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"I dig my toes into the sand

The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across the sand

I lean against the wind,

Pretend that I am weightless

And in this moment I am happy

Happy…"

Leaning against the wall behind her Starfire drew in a deep breath attempting to calm her emotions. She hated to be sad, despised even, and hated even more to make sadden others. It was not in her frame of mind to worried, or depressed. Sure, she had worried for others, but worrying for herself was something she rarely took part in. When she was sad every fiber of her being ached with depression. For, similar (and yet strikingly different) to Raven's powers, Starfire was ruled by emotion. Every emotion was a thousand times intensified.

Subtle pain cut like knives, depression coursed through her body in heart-wrenching waves. One moment could cause a torrent of happiness to tear madly through her, anguish destroyed her, leaving her broken and torn. Fury ripped from her and left all in its wake shaking openly with terror… love poured over her with reckless abandon. Although both fury and love were rare with Starfire both had happened, and both brought with them terrible consequences.

Love, for Robin, had hit her recently. Fury she had felt only once. A long, long time ago. Her fury in that moment had both cursed and blessed her. Cursed her with an unforgiving past, blessed her with a chance to start anew. She did not think of that fateful day often, on the contrary she had all but banished it from her head; however her excursion to her home planet had resurrected the long repressed memory that thrived in the back of her mind.

Closing her eyes tightly she fought to forget the memory that threatened to override her emotional system. Unable to hold it off any longer she took a shaky breath and allowed the grief of her past to wash over her.

It stood out vividly against her mind, each detail perfected, even after all the years of denying it's truth. It distorted her senses, brought back everything that had happened that horrific day. Suddenly she could hear the screams, feel the terror as body after body plummeted to the ground. The stench of sweat, blood, and burning flesh was everywhere, polluting the air, and causing her head to spin. Once again she felt the rage coursing through her bones.

She opened her eyes and slumped to the floor sobbing. It scared her, anger, scared her so much that she attempted to pretend that there was no such thing. She fought it so hard, because every time she felt it rise up inside of her it destroyed. Not just little things, like the occasional destruction of piece of furniture, but big things- huge- things. Lives. She hid it from everyone, and pretended to be happy all the time. Not that her happiness was in anyway fake, no, she was by nature a very happy person, however no one could possibly stay as happy as she appeared to. No one knew the truth. No one, that is, except for Raven. Raven had learned her secret when they had swapped bodies, just as she had learned Raven's. Neither of them would tell the others, and neither of them would talk about it.

Star closed her eyes once more, this time out of exhaustion. She slowly slid farther down on the floor, her strength gone for the time being, as she drifted to sleep.

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Robin stood just outside of Starfire's room. He took a deep breath, his determination to apologize diminishing quickly. I have to… if we don't clear this up it could end up disrupting the flow of the team Robin desperately tried to convince himself that any nervous feelings he had were because of the team and slowly raised his fist to knock on the door.

The sound of the knock reverberated throughout the hall. He waited a few seconds while unconsciously rubbing the back of his neck. When he didn't hear any movement from the pretty alien's room he knocked again.

"Star?" He called softly, "Star, you there?" He ran a hand through his hair and leaned against her door. "Look, Star- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to- I mean I did but- it wasn't supposed to… I wasn't thinking--" Taking a deep breath he started over, "What I meant to say was, I'm sorry, it was an accident. I didn't mean anything by it." God I'm a bad liar—NO!! That's the truth; it was a moment of weakness. It didn't mean anything

Still not hearing her respond to any of his awkward ramblings he groaned and leaned his head against the wall before turning around and placing a gloved hand on her door. He slid it open cautiously and, with one sweeping glance, took in the state of her large pink (a/n: I think ((hehe that rhymes)) ) room. Something had happened; it looked like Raven had gotten angry at it. A chair lay in a charred heap in one corner. Hundreds of tiny pieces of glass littered another along with the barely recognizable frame in which the pieces had once made a mirror.

Nervously he ran into the room, relaxing once he found Starfire. Her face was tear stained and red, her body curled tightly. Robin heard a sharp intake of breath and jerked his head back up to her face. Tears streamed down her crimson cheeks, and a tiny sob escaped from her mouth as her body shook. She tossed and turned on the ground before crying desperately, "Kak'ru!" then screaming slightly and digging her nails into Robin's arm. He winced and out of reflex grabbed her wrist. Her eyes snapped open and she whispered, "Robin…" before collapsing in his arms.

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Sorry for the cliffy, and again I' m very sorry about how late this is. I promise the next chapter will be longer and come much faster.

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