Dusty's POV

I told Sierra my suspicions; I told her how I found it odd that they moved Lucy's body so soon. See I remember when Rose passed away. They had to prep her for transfer, and that took time. They moved Lucy too soon.

"Are you sure Dusty, I mean if Lucy is alive I would like to know." Sierra wanted nothing more then for her daughter to be safe and sound. At home with Nicole and me.

"I can feel her Sierra, I know you may not believe in cosmic...or whatever you call it relationships, but I do and I believe that Lucy is alive. I feel her. I sense her. She's out there, and I'm determined to find her." I tell her as I go back into the NICU. I look down at my daughter.

"She's strong. Both of my girls are." I tell Sierra.

"Of course they are, they're both Walsh's." Sierra laughed.

"I don't know what I'd do if I were to lose both of them. There is a part of me that has this inkling that both of them are going to leave me, I mean look at all the other people in my life. My mother died because of me. Rose died..."Before I could finish she had interrupted me.

"None of those were your fault, and Lucy getting shot and Nicole that's not your fault." Sierra tried to reassure me that I could not have predicted what would have happen. I prefer to think otherwise however. I know it was my fault.

"You're wrong Sierra if I hadn't gotten involved with Eleanor Hedrick Lucy wouldn't have gotten kidnapped, she wouldn't have gotten shot, she wouldn't have been fighting for her life and Nicole would still be in Lucy waiting to be born in a few months, but instead she's in that Incubator fighting for her life with every thing she has in that little body of hers."

Sierra laughed a little. "Dusty you were involved with the woman years before you even met my daughter. You could not have predicted that she would come back and did what she did. So stop blaming yourself."

"Sierra don't you understand. Everything I touch gets hurt or leaves."

"So what your gonna give up on them, Dusty I know you. I know how determined you can be."

"Maybe that determination went away when Lucy did."

"Your not even gonna look for her."

"What's the point? I'll just destroy her again; she's better off without me." I say and for some odd reason I actually believe myself.

"Dustin Donovan you stop feeling sorry for yourself, pick your self up "Sierra began to urge me on. "You find my daughter; you find the love of your life. If you believe she is alive then I believe you, but I will not let you give up on her do you understand?"

I looked at Sierra with shock. I chuckled a little, why was I so surprised. "You know what Sierra you're right, I have to find Lucy no matter what the cost.

Tbc... so how will Dusty find Lucy?