Chapter 5

What does Mom want? All I get is a cryptic message on voicemail on my cell. To meet her and Syd so they can talk to me about something. But what more is there to discuss, over the months we have together as a family we have talked a lot. About Mom, Sydney and even slightly about Dad, my aunts and even Jack. All the stuff that they could talk about to me that wasn't highly classified. It's defiantly comes to something when your own families lives are subject to C.I.A procedures of access. But what the hell is not like I'm a member of a perfect family like the Brady Brunch, instead it's more like the Watt's family on Eastenders. Like ours their totally messed up, brother's and sister's who never knew existed. A parent who faked the death. What I'm doing thought Nadia I'm comparing my life to TV shows.

Nadia knocked on the door and waited for it to be opened. Always sharply like Mom was standing nearby. Like she knew I was there before I had even got there. The door was pulled open.

"Hi Syd" Nadia said as she greeted her sister.

"Hi Nads." She said as she leaned across to kiss Nadia on the cheek.

"Where's Mom?"

"She's in the kitchen" Sydney said leading Nadia to the back of the house.

"Hello Baby" Irina said coming to hug Nadia.

"Hey Mom" Nadia replied. But she had noticed something in her mothers eyes. A spot of panic not completely covered.

"Mom, what's going on?"

"Look, sit down. Me and Sydney we'll tell you in a minute."

Nadia made her away across the room and sat at the table.

"Okay. Please can you tell me what is going on. All I get is a garbled message on my cell telling me to come over here to talk about something. So please tell me know."

"Nadia promise me that you will carefully listen to what we are going to tell. And don't be to hasty in making a decision about it." Irina said

"Your starting to worry me. Tell me."

Sydney took over for Irina at this point, being that she had the most experience in what was about to occur in Nadia's life."

"Nadia, do you remember me mentioning a project my Dad was working on when the KGB sent Mom here"

Nadia nodded. "Project Christmas right?"

"Right. Do you know what it was about?"

"No"

"Project Christmas was created in the 1970's by my Dad as a way to train exceptional children with the skills that they need to be successful spies. Linguistics, marksmanship etc. With the idea that when they were old enough the would be recruited."

Nadia was shocked. "There was a project for this. Training Children to be spies. No actually programming them."

"Yes. This was the reason that Mom was sent here, the KGB wanted information to develop their own project. But there is something more to this. My Dad tested it on me. I'm programmed to be a spy."

"Sydney., What, how, why?"

"Baby. This is why we need to talk to you. Me and Sydney have found out some information, it seems that the KGB used the project on you. I'm sorry it seems you were programmed too." Irina told her.

"WHAT!!! I was programmed. I didn't become a spy as my own idea. That I was forced into" Nadia shouted at Irina

"Nadia. Calm down. It's not Mom's fault." Sydney intercepted her.

"But it is. She gave them the Intel to develop the project. Because of that they programmed me to be a spy. So in a twisted way it is her fault." She stood up and looked Irina straight in the eye and said. "Thank You Mother. For being able to destroy my life before I even knew you."

"Nadia. I'm sorry." Irina replied.

"I'm not sure I can expect you apologies. I need time to think about it." Nadia said before she left.

Irina turned and said to Sydney.

"Well that went as well as can be expected."

R/N: For anyone who doesn't know what Eastenders is, it's a drama made by the BBC set in London, If you want to know more the website is .