Authoress' Note- Yeah well I just so everyone knows I do not won YYH or any of the characters cough yet an but I DO own Ross  and my other OCC's so enjoy the fic and please review!

Chapter 12-

 The clatter of ice hitting glass pierced through the room as Ross slammed her drink on the counter motioning the bartender to fill it up.

"I don't know man you've had an awful lot" said the overly brawny man behind the counter.

"I'm alright, hit me" said Ross as the brute shrugged and took her glass behind the counter once more.

 Ross looked tiredly at the clock behind the counter. 'It's already midnight… I've been out for almost 4 hours… they'll probably looking for me… just to yell I'm sure though I deserve it,'  Ross thought as another glass full of the booze was laid before her. She took it and sipped the concoction slowly feeling the burning sensation comfort her wounds.

'Once I go back…I know I have to tell them the truth… damnit why does it hurt so much' she thought as she brought her comforting friend to her lips. The bar door opened with a creek and clattered behind the new intruder.

A heavy sigh protruded from their lips as they took the vacant seat beside her, Ross sighed inwardly and fingered at her drink, balancing the glass on one side as she watched the amber liquid shift in beauty.

Hiei looked over at the dazed female beside him, it had taken him two hours to find the right bar.

-Earlier-

Hiei's POV-

'Damnit where is she! I can't sense her anywhere' I thought as I jumped to another branch in this shallow forest, I had been looking for her at every possible human bar I could think of, but it was no use.

'Why can't I just find the onna and get this over with?'  I thought once more as I lost my grip on the branch below my feet making me tumble into the ground. I opened my eyes slowly as I grumbled and glared at the culprit which had lead to my setback, my eyes widened in realization.

-Flashback-

Rosa flitted from tree to tree as she looked behind her, smelling the fire demon close, she swore she could feel his shallow breath on her neck as she ran from branch to branch when suddenly she felt herself slipping from the worn wood beneath her feet. She lost her balance and was already fretful with the impact to come, but realized a warm grip had kept her from the damaging plunge.

Rosa slowly opened one of her lilac laced eyes to see her rescuer staring back at her, burning the lasting image of his crimson gaze at in her mind. Hiei pulled the dazed fox back to him and then leapt to the ground still cradling the vixen in his possession. He returned his gaze back upon her as he watched her ear twitch and a blush polish her features.

"Watch your step" he said as she chuckled at his antiques.

"Yeah… I'll be sure to" she said as Hiei grinned, making Rosa raise a brow.

"What, the all mighty Hiei Jaganshi is smiling, what do I owe this miracle?" asked Rosa as Hiei just chuckled.

"You still surprise me fox, I didn't know blushing was a possible reaction from the cold hearted bandit Rosa" he said as Rosa sighed realizing what he was getting at.

"I won" said Hiei plainly, Rosa was going to protest but was bestowed by soft lips upon hers, her mind fought to stay dominant as the world liquefied around her in an array of colors. Hiei released the vixen from his lips letting her open her eyes in question, which suddenly replaced with a smile creeping across her features.

"Who knew you'd be my first kiss" she said as her form disappeared from Hiei's arms leaving him to only stare in shock at where she once stood.

-End of Flashback-

 I shook my head from the thoughts and stood up, but realized my feet weren't functioning.

'Damnit I need to find her and get this over with, I cannot be having these memories! I swore those damn feelings years ago.'  I thought as I forced my feet to move from the spot.

'Well what about Ross' my conscience echoed through my prior thoughts.

'Damnit Rosa IS Ross' I thought as I growled to the night air.

'That doesn't change anything, Ross is still Ross… just she was Rosa in the past doesn't it all make sense now, why you fell for her just like you did Rosa, why you can't get her off your mind'  That voice was really starting to get on my last nerve, I hate it when  I know I'm wrong.

'But still she lied to me' I thought as I turned to the direction of Makai.

'Yes but she must have a good reason… what about what happened with-'

'SHUT UP! Now you sound like that damn fox!  Aren't you supposed to be helping me!! Why don't you just keep your mouth shut and let me figure this out myself!'  I yelled at myself, finally hearing the following silence I desired at the moment as I sighed staring at the portal in front of me.

"Makai it is" I thought out loud as I entered the swirling threshold.

-Back to present time-

Ross fingered the carved initials in the stained and tarnished wood her drink was placed upon.

"Ross…" Hiei said slowly, but realized after a moments time he had gotten no response.

"Ross!" he said more sharply on to watch the blonde teen beside him take another swig of her drink, Hiei grumbled after realizing she was wasted and took the drink from her hand.

"HEY give me that back you ninny!" she yelled as Hiei moved the drink from her grasp.

"I don't think so" he said as she growled and took a blade from her belt.

"I might not have killed your sister, but I have no problem killing you because I know once you drag me out of this bar you're going to take me back and then use me as your katana target practice…. Can't you just leave me the fuck alone, let me get wasted, and drain this pain? I was wrong ok… I know you don't understand why I did what I did, but I don't need physical pain to bring back the memories of what's happened, and to punish me for how stupid I am. This emotional shit is quite enough to kill me." Ross dropped the blade to the ground and once again sat forward in her seat, suddenly kicking the bar's hollow base.

"DAMNIT! Why can't I just lose all these emotions again and turn back into the cold hearted bitch I was… why can't I just face my problems…" Ross felt hot tears threaten to fall as she glared at the table once more.

Hiei stared with a dazed expression… 'I… I' Hiei suddenly lifted the smashed teen over his shoulder and kicked the front door open walking into the frozen night.

"Let go of me" said Ross as she punched Hiei's back in protest.

"I said I would bring you back" he said harshly as he tightened his grip around her knees.

"I said let me... let me go!" she yelled as she started to lose her consciousness while the drinks started to take their full effect.

"Just shut up" he said but she didn't answer.

"Ross…" but he was only answered by the pounding of the wind, Hiei stopped and lifted her from his shoulder only to see Ross open her eyes tiredly and then close them again.

'Ow… my heart… why is this pendant burning me? What have I done this time?'  Ross thought as she felt herself being lifted once again.

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"What the Hell?" screamed Kurama as Hiei closed the door behind him, and laid unconscious teen on the couch.

"What happened?" asked Koenma as Hiei growled and went to the kitchen coming back with a wet washcloth as he sat down beside her, placing the compress on her forehead, much to everyone's shock.

"I found her at a Makai bar… God only knows what she's been drinking, she was talking nonsense and then went out cold" said Hiei as Kurama sighed.

"What kind of nonsense" he said as Hiei growled.

"Just nonsense, I don't know fox" he said as Kurama nodded tiredly and took over, Hiei turned to stare at the toddler.

"Not all those things that happened are her fault… I'm going back to Mukuro… DON'T tell her I told you that" but before Koenma could even blink the fire demon was gone, only leaving his once beloved in their possession.

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"Oooo my head" moaned Ross as she went to grasp her forehead, but was stopped by the rough clearing of someone's throat.

Ross opened her sapphire eyes slowly to see the team and Koenma scattered across the room.

"Oh lord" she said as Koenma stood up from his spot.

"Glad to se you lived your binge drinking" He said as she growled and glared at him as she stood up.

"That would be none of your business" she said as Koenma crossed his arms.

"I don't know about that, running from the police is quite a crime, not to mention taking hold of a human body, along with your recent theft and…"

"Ok baby Buddah what the hell do you want? You want me to go into custody fine I don't care ok… just leave me the fuck alone right now..." she said as she flopped back on the couch and curled up into its warmth.

'Wait… my pendant… it was burning last night why is that?' she thought as she grabbed hold of her necklaces.

'What the' Ross pulled out a small envelope from the inside of her coat; she sat up slowly and looked at the small note cluctched in her grip.

"Where's Hiei?" she asked as Kurama raised a brow.

"He left why?" said Kurama as he watched his sister sigh exhaustedly.

Ross took her nail and slowly slide it across the back of, flipping it open she pulled it out slowly only to smell the oh-so-familiar scent of the fire kroomie and read the words in her mind.

' Onna,

You're wrong about me wanting to use you for katana target practice…  I just want to understand why you couldn't have told me sooner… but then again I would have done the same now that I think about i. I don't want what happened before to happen again in this lifetime… that's why I've left for Muroku and I don't plan on coming back this time. Emotional or Physical hurting you will bring no pleasure to me… so have a nice life.

P.s  I didn't mean for what happened that day to ever happen to you or me… it was my fault, I don't blame you for hating me.

Yours truly,

He

Ross could feel her fingers shaking, "I'm such a fool, I can't do anything right" she thought out loud as the others looked at her in surprise.

"Look I need to take you into custody now, my dad's been waiting to discuss your punishment since last night" said Koenma interrupting Ross' train of thought.

"Yeah… alright fine" she said with a exhausted look on her face as she stood and faced the portal but then turned slightly to stare at her brother.

"I'm sorry Youki… if Hiei ever comes back… tell him I'm sorry" she said her eyes weighed down by confusion and fatigue, she turned once more only to disappear into the portal once more.

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