelly inside.

"Why exactly do you want to keep this child?" she asked and I knew this was it. I had to come up with the right answer.

"Because for the past four months I have been carrying it. Shikou-san did not even think to contact me about the child until a couple of days ago, ma'am. If he cared so much, why did he not show up earlier. Haruka and I, we have been going to the doctor, regulating my diet, and such for the baby. This man has done no such thing. If he wants the baby, maybe he should go get pregnant himself. Because he doesn't deserve this one at all." I ended blazing and realized that Rei was smiling. The judge sighed and looked down at her file.

"I will announce my decision now," she said as she wrote something.

"But judge you did not let..." Timachi began but she quieted him down with a look.

"According to the law mothers have more rights over a child then fathers. Also this is taking place after four months of Michiru-san being pregnant. If Shikou-san wanted the custody, he should have applied for it long before. It only goes to show that he does not care as much as Michiru-san. Thus this baby will stay with the mother." I felt like crying. Tima hugged me and so did Rei.

"This isn't right! You are a woman! A woman! Get a man in here!!" Shikou was yelling at the judge.

"Shikou-san are you questioning my authority?" she asked glaring at him. Timachi pulled him back and whispered something to him, which shut him up. As I was exiting the courtroom with Tima and Rei, I saw him give me a venomous look. It sent shivers down my spine and I longed for Haruka once again.

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It had been a week after the case. I woke up in the morning and out of habit reached across the bed to Haruka. Empty. I clenched my fists and cried into the pillow softly. I missed her so much. And she had taken her cell phone but I didn't have the courage to call her. Where are you? My heart called but no answer came.

Getting up I went to the kitchen. The TV was open in the living room. Had I left it open? Puzzled I walked in there to find Haruka on the couch, watching a mute TV.

"Haruka..." I whispered.

"I came last night, but you were already asleep. I didn't want to wake you," she replied without turning around. I had missed her voice and it felt so good to hear anything but silence in the house.

"Why didn't you come..." I asked but stopped.

"Come where?" she turned to look at me. Her eyes were blood shot.

"Come to bed...last night...when you came..." I finished hesitating.

"I didn't know whether you'd want me to. After all I have been such a self fish jerk," she said softly.

"I have wanted nothing all these days but for you to come back," I told her walking toward her. She watched as I came closer then she got up and enveloped me in a hug.

"I am so sorry," she whispered into my hair.

"It's not your fault," I told her, my voice muffled.

"Yes it is. Rei told me what happened. You needed me and I was not here...I feel..." her voice was breaking and so was my heart.

"It doesn't matter!" I said looking up at her, "You are okay and you are here...with me...that's all that I care about." Reaching down she pulled me up and kissed me softly. I leaned into her. I had missed everything about her. She deepened the kiss and it seemed like an eternity before she pulled away, sighing.

"I've missed you so much," she said, her fingers running down my cheek.

"What do you say we make up for lost time?" I grinned and she returned my grin.

"Yes, let's," Taking both my hands she walked me to our bedroom and closed the door behind her.

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Couple of weeks later Rei invited Haruka and me to a party. That night when we got back the phone was ringing.

"Hello?" Haruka said picking it up. For some minutes her eyes widened and then she slammed the phone down.

"Who was it?" I asked puzzled at her reaction.

"Oh, just some weirdo. Wrong number I guess," she replied leaning down and kissing my temple then she walked into the bedroom. I followed her and saw that her hand was slightly shaking.

"Something wrong?"

"No, nothing," she said averting her eyes and walking into the bathroom. I knew she was lying but I didn't probe. She would tell me when she wanted to. There had been enough fights between us and I didn't want to start another. I just hoped it wasn't something terrible.

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A/N Sorry this took so long to get out. But I'll update just in case people are still reading. R/R please and thanks.