Chapter 17
When everyone else got back from the Bronze, Angel was bombarded by Gunn, Doyle and Xander.
"Just what the hells were you thinking OF?" Exclaimed Gunn while Xander pitched in, "Did you hit your head or something today? Along the way deciding, 'Hey let's just screw my chances with Buffy now!' Is that what you wanted? Because clearly that's what you just did!"
Doyle shook his head, sadly remarking, "I really dunno why you would waste your time with Darla, especially with all the history you guys have together when you could have someone like Buffy. Why did you do it?"
Angel didn't need this right now. He was already pissed of today and didn't need it from his friends also.
"Whatta mean why did I do it? I did it because I felt like it. That's what. I don't' NEED Buffy Summers. You hear? Today was the first time in a long time I felt like my true self again. The person I was before Buffy came into my life. And I like it this way. Besides, I hope she realizes that a good thing she missed out."
He knew he was lying; all he could picture was the cheery smile she gave after she had witnessed Darla and him making out. His heart felt like breaking seeing her so happy, so unaffected by his actions. He also knew that he didn't like his old self after realizing how much more he could have getting out of his old lifestyle. But he decided to stick with his plan, being what he was before until he got what he wanted from Buffy. Until then, he hoped that in time Buffy would realize what she was missing. He prayed to God or whatever that she would realize, because he honestly didn't know if she would ever want him. the way he desperately wanted her.
After night came and everyone went to bed, Angel couldn't help but stare up at his ceiling, remembering everything that happened today. So many things happened today. So many things he did not see that came his way. He felt like he was starting all over with Buffy, instead he was being drawn back by a couple of hundred miles from the starting line. He forced himself to come to a conclusion, a conclusion that the only reason why he wanted Buffy so much was that she resisted him. He had to admit she was the first girl in his whole history that didn't straight up tell him that they wanted him. He made himself believe that that was the sole purpose why he had sleepless nights, thinking of her, always dreaming of her, always wanting her. He truly believed that once he would have her, he would forget about her, and that all his troubles would go away. Little did he realize, he would build himself a never-ending trap and that later on, he would realize that everything he believed in was a terrible lie.
* Sorry this is real short. But this is really an important chapter. This chapter involves the build-up of the Buffy and Angel's character plotline and a little bit of a hint of what's to come so read carefully!
When everyone else got back from the Bronze, Angel was bombarded by Gunn, Doyle and Xander.
"Just what the hells were you thinking OF?" Exclaimed Gunn while Xander pitched in, "Did you hit your head or something today? Along the way deciding, 'Hey let's just screw my chances with Buffy now!' Is that what you wanted? Because clearly that's what you just did!"
Doyle shook his head, sadly remarking, "I really dunno why you would waste your time with Darla, especially with all the history you guys have together when you could have someone like Buffy. Why did you do it?"
Angel didn't need this right now. He was already pissed of today and didn't need it from his friends also.
"Whatta mean why did I do it? I did it because I felt like it. That's what. I don't' NEED Buffy Summers. You hear? Today was the first time in a long time I felt like my true self again. The person I was before Buffy came into my life. And I like it this way. Besides, I hope she realizes that a good thing she missed out."
He knew he was lying; all he could picture was the cheery smile she gave after she had witnessed Darla and him making out. His heart felt like breaking seeing her so happy, so unaffected by his actions. He also knew that he didn't like his old self after realizing how much more he could have getting out of his old lifestyle. But he decided to stick with his plan, being what he was before until he got what he wanted from Buffy. Until then, he hoped that in time Buffy would realize what she was missing. He prayed to God or whatever that she would realize, because he honestly didn't know if she would ever want him. the way he desperately wanted her.
After night came and everyone went to bed, Angel couldn't help but stare up at his ceiling, remembering everything that happened today. So many things happened today. So many things he did not see that came his way. He felt like he was starting all over with Buffy, instead he was being drawn back by a couple of hundred miles from the starting line. He forced himself to come to a conclusion, a conclusion that the only reason why he wanted Buffy so much was that she resisted him. He had to admit she was the first girl in his whole history that didn't straight up tell him that they wanted him. He made himself believe that that was the sole purpose why he had sleepless nights, thinking of her, always dreaming of her, always wanting her. He truly believed that once he would have her, he would forget about her, and that all his troubles would go away. Little did he realize, he would build himself a never-ending trap and that later on, he would realize that everything he believed in was a terrible lie.
* Sorry this is real short. But this is really an important chapter. This chapter involves the build-up of the Buffy and Angel's character plotline and a little bit of a hint of what's to come so read carefully!