Silver: Hello! And welcome back to my little world of screwing with the Harry Potter people! Hurray!

Julian: You an idiot.....

Silver: And your gay! Now then to my story!

Julian: OUR STORY!

Silver: ..() riiiiiiiight.....

"Why....." Ron began "Are you afraid of Kyle?" Nic smiled. They were still in the common room, Kyle had left to find his bed.

"Hm....." she breathed softly "I'm-I'm not really afraid of him" she confessed, confusing Ron to a whole new level of confusion. "I was afraid....." she couldn't seem to find the words. Ron put his hand on her chin and lifted her head to look at his. She took up his hand in hers and caressed it lovingly. Suddenly she realized what she was doing. She threw his hand down and jumped up. She ran to her room, shocked at herself for what she had just done..... For what she had almost said, she cursed herself for feeling this way about a person, and slowly the thing she had feared since meeting Ron was happening. She was going back to the way she used to be. She ran up the stairs, twists and turns, she couldn't keep them all, straight. Some how she managed to locate a hidden room. There was no thing there except for a large squishy chair. She sat down and curled into a fetal position. Her old self would not let her cry, it simply would not be allowed. She closed her eyes and seen things that she had never wanted to see again.

She saw the face of betrayal, the face of hate, the face of love. Love was a cruel and mocking face, always just beyond reach. She saw the large field, the battlefield where love had been lost. Where the seed of hate had been planted deep within her heart and allowed to blossom until there was no good left. No good..... No love. Only pain, a swirling black hole of pain that constantly ate away at her until she couldn't take it any more. That was what Nic saw when she closed her eyes. That will always be what Nic sees when she closes her eyes. Nothing but pain and hurt from the people she loved. She opened her eyes again and was surprised to find Rachael looking down at her. She sat up quickly and glared at her.

"How did you find me?" she demanded

"I can always find you remember? God your dumb" She smiled slightly at her own statement, Nic continued on with her evilness.

"What do you want?"

"I.....just wanted to make sure you were ok"

"Of course I'm ok, why wouldn't I be?"

"Well, I walked down the stairs and watched you abandon poor Ron! He's in hysterics not knowing where you are or how to find you! Damn girl, you almost said it.....you never could say it"

"Say what? And how do you know how I have always been?"

"Nic....."

'great' Nic thought' now she is going to go all mushy on me'

"Please, don't push me away, we're friends, the best of friends ever! You can't possibly not miss me." Nic didn't even flinch

"You didn't answer my questions" Nic said solemnly

"You almost told Ron....." she hesitated sensing Nic's current hatred toward everything "You almost told him that you loved him"

"First off, you have no idea what I may have said to him. Second I have been able to tell people I love them."

"Not when you really meant it." Nic and Rachael had been friends for a very long time, it had come to the point when they knew each other so well they could finish each other sentences and say things at the same time. It was only during the last few years of school thast they had been separated.

"Please go away" Nic said softly

"No, no not without you. You're going to go and talk to Ron if I have to stun you and float you in there myself." Nic looked at Rachael, she had such a look of determination on her face. Guilt slowly crept up her spine, but guilt was not an emotion of the old Nic, it was only once she was better that she felt sorrow and guilt. She stood up and pulled Rachael into a tight embrace.

"I'm sorry" she whispered "I'm sorry for thinking you would ever try to kill me, I'm sorry for every bad thing I ever said to you. I'm sorry for all the lies, any pain I might have caused. I'm just sorry."

"You are not" Rachael said. They both started laughing.

"Nic?" came a voice from the door, it was Ron. As soon as he seen it was her he ran up and wrapped his arms around her, she in turn wrapped her arms around him.

'Wow' Rachael thought 'two hugs in one day from the great Nic, Run everyone its Ragnorak!' she laughed out loud at her own silent joke. (Ragnorak, the end of the world) The pulled back, arms still around each other, Ron looked at her eyes, he had always loved her eyes.

"you were afraid..... of losing me?" Ron asked, Nic blushed and smiled a bit.

"uh huh" she said, wishing desperately that Rachael would leave the room now. Almost as if on queue.....

"I, uh, I'm gunna go now" Rachael said from her darkened corner of the room. Ron jumped, obviously just now noticing Rachael in the room. She crossed the room and exited, Ron looked back to Nic. She looked just like she had in the field and in their dream, helpless. This time though she was helpless to her own feelings, something no person has ever over come.

"Ai shiteru" she said, wrapping him in a tight embrace again. Then, Ron, the meek pitiful boy.....kissed his beloved