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Chapter 6

"Have you seen Harry?" the older wizard asked in a sad and pleading voice.

"Yes he was here but I don't know where he is now. What happened Severus."
"I don't really remember I was extremely drunk and very upset. Everything that has happened to us in the past few months came crashing down around me. When he didn't come home I began to worry. Then when he came back I was even more angry and upset."

"Why did you speak to him as if he were a child Severus, you must know by now that if you force Harry to do one thing he finds a way to do the exact opposite."
"I know but I wasn't thinking. I just wanted everything back to normal. Everything I tried to do wasn't working I was so frustrated that I couldn't fix this."

"So you hit him and rape him? Is that how you fix things?"
"I what!?" Severus stood up dropping his cup to the floor where it shattered into many pieces.

"That is what he said. Harry came here to see if there was a way out for him to take the kids and leave. I asked him and he told me you hit him and then took him by force. I saw his face Severus it isn't a lie."
"Oh my god, I don't remember. I don't remember." He said as he fell to his knees hanging his head as he continued to repeat the same line over and over again.

"What happened to you Severus, I know you love Harry, but I can't understand why you would do this to him."
Severus laughed it was a hard cold laugh which sent chills down Hermione's back.

"I don't know. For one thing I was drunk, and for the next I thought somewhere in my twisted mind we were having wild make up sex and it over powered me. I'm sure I thought all would be fixed come morning." He snorted and got up wiped the front of his robes clean and using his wand repaired the shattered cup that fell to the floor. Cleaning the spill along with it and replaced the wand back in his pocket. His hand brushed against the scroll that he wrote for his love. He pulled it out and held it out to his ex student.

"If you see him or talk to him can you give this to him for me. I won't bother Harry again. I only ask that I still be allowed to know my children, please have him owl me or a ministry official for times that I can see Jonathan and Arianna."

Hermione took the scroll and as soon as she had a grip on it Severus apparated out of the room.

The next morning Harry woke hearing his children giggling in the other room. He got up and went over to the door to find Julian trying to dress the children with their help.

"How do you put this on, Jonathan?"
"You are funny Julian, that is for Ari to sleep in not to get up in." he walked over to the dresser and pulled open the drawer and quickly got socks pants and a pull over shirt for his sister.

"Here this is what she likes to wear when she is playing on the floor."

"You are the best Jonathan, I couldn't get this done without your help. So Arianna what say we get you dressed now that your brother got the right clothes out?"

She just giggled and held her arms up over her head waiting for him to take off the nightgown. Taking the hint he began by the time the little girl was dressed Julian was sweating and ready to take a nap.

"I didn't think this would be so hard." He said to himself as he sat down on the floor leaning his head back against the bed. He looked up when he heard a reply from the doorway. Seeing the smile on Harry's face was well worth the effort.

"That is because you let her help, which takes more time and energy than putting the clothes on. When she helps, you have to fix it any ways so you have to do it fast before she can try to help. You might need a nap before lunch if you keep this up."
"Oh Harry you are awake, I tried to help get them ready so you would be able to sleep in." he chuckled, "I'm not very good at this stuff."
"You did fine Julian and I thank you for the extra sleep. I only woke up from the giggling, when those to start giggling I know they are up to something and I need to investigate what it could be."

"Oh."

Harry looked over to see Jonathan was dressed in his little robes of black just like his fathers. Harry choked back a lump that was beginning to form in his throat. His son was so much like his father but also had a lot of qualities from Harry too. His son looked up after buttoning the last of the little pearl buttons on his robes to smile at his father.

"Look Daddy I'm dressed too."
"Yes you are and my how handsome you look in your formal dress robes. Are you sure you want to wear those to play in?"
"Yes Daddy I'm not gonna play to much so I won't get them dirty, I promise."

"All right."

Jonathan scrunched up his face a few times as if practicing his facial expression.

"What are you doing my little snake?"

"I am trying to make the same face that Papa does. I have to be scary so I can protect you and Arianna."
"Why?"
"Papa told me a long time ago that if he wasn't here with us, that I was to protect you and Arianna. He showed me the face to make but I can't get it right, do you know how to do it Daddy?"

A tear escaped the corner of the young wizard's eye before he turned to hide his emotions from his son. Taking a few calming breathes and putting the best scowl he could muster on his face he turned back to his son.

"That's it Daddy!" he yelled excitedly. Jonathan took out his toy wand from his sleeve and looked up at his Daddy then back to the mirror and began to frown and purse his lips in a line. Turning back fast to make his robes swirl he said in a low voice which made him all the more adorable he said. "How is this Daddy."

"Perfect my little slytherin, Salazar would be proud and so would your Papa. Come now lets help Julian up off the floor so we can get downstairs to breakfast."
Jonathan nodded his head keeping his frown in place while he pretended to levitate Julian to a standing position.

"Win gard e um lovvie o saw." He said waving his wand as Harry helped Julian to his feet.

Harry just laughed as he helped Julian up.

"Adorable." Was all that Julian said for a few minutes as he smiled at the little boy who put his wand back up his sleeve and took hold of his sisters little hand. Helping her to walk out of the room slowly.

Severus sat in the livingroom of his and Harry's home with a large bowl of swirling silver liquid in it. Taking his wand out of his sleeve he pulled out the memory of the last night he'd spent with his husband and placed it into the bowl. He still could not remember the events of that night and needed to know if it was true. The only hope that he would find the truth was to put his memory in it and watch the events as an objective viewer. With shaking hands he placed them on the sides of the bowl and lowered his head to the contents. With a pull he was sucked into the memory to watch what had happened.

Swallowing the bile that was threatening to come up he watched as his memory self grabbed his husband and began to maul him. He could clearly hear the young mans pleas to stop but the crazed man did not hear. He forced the young wizard to the bed and as he tried to get away he backhanded him hard across the face. Severus held his stomach with one hand while the other held his mouth closed to avoid spewing forth the remnants of his last meal. He watched and listened until he saw himself take his husband by force with little or no preparation. The waving of his wand was suppose to lubricate his lover and himself but the movement was all wrong therefore the spell did not work. He could not take watching what he had done any longer and force himself out of the pensive. He fell to the floor gasping for breath as he began to hyperventilate. He could not stop the darkness from consuming him as the spots began to build behind his eyes. Severus blacked out on the floor, knocking his head against the edge of the table before hitting the floor.

Blood slowly began to pool around the head of the unconscious man.

An owl flew in from the open window in her kitchen to land on the back of the chair. Hermione looked up from her tea and smiled, gave it a piece of toast and took the note that was attached to its leg. The owl sat there waiting eating the toast. "Does that mean I am to send a reply?" It hooted and went back to its food.

Dear Hermione

I have found a place to stay in Muggle London. I am staying with a man named Julian. I met him the last time I came here and he offered me a place to stay then. When I showed up with the kids he was happy to keep his promise. He is wonderful with the kids and very kind to me. I could not live here without him knowing that I was a wizard so I told him everything he needed to know. He is very accepting of it all, and adores the children.

It was funny that I met him he owns Grindings Drill company where Vernon works, he said that Vernon was not a very good employee. Maybe I should get him to fire the whale what do you think?

I hope things are good there, I don't know when or if I will be back. I know I have to give visitation to Severus but I don't know if I'm ready to see him just yet. Take care of him for me Herm. I don't know what this will do to him but I can imagine. I still love him but I can't live with him right now. Can you just check in on him once in a while for me? Thanks.

The owl is new I went out today while the kids and Julian were at the park. I picked it up because it is small and would not be noticed as much as Hedwig would be. I am sending her to stay with you or if you don't want her sent her to Hogwarts.

The little owls name is Freeze, he flies around like Pig did but soon as you touch him he freezes its an appropriate name don't you think?

I had the ministry send all my mail to you about the separation and divorce proceedings send them to me when you get them. Please look them over for me in case there is stuff I should know about. I don't want to be left in the dark ever again. Not when in comes to my children.

Love you Hermione you have always been there for me. Tell Ron I said hi and what is going on when he gets back from training camp.

Love Harry.

Hermione quickly penned a note back to Harry along with the scroll from Severus. Tying it to the little owl's leg he hooted and took flight.

Thinking about what Harry had said she got dressed and flooed over to the house to check up on Severus. What she found there made her heart almost stop.