Tales of an InuTaishou Chapter 3, an inuyasha fanfic

Tales of an InuTaishou

BellaDiva16

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha

Italics: indicate journal entries

'Breathe in…'

'Breathe out…' she thought. The night still surrounding her being as she pulled her sleeping bag closer to her body, she shivered although having the heavy warmth on her body.

Kagome looked at the now sleeping Inuyasha with an unease she'd never known before. It was frightening to see what he'd done to those dragon youkai, but despite the fact that they would've ripped her apart if they'd gotten the chance, she felt almost an amount of underlying pity for them, seeing the way their bodies showered down in mutilated pieces. And the way Inuyasha just stood there with such a cold aura, practically turning everything he stared at to stone. Kagome couldn't even stare into his eyes when he approached her afterwards.

She could barely keep her eyes shut, images of that brutal murder flowing behind her closed eyes. And Inuyasha could barely keep his eyes open, falling asleep faster than her, a change in the usual. And Inuyasha was sleeping more peacefully than she'd ever seen a strange look of contentment alight on his slack face. But even that innocent expression still frightened her. After what she'd seen him do, she wasn't sure she'd ever feel so safe.

'All in one attack.' Was the only thought running through her still anxious mind.

Black.

All he could see was a warm black. Nothing heard and nothing seen, to say the least he was getting little worried until a warm soothing voice broke through the calm.

'He is beautiful.'

'Yes, he is. As are you, love. I am glad you are safe.'

'Well, childbirth is painful, InuTaishou. Be grateful you do not have to worry about it.'

Such pacifying voices, and he almost felt himself fall asleep again with a heavy warmth on top of him, when he felt himself being picked up. He breathed in such a warm, memorable scent that made him yawn.

'He's so small, and look! He's yawning.'

He opened his eyes wide to see two massive figures staring down at him, him being grasped in the strong arms of his father and his mother standing on the other side. A happy grin was on his father's face, making his eyes gleam with a look of love, only seen in the presence of his small family.

'My son, Inuyasha.' He whispered before Inuyasha fell asleep again.

And many years later, in a time past that happiness, the adult hanyou woke up.

Inuyasha sat up, his calloused hands finding his eyes, trying to keep the fading memory from altogether leaving his mind. His father's smile, his mothers loving glance, he didn't want to lose that again. He sniffed, their warm memorable scent still lingering in his nostrils and he sat there for a moment just keeping that memory for an instant.

He looked up, sniffing again, sensing something missing from the room. Inuyasha scanned the room, finding the door open and Kagome's scent barely in the room, her sleeping bag mussed up but empty.

He got up from his position on the futon and moved out of the room to find the wench sitting there, her eyes shut, with a ring of darkness surrounding them, and her head leaning back. He knelt in front of her, his face parallel with hers.

She breathed deep and opened her eyes wide, finding two big amber eyes staring back at her.

'AHHHHHHHHHHH! Sit!'

'Argh!'

Kagome tightened up against the wall, pulling her knees into her body even more. It wasn't her fault, he scared the hell out of her and she had every right to sit him there and then.

Well, if the same scenario had happened yesterday, she doubted she would've sat him.

Inuyasha was groaning and just starting to pull himself off the floor when Kagome got up and started running down the hall.

'Oh no you don't.' he said as he finally pulled himself against the last nudges of power pulling him down and grabbed Kagome from fleeing. 'What is wrong with you? Why are you running?'

She averted her eyes, every time she looked at him seeing the glimpse of the cold demon that'd killed the youkai, and whimpered just to make him let go. But his grip on her arms was still there, a questioning expression on his face.

'She's scared of me. I've never seen her scared of me before.' Inuyasha thought, racing through his mind trying to find the cause of such distress. 'Oh…' he thought remembering the way she'd averted her eyes yesterday night, the same way she was now.

'Kagome?' he asked, slightly cocking her head upwards so their eyes met her eyes with an extra glimmer and his wide with uncertainty. 'I'm sorry. It wasn't supposed to be like that. I let my anger get the better of me and I promise it won't happen again.'

Her mouth opened a little, as he apologized for everything that had scared her the night before. She sniffed, not able to hold tears back any longer as she pulled him into an embrace, allowing all the weariness and anxiety to finally take a toll on her.

"16th day of Yayoi (November 1477)"

"30th day of Satsuki (December 1477)"

Sure, they'd found more of the scrolls, but there wasn't much different about them. The same old depression, the same blank entries, nothing changed. But Inuyasha was taking it scarily well, despite his actions beforehand. Of course, scaring Kagome was something Inuyasha didn't want to do, hating the way she stared at him at those moments.

And Myouga had started searching through each of the scrolls in the room individually, trying to find the last batch of scrolls because Myouga knew that InuTaishou wrote more than that afterwards his years of depression, estimating the days InuTaishou spent locked up in his scroll room to weeks at a time but writing nothing.

She rubbed her eyes, still tired from a night of unrest, but she couldn't deny the satisfaction of the new scrolls and Inuyasha had been rather sweet with her letting her sleep on his lap again.

But he still pretended that nothing had happened.

And now as she read over and over again the same words of idiotic demoralization and the lack of sleep she had attained, she was getting a little annoyed.

Five minutes later, she snapped.

'I am so sick of this.' Kagome yelled, causing Inuyasha's head to snap up with such force that any human would've had whiplash.

'If I have to read another one of those stupid wastes of paper, I am going to strangle myself.' She yelled pointing at the still massive pile of scrolls, despite reading for over an hour 'I am sick of this room and that stupid candle that was have to replace every hour, and I am sick of Myouga sucking my neck off.'

Inuyasha reached up and slapped the flea off the agitated girls neck, causing the girl to glare at him with such ice that Inuyasha could've sworn Sesshoumaru was staring at him.

Myouga, after having re-inflated, started speaking.

'My apologies, Kagome-sama, but I found it and you were promptly yelling at Inuyasha-sama and obviously occupied.' he said starting to bounce up and down on Inuyasha's hand eagerly, before flying off to avoid the hand that was about to smack down.

'How rude!' he muttered before jumping off and finding another group scrolls underneath a large stack of war documents.

As Kagome started reading, her face contorted into a look of confusion that turned to bitter annoyance, as she read the words.

"12th day of Shiwasu (December 1478)

She's here."

'Great!' Kagome said, flinging the scroll to the table, 'More wastes of time and good paper.'

Inuyasha picked up the scroll, and turned it around, showing her the amount of writing on the backside, causing Kagome to blush and snatch the scroll form his hands.

"12th day of Shiwasu (December 1480)

I can not believe it. She's here, under this very roof along with me again. And I am so happy that I could do anything now, but now all I want to do is be near her, hear her breathing, so I know she's alive and not just a figment of my mind.

She came yesterday, near to the fall of the sun, while I was still in here, for the millionth time trying to sum up words that I was certain would never come. But then I could hear the commotion set up in the main hall, and although brief snatches of conversation could only be heard, I heard a female voice whisper my name.

Now I don't know why, but if it was any other voice, I would've stayed where I was, sitting here, trying to find words to make my emotions alive. But I got up. And I went down to the main hall, slipping past the garden for the first time.

Opening the massive doors of the hall, I was more than ready to dismiss anyone making the noise.

Inside was the lone mate of the Lord of the Eastern lands, the lady Ai, the sister of my early mate, Hana. Although her sister was a swan youkai, she is a spider youkai, I don't know the connection but I have to admit a concubine would be an appropriate connection. Her mate had died mysteriously in the past year, leaving her alone with rule of the land that he inhabited. Although it should have gone to her son, he died mysteriously along with his father leaving no suitable heirs and demons willing to take over the lands.

I have no doubt in my mind that she was the one who mastered the deaths of both her mate and her pup.

But behind her was a dozen demon handmaids, well I thought they were demon at first.

"InuTaishou-sama' she said, extending her head in the slightest, her pure black hair pinned up with chopsticks and her eyes glinting with a horrible maliciousness.

I suppressed a shudder, as she licked her lips, and greeted her in the same fashion, but not bothering to extend any signs of respect for her. She has made moments of my years of ruling these lands not worth remembering and her disrespect for the elders is hard to stomach. And her disregard for my mother finalizes my feelings.

'I must demand a presence with your audience earlier tomorrow morning, it is of utmost importance.' she said.

I nodded and bade her to leave, instructing Aki, the bat youkai who helped me during the rebellion when I first met Izayoi, to lead them to a room on the other side of the castle, while I was on the opposite side. I wanted to be as far away from her as possible.

And she left just as suddenly as she came, but as her handmaidens followed her out, one stayed behind.

And then I saw her.

And everything, honestly everything stopped.

And all I could see was her in that light pink kimono, with beautiful butterflies patterning the bottom that I think would only look wonderful on her. And her eyes were still that beautiful purple color, and her hair was still raven black, and her smile still made me tremble. And her beauty seemed to only enhance with the years that I haven't seen her.

'InuTaishou-sama, I am very pleased to see you again.' she said, bowing low, not for the first time prostrating herself at my feet.

I was still in shock, I had not seen her for years and here was the human girl, daughter of an influential Daimyo, now a hand maiden to the mistress of the Eastern land.

She looked uncomfortable. 'Oh, I must apologize for my rudeness.' she said, her head still bowed 'I am Izayoi, the daughter of the former Daimyo. A few years past, you came to the court of my father's and reprimanded him of his treatment of the villagers.'

'I know who you are, Lady Izayoi.' I said, not recognizing my voice. She looked up and smiled, a blush fluttering on her cheeks, causing my mind to ache.

And then she shaded her eyes, their purple hue growing even lighter as they watered. And or the first time since I met her, I realized how young she really was. Barely younger than twenty winters. And she looked ever so much smaller when she was huddled on the floor like that.

Why I was thinking of such trivial things at the time, I will never know, but my mind was moving at a hundred paces a second, and all I could do was stare at her.

Izayoi looked at me, before bowing her head once again and leaving.

Leaving me still standing there, too far gone to complain."

"13th day of Shiwasu (December 1480)

Is it strange that wherever I go in my household, I find Izayoi or I can smell her scent?

That may be on account of me following her scent.

But at the end of the day, it was not as bad as I thought it might be.

Izayoi found me in here just as I was about to start writing this and she dropped this large scroll write in my lap, and by the time I looked up she was at the door again about to leave.

Here is the scroll she wrote:

"Shortly after you left, my father, although still rather afraid of your interference again, sought to find an alliance with another Daimyo to try and defeat you.'

I snorted with amusement, my happiness already starting to come back, getting an image of the stocky human who'd tried to overcome me. She smiled, a small titter escaped from her lips.

'Of course, he didn't have much luck. My father had always been horrid negotiator, but then he found another means to get alliances. Me.

I am far past my marriage date, but that is because my father has never bothered to find a marriage proposal for me, and has always taken the ones I have received with mere disregard.

So when he offered me for an alliance, he had many takers. Including the Lord of the Eastern Lands. However, my father didn't want to take that offer at all, not having good experience with demon Lords. Can you understand why?

And of course, that was where the trouble started.

When my father declined the offer, the Eastern Lord got angry. And killed my father.

Do not be sympathetic. He was a horrid human, and I am not proud to be related to him. But I must admit he was a better person than that lady who owns me now.

Afterwards, he brought me to his large dark castle in his lands and stuck me in the dungeons for a few days. The next time I got out was by the handmaidens of the Eastern Lord's mate. He'd died earlier apparently, but I was dazed with hunger. And she made me her hand maiden. For the last year I have been her servant, slave if you will. And she bade me come here to you with her and her assembly of maids.

I knew you were a lord, but I didn't know which district you ruled over. All the Lords came to mourn, but I never saw you and I lost hope that I would be alright.

But now, I've found you again.

And if I am right and you have missed me just as much as I have missed you, then you will be as happy as I am to see you."

It is strange, I have faced some of the fiercest demons in centuries and now feel a bit of fear, but a small human girl can make my voice weak and my head spin.

Strange. But if I really think about it, it seems so proper."

"20 the day of Shiwasu (December 1480)

This day did not turn out as well as the last few have.

The day after seeing Izayoi again, I got to speak to her, a few words and meeting in the garden briefly.

The next day, I was able to speak with her a little more.

By the third day, I was able to speak to her and we were able to walk again in the garden, just like the last time we did. She explained her position a bit more thoroughly. And I can say I smiled properly for the first time in years when I was around her.

But I should have known that it would be too hard to keep it from Ai's spies for long.

First, Ai came to me two days after her arrival and explained her reason for being here.

'An alliance is all I want.' she said 'It will only make it harder for the Southern and Northern lands to overcome us. And the humans in my land are quite a nuisance and I would not mind getting them off my hands.'

It amused me that she would think that, our territories being opposite each other. But I tried to keep that fact away from her and declined her offer of an arranged marriage.

And yet she still did not leave, every day trying to convince me that this alliance would be perfect, every day bothering me more and more.

And then she saw me with Izayoi one day, which was a costly mistake.

She came to me yesterday, bringing with her only Izayoi.

'InuTaishou-sama. Please allow me to once again ask for your assistance in the current matter at hand.' She said, not bothering showing any sign of respect and practically knocked down my grand hall doors.

'I see nothing wrong with my opinion, Lady Ai. It is rather unethical to be worrying about an alliance between opposite territories. Our territories do not even overlap at any rate so it would leave one territory with no rule.' I replied.

'You're outlook is unreasonable, InuTaishou. I do not like being reprimanded by a Lord half my age.' At this point, I knew she was getting frustrated but she would not leave.

'But that is not my problem,' she said, a malicious look coming into her eyes as she turned and looked at Izayoi who was staring at the ground. My stomach churned with anxiety. She would not hurt Izayoi, I would make sure of it. Ai pulled the chopsticks from her hair and flung them to the floor.

'Human, get them.' she said harshly, calling forth Izayoi, her eyes widening with nervousness. Izayoi walked over to where the chopsticks lay, almost broken, and picked them up gently, bringing them back to the angered youkai woman.

Ai glared at her and slapped her not bothering to pull in her claws and leaving a scratch on her cheek. Izayoi tried not to flinch, but failed when the lady slapped her again across the other cheek.

Well, I am not really sure if Ai slapped her again, because all I could see was red. I could barely hold it.

She pulled Izayoi up by the collar of her ragged kimono, obviously an old one and showed her to me. 'This wench has been disrespectful ever since I acquired her a year ago.' She shook her like a doll, making Izayoi's head shake unnaturally before she tossed her to the floor, making Izayoi's mouth open in a silent cry of pain and she was shaking with such an intensity it was like Ai was still shaking her.

I was struggling to keep myself in check, not wanting to hurt Izayoi.

Ai glared at me with such a malevolent smile, if I was not at risk of turning into a demon, I would have cowered.

'What should I do with her, oh Powerful InuTaishou-sama?'

'Touch her again and you will not live to take another breath.' Was all I could say as I pulled the traces of power to create my light whip and swung at her. She caught it and pulled it out of my grasp, making it disintegrate.

Ai sent a quiver of vibration towards Izayoi's crumpled form, making her face clench and her body tense. I moved towards her, cradling her still shaking form in my arms.

'Poor little InuTaishou.' Ai said, her eyes glinting, 'Can not stand seeing a broken human girl being tossed around?'

My claws extended and my fangs were bared and I growled at her, which only seemed to please her.

'You know Taishou, love is a sign of weakness.' Her eyes narrowed 'but loving a human, that is just pitiful.'

And then I snapped, my whole world turning a shade of red so dark it was almost black

Ai is gone, that I know for sure. Izaoyi was huddled in the corner of the room, her eyes blank and hollow, unseeing as she stared at me. When I moved towards her she cringed away from me, her eyes shut and her body curled even more towards herself.

That Izayoi was brought into this affair, I will be sorry for a long time.

"25th day of Shiwasu (December 1480)

It's settled; she is staying her at least for another few months. I do not want her to leave and eagerly settles her in; eagerly meaning asking her politely over and over again.

She accepted, although quite nervously, barely looking at me. I apologized but I know she is still quite tense around me because of the attack that happened.

But also I know Izayoi is nervous about staying here, half the inhabitants of the castle are human hating youkai, but there are some that tolerate her presence well enough. And I have ensured her safety for now, boding a death wish to anyone that touch her in a harmful way.

I am distressed that she is scared of me like that. Izayoi had never been afraid of me like that, but if I move close to her, she is worried I will attack her. Which I will never do.

"30th day of Shiwasu (December 1480)

Five days of her anxiety all over my household. I am not sure how long I can last with that.

"7th day of Mutsuki (January 1481)

Every day I wake up, I want to see her. And when I do see her, I never want her to leave.

I love being with her and I do not want her to leave. But her scared manner reminds me of a flight deer, and I still have not had a change to talk to her about it.

But I am scared for her safety even more than ever. I am having demons from all over my lands come and inquire about the human living in the castle now.

And some of them have been rather impertinent about their actions. They all seem to think that I have found a new mate, and more than half are upset about her human blood."

And so it went. Kagome was reading these scrolls, and although InuTaishou did not admit it at first, he was in love with Izayoi and falling even more and more in love with her everyday. And everyday, he waited for the type of freedom he had with her before showing his demon side to her.

Inuyasha couldn't be happier though, although upset about his parent's recent problems, he was ecstatic that they were back together again.

He was getting a kick out of every word, loving how real his parent's relationship was starting to be.

"15th day of Mutsuki (January 1481)

Here is how it went:

Izayoi was sitting in the garden, her legs folded beneath her as she stared at the fall of the sun and the rise of the moon. It took so much of my will to go and sit down next to her. Despite being almost two centuries older than her, she still causes my voice to shake.

She continued looking at the crimson sun as I sat at the tree opposite her and she sighed before starting to speak.

'It is so sad is it not?' she said quietly 'The moon kills the sun, its brother so it can rise, only to be killed the next morning by its own flesh and blood.' Izayoi's eyes were shaded and cold.

I looked at the ground, only to see her hand caressing circles into the now damp grass. If Izayoi looked beautiful in the day, she looked even more beautiful at night, with the sun's dying rays making her face glow and the newly appearing stars making her violet eyes sparkle. It was a magnificent thing to see.

'You killed her you know.'

I looked up; ready to argue my reasons but she stopped me with a small smile.

'I have to apologize for the way I was treating you. You were only protecting me.' She looked away 'And I got scared.'

'For the first time, I realized that you were not human. You could kill someone without having to worry about the consequences. You were different than me. And that makes everything so much more difficult.'

Izayoi moved closer to me, sitting on her knees in front of me, her eyes on mine.

'I hope you can accept that, I have, although begrudgingly. I hope we can still be friends.' She said, purple eyes light with worry.

I regarded her calmly, despite my harshly beating heart. 'Friends in my life are usually partners or people who serve me.' I said, pulling my eyes away from hers, as much as it pained me.

Her face fell. 'Those are not friends. Those are alliances and servants; I want to be your friend.' She said not unkindly but harsh enough to make me flinch inside.

I looked at her. 'Friends then?'

Izayoi smiled 'Friends.' Then she fell back on her knees, still smiling at me. When she sheepishly evaded her eyes, as I still watched her.

'I shall head back to my quarters then.' Izayoi said, brushing off her knees and getting up, the stars still reflected in her eyes. And she left.

A minute later, she came back and slumped down beside me and kissed my cheek, just below the lines decorating its frame. My eyes widened and she smiled at me, cupping my cheek with a tenderness. 'Thank you.' She whispered into my ear.

And I can say that I fell in love with her for a second time today.

"5th day of Kisaragi (February1481)

There is a demon here tonight who claims can make me new swords, Totosai. I think he can do it and I have welcomed him here to stay as long as he wants. And Izayoi has taken a liking to him so I can hardly complain.

He is making me my new swords now as I write. But he had to pry my two fangs from my mouth, without my will. Which was rather an unwanted event, but it made Izayoi laugh rather hard, and I like her when she laughs.

If the results are as good as Totosai claims they will be, I will be impressed.

Izayoi teased me about the loss of my fangs but I do not mind, but if any other being tried to do that their death would be inevitable. It is amazing what one little human can do to me. She makes me feel so honest and I never have to lie to her.

Izayoi seemed rather distracted today, from what I do not know, but I know something is bothering her. I just do not know what."

"24th day of Kisaragi (February1481)

The day started well, but ended the opposite.

I was walking with Izayoi again, just like I have been for the last amount of months and she was talking avidly about the discovery of my library.

'…And then I turned into this room and I saw this door in the wall that I am sure was never there before.' She said with a smile lighting her face, her eyes sparkling 'All of a sudden this door just opened to…'

And she stopped. Everything in her stopped, I could hear her breathing cease. I turned around and looked at her, starting to smell the stark scent of her fear.

'Izayoi?' I asked, my voice barely trembling as her hand gripped her stomach and her eyes widened, her smile replaced with a pain filled grimace. Her face twisted again and her hand came to grip the spot of her neck with a surprising amount of force. And then she just fell down, her body convulsing and her head flopping back and forth.

I can honestly say, I have never been more worried.

I had to subdue her into unconsciousness before her body would stop shaking, and all I could do was go and find Myouga, who was sucking off a bull youkai in the main hall, to tell me what was wrong with her.

And it took Myouga to point out the pulsing spider mark underneath her hand, and if I smell it I can smell the Ai's Miasma. I did not think it was true that she bound her servants to that kind of fate with a swipe of her claws and a sting of her miasma in their bloodstream.

Myouga tells me there is nothing that can be done.

I can not believe that. I will save her if it takes my life. I lost her once and I will not lose her again."

Kagome shivered as she continued to read, almost able to hear the harsh growl in the last statement.

"26th of Kisaragi (February 1481)

Izayoi is doing…No. No I will not allow it."

'What happened?' Kagome asked desperately as she shifted through the next couple of scrolls not finding a follow-up. Inuyasha pulled one out of the stack, causing many to fall onto the floor but finding the one. Kagome snatched it out of his clawed hands

"27th day of Kisaragi (February 1481)

She is alright. She is alright. I have to keep saying that over and over again so I know it is true. I was so scared. I have never felt so lost in my life.

She died, her mouth contorted in pain and clasping my hand and when it went limp my life seemed over. I screamed so harshly my voice rasped painfully.

For some strange reason, my instincts told me to start searching for Totosai, the sword maker. I went for him and found him in the armory, working on my swords and I confronted him, roaring into his face how I needed my swords.

He tried to lecture me into authority but as soon as I smelt my sword I grabbed one of them and started running for the room Izayoi was in.

I do not know what happened to me, it was like I was possessed and I could not stop myself from raising the sword above her crushed form and tried to knock away the beasts climbing over her body.

As I swung the sword down, I could see the little bug-eyed creatures falling apart. And the redness faded just as Izayoi took her first breath from the grave.

My eyes almost started to water as I collapsed top the ground, so weary all of a sudden and I started to call her name as her chest moved up and down faster and faster.

'InuTaishou?' she whimpered.

Her eyes were wide open now and she was staring at the ceiling with such an amount of confusion.

'Izayoi?' I rasped, my voice barely alive as I pulled my self towards her, looking down at her.

'Kami.' She whimpered as she started to cry and she pulled herself against my chest, sobs wracking her small frame.

I comforted her as best I could before she started kissing me.

And I made her my mate, trying to ease the horrible pain she was feeling. After so many long years of waiting, this seems like the best thing I can do, for myself and for her."

"30th day of Kisaragi (1481)

Izayoi heard me out today and she has agreed to stay as my mate.

'I am sorry I took advantage of you.' I said, remorse running through my very veins. She stared at me with less anger than in the last few days.

Her reply made my life so much more fulfilling.

'InuTaishou,' she whispered, holding my face between her hands 'when I asked if I could be your friend, that was never what I wanted.' Izayoi bestowed a chaste kiss on my lips and smiled at me it warmed my body. 'I wanted this. I always have and always will.'

I could not have chosen better."

"5th day of Yayoi (February 1481)

My body aches with the pleasure that Izayoi gives me every night. She is an amazing being that makes everything alright. It is such a wonder how she is able to keep me so astounded by her.

I love her more and more every moment, when she smiles at me, when she kisses me, when she opens up her arms at night to me.

I practically worship her, day and night. And I never fail to watch the moon rise with her at my side.

She is my life now."

Inuyasha smiled a quiet smile of reverence for his parents as Kagome kept reading. Kagome was starting to get uneasy, because Inuyasha was coming soon, and then it wouldn't end as well as it was going.

"17th day of Yayoi (February 1481)

I have not told her yet; I am far too excited and scared for her reaction.

Yes, I took her once while she was in heat and I did not bother worry about the consequences until now.

Izayoi is pregnant.

I was so delighted at first, but I have never thought about it. When our child is born, it will be a half-blood; a hanyou, a human and a demon in one being, with both benefits and both evils. I am scared for my child because with my dog blood in their veins, they will have a demon side incomparable to many, they could be stronger than any normal youkai.

But the child will be hated everywhere it goes, it will have nothing. Neither human, neither demon, they will be an outcast. It pains me to think that I have condemned my blood to that kind of bigotry. I am ashamed.

But as long as I am breathing, my child will be treated with the same care and youkai child would be treated. I might have lost Sesshoumaru, but I will not lose again."

"4th day of Satsuki (May 1481)

Sesshoumaru is here and today is the first time I have ever seen him lose the façade that has hid his face since he was young.

'You choose a human mate, even when the lady of the Eastern lands comes and asks for an alliance you pick a human girl over her.' Sesshoumaru growled at me, his hackles rising.

'I choose my own mate. And she is my choice. Accept it or you will not be welcome in this household, son' I said, turning away.

'The Eastern lands have been disbanded and the Northern Lands are in an uproar' Sesshoumaru said, now standing in front of me his arm flung out. 'The leaders believe you are going soft and the Neko tribe there is coming to take over.'

I smirked. 'They have tried that bit before, that slaughter shall not come again.'

As I started to walk out Sesshoumaru started talking again. 'You are risking the life of your territory for a simple fuck with a human girl two hundred years younger than you. It is a weakness, Chichi-ue and they will use it.'

I slammed him into the wall, his boa wrapped around his neck as I held him up, my other hand holding Tetsusaiga, the other sword Totosai made for me.

'She is mine,' I growled, pushing his throat even higher 'they will not find a way to exploit her.'

I dropped him, letting him fall hard. Sesshoumaru glared at me before pulling himself off the floor.

'It will happen, be sure of it.' He said just before he left.

I was still shaking with anger as Izayoi looked on with sadness, and she walked up next to me, threading her hand into mine.

'That was your son?' she asked, still staring at the open door. I nodded, squeezing her hand as she clasped back. 'I am sorry.' She said. 'Do not be.' I said staring at her 'If he can not accept it, that will be his fault.'

Izayoia kissed the lines on my face and whispered in my ear. 'I am with child.'

I nodded again, before kissing her atop her forehead. 'I know' I whispered back to her, staring at her open face tenderly.

I know this will not be the end of our troubles."

"16th day of Minazuki (June 1481)

There is a new demon in my household today. It is not Nekos from the North. But the Southern Lord with his tribe leaders who are giving me the support that will help me make the Nekos back down. They have no alliances but I have them.

Fujishima, the Lord of the lands has taken a liking to Izayoi and asked me numerous times for her purchase, which did not go well approved by me.

But he is respectful enough and a good alliance.

I do not have to worry about the Nekos any longer though."

"14th day of Fumizuki (July 1481)

Dragon youkai are causing trouble in the North of my territory. All I plan to take are Tenseiga and Tetsusaiga, the swords Totosai and Bokuseno made for me so many months ago. He proved such a good swords master that I welcomed him to stay here for as long as he wanted. I hope he will keep Izayoi company.

As much as it pains me, I must leave Izayoi here because she is getting bigger with the oncoming pregnancy.

She looks even more beautiful when I know she is carrying my child. I feel like I could take an image of her and spin it into a beautiful portrait. Izayoi is that beautiful."

"6th day of Hazuki (August 1481)

The dragon youkai are being led by a dragon called Ryuukotsusei, a large dragon youkai who presumably ate the rest of his comrades. I need not have gone out that far, because he came to me, barely a league away from the castle.

But he got away before I could unleash the Wind Scar upon him. I have no idea how Totosai did it, but he invoked a type of essence that emanates from the very sword that can collide with the youki of a youkai a when they meet, if I push the sword into the spot where the winds meet, the blast can kill one hundred demons at a time.

Totosai was able to make a sword that can save a hundred lives and a sword that can kill a hundred lives. Amazing.

Izayoi was happy to have me back so quick and I was glad as well, not wanting to be gone from her for long.

But that dragon will not be gone for long.

"8th day of Hazuki (August 1481)

I try and spend as much time as I can with Izayoi. It is hard though, as the numerous number of dragon youkai are constantly barraging the gates. The birth of her son will be soon, I can tell. But I am concerned for Izayoi's safety, hanyou births are supposed to be dangerous. Izayoi is strong, but will she be able to birth a hanyou child with the demon blood of a warlord.

It is amazing, but whenever I am with her and the child and I lay my hands on Izayoi's womb, the baby ceases it's moving. Izayoi is forever amazed at the bond between a youkai child and their parents. I hope Izayoi will be alright.

A demon visited today, I believe from the mainland but he did not say. He said his name was Setsuna Takenmaru and he was upset about my mating with Izayoi.

It seems everyone is now a days.

'InuTaishou-sama.' He said, his eyes glistening. He reminded me of Ai which perturbed me greatly.

'State your case or leave.' I was anxious to go find Izayoi. I had not seen her in hours.

'You have mated with a human.' Takenmaru said, his face wrinkling in disgust.

'It is my decision who I decide to make my mate, demon. It is not a concern of yours.' I growled, already heeding the warnings of a fight. And I wanted this thing out my household before Izayoi got there, because I could smell her coming down the hall.

'You would believe that a demon lord would have higher expectation than that.' Takenmaru said, starting to circle me maliciously. I was disliking this demon more and more.

'My mate is higher than any other I could have chosen. Step down inferior. Do not push this matter. You are not of these lands and have no right to make a protest.' I said, invoking my rights as a Lord.

Izayoi was now in the room and Takenmaru was staring at her. 'Well, I can see why you wanted her.' He stared at me with an awful grin on his face 'She looks like a good fuck.'

He slammed into the wall opposite me, my eyes turning crimson already and I could hear Izayoi's frantic calls of help. I started to calm down until I saw the demon still staring at her.

'You will not come into my household, disrespect me and my mate and get away with it.' I snarled raising him up off the floor and flinging him outside the door. I could barely stop myself before I turned demon and became the massive dog again, grabbing Takenmaru's kimono and hurling him over the gates.

He tried to attack me and Izayoi again, but I commanded him from the castle as soon he raised his arm. And when he would not leave, I threw him out forcefully, not bothering to hold in my claws. He swore his revenge on my disgraced heritage.

Izayoi seems to find it amusing when I am upset. She says I growl like a kitten, but she also says I purr like a kitten as well.

But that demon's threat is bothering me, I am even more worried for Izayoi's safety.

Everyone is upset about this, and most everyone has heard of the child she bears.

I knew the consequences of my actions when I took her as my mate, and I still did it, selfishly. I am sorry for every grievance I have caused with those actions, but in all my life, I have never been so happy than I am with her.

I do not know how much longer we will have together and I do not want to lose her. I want to be with her all the time, watch her every breath. I want to be able to protect her for all eternity. But if the demons barraging the gate everyday are a sign, I am not sure that will happen.

"16th day of Hazuki (August 1481)

My son is born. Inuyasha; my flesh and blood is alive. Izayoi is sleeping at the moment, the little boy cradled against her chest. They make a wonderful couple; Izayoi with her jet black hair, and Inuyasha, with his small dog ears and golden eyes. He is strong already and I am so pleased that I have another son.

But ever since yesterday, Ryuukotsusei has been banging at the gates and I can not hold off the confrontation any longer and a demon named Setsuna Takenmaru has been complaining about my recent mating with a human. He wants his revenge and I have placed both Myouga and Totosai to take care of my family. While I want to stay with my newborn child and my mate longer, I must protect them from these two.

Ryuukotsusei has taken down three dozen more of my allies and his slaughter will end. But I am certain that he is not alone is a plot against me.

Izayoi, please be safe."

Inuyasha watched as Kagome swiftly skimmed over the next entry almost at the bottom of the pile before her eyes widened and she stared at Inuyasha with such sympathy he flinched.

'Inuyasha,' she said slowly, her eyes watering 'I'm not sure you want to read this.'

'Read it. I want to know both the good and the bad. I've heard the good, now for the bad.' Inuyasha growled, his eyes clenched shut and his teeth grinding together.

Kagome looked at the scroll again, before whispering a quick apology.

"17th day Hazuki (August 1481)

She is gone. Izayoi and Inuyasha are gone. They have been taken, by him.

Setsuna Takenmaru has taken Izayoi and Inuyasha; kidnapped them both and taken them to his castle. That despicable bastard, he will not get away with this.

I am hurt, wounded badly by the fight I had with Ryuukotsusei. I am far worse damaged but I managed to seal him.

Sesshoumaru came and greeted me just afterwards the battle. I apologized to him but he dismissed it. He shows so much respect for me, even with the recent difficulties we have had. I am sorry but I hope he will accept Izayoi as the mother he never had.

Myouga and Totosai were here to greet me when I returned and I almost collapsed onto myself when I learned what happened. I will not lose them again, and this Setsuna is dangerous, I know. He flattened almost the entire east wing of my household with one swipe. And even though I do not know much about him, I know he hates me with such a vengeance that he will kill them both. And I have to stop him.

Death seems inevitable now, only a matter of time before I cross over to the next life. I feel weary, I do not even know why I am writing this while Izayoi and Inuyasha are still in that bastard's clutches. But I have a feeling that they will be safe, and I want them to know how much I love them both.

When I first mated with Izayoi, I pledged her my heart, my body, my soul, my life. And I still can give that to her.

Dying for Izayoi wouldn't be that horrible though."

Kagome's eyes watered to the point of blurriness but she opened her eyes wide and continued to read the most painful moment in the great InuTaishou long life of harshness and pain. And love.

"If I don't do this I put the only person I love in danger. And I can't risk that; because without Izayoi, I am nothing. She is my reason for living and as much as I care for her and she loves me back, if I can't find the strength inside of me to give my life up for her, and all of them, Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha, than I am not worthy of her. And now, more than ever, she means more to me than ever before, and I can't let that slip away from me.

All I can ever do is love her. And hope she understands how much I will always love her. And for all of time, I know that is what I will always do.

And if I don't come back after this, then all I can do is hope she finds these papers and knows how much I do care.

I love you, Izayoi, more than anything. And I hope you feel the same."

And then a tear print, still fresh and wet lingered on the ancient scroll, in a way, symbolizing the end of his life.

Kagome was crying freely now, tears landing on the scroll, but none leaving a print the way the one tear print of the great InuTaishou's that still remained on the page, beneath the beautiful figures written in his delicate hand.

But as she looked up through her tear hazed eyes, all she could see was Inuyasha staring intently at another scroll, one she was sure she had not read. She, still crying, watched as he delicately slid a claw down the faded manuscript, not tearing it, and she wondered how there was another scroll when she was sure that the one she had just finished was the last document of his.

She looked back at her shaking hands, still holding the great InuTaishou's last words known, and as much as she tried she couldn't stop the tears from flowing down from her pained blue eyes. She didn't even know why she was crying; there was nothing in this story related to her and why was she crying when Inuyasha, the lonely hanyou son of the man who had written these tortured words and the woman who had been beaten to an inch of her life because she had carried a half-demon child, had not shed a single tear.

She shut her eyes tight, struggling to get the tears from stopping; she still couldn't understand why she felt so anguished over those terrible words.

'That's my mother's name.'

Kagome's head shot up, the tears still hadn't stopped, and she stared at Inuyasha who was staring at the scroll he had been holding, shock and a bit of comfort on his face.

'What?' she asked, her throat feeling like it would collapse.

'That's my mother's name. I recognize it.' He said staring up at her, for the first time not bothered by her tears. He thrust the paper in front of her still pouring eyes. And as her eyes started to take in the new writing, she noticed the different, more delicate style of writing and she didn't have to read the words to know it was Izayoi's writing.

Inuyasha pulled it back and stared at it with a strange shimmer of awe in his eyes. And as his eyes gleamed with an unknown emotion, Inuyasha, the lost, orphan hanyou son of the great warlord started to read.

"All those times he spent writing in that room of his, I had always assumed that they were some type of war plans that he was drawing up. He was always such a beautiful drawer, you would never assume that he would be able to hold that brush in such a delicate way but now I understand all those times I just dreamed him with a set of brushes whenever I woke up in the morning, and now I see what he has made. And it seems that his beautiful writing has been put to good use. I am glad, considering he never seemed to have the heart to always be killing.

But now, after reading the words of my love, all I can think is how much I love him. With my mind, with all my body, with all my heart, with all my soul. Without him, I do not see a point in myself living, just like he felt near the end.

But I do have a reason for living, my son, Inuyasha, the only living piece of InuTaishou I have left to me. But I must wonder, if he not only wrote these stories down for himself, but also for his son, the son he will never get to see grow up.

I will not deny it, when I found my way out of the burning castle, all I could do was turn fall to the ground and watch as the burning castle burnt out the only person I had ever loved. And I know how unsafe it was to be exposed to openly with Inuyasha still sleeping in my arms, but all I could handle at the moment was the grief that threatened to kill me as I saw my love, no, my mate practically die before my eyes.

The worst part is that if I shut my eyes, I can, live it all over again; the horrible fear that overwhelmed me when that awful beast approached me and I can still feel the cold metal slicing through my body, even as he screamed at me and my crying son, while I can still feel the terrible feeling of my soul leaving my body. And as strange as it is, because I know I was dead, I could then and can now still hear the anguished cries of my InuTaishou as he crouched over my body, and I can still feel the small warmth on my stomach being taken from me and for the last time I knew Inuyasha's father was cradling the little child to his chest, just like he had the many times before after Inuyasha was born. And the quiet warmth of Tenseiga as InuTaishou, again, brought its healing touch into my body again, bringing me into the soothing arms of my love.

And I can still hear him crying, and I can still feel the blood on his arms and the terrible tears sliding off his face, and even then I could tell that he knew it was the end for him.

And I can still feel the last moment we spent together. And it still felt like the first time, like the whole world had stopped and all that could be found was the two of us. And I did not ever want to let go of him, not then, not ever because I did know that that was the last time I would ever see him, feel him, touch him. But it was not going to be the last time I would love him.

I asked him why he didn't just take Inuyasha and leave because I would've died to save both of them. And I believe he felt the same because he said:

'Do you have something which you protect? I have you and him. And I will protect you.'

And then he ordered me to flee and I know I will always remember the last words he ever spoke to me.

'I love you, Izayoi. Do not ever let our son think he was not loved because where ever I go from here, I will be with you both always.'

Sesshoumaru found the both of us there outside the burnt down remains of the castle in the morning. And he took us back to InuTaishou's his castle now, because InuTaishou is gone, he is now the Lord of the Western Lands.

I know he will not tolerate our staying here anymore, he barely endured my presence here when InuTaishou was still alive but now that he is gone, nothing will prevent the other demons on his lands to come after us, and I am sure Sesshoumaru will not help us.

So I will take Inuyasha and these scrolls and find Fujishima, because I know he will take us in for, at the very least, a little while. Also I hope he can keep these scrolls until Inuyasha is old enough to read them. Because Inuyasha needs to know this story, to know how much his father loves him and how much he always will.

I'm sorry that Inuyasha will be treated like an outcast by humans and demons alike; it is not fair that I have brought that upon him, but I can only hope that what he is will not make him any less weaker than his father was. But I know, because he has his father's great blood flowing through his veins, he will be as strong as my InuTaishou. And when he grows up, I pray that he will be able to act in the way his father always did; with honor, nobility and love.

I remember someone telling me 'There are only two beings of happiness in life, one is to love and the other is to be loved.' Only now can I understand the significance of those beautiful words, because I have understood both of them to the highest degree.

I am so sorry though.

Love is to be eternal, and my love for InuTaishou, my lover, my mate, will never end."

Kagome wouldn't lie, she was in shock that Inuyasha was reading his mother's writing, and for an instant she wondered if he could read all along, but as she watched Inuyasha's own expression as he read the words on the page, she knew there was no way he had been able to read before that moment.

But before she could comment on the new development, she felt the uncomfortable sucking of a flea demon of her neck. Kagome slapped Myouga off, and he proceeded to float towards her outstretched hand.

'Lady Kagome,' Myouga said as he inflated again, 'please come and see this. It is amazing.' And he bounced around another massive pile of scrolls and started hopping furiously on a single scroll lying alone on the floor. Kagome looked at Inuyasha who seemed to still be in the aftershock of his new skill, before getting up to follow the retainer who was still jumping frantically on the scroll.

Inuyasha sat slumped on the floor as he still tried to take in the thing he'd just done; by some strange source of magic, he'd read something that usually took someone years to learn. How it'd happened, he didn't know, and he didn't think he wanted to know. It was so strange and difficult to comprehend but if he looked at any of the scrolls on the table, he could see the figures make sense into words that he could easily read. And, although strange, it didn't seem like a coincidence that the first time he would ever read something, it was written by his mother.

'Oh wow!' he heard Kagome gasp. He sighed and got up and stalked over to where she was kneeling with his back to her, something still clutched in her hands.

'What is it, wench…' Inuyasha started but his voice turned into a gruff cough of surprise and his golden eyes widened as Kagome stared up at him with awed eyes and she clenched the scroll in her hands with a surprising strength.

'Okaa…' Inuyasha whimpered like a lost child as he fell to his knees and stared at the images 'Otou….'

Only now could Kagome see a lot of Izayoi in Inuyasha, just like InuTaishou had said so many times, and she could see the similarities between Inuyasha and his father. The same golden eyes, exact same shade of hair, and when he turned human, the same beautiful violet eyes as his mother, and she could see how they all molded into one being, making Inuyasha. And as she shifted her eyes from the picture of Inuyasha's parents to the image of the three combined, all she could do was stare in awe at the skill of the compassionate painting.

The depictions were so delicate, every detail stuck out and it looked as if it was a picture taken with camera instead of a painting drawn with brushes. Izayoi sitting by a bridge, her hands placed over the clear bulge on her tummy. She was smiling and staring off into the stream, with a fish that Kagome had never seen before swimming motionlessly by. And a cherry blossom set up the perfect background, with wisps of the blossoms fluttering onto her dark hair. And if you looked through the background of the branches moving in the wind, you could see another figure, InuTaishou. He, with his long silver hair and the golden eyes Kagome had come so accustomed to in his son, was smiling such an easy, loving smile, she suspected that he smiled more often then he let on in his journal entries.

And if she stared at the image long enough, the figure would start to move into the form of Inuyasha. Kagome smiled as she saw the two swords strapped at his waist, knowing both of his sons had received one, a passing of his legacy in such a perfect way.

Inuyasha blinked, a single tear falling from his eyes as he got up and left, leaving Kagome still clutching the lifelike painting of his parents, the parents he barely knew up until days ago.

Kagome let him go, slumping her head so it lay on her chest and she let out a shaky breath. So much grief and happiness in their lives, but she couldn't decide with herself whether it was a sad ending or a happy ending, more of both. Kagome prayed that the two met up in the afterlife, but she didn't have to pray hard because she didn't think such a pure love would go unlooked by the Gods; but so horribly sad because Inuyasha had been left alone, with no one to care for a vulnerable, abandoned little child.

It made Kagome wonder, was fate fair to this torn family? InuTaishou with such a harsh life, Izayoi with being discriminated for so long because she fell in love with someone not of her race, Sesshoumaru who because he was thought to be unloved turned into a cold, prejudiced monster, and Inuyasha, the lost one.

Kagome started to roll up the scroll again, resigned to go and find Inuyasha and get ready to leave, because she knew he wouldn't stay in the castle long after they finished reading the stories. Now if she could persuade him to take at least some of the scrolls, but she knew he traveled light so they could travel fast. She shut her eyes tight, how could she persuade….but her train of thought stopped.

'Kami…' She thought as the tear Inuyasha had cried spread across the back of the paper. She could barely tear her eyes away and watched in shock as the wet spot slowly arched outwards and, as if by magic, moved across the whole page, making the archaic images appear, words starting to unfurl on the backside of the beautiful picture.

Here was where he always felt at home, in such solid perch above everything. In the branches of the Goshinboku tree that had seen him through so much; when he'd first met Kikyo, when he parted with her, and when he first met Kagome. This tree held so much of his past in its strong branches. And whenever he went to Kagome's era, he would always look at it in wonder, and marvel at the age and formidability of such an astounding piece of creation. And his history was there, in that little arrow mark that would last forever.

Inuyasha sighed and stretched his arms above his head. They'd left Fujishimas' castle almost five days ago, a day after finishing the last of the scrolls, bidding a quick farewell to the Lord of the manor. He'd seemed disappointed that they were leaving, but Inuyasha had the impression that he was just disgruntled about Inuyasha not allowing him to purchase Kagome.

Kagome and Myouga had been bothering him to try and at least take a few of the scrolls with him, but he'd refused like the stubborn person he was. Deep down, Inuyasha did want to take at least a few of the scrolls, but he didn't want to be bothered with carrying a dozen scrolls with him across the Southern Lands and the area of Musashi.

But that didn't mean Kagome didn't sneak a few, Inuyasha could smell the scrolls as they were leaving, but he let it go, not wanting to let her go all soft again. She'd been treating him like a little baby who didn't get what it wants, with a gentle voice and tentative looks. It bothered him to say the least.

Kagome wouldn't dare try and bother him now though because he'd been acting with more and more aggression, and had almost set Kagome off back through the well. He hadn't slept in days. But despite everything he tried to do, she resolutely stayed, which didn't bother Inuyasha that much because just as he was stubborn, so was she.

He looked up into the cloudless night sky. Now his past wasn't that much of a mystery, but it was humbling to think how brave his father was and to know that he gave his life so that he would live. And it was humbling to know that his father went to such ends to be with his mother. And it was humbling to think that his father gave him the sword that he carried for the better part of his life. And it was humbling…..to be his son.

'Inuyasha,' he heard a soft voice say below him.

'What is it, wench?' he said, his eyes shut and his head lent back against the hard trunk of the massive tree.

'Come down.'

'I'm not getting down from here.'

'I'll say it Inuyasha, now get down here before I get really angry.'

Inuyasha let out a sigh, he didn't want to have to leave the perch he was in, but when Kagome was angry, she got angry. So he pulled himself into a crouch and landed in front of her, grabbed her around the waist and flew back up to the perch that he'd been on before. He grinned as Kagome's hands flew around his neck, grappling to find something to hold onto at his sudden movements.

'You could've warned me.' she said indignantly when they got settled on the branch, with her back up to Inuyasha's chest.

'It was funnier that way.' Inuyasha said his eyes shut 'Now, what do you want?'

Kagome blushed and grasped for her bag that had been limply hanging in her hand and pulled out a scroll.

'Kagome, I told you not to bring it.' Inuyasha said, glaring at her, but inside wondering which one she brought.

Kagome unfolded the scroll and it opened up to the picture of his parents, she looked up at him for some sign of approval.

'Why'd you bring that one? It's not important.' Inuyasha said heatedly. Kagome looked disappointed at his reaction but continued.

'Inuyasha, when I was folding up the scroll, the tear that you cried….'

'I didn't cry!'

'Shut up, Inuyasha. Anyways, the tear you cried landed on the paper, and just after you left something amazing happened.'

'What was that? Did Myouga start sucking you again?'

'Shut up! I am this close to saying it.'

'Okay, okay. Something amazing happened and?'

'Well, the tear started to almost spread. It curled around the page and then this appeared.' And she showed Inuyasha the back of the page with the new figures. Inuyasha stared in wonder as a new bunch of shapes appeared on the page.

He grabbed the page and looked at the page in wonder. A complete new set of kanji figures had emerged off of the once empty piece of paper, and his mind went practically blank when he saw his name at the top.

'Now I haven't read it,' he heard Kagome say from far away but he didn't hear anything after that as he started to read.

"To my dear son, Inuyasha,

I am watching you and your mother right at this very moment. Both of you are sleeping and you were just born three days ago. I do not know the reason why I am writing you this letter, but I only hope you will be able to read this one day."

And as Inuyasha started reading, he could hear the same familiar voice of his father's that he heard so often as a small pup reading the exact same words.

"I have to apologize for the horrible grievances I have brought upon you and your mother, being a hanyou. You will be treated horribly, and you won't have anywhere to go. Neither human, no demon, I have left you with no where. I love your mother, and I am so happy to finally have a son from someone I love so much, but I have practically cursed you for a life of loneliness and shame, much like my life in a way. And for everything you will have to go through when you get older, I will always be eternally sorry. I can only hope that you will always have me to be there for you.

Inuyasha, you are the son I've always wanted, one of whom I created through love, not just for territorial purposes. But I still love your brother, because he is mine just as much as he is his mothers. I hope you two will always be there for each other, and I hope that when he inherits the Western Lands that he will always welcome you into our household.

I want you to inherit my Tetsusaiga after my death and your brother to inherit my Tenseiga. Because of my blood in your veins, you will have to deal with your blood taking over, and my Tetsusaiga will be a way of keeping it under control. Consider it my gift to you.

And it seems more fitting that I give a sword that kills to someone who has only inspired me to give life.

It amuses me to think that you might be reading this after my death, such an odd thing to think of, but hopefully beneficial in your understanding of my past and your mothers. One day, with any luck you will find my scrolls and be able to know my past and how much happiness has come from it.

I hope you like the picture on the other side, it is a fond memory that I like to call upon many a time. And I am proud to say that I drew it. May it always be a sign of the creativity in the line of the Dogs.

I don't know why I felt like writing down my story all my life in a way it feels like a legacy of mine will be with you forever. As a wise miko once told me, although lives fade, stories will last forever and this is my story to you.

They say love is a weakness, but it's the thing that has made me the strongest.

Inuyasha, I love your mother more than anything in the world, I hope you will always know that and you are a reminder of that love. And now I have to be thankful, because now I have everything I've ever needed.

I have two wonderful sons, a beautiful mate, and a future ahead of me.

Now I can finally say that I am happy."

He blinked once, then again.

Then another time just for good measure.

So that was it; that was what he wanted. Just the closure of that last piece of writing gave him the peace of mind that had been evading him for days.

His father writing to him, practically talking to him and him alone; it was making InuTaishou into his father, not just the person who wrote down his diary entries and maybe a few feelings just for good measure. No, this was his father, who had loved and cared for him and his mother with all his heart.

Kagome was still staring up at him, having heard him mumble the story out, watching his expression ever so lightly. Inuyasha looked at her, then back at the scroll.

'So that's it?' he asked, reiterating his thought earlier.

Kagome nodded solemnly, still waiting for Inuyasha to let something out.

'He's really my Otou isn't he.'

Kagome's eyes widened. He said it so quiet and gently, but there was so much emotion pent up in those words that she found she couldn't really make a reply to it. She stared at his now hooded eyes and she could see that he was starting to fall asleep.

She snuggled into his chest to get more comfortable. 'Hey,' she said 'you know, in a way, he was right.' He looked at her.

'Yeah, he's dead, but his story will last for a long time right. Through you and your brother as well.'

Inuyasha knew she was right, he'd just never really seen it like that. InuTaishou, although dead, would always be in his sons and live on for a long time. He looked at Kagome who was starting to fall asleep as well.

'I guess, you're right, Kagome. Live forever…' but Inuyasha had fallen asleep as well, finally put at peace about his family and the past he never knew.

"15th day of Uzuki, 1856 (April, 1856)

This is the first, and its not going to be the last. I still don't understand why everyone was so upset when I started writing, Kagome even started crying. Then I called her a dumb wench. Then she sat me.

This is harder than I would think it might be, Otou-san made it look so easy.

A couple of days ago, me writing this would've been unpractical, once because I couldn't read, never mind write, and two I didn't have a reason to. I mean after I got the Jewel and made a wish; that would be it, my story over. But now I want to, well, continue it; for my Otou-san's sake anyway.

And it's getting more and more important that I do this, because without his memory living on, it'll be just like I am really alone, without any background or history, with no past. I don't think I could handle going back to being like that, after living for so long with out one.

I like knowing about my past, my family, it's such a rewarding feeling, knowing someone who I came from did so much for my mother and I. And sure, it wasn't always easy, but at least my life took a turn, now I can say I have people who care about me, and though they can piss me off a lot, at least I can count on them, something I haven't been able to do much.

I have Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kirara, Kaede to rely on and of course Kagome. It feels so much better to be able to know that these people will always be there to protect me, as I will hopefully always be there to protect them.

That was really sappy, Kagome's word not mine.

But that doesn't mean I don't mean it, they are my friends who looked past the silver hair, amber eyes, clawed hands and dog ears that most people turned and ran at.

So I really do have to thank Otou-san, because in some distant way I do have to thank him for giving me something different from everyone else. Me.

You know this is getting easier and easier, words are just coming really easy now.

Of course, this whole writing thing won't always be up to date, I mean, I'm going on a shard tomorrow and I can't lug around a bunch of scrolls everywhere. It would be rather pointless seeing as we can get attacked whenever wherever. So these will stay here, hidden in the trunk of the Goshinboku, and I hope no one finds them.

But I have to say that I wouldn't mind if Kagome read this, I mean she did read Otou-san's scrolls. And it would kind of be a passing of a legacy; Okaa-san reading Otou-san's scrolls, Kagome reading mine, ironic in such a right way.

I wonder what it must have been to love someone like that, to be able to die for someone. Like the way my Otou-san did. It amazes me that someone would be able to do that for someone else, I can't even imagine it, even though I was supposed to be there. But all I can say is: I can sort of understand his thinking then.

"Do you have something which you protect?"

Thank you Otou-san. This is for you.

Toga InuTaishou,

Great Dog Leader of the West

Who fell in love with a human

And went against hundreds of years of segregation and prejudice all for love.

Thank you.