Was this really happening..? The question itself persistantly repeated inside my empty head over and over again for it seemed like eternity and my hands trembled uncontrollably while i continued to intently stare down at them below me.

Was he really going to die like this?? I slowly shook my head in attempt, resisting the horrible true fact.

A couple of hours had already passed by and it wasn't too long until the docter arrived and told me I could finally see how he was doing afterwards. Yami told me he would just wait outside and he gestured me to just go ahead and see Ryou. I slowly nodded in slience.

After a couple of minutes I entered the room, noticing that he was still asleep in bed from his own slumber.

I slowly approached him with careful caution, afraid that i would by any chance accidently wake him up. I reached beside the bed he was laying on. I stared down and carefully studied and examined his features with my own eyes that revealed somewhat both concern and sorrow at the same exact time..

His appearance didn't look so well and he looked awfully terrible; his face was more paler than the usual tone color of his already natural white skin and he had several small dark circles that had already formed beneath his heavy eye sockets.

His mouth was slightly opened and small moans and whimpers escaped his small lips i heard only for temporarily.

I slowly reached out and started caressing his small delicate face to comfort and calm him down. He finally stopped making cry-like noises as i repeatedly continued to tenderly brush his soft cheek with my own thumb. I then allowed one of my hands to slowly slide upward to easily cup and hold his face in my palm, while several big strands of his soft white hair fell past loosely over the top of my hand and rested lightly against my knuckles.

" Ryou... "

I leaned more foward until our faces finally meet closely by only a few inches away...

"..Onegai...don't die.." I slowly closed my eyes as i was aware of instantly feeling small tears beginning to roll down my cheek again as they landed down below on my hikari's covers forming dark orbs. "...Please...don't leave me...I don't want to be lonely again...please..." the last word on my sentence came out seemingly and unexpectedly like a high whine compared from the others as I lost control and I immediately heard my own voice breaking up again at the very end. I then lightly rested my own forehead against his while i still held his cold face in both of my trembling warm hands, finally admitting to him...

"...Aishiteru." I whispered softly. The tears i continued to uncontrollably shed dripped down my chin as they randomly landed down on his below..

The small opening space between us that waited finally closed. I gently kissed him as our lips meet one another. His lips were so cold compared to mine, but i immediately got used to it. I felt that same feeling growing more gradually inside of me again; that new emotion that i hadn't experienced in a very long time since my unforgotton past. I couldn't really remember it all that vividly, but i still knew some images of my childhood. I remembered how my father was abusive towards me and he had beaten me almost every single day of my life... and i hated him for that. And my mother...

I couldn't remember her all that well, but I knew she died. I was lonely ever since everyone left; I had noone else to look up to or love anymore; I was the only one left...alive that is. I just only wanted someone, anyone beside me, knowing that they're there to comfort and care. I remembered... I just wanted to run far away from my own home... to possibly who knows where, from all the pain and sorrow I roughly went through. I then grew up becoming more corrupted, hate and anger gradually grew inside me as i couldn't handle and bear all the pain i was going through while i got older, until i finally completely changed afterwards. I became cold hearted towards everything.

Then I remembered when i first met Ryou.

I didn't know who/what this weakling was, but i knew i had to accept the true fact and realize that he was really my own hikari when i first saw him with my own eyes. It even surprised me that he told me he loved me ever since then and i didn't understand why he did even after all the bad things i did to him. Then later things started to gradually change, I started developing some sort of feelings toward him over the time, even before during the time when i still beat him badly, but i couldn't just admit it to him because I wasn't really sure about myself, even if i did i could feel and imagine my own body screaming at myself for doing such a stupid thing. Then as i spent more time with him at the hospital i felt myself growing more softer every day. I started caring more about him, not just about his own health and also not only the main reason that i didn't want his body to get damaged in any way, but because i now realized that i really did love him after all this entire time. Was he the one to really teach me how to finally love again..? And now...I just found out that he was going to possibly really die soon, even before I ever got the chance to tell him everything about all of this before. Why did everything have to end this way..? I finally found that someone to be with and love again ...and I didn't want that feeling I had once lost before to disappear and go away, then I would just be left all alone from exactly where I used to be, where it all started in the beginning and I didn't want that to all come back again.

Ryou...I'm sorry for everything I had done....please forgive me....stay with me.

I finally broke the kiss between us for it seemed like eternity.

I slowly pulled away from his face. I slowly opened my eyes, looking at him again. My eyes suddenly grew wider, shocked to now notice that he had been awake this whole entire time. He had tears glistening in his brown eyes making his orbs to shake wildly, he then finally blinked allowing them to freely trail down his cheeks.

"yami...." he spoke weakly.

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Where was I..? I weakly opened my eyes to exhaustedly take small glances around the small room. I then noticed that Bakura was right in front of my face staring at me. Did he just kiss me?? The last time i remembered was when i was running off to somewhere...and then i stabbed myself with Bakura's knife. I didn't know what happened to me after that, but i think i was too weak to fight against it. I thought i was already dead for sure but what the heck was going on here..? Did Bakura find me and take me here to this place?

"Yami...?" I spoke softly to him.

He blinked. Then he slowly reached his hand out towards me. I lightly flinched and cringed at his touch, scared of what he would possibly do to me, but instead i soon realized that he just only wanted to caress my face. I immediately relaxed closing my eyes again as he did it really gently and I knew then for sure he wasn't really planning to hurt me at all. I knew his eyes were telling me that he wanted to really say something, but he hadn't even spoken yet, but only continued to softly touch me. To my own surprise, he instantly buried his face in my shoulder and started crying his heart out. It startled me at first, but something else told me that it seemed that he just only wanted to be held tightly by somebody...

I didn't know what he really wanted from me so I began softly stroking his white hair with my fingers, while I held and pulled his head more closer with my other free hand. I lightly rubbed and patted his back to calm him down; similar to what he did for me once before. I gently rocked him until he felt more comfortable. I bent my head lower to his, planting several small kisses on top of his head. I wanted to tell him that i was sorry...just sorry for everything what had happened today. I knew what i did was wrong, but i just couldn't control myself and i wanted to apologize to him for doing such a foolish thing. Truthfully, I didn't really want to leave him either in the beginning. . . . .because i loved him so much with all my heart. . .

I captured his chin with both my thumb and forefinger, slowly lifting it up from the previous gaze he had down on my shoulder for awhile. I expressed my apology to him by kissing him back. I heard him whimper as I continued to gently nip on his lower lip, silently begging him to gain better entrance into his mouth. Knowing this he allowed me to do so. I moaned softly into the sweet kiss as well as i also heard him moan with pleasure. I caressed the back of his thin neck; my own fingers lightly tracing back up and down on against the small bumps formed from the spinal cord in his upper neck. He softly sighed in response. He started to kiss me more passionately, now without any hesitation.

He finally broke the kiss after awhile, needing to catch his breath again. I softly whined in protest, looking at him in the eyes again. I wanted more of it; I wanted him to show me how much he really loved me. Why did he suddenly stop? I whimpered more, pulling on his front shirt towards me. I slightly lifted my head off the pillow i was laying on, quietly whispering in his ear.

"Kiss me...onegai. " I desperately begged to him.

He stared at me. he then closed his eyes bending down to my ear.

"..Hikari...I'm so sorry for everything...please forgive me." I heard him whisper quietly.

I didn't know what to say to him, of coarse not in that way of expressing that i didn't want to forgive him after everything he had done to me, but i was just only speechless at his apology. I did really forgive him as long as he really meant it. Perhaps the next small sentence that came out of his mouth shocked me even more than the last.

"I love you."

My eyes went wide and i just stared off.

I looked at him again and i had tears starting to glisten in my eyes, making my orbs to shake wildly. I then finally blinked, allowing them to freely trail down my cheeks. I just heard everything what he had said. Was this really true about him actually loving me? It was a little hard to believe, but something about the tragic expression that was placed upon his miserable face told me he was really telling the truth. It shocked me to see that he had tears in his eyes from earlier and i remained silent the whole time.

He wiped all my tears away from my face, kissing them softly. He then hugged me by carefully wrapping his arms around my shoulders, trying his best not to accidentally hurt my wounded injuries more. At first I tensed, but i calmed down. I soon felt the softness of his snowy hair against the skin on my cheek and i instantly smelled his sweet essence in the air. It smelt nice. I buried my face more in his hair as I hugged him back with my own arms now wrapped around his shoulders, returning the embrace. My grip on his shirt tightened more , desperately not wanting him to ever leave me. I just wanted to stay like this forever, but I knew it all would soon wear off. I violently but softly sobbed into his shoulder, pulling him closer to me. Then I soon realized that we both were crying in each other's arms. . .

Gomen na sai...

. . . Aishiteru.

...I remembered that day; the day he first confessed to me. I had no idea until He finally told me about everything. It…just seemed not that too long ago, as if it felt like only a couple of days ago. I finally forgave him after everything He had done. . .After that day, it felt like everything just completely changed. . .