Epiphany
This is part-2 of my song fic series about the people of Gundam wing. This time it's about Quatre. After hearing the song "Epiphany" I immediately knew that this was the song for Quatre.
For those of you who don't know, "Epiphany" is written by the band Staind. Stained just happens to be one of my favorite bands. If you want to hear the song "Epiphany" go to:
Then click on the one that says "Epiphany". If you have any questions feel free to ask me.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam wing or the band Staind and there song Epiphany.
Warnings: Angst, swearing
Rating: Pg-13
Pairings: None
The words in Bold Font are the song lyrics.
Epiphany
Your words to me just a whisper
Your faces so unclear
As the rain pours down on him, Quatre slowly walks up to the grave of his father. For a moment he just stands there, not moving, not saying a word, His mind lost in thought.
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
He stuck out his hand, and felt the rough surface of his fathers statue. Below it is a plaque with his fathers name on it. He got on his knees and slowly traced a finger on the outline of his father's name, engraved in the hard stone.
Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the thing's I should have said
As he feels the stone, a rush of memories about him and his father flood back to him. He remembers his childhood. He remembers all the talks and lectures they had. But the one he remembers the most are the last words he said to him.
So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way.
"Quatre, promise me you'll never fight in that mobile suit,"
He clutched his chest as he remembers these words, to him it is the most painful memory. Because even though he knew his father was about to die, he knew he was going to disobeyed his fathers last request.
I smoke the whole thing to my head
and feel it wash away
As far back as he can remember he always disobeyed his father. He can't even remember anytime in his life when he thanked him. All he remembers is being a disrespectful little snob, who never appreciated him, and who always took him for granite.
'cause I can't take anymore of this,
I want to come apart.
"I'm a disgrace to myself, to the family name, but most of all, I'm a disgrace to you father,"
Quatre fist began to clench up as tears began to fall.
"I'm nothing but a fucking disgrace to the family name, a failure, a worthless human being "
And dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
He collapsed to the ground with a sob. As tears fell down his cheek he began to pound on the dirt
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry my father. All I did was embarrass you as a son. I never even knew how much I loved you till you died,. Oh god, please forgive me, please forgive me".
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
He cried and yelled his fathers name as loud as he could, as if he was expecting an answer from him, but none came to him. The only thing he heard, was the sound of his own sobs, and nothing more.
I am nothing more than a little boy inside
Quatre just laid their clutching his knees as the rain came in harder. His sobs now a nothing more than a small whimper. He starts to shiver as he becomes colder and colder.
That cries out for attention
though I always try to hide
"Maybe I should just lay here and die. Nobody would ever care if I lived or die. So why don't just lie here and freeze to death. What do I have to live for anyways,"
Quatre closed his eyes ,an waited for the cold feeling of death to wash over him.
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
Though the rain is freezing cold a feeling of warmth surges through his body. It feels like someone is holding him in a gentle hug. As he looks up, he sees a bright light in the outline of his father. His eye's open wide as he reaches forward and touches his father.
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
"F…F… Father,"
Quatre's father placed a hand on his shoulder "Quatre… my son… I'm not disappointed in you. I understand why you did what you did. And I want you to know that I've never been more proud of you Quatre. You still have a life to live Please continue on living for me,"
The light slowly begins to fade as Quatre reaches out to it "F…father…I love you,"
"I love you too my son"
The light disappeared leaving Quatre to himself
Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Quatre slowly gets up and looks around him, the rain has stopped pouring and the sun is beginning to rise. He takes one last look at his fathers grave and leaves the cematary with a feeling of hope.
"Maybe life is worth living for"
The End
Took me long enough, anyways hope you liked it, expect more in the future.