Rip.......Rip.......Rip......
Can you hear it? Can you see it? Can you feel it in your heart? I want you to die. Get out of my life.
Ever since this all began you keep confusing me , making me believe you but your nothing, nothing at all, all you really are is someone that holds in emotions, tells no one your mind..your spirit. NOTHING!
You of all people have become nothing.
Can you hear it still? Can you feel the riping?
It's me. I'm here..I'm tearing your name out of me...out of my locker, my bedroom,my mind. I want to kill this piece of you that never really was there.
I want you to be normal.
Hide your feelings, your emotions, to the world and even to yourself. Like I care anymore. You hurt me but, I'm slowly getting over it but hey, you care about nothing right? You wouldn't even care if I killed myself, ran in front of a car, or slit my arms and let the blood seep down. i would watch it and wonder why you couldn't be chained to my walls watching as my arms slowly bleed the life out of me and on to the floor.
Don't you even care? Oh, Oh, that's right. i'm nothing as well, but I am not a nothing like you! I have feelings. If someone pisses me off. I let them know. I don't be a sick evil mother fucker like you have been to me. No, no what I do, is show emotions. Walk downt eh halls and punch my buddies arms and we laugh together. I run into the girls change room door while it's locked and i laugh. i laugh at myself even if people are laughing at me. I can make my enemys and make them friends.
Sure...Yeah, I';m good at hiding emotion to but, there is a limit to how far you actually go with it. You don't hide in a coocoon and try and act like something your not.
Then again, You also lie. Like you actually ever thretened to kill yourself. As if. you just trying to make me sorry for you. i resent that. You want me to bow infront of you and call you 'your highness' or "master.' whatever one you prefur right? Right?
I'd rather call you this..dipshit, mother fucking bastard. fucking little bastard fuck. Son of a fucking bitch master. Little whore from faggy ville. faggy mc.fagster?
You like it? I do. It suites you. Your sucha dick head anyway.
Only thing i keep asking myself if, Why do I still think about you? Is it because I still like you as a friend or is it just the after shock of your lies and betrayels? I'm not. Probably anger...Probably hate....and yet, i cna't hate you for, your only human and we humans make mistakes. Your was just stupid. I probably still like you, maybe even love you but, I'm not going to check my brain right now for details on that subject. I give up on men and boys and teenagers. I give up on them all. They give to girls now is pain...pain betray hurt and mother fucking children that they either love or don't.
Maybe you should learn some honesty...honesty..
Learn it, memorise it and try and do it before it really leaves your mind again.
Remeber....Although you care for nothing. people still care about you.