Kelsie walked over to her friends the next day before school, with a big smile on her face. It was like yesterday never even happened, as if it was all a dream. Her friends were lost, how could she be happy after losing someone she loved?

"Hey you guys, what's up?" she asked with an upbeat tone. While her friends looked at her as if she was crazy, as if she was an alien.

"Kels…we didn't expect you to be here today," Paige said, still trying to understand what was going on.

"Why?" acting like she didn't know the reason to that question.

"Well for one your boyfriends just died," Ashley pointed out a little rudely.

"We all die sometime, that's life." Rolling her eyes, "It's not a big deal. I just have to go on and live my life."

"But it's only been a day since you found out," Paige reminded her. Trying to get her to open up, to get her to really talk to her.

"Yeah, but what's the point of crying over it, it's not going to change anything," she roared, getting mad that they were pestering about this.

Her friends looked at each other, while she went on. They didn't know what to say to help her. They really started to worry now this wasn't normal behavior. How do you help someone who acts like nothing happened, denying that you're not okay?

"Well I have to go meet with a couple of my teachers on what I missed yesterday, talk to you later," she said as she walked off.

"Guys she's not acting normal, she in a state of shock. This is worse than I thought," Paige stated looking at Kelsie as she walked down the hall, hoping that she would be able to get over this so she could properly grieve.

"How can she just act like that so soon?" Jimmy asked, knowing that it didn't seem normal.

"Probably because she thinks if she mourns then it will become reality. I don't think she wants to come to terms with it, she not ready to let him go," Ellie said. Knowing how it felt when she lost her father in the war.

"Poor girl," Paige said leaning on her locker, she felt like she was going to cry for her. She hated to see how far she was pushing herself to be okay. She just wanted to go to her, and tell her to let it all out.

"She'll come around, just give her time," Marco said.

"What if she doesn't? What if she just turns into a totally different person?" Paige asked as tears slid down her cheeks, not wanting to lose her best friend.

Spinner walked over to her and pulled her into his arms, rubbing her back, "Paige it's going to be alright, I promise."

"I just don't want to lose her. If she keeps this all bottled up, she's going to turn away from everything and us. She's become like one of my best friends," she cried. "It's just so hard to watch her like this."

"We'll all make sure that doesn't happen," everyone nodded to agree.

During the next few weeks, things only got worse. Nobody seemed to know how to reach her. Every time they tried, she would just say that she was fine, or make a reason to leave. Thursday after school, Paige decided to go and talk to Kelsie about the way she had been acting all week. This had really effected her behavior; she wasn't the same person anymore. She was someone that none of her friends was fond of anymore. They didn't even want to be around her with the new attitude of hers; she seemed to make friends with some not so great people.

Paige walked up to her while she was talking to James, a senior in the hallway by her locker. She tapped her on her shoulder, "Can I talk to you Kelsie?"

"Yeah," you could hear annoyance in her tone.

"In private," she said firmly, glaring at James.

"I'll talk to you tomorrow night," Kelsie said to James.

"What's with you?" she asked.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean this new attitude of yours."

"There's nothing wrong with it!" she said rudely, offended that she even suggested that.

"Then why do you act like it never happen, that he never existed," trying to get her to open her eyes, let out any kind of emotion.

"Is me moping around going to bring him back?" she shouted, trying to defend her actions.

Paige just stared at her, and felt like crying, thinking that she wasn't the same girl anymore. " No," she said silently.

"I didn't think so. So if you wouldn't mind excusing me, I really need to get to The Dot to meet a few people," she said turning on her toes, flipping her hair back, and rolling her eyes.

This wasn't the girl Paige knew a couple weeks ago this girl was a BITCH. Someone that Paige didn't particularly like at this moment. Was it all hopeless, had they really lost her? Paige didn't know how much longer they could keep on trying to get her back before enough was enough for them. Just thinking of this made Paige cry again, it seem like that was all she had done this past few weeks.

Friday night had come and there was a big party at James's house. Kelsie was ecstatic about the party. This is just what she needed to forget about Chris. She came in a knock out outfit, a yellow backless shirt, with a real short light green skirt. She wanted to look hot tonight in hopes to make herself feel better, to take away the pain she seemed to hide behind inside. She wanted to anything to forget.

Kelsie spotted James as she walked in and strolled right over to him, "Hey."

"Hey, I'm so glad you came," he said putting his arm around her waist, bringing her closer to him.

"So am I," she smirked.

"I've wanted to ask you out for months, but I thought you were going with that Craig dude," he said, gazing at her.

"Oh that guy…no never," she laughed. Not in his lifetime, she thought, he's caused enough damage for a lifetime.

"Good," he said leaning in and kissed her on the lips. She opened her mouth to allow him more access. He grabbed her hand, and started to lead her towards the stairs.

Kelsie stopped him, putting her hand on his chest, "Why don't we do a couple of shots first?" If she was going to have sex with him, she didn't want to have to remember anything, the thought sickened her, but at least she could focus on something else, but this guilt she had inside.

"Alright, anything you want," he said kissing her on her neck.

When Craig walked in the front door he saw Kelsie flirty with James, she had a vile of tequila in between her boobs, and a lime in her mouth. He slowly licked the salt off her neck, took the vile from in between her breast, and then took the lime from her mouth. Soon James started kissing her hard on the lips, crushing them, pushing her up against the wall, putting his hand up her skirt. Just watching this sickened him.

When James decided, they needed to go somewhere more private, so that he could do things to her. He started to lead her through the crowd towards the stairs again. Craig saw this, and was outraged; she wasn't the Kelsie he knew a few days ago. He wasn't going to let this happen, not when he knew it was so wrong, he went up to her, pushed James away from Kelsie, grabbing her by the arm, taking her up to one of the rooms to talk.

"So you're the jealous type?" she said seductively putting her arms around his neck, kissing his lips forcing him to kiss her back. He began to respond to the kiss, I mean who wouldn't when they were in love with the person.

Stopping the kiss, and tearing her arms off from around his neck. "Kelsie, why are you doing this?" It took a lot of will power to stop it, but he knew it wasn't right.

"Don't you want me; isn't that what you said in your song?" she sneered, getting up in his face.

"You know I do, but not like this, not while you're still hurting. Not when this isn't really what you want," trying to break through the big wall she had put up.

"I feel nothing, I'm just numb," she yelled.

"So you just throw yourself at guys?"

"Go to Hell!" she shouted heading for the door. Who was he really to point a finger at, I bet he's done things he regretted, she thought.

"Doing this isn't going to make you forget," he yelled.

Kelsie stopped in her tracks, turning around to face him, "Why him? Chris didn't deserve to die; he had so much to live for. He had a bright future ahead of him he was going to school to be a doctor; he really wanted to help people, especially kids. But no, he's not ever going get to do that," she screamed in anger that he had been taken so early, taken from her, tears came flowing down like a river.

Craig gazed upon her, and brushed the tears away from her cheek, "I know how hard this is; I lost my mother, and my father. When I went through this, I tried to kill myself. I wanted the pain to go away so bad, but I had a friend helped me see that wasn't the way."

Kelsie sat on the bed, feeling so helpless, "What am I going to do without him, he believed in me when I didn't even believe in myself. Who's going to believe in me now?"

Craig sat beside her on the bed, draping his arm around her shoulder, bringing her closer to him, "There are other people that believe in you."

"Like who?" looking up at him.

Looking into her eyes, "Like me."

"You do," she asked looking up at him.

"Why else would I have gotten you to sing at your party?"

Kelsie laid her head on his shoulder, looking at her ring, with her hand out, "He gave me this ring for my birthday as a promise ring, but I don't feel like I even deserve it."

"Why?"

Kelsie stood up, looking back at him, "Because I cheated on him, and never found the courage to even tell him. When I was there, he knew something was wrong, but I told him it was nothing, that I was fine. I was scared how he might react, I loved him so much!"

"I can see that now, I'm sorry for saying that you were lying," he said holding her in his arms, stroking her hair.

"I know you are," taking a deep breath, "but you weren't totally wrong."

Stunned by what he just heard, "What do you mean?"

"I was drawn to you, we were so similar to each other, and you seemed to understand me just like my boyfriend did, but I had to ignore it because Chris was who I wanted to spend my life with."

"Wow," he was amazed to hear those words, but now wasn't the time to really talk about that.

"Before I left Vancouver we were talking about when he moved here how much better it would be, that we would never be apart from each other again."

"Nothing ever happens how we would like it; just remember that he loved you," trying to help her feel better.

"I don't know how to move on without him…I'm scared."

"Your friends will help you through this; we'll be your shoulder to cry on, day or night. I know Paige wants to help real badly."

Kelsie stared at the ground, "I was so horrible to her these last few weeks; she probably hates me now, especially after the scene yesterday."

"If you apologize then I think you guys can get through it," knowing that Paige longed for the old Kelsie to come back.

"Thanks!"

"Now after you left for Sechelt the boys and I were talking, and they would love it if you joined our band as a vocalist, and guitarist." He was hoping that it would get her mind off the bad.

"That would be awesome, a perfect way to honor Chris," remembering the many times he would beg her to play a song for him.

"Why would that be?"

"He would be so proud to know that I finally showing my talent. He was always trying to get me to sing for everyone,"

Hearing her say that made him a little sad. He loved her, but knowing that she didn't love him back hurt. "Yeah, and maybe it will help you get your mind off things."

"I'm forever grateful to you for getting me out of the rut I was in. I don't think I would have gotten out of it without someone really pushing me as you did. I mean I tried to get out, but then I kept thinking of the guilt I felt, and it made me just want all the pain to go away. The more I was mean and not myself, the more I felt numb."

Craig smiled, "You know I would do anything you."

"Yeah I do," she leaned up and kissed him the lips, "You're my best friend, and I couldn't ask for a better one. Now we probably should go back downstairs before someone starts to think something happened between the two of us," she joked, nudging him.

"It wouldn't be that bad for people to think," he joked.

"You're bad," she shoved him.

"Yeah I know," he grabbed her hand; they walked out the door, down the stairs.