Hey! What's up guys? Well anyway on w/ the show!
Buffy woke up and vaguely remembered last nights events. Her and William uh Spike kissed and had unbelievable sex she has ever had. She turned around to find Spike sleeping. OMG! She got out of bed quietly so Spike wouldn't wake up and hopped in the shower. When she came out Spike was still sleeping and went downstairs and got herself some breakfast.
She flipped the last pancake and sat down on one of the stools. How could I let myself do this? She just kept eating her pancakes when she herd a stir upstairs. Oh god he's up. She rushed her plate in the sink and ran out the door into her car and drove off to her photo shoot.
Spike slowly got up and remembered last night and smiled to himself. He turned around to find no Buffy and a hot steamy bathroom. She must have taken a shower he thought. He began to go downstairs when he herd a car start. Out the window was a running Buffy with her car started and came out with some papers. God you nit she really doesn't like you. Spike decided to go to his place and got dressed.
Buffy waited for the photographer to load up his camera and was ready to shoot photos for Maybelline's new product metallic lipsticks. She was in a futuristic dress with a silver lighting background and there pink metallic lipstick on. She did some poses and took a quick break.
"Buffy u feeling ok?" Her manager asked.
"I'm just a little tired, didn't get much sleep last night with the party and all," She mumbled.
"Ok but where on in 5," He whispered.
Buffy took a long gulp of water and headed back into the shoot.
Spike opened to condo to see Michaella making French toast.
"Hey! Where were you last night? I was worried about you!" Michaella said handing him some breakfast.
"Yes I was, I don't want to talk bout it," Spike shrugged and set his plate down and he went into the shower.
Michaella walked over to the bathroom and yelled threw the door.
"Fine. But Spike you have to talk about it sometime. I'll be getting some food to stock up, so call me on me cell if you need to talk," Michaella then grabbed her purse and went shopping.
Buffy finished her shoot and went home hoping not to find Spike there. With luck he was gone and she started to make the bed. She then found his leather jacket and picked it up and set beside the chair. She continued to make the bed when memories of last night hit her brain. She fell to the ground and cried.
"Why? Spike and me where best of friends and I had to ruin it by..by...," she continued to sob and was so confuses by last nights events. Where did Spike stand now? As a friend? Or as something else? She didn't know she just wanted to sleep. So she took off her shoes and jacket and climbed into bed and started to sleep.
Spike was out of the shower dressed and refreshed from last nights events. He tried to watch the t.v. , But his mind was still on Buffy. He got off the couch and decided to see her, he had to see her.
Spike arrived at her house and went inside with the key he found under the plant by the door. Just like when she had her old house, Spike thought. He stepped inside to a quiet house. He slowly went upstairs to find Buffy sound asleep. He just stood in the doorway and watched her sleep.
Buffy felt someone close and turned around and was a little scared.
"God Spike you scared me," Buffy whispered.
"Sorry luv, just that I wanted to see you," Spike replied.
"Why?" Buffy asked a little confused.
"Why? Because you're all I think about. You're in my gut in my heart and the only thing that makes me feel alive. Buffy, luv, I love u so much and last night I gave my heart to you and well you took off and I thought that well...you didn't feel the same way," Spike confessed.
"Spike I care for you a lot. I do, but I just I just cant love you last night was wonderful, but I just don't think we could do this," Buffy cried. It wasn't true; she did love him more than he new. She just couldn't get hurt again and didn't want to lose Spike they way she lost Angel and the other guys.
"I understand," Spike shattered. He walked out of the door sobbing and went to his car and drove back to his condo to drink the night away.
"Oh god I hurt him," Buffy began to cry.
"Why is love so painful? Why can't I tell him without having him hurt? I can't lose him but I want him so much it's to hard with my parents and all the guys who just leave and hurt me. I can't I just can't," With that she cried the night away...
Sorry it was so short its just that this is one of the harder chapters I've done because of the emotion. So the next chapter may even take longer because I have to decide if Buffy will tell Spike and how there gonna fall. But anyway thanks for reviewing and some more is always welcome! lisssa