I Need You

Hiei looked out the window of the hide out; they had gone to another forest. He never left the windowsill and he never let go of the letter or book Caralama had given to him. He hadn't opened the book but he kept on reading over the letter.

So Hiei thought to himself as he reread the letter again, she didn't kill me because she loved me after all. How could I have been so stupid? She probably thought I was an idiot to think that. But does she really love me? He remembered that before he had woken up he had felt someone kiss him and whisper 'I love you Hiei please understand' he closed his eyes and thought for a second.

He was so caught up in his thoughts he didn't here someone enter the room. It wasn't till that someone was right beside him did he know he wasn't alone. He looked at the person beside him and saw Yoko, "Still thinking about her Hiei?" he asked.

"Of course not," Hiei answered in a normal voice but Yoko could detect a bit of sadness and pain in his voice. "She is back with her family where she belongs and I don't know what I was thinking when she left," Hiei looked at the letter crumpled it into a ball and threw it to the other side of the room, "Love, how could I have been so stupid? She was just saying that she loved me so that I wouldn't go after her!" his voice was getting a bit higher now with his rage.

Yoko went over to the crumpled letter and smoothed it out in his hand and began to read it. He looked back at Hiei on the windowsill who was looking out the window again. He hadn't eaten anything ever since Caralama had left and that was two weeks ago. He also never slept and had been at the windowsill for the last two weeks as well. They were in the room where Caralama had slept in. Hiei had a window installed with one of the charms in the room and now he would do nothing else but to look out of it.

Yoko began to smell something familiar in the room that he hadn't noticed before. It smelled like lilacs and roses. He looked towards Hiei with a questionable look on his face.

"That is how she smelled Yoko," Hiei sighed not looking straight at him but still sensing that Yoko was wondering what the smell was, "It some how stayed here even after she left."

He looked at him with a look of concern. Is that really what Caralama smelled like? He took another deep breath and remembered when Caralama had held him be the neck he had smelled lilacs and roses. Yoko looked around the room and noticed that her presence was all around in this room. He closed his eyes and he could faintly hear an angry voice and then the voice was singing, then it was crying and lastly it was laughing. He opened his eyes and knew that what he had heard was Caralama. He looked at Hiei and wondered if he could hear the same thing.

"Yes Yoko," he sighed, "I do hear her and smell her and if I close my eyes long enough I can see and feel her," he confessed in a sad voice.

Yoko went over to him with the wrinkled letter still in his hand and took a good look at him. Hiei had changed in those two weeks. He looked a lot thinner from his lack of eating, he looked a lot sadder and not the angry killer that Kurama had gotten to know and steal with. He also looked a lot more tired with the dark circles under his eyes. Yoko put the letter on a desk beside the windowsill where Hiei was still sitting and looking out of. He looked at Hiei and started to say, "Hiei I think she really did love you. Why do you think she came back in the dream after Alfred had used that attack on you? She was risking being rapped and/or beaten again so that you could be saved. I got a letter from her as well and she sounded like she really is trying to get her family to listen but in my letter it said that her family might not even listen but the rest of the Signs might," Yok looked up to see what he would say but he just sat there looking out the window as if he hadn't heard a thing. Yoko laid his letter beside Hiei's, "You can read it if you want I don't care," after Yoko had said this he went to the door opened it looked back at Hiei and saw that he hadn't moved at all. He sighed and went out of the room Caralama you left to soon, he thought to himself quietly.

After he had left Hiei looked at the letters on the desk. He just looked at them for a while and closed his eyes and tried to remember what Caralama had looked like. It took awhile longer than the other times he tried, but he saw her face. He tried to picture her smiling but he couldn't, all he could see was her looking worried and saying something but he couldn't hear her words. Alfred had a long talk with him but he hadn't hurt him and he left him to be in peace for a while. Suddenly he felt something wet on his cheeks and he heard something drop onto the floor. Reluctantly he opened his eyes and saw that his vision was blurred. He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand and his hand came back wet. Oh no he thought to himself, please say I'm not crying. But he when he looked at the floor and he saw that there was a black tear gem on the floor he knew he was. (Since he was born to an ice apparition mother he could cry tear gems like his mother and race but because he was part fire demon so they became black.) It hurt Hiei so much he kept thinking to himself. Caralama I can deal with what your family would do to me even kill me because I know that you will be there and I know that you wouldn't let them hurt me or Yoko. But I can't deal with what you're doing to me. You are killing me slowly and painfully from the inside Caralama, can't you see that? If I had a heart I would probably be dead by now. Caralama why did you leave me? With that he went to the bed put the book on the bedside table, laid on top of the covers of the bed and pulled his legs up to his chest and willed himself not to cry. With out knowing it he sent out a message trying to find her, "Caralama, where are you I need you! I can't live without you much longer! Please Caralama your killing me with out knowing it!" and with that he fell asleep crying with his mind trying to find her.

Caralama suddenly woke up hearing Hiei's cry, "Hiei?" she began to look around. Caralama felt so weak that she could barely sit up in the bed. She felt like she was going to faint from the weakness that she was feeling. She wasn't in her or Hiei's bedroom back at the hide out then she called out with tears in her eyes "Hiei where are you?" suddenly there was a pair of arms around her she looked behind her and saw her mothers face. Caralama was scared now, Oh please say they didn't kill them please say they didn't hurt Hiei and Yoko please.

April heard what her daughter was thinking and was shocked to her it, "Caralama are you okay?"

"Please say you didn't kill them please!" Caralama said through tears, "Mother please say you didn't kill them please!"

Then Caralama heard a calm voice and her tears were wiped away by a hand that came from behind her, "We didn't kill or hurt anyone Caralama don't worry we did what you told us to do. We didn't look for anyone," Caralama turned around and saw Nakada looking down at her and sitting on the bed beside her.

Caralama was so exhausted that she leaned against her mother and said before she went to sleep while looking at her, "Please Nakada don't let anyone hurt them I will do anything just don't kill or hurt them," with tears in her eyes she fainted in her mother's arms.

"Nakada I think they did something to her. She would never have said such things like this before. She's so weak she can hardly sit up maybe..." April started to say but before she could say anything more Nakada began to talk.

"April as far as I can tell they did nothing to her. I have been her mind because crying and worrying about these two demon thieves has made her mind barrier to weak. She probably didn't know she still had it up." Nakada said looking at her friend.

April had a stunned look on her face, "Didn't do anything to her? Nakada look at her and listen to her don't you see how weak she is? It is as if she has gone mad or..."

"Or fell in love with this Hiei person who is also a demon and the leader of the thieves who stole from Zell." Nakada calmly said interrupting her but April's face was horror-stricken.

"Fell in love with a DEMON!" April's voice was getting a little higher so Nakada put her hand over April's mouth as to keep her quiet and not to wake up Caralama. She gave April the signal to be quiet and pointed at Caralama, and then she pointed to her office (they were in the infirmary) and they went to the office.

As soon as they were in and Nakada locked the door and made sure no one could hear them but she didn't pull the blinds over the windows. April began to talk again but this time in a shaky voice, "My daughter fell in love with a demon?" she said with hope in her eyes hopping that what Nakada said wasn't true.

Nakada looked at her friend. They had become friends in a very strange way. They hadn't known that they had powers and they were in junior high school. April was saying bad things about her and Nakada's mother so she kicked her and while Nakada still had a book covering her face April punched her. The book was hard cover and it did soften the blow but they got into trouble. The next day they said they were sorry and they became friends. (It's true that really did happen!)

Nakada looked at her again and saw the worry on her friend's face and with a sad voice said, "Yes April, Caralama has fallen in love with a demon. And it seems the demon doesn't have a heart either. But the demon loves her and she loves him despite that."

If it was possible for April to get any paler she did. She looked like she had just got slapped in the face, "Some demon with no heart stole from my brothers and stole my daughter and her heart?" Nakada waited because she knew there was more; "This Hiei took my daughter against her will and trapped her in his hide out!" Nakada waited she knew her friend was going to blow so she turned down the volume of her hearing and waited. April was shaking with anger now and then she burst out, "WHAT DID HE DO TO HER! SHE WOULD NEVER DO THAT YOUR LIYING TO ME!" April took another breath and, "HE MUST HAVE DONE SOMETHING A LOVE POTION, A SPELL, A CHARM ANYTHING. MY DAUGHTER WOULD NEVER HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH A DEMON LET ALONE ONE WITH OUT A HEART!" tears began to show up in April's eyes and Nakada was instantly beside her friend and holding her close in her arms. April clutched to her friends arms and began crying in her arms. Then Zell and Callimar came into the room.

Callimar was April and Zell's triplet sister she looked exactly like April. They both took one look at April and they had their arms around her in an instant. They kept on looking at Nakada and she sent a mind message to both of them and then they knew why April was crying.

Yoko went back to the bedroom with some hot soup for Hiei to eat. I am not going to let him starve himself to death. I'll shove this down his throat if I have to. When he got to the bedroom he saw that Hiei wasn't at the windowsill. Worried he started to look for him. It didn't take him long though, he found him on the bed curled up into a little ball with the book that told what to do with the charms on the bedside table. He put the soup on the bedside table and sat on the bed next to him.

Yoko looked at Hiei and saw that his face was etched with pain. He also saw that there was black tear gems by the pillow, tons of them. He couldn't have been crying! Hethought but when he carefully touched Hiei's eyes they were wet. He was even more worried about Hiei now more then ever. He carefully put the black tear gems in an empty bowl and he carefully spread Hiei out onto the bed and laid the small demon's head onto his shoulder across his chest. Then he scooped some of the soup with the spoon and put some into his mouth. Then he put the spoon down closed Hiei's mouth and started to rub his throat up and down until he had drank all of the soup. He kept on doing this until all of the soup was gone.

Yoko liad Hiei back on the bed ad laid some covers on him and sat on the bed and stared down at Hiei. He looked a bit better but his face still looked like he was still in pain.

Yoko began thought about what Caralama had said in her two letters and thought why would she want him as a father? Why would she want me to be her father when I have killed many innocent people and have stolen things with out even thinking? I could think of many people who would want to be her father and they are really good people as well. I'm sure she has met many as well, but why would she want to pick me from all of the other people to be her father? Hiei started to stir and wake up. He slowly opened his eyes and Yoko saw that there was pain in his eyes as well.

Hiei started to get up but Yoko pushed him back down with no force at all. He looked at him and began to talk in whispers, "Maybe she would like you to be her father because you are the only man outside of her family who she has really fully trusted," he said with a slight smile. He saw that Yoko was surprised to know that he was listening to his thoughts, "Yoko I need you to try and find Caralama. Please, I need her here beside me. I can't believe how weak I am I now she is the same way. I sent a message to her mind and I woke her up. She has been unconscious for the past two weeks. She needs to be with us Yoko. You were right she was trying to clear us but she is so weak that I don't think she could ever tell the Signs answer questions about what had happened let alone tell them what happened. I don't have enough energy to tell you or show you where she is. You will have to go into my mind and find her. I'm counting on you," and with that Hiei slipped into a deep sleep.

Yoko sat there for a moment and stared at him. Hiei began to look worse so he went into his mind instantly, and saw where Caralama was. He then took the book from the bedside table and opened it up. He found the charm that could help him get him to Caralama and bring her back here.

Without thinking he was in the charms room with a dark hooded cloak around him looking for the charm that he needed.

Caralama was suddenly awoken by a hand over her mouth. She looked up surprised to see a cloaked hooded figure looking down on her. Caralama was scared as the hooded stranger's hand moved away from her mouth and went to the hood. She was surprised to see Yoko there in front of her as he lifted the hood to show his face and silver fox ears, "Do really think I would hurt someone who wanted to be my own child?" he whispered with a small smile on his face. He couldn't believe how weak she looked when he had first seen her sleeping. Hiei was right she wouldn't be able to explain anything to the Signs but she looked really happy and a bit healthier when she had seen him.

Caralama put her slender arms around his neck and gave him a slight hug. He returned the hug as he helped her into a sitting position while he gently sat on the edge of the bed next to her and saw that there were a few tears in her eyes. Then he saw that she was worried, "Yoko what are you doing here? You could get yourself killed! Four of the Signs are already in the office."

Yoko turned his head around and found that she was right but they hadn't seen him yet. He turned to Caralama and whispered to her, "I see them Caralama but they haven't seen me yet. I have to ask you a very important question. Do you really love Hiei, Caralama, with all of your heart?" He saw that Caralama was going to start crying again.

"Of course I love Hiei! I wouldn't know what to do if anything happened to him, or you. What are you doing here anyway? You are risking you life by just being here."

"Hiei is very sick Caralama. I think he might be dieing. He hasn't slept for the past two weeks and he has barely eaten as well."

Caralama instantly looked pale and he hed her a bit closer as he felt her weaken, "You have to take me to him Yoko now!" she said in a tired voice.

He unwrapped her arms from around his neck and took out a little yellow ball and said, "I suppose you know how to use this?" Caralama took the magic charm into her hand, took his and placed it over hers and the ball and muttered a spell. The last thing she heard was her mother yelling, "Caralama don't go with him!" but it was to late Caralama was gone in a flash of light.