Disclaimer: I don't own 'Yu-Gi-Oh!' and all lyrics belong to Evanescence.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
I can't look at anything anymore without thinking about the last time I saw you. You stood before the crowd, more brave then I could ever be. I stood in shock, though in my heart I felt like running to you and holding you in my arms. But what happened next tore me apart, and ripped me to shreds.
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
I still see you in my dreams. I'm in a large valley, and the sun is shining. Then, you appear, smiling the special smile you save for me. You beckon for me to follow you, and you lead me to a place of pure happiness, where we can forget about the world. I'm happy, until I wake up and remember that you're gone.
I returned to the future. I felt like you wanted me to go back. I thought it was because you wanted me to deliver the news, as no one else probably would. But I realize now that it was so that there'd be someone to comfort me in my time of need. Needless to say, you were right. I'm appreciating those I've hated for so long.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
This is my first time going back here by myself. I hold some carnations in my hand as I walk along the concrete path. I'm trying to keep myself from crying, but I can feel the tears well up behind my eyes.
I wish you were here right now, to hold me and kiss me and love me. But I guess if you were here, I wouldn't need that. But you could do it anyways.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
For most of the time we spent together, I was led to believe that I was the stronger one. I could rule your life exactly the way I wanted to, and you wouldn't lift a finger. But after I've seen what you did back there; back then, I've decided that maybe you could've taken control. You just didn't want to.
I always thought I was the one saving you from almost certain death, but I was mistaken. You were the one who saved me. Not from the demons of the Shadow Realm, but from the most dangerous person of all: myself.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your friends have stopped grieving, although I haven't. I never expected them to me in mourning that long, after all, I was closer to you then anyone else. At night, when I'm alone, thinking about you, a blame myself. I was the one who left you to fend for yourself. I thought you could handle it, and you could. It was me who couldn't.
Since you've been gone I've been a shell. A ghost, moving from one place to the next, trying to pretend like nothings wrong. It's been my mission, but it's one that I keep failing over and over again. I know you wouldn't have wanted it like that. You would've wanted me to move on, and live my life like I always said I would. But some things are just not meant to be.
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
They've tried to get me to see other people. A few of the guys have even volunteered themselves, but I just can't. I can't bare the thought of forgetting you, though I know that will never happen. You were the largest part of my life. You made me whole. And your memory will always stay with me.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I've realized something, in the time that you've been gone. I never really saw how much you really touched my life. I'm beginning to act like you so much it's scary. It doesn't surprise me, though. After all, you're still living in me, somewhere deep in my heart.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
As I stand here in the rain, I try to replay our last moments together in my head. You walked out of the crowd, your head upright. It was like you were an angel, though I know that they are myths. You boldly defied the pharaoh. Then you did something that shocked us all. You insisted on taking my place if I could go free. I'm not even sure now how you managed to travel back and find me, but I regret ever letting you lay down your life for me.
In truth, I was surprised that the pharaoh agreed to it. It's not like you compare to me, when examining all the bad things I've done. But soon enough, I was pushed into the crowd and watched you die. Although I know that my eyes must have deceived me, I thought that I saw your spirit leave your body, even before the cold blade fell upon your skin. I hope that was the case. I can't bare to think that you suffered any pain.
I remember after your head rolled away from your body, and the ground was soaked in your blood, everyone was silent. Still. Unbelieving.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Now I stand here at your grave, tears streaming down my face, mixing with the rain. I remind myself of all the times we shared together, and all our love.
Reading the inscription on your stone, which I picked out specifically for you, I realize that it doesn't fit you. It says that you were a beloved friend. You were more than that. You were my light. You were my angel.
As I said in the note I left you, "We will be together." I mean it; it just might take a little longer then anticipated.