Trust to Hope - Chapter
Twenty-One
Author: Novedhelion
Type: FP Het
Fandom: Lord of
the Rings
Pairing: Éomer/Lothíriel aka
Anhuil
Rating: PG13
Warnings: Confusing canon.
Beta:
Riyallyn
Disclaimer: Characters are not mine, blah blah
blah....Ok...once and for all...do the Rohirrim have a written
language or not? Hmmm...even Tolkien is not clear on that
one.
Chapter
Twenty-One
"Do not tell me how
rocky the sea is. Just bring the ship."
Vince
Lombardi
Minas
Tirith
18 Cerveth, 3019 T.A.
"There
is always hope, Ani."
Anhuil raised her gaze to her
friend's, the words echoing in her head. Flinging the covers back,
she leapt from the bed. She flipped open her trunk, digging for her
leggings and a tunic.
"What are you doing?" Cam asked
her.
"You say there is hope. I am going to find it." She
pulled the clothing from the trunk, hastily dressing and yanking on
her boots.
"Do you want me to come with you?" Cam
offered.
The princess pondered the offer for a moment before
shaking her head. "No. This is something I need to do alone. I
might need you to cover for me should Ada come looking."
"Where
are you going? How do you know where he will be?"
"I am
not sure, but I have an idea where I might find him," Anhuil
answered.
Heading away from the guest quarters of the
Citadel, she paused. From the bridge, she could look down over the
city, lit by many lanterns throughout the streets. The city was built
in seven tiers, the Citadel at the top. She could see the wall
surrounding the base of the city, a wide stone rampart overlooking
the Fields of Pelennor, the wall of Rammas Echor surrounding them.
Scattered across the fields were small town lands, beginning to
rebuild after the devastation of the battle.
Small figures
moved about on the wall far below. On a hunch, she headed for the
stables. Anhuil had thought she might find him there. Sighing
resignedly, she started to head back, until she realized Firefoot was
gone as well.
"Have you seen Lord Éomer this
evening?" she asked the stable hand casually, removing her tack
from the rack near the wall.
"Yes, Your Highness," the
young man answered her. "He came out a while back, said he was
going for a ride. Seems late, but he is a king, and I'll not be
questioning his actions. And I'll do that for you, Miss, if you
don't mind," he said, taking the saddle from her.
"Thank
you." She smiled at the tall, blue-eyed young man, who blushed
visibly and turned to cinch the straps of the saddle tighter. "Your
Highness, I know you are familiar with the city but are you certain
you do not need one of us to escort you?" the man asked her.
"No,
Arland. I know my way quite well. It is late. Do not wait up for me.
And thank you for the offer." She smiled sweetly at him, and
spurring her mount into a trot, guided him through the city streets.
Where exactly she was headed, she was uncertain.
The gate
itself had been splintered by the huge battering ram Grond. Gimli
had brought skilled craftsmen of his own race to repair the damages,
recreating the intricate metalwork that had been destroyed. Although
the project was nowhere near completion, it pleased her immensely to
see it being rebuilt.
Éomer stood upon the rampart. An
involuntary smile crossed her lips as she dismounted, tying off the
reins nearby, and climbed the stairs to the top of the wall.
The
princess flipped her cloak back over her shoulders; the evening
breeze was cool but not chilly. She strolled along the top of the
wall, drawing a few curious glances from the guards posted there.
Éomer stood near the city Gate, staring out across the Fields
of Pelennor toward the city of Osgiliath.
Anhuil watched him
for a while silently. He stood as a statue, lost in thought, his dark
green cloak and blonde hair blowing in the soft breeze.
Éomer
surveyed the field below him. Four months later, there was still
evidence of the carnage that had taken place; the Mounds of Mundberg
rose in the distance and some still scorched areas of the field. But
now, it lookedâpeaceful. The River Anduín glittered in the
distance, continuing its never-ending journey south.
His
nightmares about that day had become less frequent, but he doubted
they would ever disappear entirely. The holocaust that had been the
Battle at Pelennor would most likely haunt him forever. He closed his
eyes, drawing in a deep breath. The faint scent of lavender on the
breeze had to be his imagination but he took comfort in it anyway,
his hand instinctively going to his pocket to touch the embroidered
handkerchief that had been his lifeline that day.
Anhuil
stepped closer to him, almost beside him. "I thought I might find
you here."
Her soft voice startled him from his
pensiveness. The king turned to see her standing beside him, a bit
surprised to see her dressed more like the Ani he knew instead of
Princess Lothíriel of Dol Amroth.
"What are you
doing here?" he asked her.
"Looking for hope."
Éomer
regarded her curiously. Anhuil laughed softly, shaking her head. She
turned to face him, their gaze meeting. "I owe you an
apology."
"No, Ani..."
"Éomer, please.
Listen to me."Anhuil took a deep breath, the words coming in a
flood that even his pleading look would not stem. "I have been
terribly unfair to you. I lied to you from the beginning. And it
seems I just keep making things worse. I cannot tell you how shocked
I was to see you again...and to find out YOU were the king's heir
that my father spoke so highly of...I know what I said about Fenwick
and the betrothal and Dol Amroth...I have a duty to my people to do
what is best for them and Fenwick has been able to stop these raids
on his shores, but how could that mean that I must marry him? There
has to be another way, Éomer, there has to be. It is so unfair
to both of us. I --"
"Stop, please." His fingers on her
lips finally shut her up. "You being here is enough, for now." He
dropped his hands and turned back to the field. She stood beside him,
unsure of what he meant, folding her arms beneath her cloak.
"How
did you know where to find me?" he asked without looking at
her.
She glanced up at him, then out across the field. "I am
not sure." How to explain that she was inexplicably drawn here? "I
suppose it is where I would go, were I you," she answered with a
shrug, shuffling her boot on the stone underneath her feet.
The
odd comment puzzled him. "Why?" he asked, turning to look down at
her.
Anhuil sighed, looking out across the field. "So much
death," she answered quietly. "It is difficult for anyone to come
to terms with."
The king turned his gaze back over the
field, staring straight ahead. "I would not wish it on anyone,"
he answered. He stood silent, his jaw set. Anhuil looked up at him,
his dark eyes fixed on the horizon. "So many died that day. Men I
led here. Men I knew, whose families I knew. Men with wives and
children. Men who gave all they had to give. And yet by some
fortune I was spared." He paused, looking down at her. "How do I
reckon that?" His eyes returned to the expanse of the field before
them.
"I wish I had an answer," she responded. "I
watched more men die than survive that day. I held their hands and
listened to them speak of their loved ones. Some even called me wife,
or daughter, or mother. I was whoever they needed me to be." She
swallowed hard. "I wish I had some way to tell their families of
their last words and thoughts, but there were so many, I cannot
remember them all."
Éomer turned to regard her. He
had almost forgotten she had been here as well. The horror of that
day had been hers as much as his. He felt a tightening in his chest
at the realization that she had experienced the same internecion that
he had, the guilt made worse by the fact that he had sent her to the
city to begin with.
The princess stepped toward him, sliding
her hand into his, their fingers entwining, her gaze following his
across the field to the Anduín. "We do not have any say in
such matters. Nor do we have any explanation for it. All I can offer
is that the Valar saw fit to spare you for a reason. Clearly your
task in this life is not yet complete." She turned toward him.
"There is no shame in grieving so great a loss."
The king
silently continued his contemplation of the river in the distance. "I
lost all hope that day," he said finally. "Théodred was
dead. Théoden fell. When I found Éowyn" his voice
trailed off as he looked away. He inhaled deeply. "I thought I had
lost everything."
He hesitated again, as if not sure he
wanted to continue. She squeezed his hand slightly. He looked down at
the stone under his feet. "I am still unsure how I feel about who I
became that day. It was as if something inside me snapped, some gate
that had held back, at least to a degree, the anger and hatred I had
toward them. It flooded over me and through me, until I wanted to
kill every last one of them. I felt...nothing. Even among the screams
of the dying...I felt nothing." He shook his head. "It is not an
experience I ever wish to repeat, Ani."
"It was war,
Éomer," she responded quietly. "You did what you had to
do."
"I thought I would die that day. I wanted to die."
His words shocked her. "I held no regard for my own life at that
point. On some strange level I had accepted the eventuality of my
death, and I wanted only to kill as many of them as I could before
they killed me."
Anhuil's heart hammered in her chest so
hard her pulse rang in her ears. She knew what she had experienced in
the Houses of Healing had been horrible, but she could not imagine
what he had seen. Her own experience with battle, as small as that
skirmish had been, had left her with nightmares that still plagued
her months later. But it was the thought of him wanting to die that
ripped her soul nearly in two. She gripped his hand tighter, tears
stinging her eyes.
He turned to look at her. "Do you know
what gave me a reason to live?"
Éomer pulled his hand
from hers, removing the handkerchief from his pocket. He glanced down
at it, then raised his eyes to hers. "It was this, Ani... He paused
again. The memories of that day rushing back, he looked away
momentarily. When he looked back at her, there was an intensity in
his gaze Anhuil had never before seen. "I realized that I had not
yet lost everything. I remembered I had made you a promise."
"And
you keep your promises."
"Yes. I remembered what we were
fighting this battle for. What we were fighting against. I remembered
my father, my cousin, mortally woundedâThéoden lying dead on
the battlefield, finding Éowyn and believing her to be dead as
wellâand I remembered your blood on my hands..." He shook his
head.
Éomer smiled down at her, brushing her curls
from her face, curling the ends around his fingertips. "I
remembered the way your curls fall across your face, the way you
elbowed me when I behaved like a boor, and your Sindarin ranting when
you get angry." She laughed softly. "I knew what we were fighting
for, all of usâbut then I realized what I was fighting for." Dark
eyes focused on hers, his hand under her chin. "I was fighting for
you. For us. For our future."
She opened her mouth to
speak, but the words would not come.
"So you see why I
cannot just walk away from you, Ani." His dark gaze penetrated
hers, both of his hands now on her face. Anhuil was suddenly very
grateful for the strong hands on her. She felt as if she would melt
into the solid stone beneath her, her knees beginning to give way.
"You are my reason for being alive, do you understand that?"
"Yes,
I do," she answered softly.
"I will not give up. I refuse
let go of that. I will do whatever I have to do. If that means riding
to Dol Amroth and stealing you away then that is what I will do. I
will not lose you, Ani."
She chuckled. "I do not think
that would be a good idea, Éomer, considering the friendship
you and Ada have forged. You would not risk open war with Dol Amroth
for kidnapping the princess, now, would you?" she asked
teasingly.
Éomer stared at her, only the barest hint of
a smile on his lips. "If that is what it takes, then that is what I
will do."
Anhuil met his gaze. The look in his eyes told her
he meant every word of it. She swallowed hard and smiled, trying to
lighten the mood a little. "Let us hope it does not come to
that."
"I love you, Ani," he said softly.
He ran
his thumb lightly across her bottom lip, then lowered his mouth to
hers. Months of separation, of loneliness, of longing culminated in
that one kiss. Anhuil had no concept of the passing of time, of
anyone or anything else. His words, his pain, his loveâshe felt it
all in the touch of his lips on hers. His hand slid behind her head,
pulling her closer, his gentle possession only clarifying the fact
that she could never belong to another.
Éomer did not
know how she knew where to find him in this huge city nor did he
care. He needed her. And she was here. It was as if there was a
gaping hole in his life that only she could fill, and for right now,
he felt complete. His kiss was not so much one of passion, but a
connection, a bond, a promise. One he did not want to let go of. And
he didn't, not until breathing became absolutely necessary again.
When finally they drew back, breathless, their gazes locked,
Éomer smiled. His heart felt as if a huge weight had been
lifted from it. Wiping her cheeks with his thumbs, he kissed the
tears from her face. "What is it, Ani? Why tears?"
She
shook her head. "I do not know. I" How could she explain that
she had felt the pain of all he had experienced, his hopelessness,
through that one kiss? That her heart had been broken? Anhuil felt
his determination, his will to survive, and his desire for her; his
love for her filling her heart so that she thought it would burst
from her chest. She leaned against him, emotionally spent, but
without any doubt at all that this man loved her. That was one thing
she would never again question.
"I love you, Éomer,"
she whispered.
Closing his eyes, he wrapped his arms tightly
around her, his lips pressed to her hair. "I know," he answered
with a grin, looking down at her. "Ride with me."
"Where?"
"I
care not. I just want to ride. With you."
The princess
smiled. "Of course. But...I brought Olórin. I cannot leave
him here. I suppose we could take both horses."
"No," he
answered. Making their way down the steps, Éomer approached a
guard nearby who bowed quickly in recognition of the king. They spoke
for a few moments, and Éomer handed off the reins of her horse
to him, returning to where she waited.
Éomer flashed
her a devilish grin. "Now you have no choice but to ride with me,
Your Highness." Taking her hand, he led her to where he had left
Firefoot and lifted her into the saddle, climbing up behind her. "He
will return Olórin to the stables."
"Where are
we going?" she asked
"It matters not," he repeated,
turning his mount toward the gate. Once out on the field, he let
Firefoot break into a full gallop, one arm tight around the princess,
the other skillfully controlling the reins. The wind whipped her
short curls back against his chin as she leaned back against him,
closing her eyes, relishing the feeling of complete freedom. If only
she did not have to ever go back.
Éomer allowed
Firefoot to run for a while, then slowed him to a trot, his gaze
moving across the field toward the White City.
"I do not
want to go back."
Éomer hugged her
tighter in response, but said nothing. His expression darkened as he
realized where he had unintentionally ended up. Reining in his mount,
he stared down at the spot where he had come to a halt.
Dismounting, he turned to assist her down as well. He stood
pensively, reaching silently for her hand.
The grass was still
somewhat beaten down, although new growth of the summer was
desperately trying to force its way through. One large section was
charred, and on that spot no vegetation grew. But nearby, a patch of
grass grew thick and lush, upon it a stone engraved with a short
epitaph. Anhuil stepped forward, kneeling in front of the small
stone, tracing the writing with her fingers. "Faithful servant, yet
master's bane, Lightfoot's foal, swift Snowmane," she read
quietly, then looked curiously at the other markings. "It is
cirth," she said of the first set of words, tracing her fingers
over the others. "But I do not know these letters."
"It
is the tongue of the Mark," he answered absently.
She
turned to him with a puzzled expression. "I thought your people had
no written language."
Éomer shrugged. "Not many
know it," he informed her almost emotionlessly.
"What
does it say?"
"Léof Þegn giét fréas
bana, Lihtfótas fola, swift Snámana," he replied.
"The same thing, in your tongue," she said. The king
nodded silently.
She turned back to the stone. "Your king's
mount is buried here," she said, more an observation than a
question. Rising slowly to her feet, she turned to study the charred
ground behind her. "I had heard that no living thing would grow
where the beast had been burned." Anhuil raised her gaze to look at
him. He stared intently at the blackened dirt, unmoving. Moving
beside him, she slipped her hand into his. The king closed his hand
over hers tightly.
"This is where he fell," she said
softly, "your king." She turned to look at him expectantly, his
expression answering her silently.
"He was far more than
king to me," Éomer answered quietly. "Our father was
killed by a band of Orcs, and when our mother died he took my sister
and me into his home, and raised us as his own."
"You
never told me that."
"I did not think it would ever make
a difference. Théodred, my cousin, should have inherited the
throne. I would have served him as faithfully as I had his father. I
was loyal to Théoden until he fell under the spell of that
worm. I was forced to betray the king's will for the good of the
Riddermark."
"Your concern was for your people, Éomer.
You did what had to be done to protect them. It was not the will of
your king that you betrayed."
He nodded, staring down at the
ground. "This is where he passed to me the banner of the Mark,
commanding that I be king after him," he said, shaking his head.
"Théoden should still be king." He stated it as fact.
Anhuil held tightly to his hand. "And yet tomorrow I must lead a
procession to bear his body home for burial."
Inhaling
slowly, he turned to face her. The princess allowed herself to be
pulled into his embrace. "I do not look forward to this duty. I am
grateful you are coming with us. It will make the trip easier knowing
you are there."
"I am glad as well, for any time I have
with you. But we will have to be careful, Éomer."
"It
will be torture, having you so close and not being able to touch
you," he whispered. The king leaned back and smiled down at her.
"But it will be far better than not knowing where you are at all."
Bending down, he pressed his lips lightly to hers. "I had better
get you back."
"I do not wish to go back. Can we not just
ride away now?"
The king chuckled. "Do not tempt me,
wench."
The princess stepped back, one hand on her hip, her
tone mockingly indignant. "First he calls me a hoyden and now a
temptress AND a wench. Perhaps there is some other handsome king who
would offer me a ride back to the city without such insults." She
whirled around, pretending to stalk off.
Éomer caught
her around her waist, pulling her to him. "Woman, I have chased you
enough."
"If I am such a pain to you why do you bother?"
He bent and swung her up into his arms, carrying her back to
his mount. "Because I happen to like hoydenish, tempting little
wenches." He deposited her on to the saddle and settled in behind
her. "Especially sassy ones."
"And just how many of them
have you known?" she asked, turning to look at him over her
shoulder.
Éomer rolled his eyes skyward as if thinking,
counting on his fingers. She elbowed him in the ribs. "Ow! Remind
me to wear my armor when I ride with you," he said.
The
princess leaned back against him, laughing. "You feel you need
protection from me?"
Closing his eyes, Éomer shifted
back slightly in the saddle. "More than you know," he muttered
under his breath, spurring his mount back toward the city.
The
shutters of the two lanterns left burning in the stable had been half
closed, casting only a dim light. Éomer dismounted at the
door, leading the stallion into the stable and to his stall before
reaching up to lift Anhuil from the saddle as well. He smiled as he
lowered her to the ground, holding her against him with his hands on
her waist. Before she could speak his mouth covered hers, backing her
up against the gate of the stall. Her hands that had been resting on
his arms slid up and around his shoulders, drawing him closer.
Firefoot stamped impatiently, causing the princess to giggle.
Éomer leaned back, glancing over his shoulder at the horse and
rolling his eyes. Kissing her soundly one more time, he reluctantly
released her and turned to the horse.
Leading him into the
stall, he leaned close to the stallion's head. "You and I need to
have a little talk, my friend," he said quietly. "It is not
polite to interrupt." He reached underneath the horse, unbuckling
the saddle. "Just wait. Next time I see you making advances at some
cute filly--"
"Excuse me?" The princess leaned on the
stall gate, one eyebrow raised. "Who is making advances at a cute
filly?"
"I was talking to the horse," he said flatly.
"Mmm-hmm. And what exactly are you two talking
about?"
Éomer focused his attention on the saddle,
drawing in a deep breath. "If you only knew what all this horse and
I have talked about," he muttered softly.
"Oh? And what
exactly have the two of you been discussing?"
"Nevermind,"
he responded, removing the saddle and hanging it over the rail. "It
is between us."
"Between the two of you?" she queried,
backing up from the stall gate as he opened it to come out. She
peered over the gate at Firefoot, who was busily munching hay from
the floor of his stall. "Pedo amin, mellon?" The horse glanced up
at her, then refocused his attention on the hay.
The king
grabbed her around the waist and swept her against the wall. "He
will not tell. He is sworn to secrecy. It is one of those strange
customs in the Mark. We tell all of our secrets to our horses. That
way they do not get repeated." He bent down, burying his face in
her neck. She giggled.
"What could you possibly discuss
about me with a horse?" she asked, as he reached up and brushed her
hair back, his lips pressed to her neck.
Biting back the
entirely inappropriate comment threatening to surface, he kissed her
instead, pinning her back against the wall. Anhuil playfully shoved
him backward, pulling from his embrace and walking past him to the
stall. "You did not answer my question," she tossed over her
shoulder as she walked. "At the very least I am entitled to-"she
cut herself off with a surprised shriek, leaping back from the empty
stall.
Éomer ran to her, stepping in front of her to
see what had startled her. Seeing nothing, he turned to her. She
stood against the gate across the walkway of the stable, hands over
her mouth in an unsuccessful effort to stifle her hysterical
laughter.
Puzzled, he held out his hands. "What? What was
it?"
Anhuil placed a hand on her chest, trying to breathe
enough to answer.
He turned and peered into the stall, seeing
only a small crate in the hay. Shaking his head, he turned back to
her questioningly.
Regaining her voice, she choked, "It was
only a rat."
"A rat?"
She laughed again, nodding.
Walking toward her, he chuckled. "Woman, I have seen you take out
Orcs three times your size! You scream at a rat?"
Backing
up, she feigned indignance. "It startled me. It was sitting on that
crate."
Éomer stalked slowly toward her as she backed
up. "It must have been a very big rat," he teased.
The
princess tossed her head. "If you were not expecting it, it would
have startled you as well." She continued pacing slowly backward,
trying desperately to maintain her pretense of offense as her back
hit the far wall of the stable.
"I am not afraid of rats,
Princess," he informed her, closing the distance between
them.
"Oh? What are you afraid of, sire?" she queried, her
arms crossed.
Leaning on the wall, his hands on either side of
her, his dark eyes met hers. "I am afraid of saucy mouthed little
princesses," he answered.
"And why, pray tell, is that?"
Anhuil met his gaze with a haughty look.
Éomer moved
one hand from the wall, brushing the curls from her eyes. "Because
one stole my heart several months ago and now I shall never get it
back."
Anhuil raised one eyebrow. "Would you like her to
give it back?"
The king smiled down at her, his dark eyes
shining in the pale lamplight. "If she ever gave it back I am
afraid it would be broken in two, and therefore completely useless. I
would rather she give me hers instead." He leaned closer to her,
curling the soft waves at her shoulders around his fingertips.
"That
sounds only fair," she agreed quietly. "For a princess to trade
her heart for a king's. But to do so she would have to have it to
give, and I am afraid she does not."
"Oh?" He smiled.
"Why is that?"
"I fear her own heart was taken as well,
months ago, by a handsome rogue of a soldier from Rohan."
"Is
that so? Well, perhaps I should have a talk with the knave..."
The
princess opened her mouth to respond, but was silenced by his lips
covering hers. The hand that had brushed the curls from her face slid
down to her waist, pulling her against him. His tongue found hers,
his kiss deepening. Uncrossing her arms, she slid them underneath his
cloak, around his broad shoulders.
"Éomer," she
whispered as his lips found the side of her neck, "it is getting
late. Ada will be very worried..."
With a heavy sigh, he
leaned back. "I suppose you are right. Best not to start that war
with Dol Amroth just yet."
The princess cast him a sardonic
smile. "Please do not jest about such things."
He pushed
himself off from the wall, pulling her into his arms with his other
hand. "I am sorry, did that sound like a jest? It was not meant to
be..."
Anhuil pushed him away and cuffed him on the
shoulder. "You are such a scoundrel," she teased. Éomer
offered her his arm.
"You say that like it is a bad thing,"
he said with a smile.
That grin. The princess shook her head.
She was going to have to learn to be much more resistant to that
charming grin. With a toss of her head, she regarded him silently for
a moment. Sliding her hand over his arm, Anhuil smiled seductively at
him. "I never said it was a bad thing. Genteel men are so boring.
Cam has always told me propriety is highly overrated. I do believe
she was correct."
"Cam is a very smart young woman,"
the king agreed. "You should listen to her more often." They
walked out of the stable and into the dark street, heading up the
street to the Citadel.
Strolling along beside him, the
princess shoved the hood of her cape back, and smiled up at him.
Éomer sighed. Nothing in Middle Earth affected him like a
simple smile from her.
He laughed softly.
"What is
so amusing?" she inquired, halting her steps and looking up at him.
They stood on the bridge before the Citadel.
Éomer
shook his head. "The thought of you screaming at a rat."
"I
told you, it only startled me. I have no love for the nasty little
things but I am not usually frightened by them, for Valar's sake. I
just did not expect-"she stopped suddenly, staring at him. The
king was laughing harder now.
"I am sorry, Ani," he told
her. "It was just very funny. You leap from behind trees to fight
Orcs and save my life, and then scream at a rat. It is rather
amusing, do you not think?"
She glared at him defiantly, a
hint of a smile on her lips. "I was angry at those Orcs. They took
my horse."
Éomer stopped laughing, his expression
becoming serious. "Ani, I do not think I ever thanked you properly
for saving my life."
She waved dismissively. "It was not
like it was some big heroic deed. I told you, I had a score to settle
with those Orcs."
"Yes, but you did not have to do what
you did."
"I was supposed to stand there behind the trees
and watch the three of you be slaughtered? You were
outnumbered."
The king smiled at her. "Ani, what you did
was very brave. You could have stayed hidden, or ran, and those Orcs
would never have known you were there. But you did not. You stepped
in, risking your own life, and saved not only me, but probably my men
and our horses as well."
The princess snickered. "Brave?
You think that was brave?" She laughed out loud. "I was
terrified, Éomer. I was certain my heart pounding would be
heard all over Rohan. I was more frightened than I have ever been in
my life. But I was also angry. I was angry with myself for allowing
them to frighten me away the first time. I was not about to let them
win again." She crossed her arms, pulling her cloak around her
again. "Rash, I will grant you. Brave? Compared to what you and the
others did out there, and at the Black Gate? Compared to your sister,
facing down the Witch King of Angmar? I do not think so." She
kicked at a stone under her feet, then started to walk ahead, toward
the Citadel.
Catching her by the arm, Éomer turned
her back toward him. "Princess," he said, addressing her by the
title he rarely used, "there are many kinds of courage. Do you not
remember what I told you the evening you were wounded?"
"In
all honesty, Éomer, I remember very little of that evening,"
she confessed, not quite truthfully, because some images from that
night were burned into her mind like a brand. Some she would rather
forget.
"I told you that fearlessness is reckless.
Fearlessness will likely get you killed. Courage is facing adversity
head on. It is calculating the risk and deciding what is worth the
cost. THAT is what you did. It is what you are doing now." The king
smiled at her. "And the fact remains that had you not done what you
did..." he trailed off momentarily. "Thank you, Ani."
"If
I am not mistaken, we are even on that one. I seem to remember a
scrape you pulled me out of," she answered.
His hand slid
down to her side, the warmth of his fingers through the fabric of her
thin tunic made her breath catch.
"I guess we are square,
then," he said softly, his thumb tracing the line across her side
where her wound had been. Éomer leaned down, his forehead
against hers, pulling her to him with the hand on her waist.
She
grinned up at him. "I suppose we are, at least until I have to save
your sorry hide again."
"I am counting on it," he told
her, his lips meeting hers. Anhuil stood on her tiptoes, her hands on
his shoulders, leaning against him. His free hand slid around her
waist and splayed across her back, under the cloak. She shivered at
the warmth of his touch. His fingers spread, sliding over the soft
fabric of her tunic.
Reluctantly, he pulled back, sighing
deeply. "We should get you inside. It is late and your father is
going to kill me if he finds out I had you out riding in the Pelennor
in the middle of the night."
"Well, we cannot have that or
I will be stuck with that arrogant prat Fenwick," she answered as
they ascended the steps to the Citadel.
"We certainly cannot
have that," he remarked teasingly. He stopped and looked at her.
"Ani, this will not be easy."
"Do you think I am the
kind of woman who has an issue with adversity, Éomer?" She
raised an eyebrow at him.
His hand went to her cheek. "You
certainly do not choose the simplest paths in life, Princess."
"The
safe and simple paths are the boring ones, Your Majesty," she
quipped.
The heavy doors creaked open loudly. Stepping inside,
she turned to face him. "Best not to arouse any more suspicion than
we probably already have, arriving together this late at night. Those
guards will be gossiping all night. Between them and the ones at the
gate, by tomorrow most of Minas Tirith will be whispering about
us."
Laughing softly, the king rolled his eyes. "Good
thing we are leaving tomorrow, then. I will never get used to having
every detail of my life analyzed this way," he sighed.
"I
have news for you, Éomer. If you grew up in the courts at
Edoras, it has been going on your whole life, whether you were aware
of it or not." She lowered her voice almost to a whisper. "I
should go in alone. You know your way to your quarters?"
"I
think I can find it," he assured her. They stood silently for a
moment, neither wishing to be the first to turn away.
"Well,
goodnight then, Your Majesty," she said quietly with a slight nod
of her head, more for the benefit of the guards within hearing
distance than for him.
"Goodnight, Princess," he responded
with a very appropriate bow. She giggled. "Thank you for the honor
of allowing me to escort you safely."
Anhuil chuckled
softly. With a glance at the guards, who were trying desperately not
to watch, she nodded. "Tomorrow, then," she said quietly, turning
down the marble tiled corridor.
Éomer watched her
stride down the hall, her cloak billowing behind her. When he could
no longer hear the clicking of her heels on the stone floor, he
turned and walked slowly back to his own
chambers.
Note from the Author
There
are conflicting passages in Tolkien's work about whether or not the
Rohirrim had a written language. He says clearly in the Two Towers
that they did not, but Return of the King mentions that the monument
to Snowmane was written in "the tongues of Gondor and of the
Mark", which would indicate that there WAS a written language
for the Rohirrim. Another thing our dear Professor chose not to make
clear...for whatever reason. I have chosen to give them a written
language, assuming that the majority of their populace would be
illiterate and therefore the use of it would not be widespread. I am
also making an assumption that nobles would have been more educated,
considering how long Thengel lived in Gondor, and that his heirs
probably WOULD have been literate, at least in the languages of
Gondor and the Mark. Allow me this little bit of artistic license if
you will.
