Chapter Eighteen
"It is remarkable how similar the pattern of love is to the pattern of insanity."
Merovingian, Matrix Revolutions
Merethond
The Great Hall of the Citadel
Minas Tirith
18 Cerveth, 3019 T.A.
The two goblets crashed to the floor, their contents splattering all over the trousers of Mardil Fenwick.
"Lothíriel! Wha-?" Fenwick bit back a curse as he stared down at his leggings in disdain. He leaned down, brushing at the dark red stains spreading across the pale grey fabric. With a snort of disgust, he glowered at her. "I am going to change, Lothíriel." She did not respond, still staring in shock at the man beside her father. "Princess, did you hear me?" She waved a hand dismissively over her shoulder without moving her gaze. Mardil rolled his eyes. "Women..." he muttered as he stalked off.
Éomer's lips curved into a slight smile. Good riddance.
Imrahil shook his head. "Lothíriel, you are not usually so careless. Are you all right?"
"I...I am fine, Ada," she answered, casting a quick glance down at her dress, which was remarkably unsoiled. "Do not fuss so. It only slipped." She cast him a quick, nervous smile.
"Of course. I will get you another. One for you, friend?" he asked Éomer.
The king's eyes still had not left the princess. "No, thank you..."
Imrahil took in their shared gaze, looking from one to the other curiously. "Yes, well...good. I will return momentarily." Neither responded. "I trust I can leave my daughter safely in your hands," he said with a chuckle, trying to break the tension that seemed to have frozen them in place.
I cannot guarantee her safety should you leave her in my hands, Eomer thought. He grappled for an answer. "Of course," he finally managed, smiling at the prince.
Imrahil stood a moment longer in uncomfortable silence, then excused himself and disappeared into the throng, leaving Anhuil alone with the king.
A servant quickly appeared, mopping the mess with rags from her apron pocket. Anhuil bent down, apologizing profusely to the girl, who would have none of it. "Please, Your Highness. These things happen. Do not trouble yourself."
The princess looked up to see with surprise that Éomer had knelt also, but was just as hurriedly shooed away by the maid, who had the whole mess cleaned up in seconds. Offering Anhuil his hand, Éomer stood, helping her to her feet. He drew in his breath slowly. The gown she wore was deep green satin brocade, the same deep green as her eyes, trimmed in silver around the wide scooped neckline, the sleeves flaring elegantly. Silver braiding girded her hips, and from the braid the dress fell in a loose, full skirt. Her dark curls were longer than he remembered, pulled up on the sides with emerald combs, the rest falling just to her bare shoulders. A simple mithril chain bearing a green stone adorned her neck, the same silver band still on her thumb.
Anhuil stared, knowing she was staring, but unable to take her eyes off the man in front of her. Her gaze traveled from the polished black boots, the black leggings, and up to the dark green tunic. Upon close inspection she could see it was elegantly embroidered with a small, intricate design of horses' heads with long, flowing manes in gold and dark burgundy. The tunic was long, almost to his knees, tapering at the waist and belted, emphasizing his broad shoulders. Long blonde waves fell loosely past his shoulders, his beard neatly trimmed. She almost would not have recognized him but for the deep, dark eyes that held hers with such force she found it difficult to breathe.
His eyes never leaving hers, he brought her fingers to his mouth and kissed them gently, his lips lingering only slightly longer than proper. She shivered slightly at the touch of his lips on her skin.
Take a deep breath. Be charming, he thought to himself. Trouble was, he suddenly felt about as suave as a twelve year old.
"So it is Princess Lothíriel, is it?" he asked, as smoothly as possible, still holding her hand, emphasizing her title. "My little warrior, a beautiful princess in disguise," he teased.
Squaring her shoulders, her chin raised, she leveled her gaze at him with a slight nod. "You clean up rather nicely yourself, Your Majesty," she retorted softly, her tone mocking.
"Odd that I do not recollect you mentioning that your home in Dol Amroth was a palace," he commented idly.
Anhuil withdrew her hand from his. One elegantly arched eyebrow rose slightly, the corners of her mouth turning up just a touch. "Nor do I recall heir to the throne of Rohan as one of the titles you shared with me, Éomer, son of Éomund, Third Marshal of the Riddermark." Anhuil cocked her head, regarding him expectantly.
Éomer simply stared at her. Shaking his head slowly, he smiled, reaching out a hand to touch her cheek. He paused, his hand not quite touching her face. "I am afraid to touch you for fear this will not be real."
"I am not so certain myself," she answered quietly. "I would never have taken you for a prince."
"I would not have thought it possible for you to be more beautiful than I remembered," he said softly, "but here you are." His fingers lightly stroked her cheek.
She jumped at his touch. Backing up, she looked around nervously, her heart racing. "My lord, this is hardly the place for...the other guests..."
"My lord? Ah, yes. Your obsession with propriety rears its ugly head. I do not suppose there is anywhere we could talk alone, is there?"
"You think less suspicion would be raised were we to suddenly disappear together?" she asked incredulously.
The music in the background changed to a slower tune. The king glanced about, then turned his gaze back to hers. "Dance with me, Princess," he said, more of a command than a request.
"That is hardly the way to ask a lady to dance, Lord Éomer," she retorted teasingly, her eyes raking over him. "I am not one of your-"
"Men to be ordered about," he finished the sentence for her. "Yes, I believe I remember that conversation as well. Forgive me." He bowed deeply. "Princess Lothíriel, would you do me the honor of a dance?" Softly, so only she could hear, he added, "I want to feel you in my arms again and if that is the only way then so be it."
Anhuil struggled for breath, his words rekindling in her a spark she had desperately fought to put out, one she foolishly thought she had extinguished. Cam had been right. The words she had spoken before were nowhere to be found, now that she was in his presence again. Resolve melting, she allowed him to lead her to the dance floor and take her in his arms.
Éomer closed his eyes, relishing the feeling of her small hand in his, her other hand resting lightly on his shoulder. Her gentle touch burned his shoulder through his tunic. The silk of her dress was smooth and warm beneath his hand at her waist. The familiar smell of lavender permeated the air around him. Leaning in closer to her, he inhaled deeply. "Gods, I have missed you," he whispered.
"Ssh!" she chided.
He leaned back, smiling down at her, amused at the blush coloring her cheeks. "Princess Lothíriel..." he mused out loud. "What a lovely name."
"It is a frilly, girlish name," she responded with apparent disdain.
"It is a beautiful name. Does it have meaning?"
She glanced down, shaking her head. "It is silly, really..."
The king insisted. "Tell me."
With a heavy sigh, she relented. "It means "flower-garlanded maiden," she admitted, the blush in her cheeks deepening.
"I think it is lovely. And most befitting a princess."
"My parents were a little giddy, finally having a girl after three sons. I believe they went a bit overboard." She smiled shyly, looking away. "Éomer, I am sorry..."
"Shh. Not now. I just want to hold you. We will talk later," he winked at her, "among other things."
"But Éomer, I-"
"Peace, Princess. If I need find other ways to busy that mouth, I can." Anhuil's eyes widened, her mouth closing but curved slightly. She had no doubt he would make good on his threat, and she almost dared him to. He grinned at her.
By the Valar, please not that grin. Anhuil swallowed the lump that threatened to choke her and nodded. Éomer pulled her slightly closer, still maintaining a proper distance between them. "You dance well, for a soldier," she teased, trying to lighten the mood.
"This surprises you?" he asked.
The princess smiled coyly. "No," she answered. Having seen him ride, particularly in battle, she could honestly say it did not. He moved with an air of masculine grace, a seemingly unconscious awareness of space around him and what moved in it. Even in his walk there was an inherent ease, as if he knew where every step would fall before lifting his foot from the ground. Her pulse quickened slightly as he spread the fingers of his hand on her waist, the sensation sending shivers down her spine.
"There is not much about you that could surprise me anymore, Your Majesty," she added teasingly, returning the mocking emphasis on his title. "I suppose you learned growing up in the courts? That is where it was forced upon me," she said, with a slight roll of her eyes.
"I should be grateful that it was forced upon me," he commented. "But it was torture for a boy who would rather have been with his horse." He chuckled. "Of course, the benefit being I can hold you in my arms, even if I would rather sweep you off your feet entirely..."
"Stop it, Éomer, I beg you," she pled, stifling a smile and glancing around the crowded dance floor. The color in her cheeks was not from the warmth of the air. "Someone will hear you."
"I have waited long months to hold you and if everyone in this room knows it I will care not."
"Éomer, we really need to -"
"I can think of many pleasant ways to end that sentence," he cut her off, smiling wickedly, leaning closer to so that his warm breath tickled her cheek. The hand on her waist slid around to her back, the warmth of it searing through the slick silk of her gown.
"This is not proper," she reprimanded him, pushing back slightly with her hand on her chest. She tried to ignore the feel of the unyielding muscle under her fingers. "We are supposed to be strangers. Your hands-"
Éomer drew her closer, his hand tightening around hers, lowering his deep voice. "Strangers? Where was your sense of propriety when we were sharing a tent on the plains of the Eastfold?" he reminded her softly. "Are you forgetting that I changed your clothing? My hands have touched your bare skin, Princess. I think that makes me no longer a stranger. What are your thoughts?" he remarked.
"I...I do not..." she stammered, her widened eyes falling from his to his full lips, remembering the feel of them against hers, his hands tangled in her hair...the thought of him changing her tunic...of him seeing her unclothed, if only for a moment in treating her wound...his warm hands on her skin as he checked the bandage the next morning...the kiss that had left her breathless. She shivered slightly, pulling away from him.
Éomer watched,
puzzled at the emotions he saw play across her face, not willing to
let her go.
Stop it, she told herself, her breathing
becoming rapidly ragged. The man says a few sweet words and you
melt like sugar in hot water. Get a hold of yourself, Princess.
Her mind had only one answer.
Run.
"Pardon me," she
finally spit out, turning on her heel and vanishing into the
crowd.
Momentarily shocked, Éomer gathered himself to
go after her but was stopped by a hand on his arm. "Disappeared
again, did she? She is as restless as the sea. Well, no sense in this
wine going to waste. Here, my friend. Drink up!" Imrahil thrust
the chalice he had brought for his daughter into the hand of the
king.
Taking the goblet, Éomer offered a dull smile to
the prince, nodding in thanks. "She is...a delightful young woman."
He stared in the direction she had gone.
"She is,"
Imrahil agreed. "So like her mother it pains me sometimes."
Appearing lost in thought for a moment, he shook away the memory.
"So, tomorrow we ride for Edoras? My company and I will be riding
with you, of course."
The king was still staring after the
princess, nodding absently. "Yes, tomorrow," he answered the
prince. "This will not be a pleasant task."
"Burying a
man never is," Imrahil agreed, "especially one whom you deemed a
father." He shook his head, taking a sip of his own wine. "Théoden
was a good king, Éomer, but you will be also. Of that I have
no doubt."
The king tipped up his cup in an effort to wash
down the lump in is throat. You might not think so had you any
idea the thoughts I am having about your lovely daughter. "Thank
you, Imrahil. From a man such as you that is a compliment
indeed."
The Prince of Dol Amroth studied the young king,
who was still staring toward the doorway. Staring in the direction
his daughter had gone. He had been a young man once, not so long ago
that he did not know that look when he saw it. She had always drawn
her fair share of longing looks from young men, a fact the prince had
long grown accustomed to. Watching Éomer, he began to think
that perhaps he had jumped the gun by arranging her marriage to
Mardil Fenwick. He sighed. "Well, my young friend, go and have a
good time. After all, this is an evening of pleasure, not business."
He raised his chalice. "Enjoy," he added, striding off
merrily.
Depositing the wine on a nearby table, Éomer
dodged through the crowd. His eyes raked over the masses. A blur of
green dashed out the arched stone doorway across the hall. In an
attempt to follow, he maneuvered across the room toward the
doorway.
Her heart pounding in her ears, the princess darted
for the door. Lord of the Mark. The words replayed over and
over in her head. King of Rohan. His own words echoed, making
her shudder again at the thought of them. I want to feel you in my
arms again...My hands have touched your bare skin. By the Valar,
this man's voice alone could send her over the edge. She had to get
away, and quickly. In the corridor, she turned a corner, and walked
briskly to the balcony at the end of the hall.
Ducking
outside, she leaned against the marble wall. The stone was cool
behind her back, and she was grateful for something solid to hold her
up. Breathing heavily, she pressed her hand over her mouth, forcing
herself to take deep breaths through her nose. Seeing him was enough;
she did not want to think of what would happen if she allowed him
to--
"There you are," the deep voice rumbled softly. She
jumped in surprise. "How clever of you. Now we can talk alone."
Standing straight, she dropped her hand and squared her shoulders.
Éomer looked around the small balcony, seeing no one but her.
"However, I am not sure how I should feel," he said softly,
taking a step closer to her. "You take on an entire regiment of
Orcs without batting those pretty eyelashes of yours, but you run
from me at the first opportunity."
Orcs are not nearly so
dangerous, she thought to herself. She opened her mouth to speak,
but no words would come.
"What is this? My little warrior,
at a loss for words? And I have no witnesses." He shook his head
in mock disappointment.
"I...I was not running from you. I
only wanted a little air. It is a warm evening, and it is a bit
stuffy in there," she answered stiffly, backing away from him
slightly.
"It is," he agreed, "a warm evening indeed."
The king stepped toward her as she backed further away.
"I
should return to the feast. My father will be-"Her back hit the
corner of the stone wall. You cannot do this, she told
herself. You cannot! You have a duty, a responsibility--
"Your
father is busy charming all of Gondor," he told her softly, "and
with a crowd that large it will take some time for him to notice you
are missing. What are you afraid of?" He closed the distance
between them, his hands finding her narrow waist.
Anhuil
leaned against the cool stone for support, her eyes locked on to his.
"I am afraid of nothing, Éomer, least of all you. I told
you, I only wanted to get some air." Her attempt to steady her
voice was unsuccessful. His warm hands burned her flesh through the
thin silk of her gown, sliding around to the small of her back and
pulling her to him. By the music of the Ainur, not that smile. It
will be all over. Please, not that smile.
"Air..." he
repeated mockingly, nodding slowly, his mouth widening into a grin.
Sweet Elbereth...
"We truly must work on your
priorities, Princess." One hand lifted to trace the outline of her
jaw. Her soft skin under his calloused fingertips sent a jolt through
him that he felt to his toes. His other hand splayed across her back,
pressing her against him.
She opened her mouth to
protest, but could not summon either the will or the strength to
speak. Lifting her chin, he lowered his mouth to hers, capturing her
lips softly.
Gods, he had relived the memory of her kiss a
thousand times since they parted but the sweet reality of it nearly
overwhelmed him. His hand slid into the dark curls behind her head,
deepening his possession. All thought of the celebration nearby, of
the existence of anyone or anything else ceased to matter as he lost
himself completely in the feeling of her mouth under his, the taste
of wine on her lips...the intoxicating scent of lavender...her soft
form curved against him.
Her entire resolve crumbled and blew
away like so much ash. She melted into him, allowing him to pin her
between the cool stone and the solidity of him. She could no more
have moved away than stop the rolling tide of the sea. Her mind
screamed for her to pull away, to run, but her rebellious fingers
entangled in the golden waves at his neck, pulling him to her.
The voice in her head
was back. You have completely taken leave of your senses, girl!
Oh, no, she disagreed. My senses are working quite
well, thank you. As if to prove the point, his hands moved
across the smooth silk of the back of her dress, and she gasped
slightly at the touch. Finally releasing her lips, she struggled to
breathe as his mouth trailed down her neck.
"Sweet Elbereth,
Éomer, we must stop," she murmured breathlessly.
"I
do not know if I can," he answered against her lavender scented
skin. "Gods, woman...you are all I have thought about...I have
dreamed of holding you, of having you in my arms again, of your lips
under mine..."
"Éomer, please...stop...I am
sorry...you must...stop..."
He pulled back, his dark eyes
almost black in the moonlight. His hand lightly caressed her cheek
with the back of strong fingers. "I have missed you so."
She
turned away, pulling from his embrace. Walking to the edge of the
small balcony, she folded her hands, pressing her thumbs against her
lips. "We cannot do this, Éomer."
Confusion etched
his features. "Cannot do what? I have thought of nothing but
finding you for months. What are you saying?" Suddenly remembering
the dark-haired man, he stepped back, the conversation they had
regarding arranged marriage ringing in his ears. "You belong to
another?" he asked quietly. "That man...he is your
husband?"
"No! I am not married," she quickly told him.
"Not yet.
Not yet.
The words hung in the air
as the king struggled to comprehend them.
"Not yet? What are
you saying?"
"He is...I am...betrothed."
"You
are betrothed?"
She nodded silently, turning away.
"For
the love of Béma, woman! That is not a detail one should
forget to mention!"
Spinning around to face him, she
clenched her fists at her sides. "Éomer, I tried to tell
you. I have been trying to tell you. I tried to tell you before you
ever left me in the Eastfold! You would not listen!"
"Betrothed?"
It was all he could manage. He stared at her, unblinking.
"I do not wish to
marry him. I never did! This marriage was arranged for me. I only
agreed because it was what my father asked of me. Mardil Fenwick is
an insufferable, arrogant prat!"
Éomer's head spun
as he put the pieces together. "When we found you, you were
running away," he surmised. "I was correct." The princess
nodded again.
The king drew in a long, deep breath, letting
it out slowly. Leaning forward, he pinched the bridge of his nose.
"But you are not yet married. We can talk to your father. We
can-"
"No! You do not understand! It is different here
than in Rohan. One cannot simply change one's mind! Betrothals are
binding. Agreements have been made. Contracts signed. It is no simple
matter, Eomer."
"Then what exactly did you intend-"
"I
intended NOTHING! I asked you repeatedly to allow me to go on my
way, and YOU insisted I remain with your company! I did not start
this. You kissed ME!"
"Why did you not just tell me the
truth about who you were?" His voice was becoming louder.
"Would
it have made a difference, knowing I was a princess?"
"You
know it would have!"
"That is exactly why I did not tell
you!" she shouted back. "If you had known who I was you would
have packed me straight back home, if you had to tie me up to do it.
And you would never, ever have kissed me." He stared at her. "Admit
it!"
Lowering his voice, he shook his head slowly. "No. I
would not have."
"That," she pointed her finger in his
chest, "is precisely why I did not tell you."
"And your
betrothed? You failed to mention him because...?"
"Because
I had no intention of marrying him. I had no intention of ever going
home at all! Even before I met you. But you..." She fought back
her tears. She turned away again, staring down across the city. "I
wish I had never come back here."
A surge of guilt washed
over him. "You would have stayed in Rohan, with me, had I not made
you go?"
Anhuil nodded slowly. "If you would have had me."
She turned to face him.
"If I would have...how could you
even ask that? You would have given up your birthright? You are a
princess! Do you hear what you are saying?"
Anhuil whirled
around to face him. "And what benefit has that cursed title brought
me? I am to marry an insufferable man who does not love me and cares
only for power! I am fourth in line for the throne of Dol Amroth, and
that is only if my brothers have no heirs! Yes, to relinquish my
crown would have been a great loss, would it not? I would toss the
bloody thing into the sea if it meant being free of Mardil Fenwick so
that I could be with you!" Tears threatened to spill from the
corners of her eyes. She quickly looked away.
"But your
father, and your brothers..."
The princess sighed. "In the
end, that is the reason I went home, to my family, my people...even
to Fenwick, as much as I despise him."
"Do you hate him
that much?"
"I curse the day he set foot in Dol Amroth,"
she answered bitterly.
"I truly wish you would learn to
share your feelings with me," he said sarcastically. The feeble
attempt at humor tickled her, and she snickered in spite of herself,
wiping her tears with the back of her hand. His voice softened. "Have
you told your father this?"
The princess shook her head. "I
cannot. It matters not how I feel about Fenwick. This is not a
marriage for love, Éomer. It is a matter of duty. As a
soldier, you should understand that. It was madness to think I could
run away from it."
"And what of how you feel regarding
me?"
The blunt question took her off guard. Anhuil held her
breath, then released it slowly. "My feelings are of no
consequence. Whatever was cannot now be." Her gaze fell to the
stone floor as she turned away.
"How can you say that?"
"It
was wrong, Éomer. I was wrong. I was wrong to lie to you and I
was wrong to ever let this go so far."
He walked to where
she stood and leaned on the rail beside her. "Then why did
you?"
The princess held her hands flat together, index
fingers against her lips. "All my life, I have been the Princess of
Dol Amroth. People bow to me, courtiers obey my every whim, and men
have courted me because of my position, my title, not for who I am."
She sighed, turning to face him fully. "The night you cleaned the
cuts on my face, I looked into your eyes, and I realized...you did
not see a princess of Gondor. You saw only a woman."
"A
woman who had taken complete possession of my heart before she ever
spoke a word," he said softly.
"No man has ever looked at
me that way," she answered, her voice a whisper.
Eomer
stepped closer to her, watching her profile in the moonlight. "Do
you realize that I was completely undone the moment I laid eyes on
you? You were lying in that tent, unconscious and bleeding...the
moment I saw you I was captivated. I admit I was impressed that you
took on not only those Orcs, but my own men so fearlessly. You
intrigued me. I saw a woman who was as brave and strong as she was
beautiful," he told her.
Her voice was barely audible. "I
wanted to be that woman."
"Ani, you are that woman," he
insisted.
"No," she said quietly. "I am not. What I
would not give to be simply Anhuil of Belfalas, free to make her own
choices and decide her own destiny, and not Lothíriel,
Princess of Dol Amroth, whose every step in life must be a part of a
calculated plan for the better of her people."
"The name
you gave me..."
"That I did not lie about. I told you I am
called Anhuil. And I am. My mother called me that, and my brothers
shortened it to Ani."
Drawing another deep breath, the king
folded his arms, looking up at the stars.
"I am sorry,
Éomer." Her voice was so soft he barely heard her. "I
never meant to mislead you. I never meant for this to happen. I never
meant..." her voice trailed off as she looked away. "Please do
not hate me for lying to you."
"Hate you?" Éomer
stared at her, shocked, his arms dropping to his sides. "Is that
what you think?" She turned and stared out into the darkness.
Reaching out, he turned her face back to his, his fingers lightly on
her chin. "After the battle, when I found you here..." he paused,
taking a deep breath. "When I found you in the Houses of
Healing...I felt as if my heart had been unburdened of a weight I did
not even realize it carried. I was beyond relieved to find my sister
had lived...but to find you also were safe..." He looked away
momentarily, then back at her. "It was more than I could have hoped
for. I wanted to take you in my arms and never let go, but Ioreth had
threatened to kill me if I woke you. I could not blame her. You
looked so exhausted, so pale. Somehow it did not surprise me that
you spent the better part of two days tending the wounded. Hate you?
I could never hate you, Ani. I-"
"Please..." Anhuil
interrupted, placing her delicate fingers on his lips, blinking back
tears. "Please do not say it. I do not think I could bear it."
She turned, moving quickly across the balcony for the doorway.
"Ani,
wait!" he called after her.
Whirling around to face him,
she took a deep breath and leveled him a surprisingly serene look,
although the unshed tears still rimmed her eyes. "Éomer,
please. There need be no lengthy discussion concerning what happened
upon the plains of Rohan. We were two souls, both searching for
something, and happened to find one another for a time. You owe me
nothing. Neither of us had any inkling of how this war would change
our lives."
"No, we did not, but that changes nothing
about my feelings for you, princess or no. I made you a promise. More
than one, if I remember correctly. And if you know nothing else of
me, know this, Princess; I keep my promises." His dark eyes held
hers, her body tensing as she remembered his promise to her their
last night in Rohan.
Garnering what strength she could
muster, she squared her shoulders. "Spare me, I beg you," she
pled. "This will benefit neither of us. You were the heir to the
throne of Rohan, dallying with a girl from Belfalas, and I, the
Princess of Dol Amroth, falling like a silly schoolgirl for the
handsome marshal of the Rohirrim. No matter what my foolish woman's
heart may have wanted, it could not be, Éomer. It was folly to
think it could ever have been." She turned again to walk
away.
Catching her arm, the king spun her to face him. "But
you are no farmer's daughter, and I am not simply a soldier." Her
breath caught at the intensity in his gaze. "And this is not
pretense, Ani." He pulled her to him, capturing her mouth with his
in a kiss that left her breathless when he finally released her. She
leaned against his chest.
"Why did you not come back?"
The pain in her voice knotted his stomach the way her fingers fisted
in the fabric of his tunic. "Why did you not come back to Minas
Tirith, to the Houses of Healing, before you rode out again?"
He
pulled her tighter against him, as if afraid that if he let go she
would disappear again. "I knew what I was going to face at the
Black Gates would be far worse than anything Isengard could conjure.
I could not bear to say goodbye to you again, knowing for certain it
would be for the last time." Drawing in a deep breath, he plunged
forward, his voice soft, his chin resting on top of her head. "Gods,
woman, do you not realize I fell so hard and so deeply in love with
you so fast I am still reeling from it? I would have told you I loved
you and taken you to wife then and there in the fields of the East
Emnet, but to what end? To leave you a grieving widow ere a year was
out? That was my fate, I was certain. To this day I know not how or
why I cheated death."
She leaned back and stared at him,
green eyes wide. "Is that why you did not come? You wished to spare
me the pain of your death? You think somehow my pain would have been
lessened simply because you did not have to bear witness to my tears
at your departure? Do you think for one moment I would have rather
held nothing but a woolen cloak and the memory of a few stolen
kisses, ever wondering if you had loved me as I loved you?" The
tears she had held back spilled and fell, trailing down her cheeks.
"I would rather have known the certainty of your love, even if only
for a day, than to live the rest of my life in doubt."
The
weight of what had just been said hung in the air between them,
suspended between them by their shared gaze. Hesitantly, the king
lifted a hand and wiped a tear from her cheek, his sable eyes never
leaving her deep green ones. Her hand captured his, clasping it to
her face.
"There is nothing more certain in all of Middle
Earth," he whispered.
"It cannot be, Éomer."
Anhuil's voice was barely audible.
"I swear to you,
Princess," he said softly but with an edge of steeled determination
that sent a chill down her spine, "I will find a way." His gaze
softened. "Smile for me." She could not help but obey. Leaning
down, he took her face in his hands and kissed her lightly, his
thumbs gently wiping the tears from her cheeks. "Tonight," he
told her softly, dark eyes sparkling mischievously, "we are going
to go back in there, and dance, and drink wine, and not worry about
what tomorrow will bring. I promise, it will be all right. One way or
another, it will be all right." Taking her hand, he placed it
decorously on his arm, and escorted her back to the hall.
