Ok so its been a little while but finally im here! and i know I keep saying things will be explained, but... well, other things carried me away.... explanations are coming very soon though I promise!! actually, there are some explanations in this, I forgot!! And i only have one more day of school so after that I'm free to write lots and lots and lots! Yay!
Dedicated to LaLaLaLaLa (sorry got carried away there for a second!) for being LaLa really!! :)
So here goes....... Arwen gets evil.... well, not really, you must understand that she's madly in love with him (as you know) and will do anything to..... sorry, I'll spoil it for you!! you'll probably hate me for this.... but dont flame me! focus on the good points!........On with the show!
Chapter 14
There was nothing Arwen could do to help, apart from sit with him and pray. So that's what she'd done. For days he had lain unconscious, dead to the world, and for days she had not left his side. She was the only one who didn't lose faith in him.
But now he was awake, and she didn't need to sit and pray. She helped him eat when he was too weak and supported him when he tried to walk. She talked to him and told him what had happened during his absence from the world, but not once did she call him by his name.
Estel or Aragorn. She had no idea which he wanted to be called by now. She didn't even know how he felt about his new found inheritance. For as much as she talked, he said nothing, only "please" and "thank you" and appropriate short phrases. She didn't want to be first to breach the awful question of "How are you feeling now that you've discovered you've been lied to all your life?"
And she was angry. Angry at her father, angry at herself, angry at the whole situation. She couldn't bare the fact that Estel-or-Aragorn had ended up in this state because she was naive enough to laugh at the truth. It was guilt above anything that she felt. If she had only been more understanding, would this have happened? Would he have been able to confide in her and let his feelings out, instead of facing them, confused and alone?
She wanted to ask him if he blamed her for everything, as well she thought he should, but somehow she felt she ought to avoid the whole subject until he was ready to talk.
When would that be though? It had been over three days since he woke up, three days of awkward silences and stolen glances whilst the other was not looking.
And there was another tense subject: their love.
Arwen had prayed that their one day of revelations and passion had not just been a memory that he'd rather forget, but the first of many such occasions. She loved him more than anyone else, and the words she had spoken at The Place were one hundred percent the truth. To see him unwell and confused hurt her beyond anything she could imagine.
But she was also confused. Would it hurt him to see her unwell?
What she really meant was: did he mean what he had said? Did he love her? Or were his words just spur-of-the-moment, seize-the-moment words, meant to make her feel better, used to cover up something he didn't want to reveal?
What were words anyway? Formations of letters, symbols, a way in which to try and describe emotion, illustrate feelings, recount tales and tell stories. Words were cheap. They said a lot and yet meant little if the speaker of such words had no idea what he was saying.
Was this what Estel-now-Aragorn had done? What he had not understood?
If this was the case, Arwen had one last way to persuade him otherwise. She loved him like no other, and if he would not, or could not, commit to spending the rest of his life with her, she knew she would eventually die in this world, cold, afraid and alone.
It wasn't blackmail, not really. It was just.... well, whatever it was, it would work. She needed him to save his life, as she had saved his. She had made the biggest sacrifice an Elf could make - her immortality for his life. And if he wasn't in her debt now, she didn't know the meaning of the word.
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So you all hate me now right?? Sorry! fluff will return.... soon, I promise doubly this time!!
Thank yous:
I'd just written individual thank yous to everyone but then the computer went weird and I hadn't saved them.... aargh!... so I'm being lazy now and saying thank you to: Cerridwen, ME132, Tinuviel Undomiel, Strider's Girl, Evenstar Dreams, Shiva-dragon, ArwenElfstone, Valia-Elf and The true Evenstar (in no particular order!)
THANK YOU!!