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Chapter 15-

Ross sighed loudly as the song ended; she took off her headphones and put them aside as she reached for her pencil, only to hear her name spoken behind her.

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'What the-' Ross thought as she turned around slowly only to hear herself let out an exasperated sigh as she caught hold of who was calling to her.

"Great…" she thought out loud as the boys made their way… well really stumbling over quite a few things to get to the demi-saiyan.

"Ross... is that you?" asked the oversized carrot top known as Kuwabara.

"Maybe who wants to know" she mumbled as she went to find one of her books, even though she knew trying to avert her attention from the teens around her was impossible.

"You cut your hair…" was all that Yusuke could register as Ross rolled her eyes in annoyance.

"Way to point out the obvious detective" she mumbled sounding an awfully lot like Hiei, making Yusuke fume.

"HEY! Don't get all bitcy with me I was just making a statement" he said clenching his fists ready to beat the snot out of the blonde girl before him.

"What do you want? And if its going back to Makai the answer is no." she asked tiredly as she thumbed through her book.

"Ross…" Kurama couldn't find the right words to say.

"Look Koenma told us about the pendant" said Elaine, making Kurama looked at her shocked from her outburst.

"He did, did he, wow he's got a big mouth" Ross said looking up from her book to the blue haired fox demon in front of her.

"Rose… Ross look you need to go back to Koenma's castle or there's going to be some problems" she said making Ross just stare at her with empty eyes,

"And why the hell would I want to do that… I told you I'm NOT going back and that's that." she said closing her book as she stood up to retrieve her things.

"You're going to die if you don't" is all Kurama could mutter, Ross stopped her packing and then sighed as she continued.

"Good… I deserve it" she said getting a glare from her former brother.

"Why have you been avoiding us?" Kurama asked more sternly now.

"Whatever do you mean?" she asked innocently, her eyes batting as she put a sickening sweet smile across her face.

"Don't act stupid with me, you know what I mean" he said taking a step forward.

"Kurama I'm not a child anymore I can very well take care of myself" she said glaring at him, as he looked at her wrist where the tracking device which Koenma had cursed her with still laid.

"Obviously not" he said in a calm tone making Ross growl.

"Shows how much you know" she mumbled through clenched teeth as she stormed out the building.

"Ross" Yusuke whined after her as she slammed the glass door behind her, entering the windy conditions outside.

The group followed her outside, only to find her searching through her bag in front of a ratty looking vehicle.

"What are you doing?" asked Yusuke as Ross adjusted the books in her arms as she searched through her bag angrily.

"Trying to get away from you" she said as she dropped the keys onto the floor, Yusuke picked them up and held them out to her with a hurt expression. Ross looked at him and growled loudly throwing her belongings on the floor as she grabbed the keys still in his hand, holding them in a strong grip.

"You don't understand Yusuke… none-of-you-do… all I do is bring problems… all I do is cause pain, and I REFUSE to let that happen again" she yelled fiercely as she grabbed the keys out of his hands and went to unlock her car door, but the keys suddenly disappeared from her grasp.

Ross turned around to see Kurama holding them in his grasp.

"Kurama this isn't a game, just give me the damn keys and we'll forget you ever found out about me ok" she said painfully as Kurama stared at her with those emerald orbs.

"Ross… the only person you're hurting is yourself" his voice echoed through the cold parking lot, Ross shivered from the sudden chill she felt creep up her spine.

The blonde teen turned to the cloudy window of her car and stared at her reflection… she had changed greatly in these last couple of months, forcing herself to believe she was human, she knew she wasn't.

"DAMNIT I AM NOT HURTING MYSELF!" she screamed to no one as she kicked her tire making the car tremble from the force.

"SEE! he took it away again! I can't even hurt this piece of shit car anymore… I can't do anything right, I can't lie right I can't be a human what the hell am I good for? Nothing… that's the answer" she screamed as she turned around and swiped the keys from Kurama's grip.

"I refuse to live two lives, I refuse to hurt the people around me anymore… DAMNIT!!" she screamed as she threw the car door open and threw in her belongings and jumped in.

"I am NOT going to be another statistic like last time Kurama I WILL NOT!" she screamed tearing the pendant from her neck and throwing it at them as she started the car.

"Find someone else to be your puppet and let my die in piece" she yelled as she rolled up her window, before the boys could protest Ross skidded out of the parking lot and into traffic.

"GRR why does she have to be so stubborn" growled Botan.

"That's my sister for you" Kurama sighed as he looked at the pendant.

"Yes well without that she's going to die sooner than expected" Botan said mournfully as Kurama looked down at the necklace in his possession.

"I think that's what she wants"

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Ross sat in traffic; her heart began to ache for the ones she had just spat on.

'You know this is for the best… its to keep them safe… you deserve to die and you know it after killing all those innocent human lives in those cities 5 years ago… you don't deserve this second chance'

'Damnit shut up… I know you're right ok you don't have to shove it in my face'

Her mind was racing to find a possible answer for why she had done what she'd done, why she had hurt so many people in the process of saving herself.

Ross growled at the cars clogging her way home.

"DAMNIT HURRY UP! DAMN NING-" She was cut off by a sudden sneering pain in her chest, Ross pulled off to the side of the road as she fought to keep consciousness.

'This is what you wanted… isn't it Rossy' mumbled Rosa's voice in her head as the world around her swirled into darkness.

'can't you hear it?

the calls of the child?

far away in the back of my mind

she can only scream for the chains which crush her soul

no one opens the lock

no one turns a head

maybe because I am the only one that can hear her

an angelic face laces my mind

as tears drain my sorrows

long lost, long gone

far from the existence of common hands

can you hear it?

the call

can you here the questions pondering my mind

she's calling for you to listen but yet

you don't answer'

(( alright I wrote this poem so don't steal it! but what do you think?))

Dream

Ross opened her eyes to find cherry blossoms surrounding her.

'What the-' she thought as she stood up to find that her clothes had been changed, she now wore sapphire robes trimmed with a darker navy, her boots had also been replaced with sandals.

"Alright what the hell is going on" Ross spoke out as she searched for the person responsible for the mess before her.

"Hello" she yelled a bit confused on why she was the only one in the surroundings.

"We have a lot to talk about Rossalynn" said a soothing voice from behind her, Ross turned to see a very elegant fox demon behind her; she wore the same robes only in lilac trimmed with white. Her hair blew behind her as her ears danced with the wind and her eyes stared at Ross with an empty glow.

"Why have you brought me here and changed my attire?" growled Ross as Rosa just chucked lightly much like Youko.

"As I said we have a lot to talk about… and I think those robes suit you" Rosa said as Ross growled and crossed her arms.

"What the hell could WE have to talk about" Ross asked angrily as she sat underneath a tree with large blossoms decorating it.

"I've noticed a lot of changes in your behavior lately" Rosa said a bit concerned as Ross laid on her back playing with one of the fallen flowers.

"So you've been spying on me I thought I told you to go away" Ross grumbled as she threw the flower away into the wind.

"You've also given back the amethyst stone" Rosa said sitting next to the blonde teen.

"What's your point" Ross said now sitting up staring at the disgruntled fox demon.

"Is something bothering you?" Rosa asked as Ross let out a rather large huff.

"What would ever make you think that?" Ross asked as Rosa slapped her across the face, Ross stood up holding her cheek as she glared at the fox.

"What the fuck did you do that for?" screamed Ross as Rosa stood up her eyes a now menacing red.

"I tried to give you warning with that rose I sent you all those months ago, but you obviously are too stupid to realize what a fucken warning is!" screamed Rosa as she dug her claws into the palms of her hands.

"What the hell are you talking about? That rose was given to me by that toddler ruler… it has nothing to do with you" Ross glared as Rosa flashed her fangs.

"It has everything to do with me; I gave it to Koenma to give to you… I was NOT going to let you give up!" screamed Rosa as Ross raised a brow and then turned around.

"Too late kitsune I already have… I can't take this anymore… I can't take being ripped between two identities anymore" Ross said softly as she twisted her hands. Rosa stared at the back of her counterpart's skull.

"Then there's only one way to show you what I mean" Rosa murmured, Ross turned around with a perplexed expression.

"Show me what?" she asked, as Rosa waved her hand making her surroundings swirl once again into pink and white. They landed in a dark field the darkness around them seemed to hold their souls like a sweaty hand, making Ross nervous.

"Where have you taken me?" Ross asked as she looked around the deserted field. Rosa lifted a hand and pointed to the middle of the field where two forms materialized out of thin air. Lightening struck as Rosa looked at Ross her eyes filled with grief.

"You have spilt our soul" she said as Ross raised a brow in confusion, but then looked at the two forms in front of her, one wore a bright orange gi with a blue sash much like Goku's she had black hair which was tied back in two long braided pig tails that trailed down her back she held a ball of energy in her hands as she glared daggers at the other form across from her. She wore a black gi with a blood red sash, her hair much like Ross' only she had two crimson ears on either side of her head, it was tied back into a low pony tail as she pointed the katana in her grasp at the other's throat. Both of them had menacing sapphire eyes which shown through the dark atmosphere like wild fire.

"You have split our soul… you have made us two different people Rossalynn and neither of these forms are our OWN true identities, they both hold a grudge against each other… and surrendering the amethyst stone has given them a chance to escape from the deepest folds of your soul" Rosa said as she lowered her arm staring at the ground in despair.

"In the end they will destroy us both… and now you are truly ripped between two identities" Rosa's elegant voice rang through Ross' mind as she fought to think… to understand the problem.

"So I… caused this… just like I cause everything else that goes wrong I am going to be the one that leads my self to destruction" Ross said slowly as Rosa lowered her head hiding her sullen face with her auburn blonde locks.

"Let me show you something" Rosa said taking a hold of Ross' sapphire robes spinning them once again into another dimension of thought.

"What now?" Ross asked as she yanked away from the kitsune's grasp.

"Look" Rosa said pointing once again to the ground below them. There stood a young kitsune her hair pulled back and tied lowly trailing down her back; her rich highlights of red streaked her blonde curly hair. Her eyes were closed as she sat by a lake she wore a dark outfit and crossed her arms arrogantly as she seemed to be waiting for someone.

"Ok… and what does this have to do with anything about me?" asked Ross as Rosa glared at her.

"I'm losing my patience with you, now shut up and watch." she growled as Ross rolled her eyes and went back to the scene before her.

"You think you could be any later?" asked the kitsune below them, her eyes still closed as a figure dropped from the sky.

"Well excuse me princess I didn't know I was in the presence of royalty" mocked a spiky haired fire demon.

"Shut up and come on we're going to be late" the former demon Rosa stood up and grabbed a katana from her side throwing it to Hiei.

"Here I think you need this more than me" Rosa said arrogantly as Hiei rolled his eyes in return, suddenly an arrow shot out from the brush.

"What the-" Rosa looked around as Hiei pulled the katana from his side, a fleet of arrows soon followed afterwards showering the two figures as they fought to advance on their enemy.

SNAP

"HIEI!" Rosa screamed as she felt the pressure of the arrow penetrate her chest, she growled as a purple substance oozed from her wound.

"Great I'm poisoned… BRAT! If you hadn't forgotten your damn sword I could have blocked that one!" Rosa screamed as she felt hot liquid soak her clothing, Hiei was now at her side and pulled her into the brush making the kit growl in response.

"Ow! Stop that!" screamed the kit as Hiei pulled the arrow from her chest.

"Will you chill...? I have to see the wound onna, stop pushing my hands away" Hiei growled as he pulled at her clothing.

"This wouldn't have happened if you had your damn sword" Rosa growled angrily as Hiei glared at her.

"Oh yeah just blame it on me, YOU'RE the one that gave me your sword, not me" Hiei explained impatiently as Rosa closed her eyes, she could feel the poison taking hold.

"Stay here, don't come out until I tell you, I can do this on my own" Hiei said as he watched his mate falling from consciousness and then left to fend off the enemy.

Rosa opened her eyes and growled from his order, pulling herself up by her elbows she peered out into the field to see arrows showering her mate, but then something caught her eye, she turned her head to the right to see something shiny in the brush about fifty feet from her.

Like slow motion she watched the soldiers stand up and aim their arrows at the man before them.

"NO!" she screamed pulling herself up with all her strength, Hiei turned to see his distraught mate but was then caught off guard, twenty or so arrows impaled him as he let out a painful groan from the hit.

"Hiei!" screamed Rosa she ran to her mate's side.

"You fool what the hell did you do that for?" Hiei asked as he felt his strength slipping out of his grasp.

"I'm sorry I saw something shiny and… and… wait- no don't close your eyes!" Hiei opened them slowly to see unshed tears fill her lilac laced eyes.

"You disobeyed me onna…" he said softly as Rosa glared at him.

"I was only trying to protect you!" she screamed, but then felt several sharp objects penetrate her back.

"AH!" she screamed as she lost her balance falling to the ground beside the fire demon.

"Rosa… Rosa…" Hiei waited for her reply but it never came.

"STOP PLAYING WITH ME AND ANSWER ME!" Hiei yelled as he tried to force himself to sit up but the poison had already weakened him.

"I… killed you… I killed us… I betrayed you Hiei… I should have listened- I deserve to die…please just kill them for me Hiei… that's all I ask… Please…" Rosa's voice fell into a gravely tone as life slipped away from her.

'mirrored reflections of past souls
insidious taunting of the untold
forgotten feelings wrapped in time
for that moment you were mine

I lost you that night
the darkness took hold
breathing a lie, I wish were untold
a crippled decision, unwrapped our joy
now its just empty, nothing to toy

tainted questions scream through my mind
knotted answers are not there to find
that night was torture, I listened wrong
but now its too late, you're too gone.'

((I wrote this too so don't steal it!! watcha think?))

"Rosa…" Hiei felt his breathing decrease… his heart stopping… and it was all her fault.

"Why are you showing me this" Ross said slowly, she felt her heart ache to help the couple below her.

"I thought it was about time you knew what really happened… when Hiei and I died. Rosa looked down at the scene and waved her hand quickly to relinquish it.

"That's… that's terrible" Ross said as Rosa sat down they were once again in the field where the two figures still stood.

Rosa closed her eyes slowly and then opened them again, focusing on the ground where an arrow and bow materialized, they glowed a sickening lavender, Rosa stared at them for what seemed like eternity in thought.

"I… I have decided to fuse our souls into one… that is if you decide to agree" Rosa said now looking up at Ross with remorseful eyes.

"What… what do you mean fuse our souls?" Ross asked as Rosa stood up and went ot a near by tree leaning against it.

"Unlike Youko and his human counterpart I am going to make us person, giving you all my memories and the ability to transform into me at your will" Ross stepped back and looked at the fox in confusion.

"You mean you're… you're going to kill yourself? For me?" Ross asked as Rosa nodded slowly.

"It will require my life yes… but I think it's about time you were freed from these chains to be who you want… you will still be human in ningenkai, but once you enter my territory in makai you will turn back into me… only this time you'll be in control, Hiei has done this himself years and years ago… now I think it's the best choice for us as well" Rosa said slowly her molasses voice dripping from every living thing in the mirage around the young blonde demi-saiyan.

"Rosa… I can't… I can't let you kill yourself" Ross said slowly as Rosa clenched her claws into her palms.

"YOU WILL FINALLY BE ABLE TO KNOW ALL THE MEMORIES OF YOUR PAST, EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU WILL FINALLY MAKE MORE SENSE, AND YOU'RE SAYING YOU CAN'T LET ME DIE! IF YOU DON'T DO THIS YOU WILL KILL YOU AND ME SOON ENOUGH!!" The angry kitsune screamed as her eyes shown through like pots of fire.

"Rosa…" Ross felt her eyes fill with tears of remorse as she embraced the kitsune, she felt arms encircle her as her counterpart comforted her.

"It's the right decision… trust me… I've just been to self-fish to do it… all I want now is for you to be who you are… to be happy" Rosa felt tears sting her eyes as she let go of the demi-saiyan and grabbed the bow and arrow at her feet.

"For me to do this I'm going to have to shoot you the same way I died… even though I am giving you this chance I need you to understand that not all your problems will disappear… you will still have the stone to deal with but now you will have your full power… you will finally be you" Rosa said as Ross nodded slowly drying her eyes from her former sentimental moment.

Rosa strung the bow and aimed at Ross' heart.

"Did I forget to mention I have terrible aim" Rosa said grinning as Ross felt a smile creep on her features.

"Don't I know-" Ross was suddenly cut off by a power agonizing pain emitting her body, the world around her swirled into a violent black.

'splendid waves slip me away from this twisted pain
running warm salty hands across my blind eyes
saving me from my own helpless nature
tugging, pulling me into welcoming arms
comforting my hardened wounds
and giving me the sands of time I so dearly desire
I'm isolated from the pain,
from the heartache,
from the world
but now all I desire is to go back
to go back to the world of hard-ships and frustration
to feel my blind eyes run cold once more
to breath the scent of betrayal
for without all these, I'm isolating myself from the truth'

((wow I'm giving you a lot of my poems in this chappie… oh well I think it sets the mood, don't steal it!))

"Goodbye Rossy… take care" the words echoed through the hallow walls of her world as everything caved into nothingness.

End of Dream

Ross felt herself get tugged back into the real world, suddenly her mind was buzzing with a new feeling… remembrance… she could remember the first time Rosa and Hiei met… when they got married… it all made sense now… everything about her past and Rosa's filled her mind and swam through her cells… she was finally whole.

'Where am I?' Ross thought as she as she went to move but stopped when she heard voices around her.

"Is she going to be alright?" asked a concerned voice as another cleared their throat.

"Yes well a bunch of kids found her on the side of the road passed out in her car, it's a good thing they got her here so quickly, otherwise we might not have been able to repair the hole in her heart in time… it's obviously been ignored for way too long luckily this young girl was very lucky," said a smooth deep voice obviously belonging to a doctor of some sort.

"I can't thank you enough" said the concerned voice again as someone else stepped into the room.

"No it was our pleasure, I'm just glad we followed her, we're… old friends of Ross and we got in a bit of a disagreement earlier… I just hope she'll be alright when she wakes" said an elegant voice belonging to none other than Kurama.

"Yes well for open heart surgery she should be alright in a few weeks, I'm sure she'll awaken soon her vital signs are doing well she gave us a bit of a scare during the operation but fortunately she came back to us." a few more footsteps could be heard and then a door creaking pierced through the room.

"Thank you doctor" Kurama said once again as the door closed.

"Is she going to be alright?" Kuwa's voice rang through the room.

'AH! You think he could scream any louder! arr…. my ears…' Ross groaned as she went to cover them but found she didn't have the strength.

"Did you hear something?" asked Kuwa making Ross growl.

"Will you shut up… ar… my ears I think they're bleeding" Ross said as she opened her eyes to see a bunch of people surrounding her.

"Great you're awake" Kurama said flashing a relieved smile.

"Wait… what's wrong with your eyes!?!" Yusuke said loudly as Ross blinked.

"What… what do you mean my eyes?" she asked as Kurama raised a brow.

"Why do I have a feeling there is more to this than just a heart problem." Kurama said as Ross growled and moved to glance at Yusuke.

"Can I have a mirror please…?" she said as Yusuke held up a hand mirror.

"What am I your damn slave now or something now that you're laid up in bed, Hn after all that shit you said back there I don't know why I'm doing this" he mumbled as Ross looked at her reflection, her eyes kept changing color every time she blinked.

"I guess I'll have to just get use to that" she thought out loud as she clenched her eyes shut and opened them again to have them change back to sapphire.

"What… what's wrong with you?" Kuwa asked as Ross raised a brow.

" Nothing… "She said as she went to move into a more comfortable position in her bed but found it impossible to move, she forced her hand to move to her chest to see it was wrapped tightly with bandages.

"So… let me get this straight I… passed out in my car and then you guys found me and brought me here where I had open heart surgery o fix a large hole in heart?" she asked as Yusuke closed his eyes and leaned against the bed.

"Yeah pretty much" He said as Ross growled and stared at the ceiling.

"Great I'm laid up in the hospital again" Ross sighed as she turned to see Kurama staring at her.

"What?" she asked as Kurama stared at her.

"Your energy signal has changed drastically… not to mention you suddenly have the ability your change your eye color… an ability my sister had…there's more to this than just a heart problem isn't there?" Kurama asked as Ross felt a blush catch her cheeks from being caught.

"Me and Rosa… had a little talk is all" Ross said as Kurama went to say something else the door swung open relieving quit a few concerned saiyans.

"What the heck is going on… what happened to your hair… are you alright?" Ross was thrown a thousand questions at once as she tried to comfort her distraught family.

"I'm fine… I'm fine really, don't worry I'm gonna be ok I promise… my body just decided to give up on me before I was ready is all… but everything is ok now" Ross saw her brothers arguing with the doctors and her Vegeta becoming even more agitated with the nurse on call.

'My family' she thought as her dad gave her a hug.

'Why do have a feeling there is something more to this than she is bringing on… she smells more like Rosa and her eyes… the only way this could have happened is if… Rosa fused with Ross… but… yes that must be it 'a talk' Rosa 'talked' Ross out of giving up… and then gave her own life for Ross' happiness… now Ross is my sister… Rosa… you did the right thing' Kurama smiled inwardly as he watched Ross get showered with attention.

"Ok, Ok… I'm sorry but I need you all to leave so that I can give Ross her treatment" said a large nurse, the group groaned and began to leave though Kurama stayed behind making his way to the bed.

"What's up?" she asked as the red head searched through his pockets and held up the pendant for Ross.

"No… I still don't want it, I refuse to stay Koenma's puppet… keep it for now" she said as Kurama sighed and nodded knowing trying to argue with his sister was hopeless… she always won.

"I know what happened… about Rosa fusing with you… its good she gave you this chance… it was the right decision" Kurama said as Ross sighed, she knew it would only take time for him to figure it out.

"Yeah… that's what she said" Ross said as Kurama put a hand on her shoulder.

"Get some rest… we won't bother you anymore… but if you need us you know where to find us" Kurama said as Ross nodded unable to read his true emotions about the subject.

"Yeah… yeah" she repeated unable to think of anything else to say, the former fox turned to leave walking slowly out of the room and shutting the door behind him.

'Now what?' but Ross' thoughts were soon answered, as a brawny nurse entered the room.

AN- Alright well there ya go and no it's not the end!! If you wanna get a hold of me at anytime please feel free to AIM me at BlueEyedD392 and please REVIEW!

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