A/N I hope you enjoy this latest chapter!

Thanks to my reviewers:

Instant Coffee: I can't believe I almost made you cry. I take that as a compliment even though that really wasn't my intention, making a tear jerker that is. Hmm... Anyway, I hope you've managed to chillax and alleviate all the stress you've been feeling some! Thanks as always for the review!

Crisis Haylo: Yeah, I can't watch TV at all. I don't have cable or pesant vision. All I can watch is a blue screen or snowstorm at midnight :P. I heard about that episode with the BB/Rave moments. Coolness. I wish I could've seen "Spellbound", mostly though because I'm a huge Raven fan. (Obviously, all my TT stories center around her:P)

Vash, Tinkerbellx2, unknown(x2), Slayergirl1362, LivingImpaired: Thanks a bunch for the compliments. All your reviews are appreciated.

My friends,

I am so sorry to abandon you like this. Honestly I do not want to leave, but I fear that I have no choice. I wish I could explain to you fully the reason I had to leave, but I don't know how I could. You wouldn't understand if I told you, believe me. Let's just say that it is getting harder and harder for me to control myself and my powers. But I hope you all trust that I left for your own good. The last thing I want to do is hurt you and I am afraid that if I stay I might. You mean too much to me.

Robin, I know I said I'd wait, but I honestly think that if I wait much longer I would lose it. I don't mean to disrespect your wishes but I have no choice, just please trust me.

Raven

Raven read her note. Damn, that sounds so...lame. She tore the paper off her stationary pad, crumpled it into a ball and tossed it. With a fresh piece of paper she wrote:

Guys I'm sorry to leave you like this. Just so you know, I'm OK, but there are some things I need to deal with on my own. I don't want to leave, but I have to. Just trust me when I say I have no choice. It's for your own good. Take care.

Raven

There was so much Raven wanted to say, but she was satisfied with that. She folded the note and placed it on her pillow. She didn't want them to find the note until she was long gone, so she felt it was safe there. They wouldn't go into her room, but when they find her missing, they would probably go in for clues. She put her mirror, her favourite book from home, and a change of clothes in a bag. She sighed. She was ready to go even though she had decided to leave at night, when everyone would be asleep, that would reduce the risk of running into someone on her way out. That would be the last thing she'd need, a forced explanation.

She decided to meditate again, feeling overwhelmed with anxiety. It seemed that meditating was all she did anymore. I'm so sick of doing this... she sighed, took in a deep breath and whispered, "Azarath, metrion, zinthos...azarath, metrion, zinthos..." What am I going to do when I leave? What if Robin's right and they do end up needing me? What about Beast Boy? Will he be glad I'm gone? Will he forget me?

CRASH!!!!

Raven's eyes snapped open at the sound. She broke the glass frame of one of her paintings on the wall. I wasn't concentrating hard enough... arghhh!! Raven thought in frustration as another decorative mask broke. She closed her eyes. Just focus...don't think about him...don't think about her...don't...

"Hey Raven?" she heard a knock on the door. It sounded like Terra.

Great. Just what I need... Raven chose to ignore her.

The knocking persisted, "Ra-aven! I know your in there. There was a crash, are you OK?"

Frustrated, and feeling the onslaught of a tension headache Raven opened the door. All the times I have accidentally broken things in here lately, and you just noticed the crashing noises NOW?

"What?" Raven asked coldly.

Terra looked at her strangely, "Are you OK?"

Raven nodded and was about to close the door in her face when Terra stepped forward. "Wait. Raven, do you want to hang out or something?"

"Why would I want to do that?"

"Well, why not?" Terra shrugged, "We haven't really hung out much."

"I thought it was obvious that I don't do hanging out," Raven replied. "Besides, aren't you guys still playing your game?"

Terra's hair fell in her eyes so she casually tucked her thick blonde locks behind her ear, "Nah. BB and I won and Cy and Robin are pouting now. It's quite funny."

"Why don't you hang out with Starfire?" Raven asked.

"We hang out all the time," Terra shrugged, "besides, she's in her garden, and she said she didn't want to be disturbed right now."

Well, that's a first, how ironic. "Well, neither do I."

Terra frowned, "Please Raven? I hardly know anything about you..."

"Not many people do," Raven shrugged. "I intend to leave it that way."

"But Raven, we're friends, aren't we?" Terra looked somewhat hurt, "I mean, don't you trust me? Come on Raven, we need some bonding time."

Raven thought about it a moment. She felt terrible, not only because she was leaving, but matter how hard she tried, ultimately she just couldn't bring herself to like Terra. Terra did nothing wrong, though it was true, Raven didn't trust her, the problems with Beast Boy aside, but again, Raven forced herself to call her suspicions mere jealousy. I guess since I'm gone anyway tonight, I should try to be a little nicer...but on the other hand, we can't hang out either, I'd probably blow something up the way I feel right now.. I hate myself. And I hate that you Terra, had to come along and become Beast Boy's perfect match, all it does is rub it in my face that I could never be anyone's match. "Maybe later?"

The expression on Terra's face told Raven that Raven sounded as phoney as she felt. But Terra just sighed and shrugged, "All right. Later." Raven didn't even wait to watch her leave, instead she just closed the door in the blonde's face.

Raven leaned against the door and sank to the floor, holding her face in her hands, trying so hard to repress the overpowering thoughts and feelings that were forcing their way out.

Terra, why did you have to come along anyway? Why did you have to force me to acknowledge a side of myself that I hate? I love Beast Boy, and no matter how hard I tried to repress those stupid feelings, you had to come along and bring them to the surface full force! And you had to win him over, just by existing! Just by being perfect, and powerful, and by being yourself! I hate you. I hate myself... I wish that you never came along. Then things would be like before, Beast Boy would still like me, I would still have control over my emotions, I would still be satisfied with having him as just a friend, a best friend, I wouldn't have to leave. Nothing would've changed. And why, why, why do I sometimes get the feeling that you're not who you say you are? Is it because I'm jealous? Damnit Raven, why do I have to let myself get so jealous?!

Everything in Raven's room began to levitate as she covered her ears with her hands and tried to hold back a scream that was trying to escape. She couldn't believe how stressed she was feeling, and it had to be over something so stupid, so selfish, so childish.

A sudden, cheerful knock on the door knocked Raven back to her senses. Everything that was floating dropped back in place and Raven rose to her feet, immediately finding the calm she was trying to find. Thinking it was Terra again she opened the door and said dryly, "What now?"

But it wasn't Terra, instead it was Beast Boy. He looked surprised by her reaction, wrinkling his brow and his grin turned to a frown. "Hey Raven, can I talk to you now?" he asked.

Yes. "I guess," Raven replied blankly, the frustrated stress and anger that had been on the verge of consuming her was replaced by quiet giddiness and joy, giving her butterflies at the pit of her stomach, filling her with confusion. Beast Boy perked up, grinning widely as they headed towards his room. There's that smile. I love it when you smile like that. Don't ever change Beast Boy...

He glanced around, "I'm almost finished the you-know-what for you-know-who. I'd love for you to tell me what you think."

Raven stopped in her tracks, loneliness, jealousy and the stress she had been feeling rushed back to the surface, hidden only by Raven's exhausting attempts at keeping her face calm and nonchalant . Oh yeah. That box thingy for Terra. Damn. Raven you are so stupid. Why else would he want to see you? He just wants your opinion again. Why me Beast Boy? Why do you want to know what I think anyway? Terra and I are nothing alike remember? I'm dark, I'm creepy. She's fun and normal.

"Is something wrong?" Beast Boy asked.

"Huh? No," Raven replied. Yes.

Beast Boy shrugged, "OK if you say so."

Raven raised a brow, "You don't believe me?"

Rolling his eyes Beast Boy grinned, "Come on Raven, you hide it well, but something is bothering you. You seem... distracted. That usually means something is on your mind."

"No it doesn't," Raven insisted

Beast Boy opened the door to his room, "You're one of my best friends, I know you better than you think. You have these subtle quirks. Usually you get them when you think no one's looking. Right now they tell me something is bothering you," He shrugged, "I know whatever it is, you probably don't want to talk about it. That's OK. But you know, if you ever do... well I'll listen."

"Thanks," Raven replied. Wow. You really do know me. You're smarter and more observant than I used to give you credit for. I just wish that I realized it sooner than I did. I just wish I could show you how I feel. I love you Beast Boy, more than you can ever know. Raven put her hood up over her head as her ability to remain stoic slowly began to diminish. She felt the moisture of a tear falling down her cheek again. Damn it, since when do I start crying? Get a grip Raven. When she was absolutely sure Beast Boy wasn't looking she wiped it away.

Beast Boy went to his desk, "Check this out Raven." He picked up a heart shaped box. "Do you think Terra will like this?"

Raven subconsciously grabbed her cloak, feeling slightly nauseous from jealousy, "Uh, I don't know. I guess." It's beautiful. She will love it. I wish you made it for me.

"You don't seem sure?"

"I think it's lovely," Raven replied, trying to erase the selfish thoughts out of her mind.

"Thanks," Beast Boy beamed.

"Why do you want my opinion anyway? Like I said before, I don't know what Terra would like. We really don't have much in common." Raven pointed out.

Beast Boy didn't seem to listen. He was inspecting the box, and began touching up on the detail. "Do you think Terra likes me?" he asked out of the blue.

Raven jumped. Though it was slight, he looked at her curiously. Raven was clearly at a loss as to what to say. Her selfish side wanted to say 'no' in the hopes that maybe, just maybe Beast Boy would give up on Terra, but she again forced herself to resist the temptation. "I...I don't know. You know, I'm really not the person to ask."

Beast Boy frowned, "Come on Raven. You're an empath right? Doesn't that mean you know how people are really feeling? Does Terra like me or not?"

"My empathy powers don't work that way," Raven said coldly.

"You still don't like her do you?" his eyes narrowed.

"Can we not start that again?" Raven asked.

"Fine, but let me ask you something. Why don't you like her? What has she done to you? Huh?" To Raven he sounded unnaturally harsh, but sadly she figured he would get defensive when it came to the girl he loved.

What has she done? Only helped me realize I have feelings for you. She only pointed out the fact that you liked me once. She only stole your heart, taking you away from me. She only reminds me every day that she is everything I can never be and more. "Nothing. She did nothing. We just don't see eye to eye. That's all," Raven said quietly. Another tear threatened to escape, she looked away. There was an awkward silence. "And for the record... I think Terra..." Don't say it. Don't say it. It's not her fault she's so wonderful. You're just being selfish Raven. Think of Beast Boy... think of his happiness. Just because I don't trust her doesn't mean I should bring it up, certainly not now that I'm leaving.

"You think Terra what?" he asked, perking up slightly, but he gave her a wary look, like he knew what she was going to say.

"I think Terra..." she hesitated, "does like you," Raven replied finally. She really did think so.

Beast Boy's eyes lit up in a way that made Raven's heart want to melt, "Really?"

Raven nodded, though it hurt her to do so. But it was the right thing to do. They really are perfect for each other.

Beast Boy looked light, as though he was walking on air, "Too cool! Oh Raven thank you! You're the best!"

"Um...thanks?"

"I was so worried that Terra might not really like me, but now that you said that... dude this is so cool, because now that I know Terra likes me, I'm going to ask her out on a date tonight!" Beast Boy exclaimed.

Raven lurched at the word 'date' and the box Beast Boy made for Terra suddenly fell apart in a fizzle of black energy.

"Oops," Raven muttered, red in the face.

"What did you do that for?" Beast Boy asked, looking as if she had blown up his heart instead. He picked up the pieces and inspected them.

"I am so sorry," Raven whispered, clapping a hand over her mouth. "Let me fix it." She reached for the mirror part that went inside.

"I got it," Beast Boy snatched it away as he spoke, placing emphasis on all his words. Raven felt overwhelmed with guilt, it took everything she had to control herself to keep from accidentally doing it again. Beast Boy looked over the damage and relaxed. "It doesn't look too bad. A bit more glue, and new hinges, it will almost look as though nothing happened. I'll have to trash the little compartments that went inside, but I don't think Terra will know they were ever there."

Raven shook her head, "I'm really sorry. Please... I can fix it."

"You've done enough," Beast Boy said quietly.

Ouch. "It was an accident."

He looked her in the eyes. His expression gave an odd mixture of accusation and sympathy. To Raven, he seemed unsure what to think, he quickly looked away and said quietly, "I know." Though he was clearly confused, he sounded angry. Raven couldn't blame him, and that only made her feel worse.

"I...I have to go...meditate," Raven said softly, before dashing out of his room. This time he didn't call out after her.

A/N, Well, I hope you all enjoyed. Sorry it took so long to update. I hope y'all will check out my other stories too!

Have a Happy Halloween!