Craig walked up to the school to see Kelsie with a big smile on her face. All the joy he felt last night had gone away. Kelsie greeted him at the front of the school the next day with a kiss. He felt he should tell her that he told Jimmy and Spinner about Satine. He felt so guilty for betraying her trust.

Craig backed away from the kiss, "Don't."

"Craig, what's the matter?" Not understanding why he backed away. They had made up last night, so what was up with this.

"I…need to tell you something," with dread in eyes.

"What is it?"

"I did something real stupid," putting his head down in shame.

"If it doesn't involve you cheating on me, I don't really care."

"No I have to tell you this." Grabbing a hold of her hands, "I was talking to the boys yesterday, telling why you were mad at me. And without thinking I told them about you losing Satine."

Kelsie slapped him across the face. "How dare you bring MY daughter into this? You had NO RIGHT!" she said with tears running down her face.

"I never meant to do it to hurt you."

"Of course not! You have an excuse for everything."

"You wine to me about opening myself up to others, but you can't even do it yourself."

"You've never lost a child, so you just wouldn't understand."

"You know what, that's where you're wrong," he sneered.

As he said that, she turned around to face him. "What?"

Drawing closer to her, "Manny got pregnant, but in the end she aborted it. She didn't even care what I thought about it. She didn't care that I actually wanted to be a father. No she only thought about why she didn't want it."

Feeling real bad for what she had said, "I'm sorry," Putting her hand on his cheek, "I didn't know."

"I know. I never told anyone how much I wanted it. It would have been my family, at the time I felt I didn't have one or least wasn't part of one."

Looking into his eyes, "I miss her the most when seeing other parents with their children playing and laughing."

"I get sad when I see how Joey is with Angela. I wonder if I would be like that with mine."

"I always wonder what kind of mother I would've made." Grabbing his hand, "I know you would've made a great dad."

His eyes widened, "Really."

"Yeah, I've seen the way you are with Angela. The way she looks at you with so much love. She really admires you."

"I love her dearly. She reminds me a lot of my mom. She looks like her, and even acts like her at times," he smiled.

"See what I mean."

Backing away from her, "I'd understand if you don't want to see me again after what I did. I guess what everyone says about me is true, I wreck everything I touch."

Kelsie didn't like the way he was talking about himself. Yeah he wrecked things, but he had done many wonderful things too. She closed the gap between them, "Craig, everyone makes mistakes, that's a part of life."

"Yeah, but mine are usually bigger then most."

"Craig you were right I should share my daughter with my friends. I was just afraid that they would judge me since I was so young."

"If they can get past what I did, then I think they can get through this," rubbing her back.

"I guess you're right. How about we start this relationship on a clean slate? I mean we love each other and both still want to work on it, so why not start out new."

"I agree, and from now on no keeping any secrets from each other."

"Yeah, now let's finish what I started," grabbing on to his shirt, bringing him closer for a kiss.

At lunch, Kelsie decided to take Ashley and Paige out, off the school grounds. It was time she let them know her little secret, a secret she had been hiding since she walked through the doors of Degrassi.

They went to the nearest coffee shop to school, and sat outside on the little porch provided. It was a nice day out, the sun was shining, and it was quite warm.

"This is nice being without the guys for once. Sometimes we just need some time away from them," Ash said.

"I agree," Paige said.

"Okay I brought you here because I wanted to talk to you."

"What about?" Ashley asked.

"When I came to Degrassi I held a few secrets."

"Like what?"

"When I was 15, I found out I was pregnant. I wasn't even finished gr 10 at that point, I was unsure about what I was to do or even how Chris would react"

"Oh my," Paige said putting her hand over her mouth.

"Well Chris told me that he really wanted us to keep it, that after we graduated we would get married and become a real family. When he said that I knew he really loved me. He was very supportive going to every appointment with me, went and bought me anything I needed them."

"That was sweet of him," Ash replied.

"Yeah, when I was about 6 1/2 months pregnant, I got real fed up at my parents."

"Why?" Paige asked.

"See they had just started at this big law office about a year prior, once they started working there they took a lot of cases that kept them from being at home all the time, leaving me alone a lot. Nevertheless, sometimes Chris would stay over, other nights I would stay at his house. Chris's mom wanted to go over there and tell them a piece of her mind, but I made her promise not to. However, I had finally had enough with it, with a baby coming on the way I need as much support as I could get. So one night I decided to have a chat with them. I started to tell them how I felt, but they didn't seem to really listen. We got in a big argument over it, that's when I went into premature labor. We had Chris meet us at the hospital. However, in Sechelt their hospital isn't that good for this kind of situation so they had to fly me off to Vancouver. Chris came with me. They tried to prolong the birth, but nothing they tried just seemed to work. I gave birth to a beautiful girl, Satine Lacy Mewhort. Neither of us got to hold her before she was rushed off in the incubator. Chris never left my side from there on. We would go visit her everyday. A month later well we were visiting her, her heart stopped. They tried all they could, but she was just too weak," a tear came down her cheek as she remembered that fateful day.

"Oh Hun, I'm so sorry," Paige said, seeing the pain in her eyes. "This must have been so hard to tell us."

"Yeah," she gave a slight smile.

"Kelsie this must have been so hard," Ash said.

"It was at first, but Chris was so great about it. We helped each other grieve together. After all this, I took the rest of the school year off. Then I was told that I was leaving the only person I truly loved, but also the only connection I had left of my daughter," more tears rolled down.

"No wonder you reacted the way you did when he died."

"And thanks to Craig I got through it." Wiping her tears away, "Why hadn't anyone told me that Craig was going to be a father before Manny got rid of it?"

"We didn't think it was our place to say," Paige replied.

"I understand that," Kelsie said.

"So have you guys made up?" Ash asked.

"Yeah last night, but then we had a fight this morning because he told the boyz about Satine."

"What a little jerk!" Paige remarked.

"We talked it out though. It's was kind of both our faults."

"How's that?" Paige asked, not wanting her to be fooled by him.

"I said pretty hurtful things in the first fight. In addition, he told me that it wasn't that he told them about Satine to hurt me. He just wanted them understand my point of view of why I was angry at him."

"Just like boys, always thinking that they can get away with anything."

"Plus I'm not ready to give up on him. I love him. The only reason I'll dump him at this moment is if he cheats on me."

"I hope that doesn't happen, I know how it feels, and it isn't good," Ashley replied.

"I don't think he will. He seems to be different with Kelsie then he was with you or even Manny," Paige exclaimed.

"I know, since she's arrived I've seen such a difference."

"So I told her that I told you guys about her daughter," Craig explained as he sat down at the table in the cafeteria.

"So how did she react?" Spin asked.

"At first a little yelling, but after I told her that I lost a child too, she seemed a little more understanding, and willing to talk it out."

"That's good you guys are good for each other. You have helped each other in so many ways. With you she helped you open you heart. I've never seen such great music come out of you since she came. With her, you have made her see she can love again. She has so much joy in her now, and passion," Jimmy said.

"Thanks!" blushing a little, smiling down at his plate.