Hands slowly zipped up the backpack before slinging it over a shoulder. Fingers slipped under the straps, idly resting there and almost forgotten as brown took in the room. The bed lacked anything to make it homey, as did the nightstand. The desk lacked books and papers that resided there practically everyday for four years. Now, in more ways than one, there was no more need.
"Miss Kalie Himmen. Major in general history and minor in anthropology."
The dean's voice rang in her head. She could still feel the sturdiness of his hand as she shook it and coolness of the diploma handed over. There was a rush of excitement in knowing she finished such a lengthy, difficult task, but also wonder of what new job she could get with those topics. Uncertainty hovered around when she headed back to her seat, but melted away as the largest situation swarmed to replace it.
She slowly turned, eyeing the room as if for defects. The closet door gaped open almost accusingly in its emptiness. She looked away, shifting again to head for the nearest window. She stared to the ground below, brown observing the neighborhood. Time became nonexistent. She watched leaves blow on the nearest tree next door, mind blank.
"Finished packing yet? I've got your stuff by the door."
She turned and looked into shunted blue, unconsciously involved in a staring contest until a hand shifted.
"You're WHAT?!"
She flinched at the volume. "Moving."
"I heard that well enough. I just don't understand WHY! Don't you think this culture absorbance is going a little too far? I can get the food and language bits, but aren't you blowing this to irrationality?"
She looked away, eyes downcast. "Regardless...it's what I've decided."
Sam stood and started pacing, fists clenched. "It's Inaki, isn't it? It's gotta be - we're talking his home country after all." Blue narrowed to slits. "I'll kill him... I'll go over there and kick his ass till it's PAST black and blue!"
"He's got nothing to do with this; he actually told me to rethink everything. I granted his request and thought the hell out of this, but I'm still going."
There was a tense silence before Sam slumped where she was and landed on carpet. She didn't dare shift for fear of explosion, so let the girl make the first move.
"How are you planning on taking your stuff with you? That's serious shipping costs."
She blinked a few times, almost disbelieving what she just heard. "D - does that mean...you're okay with this?"
Sam whirled to face her, eyes blazing and tears streaking her face. "Of COURSE I'm not! You're talking about a risk taking you across the OCEAN! Halfway across the world! I'm your sister; your best friend - the last thing I want to hear is you leaving."
Her vision swam and she unconsciously inched across the living room floor. "Sam..."
"This isn't moving from home you realize. You're going to alienate yourself from everything you know and love. Are you ready for that??"
"I know it'll be hard - I've made lists of things in case I missed anything. I've though long and hard about this and I want to go make my future in a different place."
"Why can't you make it here? What is so damn special about that area??"
She couldn't explain the whole reincarnation thing to justify the move, because she had a feeling Sam wouldn't understand and wouldn't WANT to.
Brown looked away from blue, eyeing the coffee table. "When I went there the first time...I felt at home there." She looked back, somehow knowing a retort was coming. "Please don't misunderstand me Sam! I know it sounds crazy, but I feel like I belong there! Haven't you ever felt out of place in this country?"
Sure Inaki could reprimand she was letting Kagome get to her and to try harder. Yet the more she went over everything, the less she found comparisons of either past life to this one. Kagome was really fading away in her mind. This was a wish spawned from half a soul and mutated into this final desire.
The need of finding a place to really live in.
"I don't like the idea of you going...but I'll support you on any decision you make, you know that. Even if it's something like this. But just humor me and give me some specifies so I feel better about all of this."
She crossed the room without thought and embraced the girl. Sam was only momentarily shocked before tightly returning the hug. "Find some way to give me a call when you get over there, okay? I know it'll be costly, but charge it to me if you have to. Better yet, we're stopping and picking up a phone card before you leave."
She merely nodded, not in any mood to argue. Let Sam do as she pleased - it would be a while before they saw each other again. "I'll write as soon as I get money for postage." She murmured.
"No you don't - no making me cry." Sam mildly retorted. They separated as the Hispanic made to wipe her eyes. The girl gave a small smile. "I told myself I wasn't going to do this."
She gave her friend a soft look. "When I save up enough money, I'm going to fly you out so you can visit."
The pair turned to leave and Sam flicked the light off. "You think I can't afford it on my own?"
She snorted. "You'd ask your parents anyway."
"Course I would. You think either of us can afford that with aid to pay back?? You're not going to have free time or money, so talk to me when you do."
She stopped at the middle half of the steps and looked to the extra living room. "Maybe...but I WILL have you over someday soon."
Sam looked up with an almost sad smile. "Then I will look forward to that day. I haven't puked since I was a kid."
A hand slapped over her eyes at such a horrible way of ruining the moment. "Don't tell me you get that bad on planes..."
A smirk sprouted. "Horribly. It's dangerous for those sitting around me in every direction."
It wasn't funny to laugh at her friend's misery, but she couldn't help it. She needed some lightheartedness in a time of separation and sorrow. "You're so disgusting...it's amazing you even handle car rides."
"Thousands of feet in the air doesn't suit me." Sam mumbled, casting a dry look before turning for the kitchen. "You've got everything from down here right?"
She sobered rather quickly and hopped the remaining steps. "Pretty sure, but let me go over everything again."
"Why are you giving me all of your movies? I won't watch them all."
"And I'm not going to watch any if I take them with me. You'll be the one with the tv and dvd player. I'll be lucky to even get cable by the end of the year."
"Point taken. I'll take them then."
She smiled and reached for the next item stacked with a few things not needed or wanted to take across seas. Only major things could go; everything else would cost more than what she could save up. "I know you have enough on your own, but you can take this too."
"You should keep that! You might want to use it one of these days."
Raven swished. Brown looked to the plastic container. "This country is different than over there. It's more about fitting in than standing out. Inaki's family has connections there that they said they'd help me on, but otherwise I need to do all I can on my own. That includes abiding by the norms."
"Sounds restrictive if you ask me."
"I did a small map-out of everything around here over a weekend...and you can keep the furniture in my room."
Sam's head shook. "You should keep that too. If anything, you should get the money out of it by selling it to a furniture shop. It's all in pretty good order after all and you'll need it."
"Mom is letting me sell what she kept for when I visited. I won't have a need anymore and she didn't want to keep it either. I've got a dresser, nightstand, and bed to put to use. Plus there's some stuff in the attic I can go through to see what I can do with that."
"It still sounds like you won't have enough money. You know you can borrow some from me or the family if you can't get everything shipped over."
She smiled and rested a hand on her friend's shoulder. "I know you'd give it to me in a heartbeat, but if I plan right I should be okay. I appreciate the gesture though."
"That's all." She answered, stopping by the front door. Brown took in the few plastic tubs containing books and clothing stuffed in for packing. There were some small boxes carrying bathroom necessities and dishes to get by until her finances looked up. There was very little she owned, but that was a good thing right now. All the furisode given to her by Jayden were safely packed away and sealed in bags to prevent wrinkles.
Of course her bike had to go; it would be her main mode of transportation, but also the most expensive thing to take. It would save her in the long run and she was loathe to give it up.
"Well I guess you won't have much to pay for with your stuff." Sam announced, leaning against a pillar. "At least all this'll fit in my car."
She snorted and opened the door, bringing in a gust of autumn wind. "Thankfully it's cool for a morning." She replied, holding the door open and pulling a bin with.
In less than half an hour, the pair moved everything to the trunk. They stood at the side of the car, both staring at the house. "Sure you're not forgetting anything?" Sam asked.
"If I am, you can mail it to me."
The girl snorted. "Is there anything at home you think you'll need?"
"We'll find out once we get there." She moved for the passenger see, Sam for the driver's, and the pair took off. She didn't want to look back because any doubt would make everything crumble. She was sure of this, it was what she wanted, and anything now was futile. Plans were made, an apartment in Tokyo was picked out and the deposit paid, and her things were packed.
She would really be going in a few hours.
The plane was purposely picked for an afternoon flight to give plenty of time to remember everything and say goodbye to those she knew.
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The car stopped in front of the Merth house and she momentarily stared at it before going for the handle. Everyone was lounging on the porch and stood as she headed up the walk.
Missy was the first to embrace her, not letting anyone else go first. "You be safe getting there. I don't want to hear anything from hija about problems getting adjusted."
She blinked back tears at the waver in the elder woman's voice. "I - I will." She mumbled, taking a deep breath.
Carl hugged her when Missy stepped back, giving a squeeze that said more than words. "Bueno suerte hija."
"Thanks padre." She whispered, losing the battle with tears.
The pair she haunted and was haunted by for years stepped forward together. "You're crazy you know that?" Casey retorted, slinging an arm around her shoulders.
"Yea, you think this's going to work?" Kevin agreed, an arm around her waist.
She smiled at the pair, scuffing both their hair. "I'm sure." She answered, ignoring their hands at her action. "But it's nice to know you care."
The pair snorted and gave a mini group hug before stepping back.
Carl moved in again, a hand reaching for something in his back pocket. "It's a shame to see you go hija. We've always thought of you as our own and we know you feel the same way. Since we consider you family, we're giving you this." He produced a plain, white envelope and handed it to her. "And we won't take no for an answer."
She stared, having a good notion of what was inside. "I...I can't take your money." She denounced, hands in the air. As much as she wanted to, needed it for groceries and emergency cash, she was reluctant to accept.
"I said we won't take no for an answer." One of Carl's hands reached out and grasped wrist, firmly planting the money in her palm before letting go. "It's nothing for us and a small trifle of what we can do to help. Think of this as a going-away present."
She dumbly nodded and unfolded the flap. Brown widened to saucers as she pulled out two hundred dollar bills. Her mouth dropped open, denial on her tongue.
A hand clamped over her mouth as she started forming words. "Just take it and be happy you've got some expenses covered." Sam answered, letting go. "After all, you're going to need it."
She stared at the money, tears gathering faster than she could blink them back. "Th - thank you...everyone..." She practically launched at Missy and Carl in a hug. "I appreciate everything you've ever done for me... I only wish...there was something I could do back."
The boys smiled and moved to a full family hug. "Hey, we got time with you hija, that's good enough for us." Kevin replied.
"Does anyone know what two hundred dollars equals to in Japanese currency?" Sam pondered when they separated.
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"I wish there was something I could do for you honey, but good luck and prayers are all I can manage."
She smiled and entered the embrace. "I know mom, but I appreciate the thought. I was given some money by certain parties," Brown drifted to Sam sitting nearby, "so I'm fine. I saved up what I can and the Yamoi family is helping me with a job. They already helped find a relatively cheap apartment."
Sam grinned. "They had good reason for it."
Ella pulled away, wiping her eyes. "I'll miss you so much Kalie. My little baby is moving away farther than a simple visit."
Brown teared. "Oh mom..." Bangs shadowed eyes for a spell to compose herself. "I'll miss you too, but I'll have to try and get you to visit me sometime."
"We'll go as a pack." Sam suddenly piped in. "Me and Ella and mom and dad and tweedle dee and tweedle dum and Inaki's family -"
"Okay, THAT would take me years to save up for." She cut in, smiling.
"I hope you can adjust over there." Ella's hand rose and brushed through raven. "I don't know anything about Japan except from meeting Inaki, but it's a whole different place. I hope you're extra careful and find some people who can watch out for you over there."
She smiled and took the woman's hand, giving it a pat. "I'll be fine mom - like I said, Inaki's family has some connections. I'll get worked in. After all, I've already got a place to stay."
"They're so good to you. They're good people - I'm glad you got to know them."
She looked to the carpet with dull eyes. "Yea...me too..."
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She took some time out to make a quick stop at the pool Sheryl and Hal worked at. Sam didn't mind the drive and was eager to see the pair again. She made a thorough sweep of her old home before they left to make sure everything was taken or not. They had other things to do and people to visit, so she couldn't afford extra looking. The last thing she wanted was to drop her things off to get shipped and have problems that ran over her flight.
The pool was being drained in a few days, the temperatures getting down enough with the year almost over. School would start up as well and they didn't allow both to go on at the same time.
Her head poked past the concrete entrance, eyes scanning the area for life. Her subtle entrance was spoiled as Sam pranced in and called out for anyone in the vicinity. She sighed and headed to snoop. She hoped the twins were working today - it wouldn't do well if she had to go hunting for them.
"Sorry but we're down for maintenance right now - Sam?? I thought I saw your face."
She smirked at that and headed toward the voice, sneaking a peek around the corner for the women's changing room and spied her old friend. "Yo, Sheryl."
Said girl all but shrieked, dropped a shop broom in her hands, and rushed her. Arms went around her, pinning hers to her body, and swept her into the air. "Oh my god! It's been a while K! How's it going?? To what do I owe the pleasure of your visit?"
She had to take a minute to get over that whirlwind attitude. A smile popped up as she stepped back, though a little anxious to say the reason for her visit and spoil Sheryl's sudden good mood. "Well, I wanted to see you."
"Hey chica, I'm going to go roam; it's been a while since I've seen the place."
She nodded, mentally thanking her friend for being astute - whatever happened to the blunt, yet tactless friend she knew years ago?? - and looked down the concrete hall to the pool section. "I had something I wanted to tell you...I didn't want to go and not talk to you ever again."
A brow rose, Sheryl's head tilting. "Go? Why do I not like the sound of that? Where are you moving to now??"
Teeth bit her lip for a second as she looked away. "I - uh - to Tokyo." She mumbled, unable to look her friend in the eye. It was too quiet for too long and when she looked up, she found an incredulous look bearing down on her. She gave a self-conscious smile and scratched her head in a fidget. "I know it sounds odd and totally out of the blue, but I already went there once last year and it's a pretty cool place. I decided to live there once I graduated and saved enough money up. Well, I graduated in the beginning of May and got my degrees. So I'm just stopping to tell you."
Sheryl looked away, an unreadable look quickly masking her face. "You're coming to say goodbye." She interpreted, reaching for the broom.
"I know it's stupid of me to throw this at you in one day. I apologize for not stopping sooner, but I ran more hours at the hotel with school over and had a lot of sorting and packing and -"
The girl stood, back to her, a quiet sigh escaping. "Hey...I can understand. You've been busy." Sheryl twisted at the waist to give a small smile, sadness in her eyes. "It seems since we met in high school you always had something going on. I know you've got a life, I've got one too - yours just happens to be fuller than mine." Hands clenched over wood. "This is just totally out of the blue. I definitely can't picture you living there, but who am I to judge? I've never been there myself."
She took a step forward, teeth gnashing her lip. "Sheryl..."
Sheryl walked to the pool area, practically ignoring her name. "Yo Hal! K's here and she's got something to tell you!" She shouted. She turned and eyes met. "I'm not mad at you or anything, but I should get back to work."
She nodded, absently looking to the ground. "I understand." She waited until Sheryl was nearly into the women's room before deciding to say what was on her mind. "You know...I owe a lot of the early changes in my life to you guys... You helped open me up some and I can never repay you two for that. You have my deep thanks for your friendship. I'll never forget it."
She got a nod and saw the glint of tears before her friend passed a wall and was out of sight.
Footsteps caught her attention and she headed for them, heart heavy. Both Hal and Sheryl were her beginning friends and they meant a lot to her, as every friend did, and it hurt no less to say goodbye to them in such a timeless manner.
"Well hell, if it isn't Kalie Himmen. What brings you around your old hometown? You haven't stopped by in a while. Forget about us?"
A brief smile met Sheryl's twin before she stepped into the outside. "Hey Hal."
Said male swept her into a hug before she could say another word, giving a squeeze. "I know you're taken, but I still have privilege of plutonic hugs, so don't tell your guy okay?"
Brown teared a little, but she nodded at his attempt of humor. Hal would forever be a sore spot in even a tiny way due to his ever-present crush on her. She never wanted to hurt him by spurning his affections, but there wasn't a time when she wanted to be involved with him.
"Hal, there's something I have to tell you..."
"So I hear. Sheryl shouted at me and startled me so bad I practically fell over."
She escaped his hold and took a few steps back, unable to be so close and say the words she needed to say. "Well, I already talked to Sheryl about this and she's not taking it good. I didn't know whether I expected her to or not, but it's too much for someone when you see them again after months I guess."
"Rambling from you is normally a bad sign." Hal interrupted, all humor escaping his face. A hand landed on her shoulder. "You know you can tell me anything you need straight out. What is it you told Sheryl?"
She dug deep for courage to look her friend in the eye. "I'm moving. My plane leaves today in a few hours and I was just coming to say goodbye."
The only visible thing from Hal was a clenching of his jaw. Silence was broken only by the wind and gurgling of nearby pool filters for what seemed the longest time. "I...see. Where is this place going to be?"
"Tokyo."
Hal stepped away and stared at her as if waiting for the punch line. Brown managed not to look away, though she felt a need to dumb the blow down like with Sheryl.
"I see... This just came about or have you been planning it like you do everything else?"
She fought not to cringe at the evenness of his voice. "I know it's horrible of me to come and drop this on you both, but I still wanted you to know. You're my friends and you deserve to be told." Brown dropped to the ground, fingers twisting together. "I thought about this a lot and for me, you know that's serious. I waited until graduation to do anything. I took the few months after to save up some needed money and get things in order. You're not the only one I announced this to so suddenly. No one is happy with my decision and I don't blame them, but it's not going to change anything."
Hal gave a nod and suddenly swept her into his arms, giving the fiercest hug she ever received. "I won't lie and say this is something I support you on. I think it's crazy, but you've got your heart set on this it seems. I suppose I should count myself lucky you stopped by." He pulled away with a humorless smile, eyes hollow. "At least I got to see you before you leave."
"Hal...I -" His lips cut her off and shocked her so thoroughly she couldn't pick mental functions up to pull away or question why he was doing this. Brown widened and stared at his lashes until he pulled away, ignoring the squeeze before he stepped back. Fingers drifted to her mouth, running over lips in astonishment.
Hal blushed a little and scratched his neck. "I...I always wanted to catch you off-guard one time and do that. I suppose the time was perfect since I won't ever get to do that again."
She blinked and startled to attention when he turned and leaned for cleaning equipment left on the ground. "Hal...I -"
"You have a lot to get to yet from what I hear." He answered, not looking at her. "I'm glad you stopped by to tell us and visit one last time, but you should get those other things done. I have to get back to work."
Sheryl said the same thing. Of course they were taking this badly, considering she was treating them so unfairly. She didn't want any hard feelings to remain after she left; maybe someday she hoped to come back and see everyone, even if it was only for a few days. It was only a generic thought; who knew what her money and job situations would be.
She stopped behind, a hand rising. Lips pressed together before eyes hardened at his purposely ignoring her and fingers grabbed shirt. She stepped back as he practically whirled around, eyes watery. She blinked, but stood firm. "Apologies won't undue the harm I've done to you two," She quietly began, "but I do mean it when I say I'm sorry for putting you on the spotlight like this. I was thoughtless and crass for not saying anything in advance and I'm sorry for that. Perhaps we could've spent a day together before this, but now there's no time. If you don't mind...I'd like to write to you when I get settled and money for stamps and whatnot. I don't want to lose contact with you just because of this."
Hal stopped in front of her, staring down with his taller stature. She met his eyes, showing the seriousness of her words and hoped he accepted them. After a second, a minute smile appeared and with it, a nod. "I'd like that." He murmured.
She smiled. "I can't say how long it'll take me to get my life in order there, but I swear to you I'll write."
The smile widened. "I know you will." A hand reached out and cupped her chin. "You be safe, you hear?"
"Of course."
"You've got to go now. You really will be cutting it short if you don't."
His words held less of a sting and she nodded in agreement, happy to smooth everything over. She didn't want to say goodbye, so waved before jogging back to the entrance.
"You really will write us?"
She stopped dead at shuddery words, immediately turning to them. Her heart clenched at Sheryl's red eyes. She turned and went to hug the girl, getting one in return. "I already swore to Hal I would. I swear it to you too."
"Don't sound too serious over it. All you need to do is promise."
She smiled and wiped her friend's cheeks. "This way you know I'll do what I say."
The pair stepped away and she waved a second time before taking the exit. Sam was in the driver's seat, listening to something on the radio. She inhaled the autumn air, feeling sad and good at the same time. Brown quickly scanned the scenery before heading to the car.
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It was kind of dumb to head all the way back to Miami when she should've done this before leaving, but they had to go through there anyway so it worked out.
They stopped at the house, which made nostalgia turn to surrealism, to use the phone. After that, she and Sam headed for the beach.
She stood in her spot and watched the waves and mid-morning sun splash colors over the tide. It was so beautiful, but she would have this in Japan to look at. Her spot wasn't going to be as missed because it was just a place. She couldn't call this area hers because too many people frequented it, making it easier to leave behind. The people she knew were the issue.
"So what's so important that you had to break us away from some much needed napping? It's only ten thirty! I like to sleep to noon on my weekends."
A smile tipped her lips as she turned. Chance stopped feet away, hands on hips, Marisol trailing behind. "I was having the nicest dream about last night too."
"Sweetheart!" Marisol reached out and ruffled her girlfriend's hair, getting a squawk of protest. "Not in front of Kalie."
"If she doesn't know by now, she deserves a nun's life." Chance retorted, smoothing her locks. "So what did you call us for?"
Yet another group of people she was springing this on. She almost felt guilty and sat down. The pair followed, giving her curious attention. "I just thought you should know...I'm moving away."
"Going back home are you?"
Black swished slowly. "No...I'm moving across seas. I'm going to live in Tokyo."
Chance's back went ramrod. "WHAT?! When the hell is this taking place??"
She shifted under her friend's glare. "My plane...leaves in a few hours..."
"And just WHEN did you decide it was a good idea to tell us?? Were you even planning on cluing us in? Maybe we would've found out after a few months of not seeing you around town - is that what you intended??"
This was going badly, but Chance was a lot more outspoken and she should've expected this. "No!" She denied, hands in the air. "I didn't graduate until a few months ago; you knew because you did too! I had a lot of things to get done and took on a lot more work to earn some cash. I didn't mean to spring this on you like this, honest!"
"Sweetheart, please calm down. It's just shock Kalie, she isn't as mad as she seems."
Chance stood and started pacing, kicking up sand and nailing them both with such close proximity. "You say that like you're sure of yourself Mar." Chance stopped and leveled her with a glare. "So...you're going to be over there...for how long?"
She swallowed. "Uh...indefinitely." She mumbled, wanting to shrink away.
Chance resumed pacing, hands digging in hair. "Nice...that's nice. Great to know you're going to toss us away."
She bristled. "I'm not doing any such thing!" She stood and met her friend eye-to-eye, fists clenching. "I feel bad enough for telling you right before I leave. But at least I gave you the courtesy of cluing you in. You're not the only one you know - I just got done with this same thing from Sheryl and Hal. It's been a very hectic time and I didn't mean to cut anyone away from my life, but it happened. I couldn't just go at it half-assed; I needed some serious plans behind me. It was either tell everyone and spend my final days with you all or know what I'm going to do before and after I go."
The pair stared at each other for what seemed the longest time before Chance sighed and dropped to the sand. Marisol leaned over and gingerly rested a hand on Chance's shoulder, pressure increasing when it wasn't batted away. "This is quite sudden I must say, but I'm not as emotional because we never really got to know each other. I'm sad of course, so I can understand what everyone is going through, but I'd like to wish you luck at least."
She resumed sitting and gave the girl a smile. "Thanks Marisol. I appreciate it."
She stared at Chance, who refused to lift her head and let anyone look her in the eye. After a span of tense silence, the girl stood and whirled around, still not letting her face be seen. "Come on Mar, we're leaving."
"But...Chance -"
"She told us what we came here for and we have no further business. It's time for us to go."
She was hoping for a less harsh exit, but it wasn't possible to let everyone down gently, nor keep her in their good graces she supposed. Sure this was a common factor today that everyone she knew was shocked and / or outraged, but it was a shame Chance was taking this more personally than necessary. She knew it wasn't a good thing to let her friend go without trying to calm her down, but maybe not all friendships could last. That was a sad thought, but it was realistic at least.
She stood and dusted herself off, ready to head for Sam's car and up to Andytown for the last round of goodbyes when the pair stopped. She paused, breath held.
"Kalie..."
She blinked. "Yea?"
Chance sighed again, the back of her head lifting as she looked to the sky. "Well wishes, okay?"
Relief hit and she nodded, even if Chance never turned around. "Thanks Chance..."
That said, the pair headed for their car and took off without any other word.
She watched them go, a minute smile on her face. It was more than she hoped for, thinking her friend would hold a grudge over this, and was happy to be proven wrong. Chance was a mild hot head, but cooled off enough to see things rationally.
She shut the car door and quickly buckled in. "Last stop." She said, settling in for a long drive.
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It was Sam's first trip to not only Andytown, but the Yamoi house. It kind of sucked that this would be her only visit, also a brief one. She only was here to speak with everyone and finalize things with Inaki. Then it was off to Miami AGAIN to drop off her stuff and a quick stop to the airport. When thinking about it, there seemed very little time left for anything. But they had until two, and that was at least three hours away.
She wanted to spend the most time with the Yamois. They treated her the best and she was so grateful to know them. Whether she could get them to visit some day in the future was unknown. It was a nice thought, but she didn't entertain it right now.
"This place is COOL!"
She grinned at Sam's exuberance and stepped from the car. "I had somewhat the same reaction you've got when I first saw this place." She replied, heading for the engawa. "Wait'll you see the inside. Most of it is right out of traditional Japanese customs."
Sam snorted and followed her. "No wonder you like coming here so much."
She chuckled and rang the doorbell. "A few things - make sure to take your shoes off before you step on carpet and make sure to call everyone Mr. or Mrs., okay?"
Sam nodded. "Is that all?"
What else did her friend need to keep from being impolite? As long as the girl didn't say anything TOO out of order and act with respect to both house and occupants, she was fine.
She mentally cringed. 'I don't know about her keeping her mouth in line though...'
The inside door swung open and threw her from her thoughts. She stared at the person on the other side of the screen door. A hand threw it open and practically launched herself into their arms, the hug readily accepted.
She appeared in an all white, utterly beautiful silk kimono; large, silver cranes embroidered everywhere. Her hair was up in a complex design, a five-piece kanzashi of intricate gold and red. There was no veil over her head as in old times, but it wasn't needed.
Jayden never appeared lovelier and she was envious as she watched Inaki's sister stop and kneel in front of the priest next to Chad. She studied the kanzashi, hoping one day she could wear a set as beautiful as her friend had on now.
"May the wisdom of the Blessed One shine within our hearts so that the mists of error and the foolish vanity of self may be dispelled. So shall we understand the changing nature of this life and strive to reach that spiritual peace which the Buddha taught. Friends, we are together today in the presence of this congregation and in the sight of the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, to witness the vows of Chad and Jayden. I earnestly ask anyone who knows of any impediment to this marriage to make it known now, or else remain silent."
Of course no one said a word. Those two were so adorable together and it was so exciting to see them finally get married. She still took a quick peek at half the neighborhood crowding around the backyard. She was lucky enough to have a good viewing spot with the rest of the family - quite an honor considering she should've been with the masses on the grass - on the engawa.
"Before taking of yourselves these vows, remember it is the duty of the husband to support and cherish his wife, to be faithful to her, to comfort her in sickness or sorrow, and to assist in bringing up the children. It is the duty of the wife to love and help her husband, to be patient and gentle in her manner, and to be faithful to him always."
She wasn't really surprised when the pair exchanged rings. It wasn't common in Buddhism, but this was not in Japan. It was quite easy to forget her location in seeing so many well-dressed people everywhere. She wore the red furisode Jayden gave for a bit of well-wished luck to her friend.
After the vows and 'I will', the priest brought the pairs' hands together and draped a rosary over it. "Brother and sister, in the midst of worldly illusions with their fleeting glamour, try to preserve in your hearts the truths taught by the Buddha. Be compassionate to all, and set your feet on the path which leads from illusion and sorrow to enlightenment and peace. Since you have both agreed to marry according to Buddhist rite, I pronounce you to be husband and wife."
The air was thick with incense, even outside. She burned a stick as well, for it would be rude not to.
"May the Blessed One receive you from this day forth as his faithful disciples, who take His teaching as your guide. May peace be with you, and wisdom and compassion surround you at all times."
A few people lit candles and many sat around on zabuton and meditated, as was another custom after a wedding. Food was distributed later on and she sat and watched the family converse with the monk.
She sat beside Inaki, wondering if - provided she stayed here - she would've been married to him in the same fashion. But it was useless to think that, since she was still moving to Tokyo soon after graduation.
"Konnichi wa Jayden-chan." She murmured.
Said person leaned back and brushed bangs from her eyes. "Konnichi wa K-chan."
She waved to Sam and the pair headed inside. Her shoes automatically went against the wall and idly watched Sam copy her. "What're you doing here? Shouldn't you be with Chad in your own home?"
Jayden almost blushed, but her head shook. "Koishii is here as well. We...we wanted to see you off and talk a little before you left."
She fought tears, taking a deep breath and turning to Sam. "Sam, this is Inaki's older sister Jayden-san. Jayden-chan, this is my best friend Sam."
The woman stepped forward, hand extended in western tradition. "A very big pleasure to meet you. This is the first time I've seen any of K-chan's friends."
Sam grinned. "Nice to meet you too. First time I've met anyone on Inaki's side. Nice digs you got here."
Hands slapped over her face, but Jayden chuckled. "Daijoubu K-chan; don't worry yourself. We weren't offended when you came for the first time."
A self-conscious smile appeared at the teasing, but she took it in, grateful for it. Brown looked to the kitchen, becoming a little solemn. "Aitsu wa...doko?"
"Inaki? He's in the outside dojo. I think he's waiting for you too."
She absently nodded, eyes locking with the patio doors. "Jayden-chan...would you mind taking care of Sam for a little bit? I apologize for not doing so myself...but I just need a few minutes."
"Ii desu, I understand. Come Sam-san; let me give you a tour of our 'digs'."
Sam laughed, but a hand landed on her shoulder. "You going to be okay?"
She had the courage to face him, really she did. As guilty as it made her feel to see him and still talk to his family, she could do this.
"I'll be okay; you go and admire this place - I know you'll love it."
She headed out back without any other word, slipping into an extra pair of zouri set aside for anyone to use, and shut the screen door. Brown took in the area, already missing it a little. There would be no fancy lawns, no engawa to stand out on in her new home. If she was lucky, the housing people she talked to over the months would have gotten a balcony with the apartment at least.
Feet slowly took her down steps and across the lawn. They met every stone to the dojo without needing to look, eyes locked on closed shoji. She stood on the porch and stared at thin paper for what seemed eternity before it suddenly slid open and nearly made her jump a mile.
He looked mildly amused, since she should've been able to sense him coming, but was probably preoccupied right now. All traces of humor slowly died as brown met brown. "Are you ready to go?" He asked, moving to stop in front of her, hand closing the door behind him.
She nodded. "I double-checked everything at the houses. I just need a quick look around here to make sure I didn't leave anything." Teeth bit her lip, feeling unsure to ask the question on her tongue. It was simple enough, that was sure, but she almost felt bad. She was demanding so much out of him and should be ashamed of herself, if not for one main thought going through her head. "Are YOU ready?"
"Are you absolutely sure about this hisofusan?? Giving me this..."
Hands moved the sword forward again, insisting through his reluctance. "I had a talk with the others himagomusuko and we decided this jointly. It would have gone to musuko and after that to magomusuko, but eventually it would have traveled the family name to you. Since you will be gone for who knows how long and possibly unable to visit for a very long time, we decided to skip it and give it to you directly."
"But...surely ojiisan would want this at least..." Brown eyed the black scabbard, shined and polished. Teeth bit his lip, hands itching to hold Tessaiga again, but not wanting to appear too eager. As far as he knew, hisofusan had no clue he practiced with his old sword before or that he knew exactly what it was.
"I made sure of this with everyone. Since they are closer in line than you, if either wished to own it I wouldn't have taken you aside for this. Believe me when I say this is all three of our wishes." The sword was extended again to be taken. "Since they have decided, think of this as something of a going-away present. The one thing I can do for you, knowing your interest in weapons."
He wanted to smile, the reason for that interest mostly Inuyasha's doing. He nodded in acceptance though, both hands reaching to politely acknowledge responsibility. He held the scabbard close for inspection, mildly stunned it came back to him again. Fate had the most screwed up sense of humor, but it was good to hold his old friend once more. He gripped the frayed hilt and pulled the scabbard apart. Dull rust shown back at him, shiny with polish to extend its life.
His brow furrowed as a thought took root. He was not supposed to own this sword anymore...Inuyasha gave that to Souta a VERY long time ago. "Hisofusan...how did you come to own this?"
The old man smiled and shifted in his sitting stance. A hand went and absently patted folds out of the velvet interior of the case. "I admit it's not the best weapon for someone to own. It's more of a collector's item, as you can tell by its horrible condition. I was given it on seijin no hi. In my day, there was nothing more symbolic of a man, than his sword." The elder smiled. "It was reminiscence of the old samurai days mostly. My parents were very thoughtful. They would've been alive around the ending of those days you know."
He stared at Tessaiga, already knowing that part. "Demo...how did you come into possession? I - I imagine it should be a very precious item to someone."
He would hope Souta wouldn't keep Tessaiga for a decade or so and get rid of it for closet space or something so trivial. Sure Inuyasha made a lame excuse of 'temporarily' holding it in case he came back for it someday, but - hell! - he never thought he'd ACTUALLY come into ownership of it again! Inuyasha wanted the boy, one of the few humans to accept him regardless of looks or powers, something to remind him of their time together.
He stared at the old man in front of him, confused and a little curious. If only there was a way for Tessaiga to speak and inform him of all its changes since the wish. He had a feeling there was so much this ancient sword knew that he didn't. It could recount some interesting times with both Inuyasha AND his father, since the taiyoukai was the one to make it long before the hanyou's birth somewhere around the Heian era.
"If I remember rightly, my parents bought it for quite a bit of En in those days. They gave me a paper accompanying it, describing a little of the history of the sword. It was apparently done by the previous owner. I didn't bother to ask who owned it before me or why they sold it, but I would think something like this would be donated to a museum instead of a pawn shop."
He absently nodded, staring at the object in his hands. He thought back to Souta after Inuyasha's disappearance and Kagome's later relatives. They didn't have a good relationship. Since Souta died only a few years ago - WAY too late to coincide with hisofusan's seijin no hi, he was betting one of the relatives got rid of it. One of his family must've pulled Tessaiga into the light and saw it at surface level - a rusty sword that would never be of use. Souta wasn't that type of person and looked serious when given Tessaiga that time.
He tried not to glare at the mention of such people Kagome would've been related to. Times definitely changed and if he was correct, this proved it. It left a bad taste in his mouth to think he would soon be living in the same city as those people, but if he was lucky, he wouldn't see En and Kyojaku on the streets too much.
Brown looked to closed wood and paper. "I think as ready as I'll ever be." He quietly replied. "I was just taking in a few things and making sure I had everything I wanted out of here." A thumb pointed in its general direction. "I don't know how many of the sharp weapons I can smuggle out, but if I'm lucky I can chain them together and get by."
Lips pursed as she considered that. She had no clue if he could even take ANY weapons out of the United States. They had way stricter policies than Japan on who could take out or into this country. "Well...luck will be on your side if you can take Tessaiga with you." She answered, giving a little smile.
He nodded, looking in the general direction of his sword. It was good to have what was Inuyasha's in his possession. He felt a little more connected to his other half and even though he was not Inuyasha, he felt nostalgic about it in a good way.
Her lips twitched higher as she inched forward almost timidly and took a hand. "It's interesting how you came to own it again. You'll have to tell me sometime how Inuyasha gave it away in the first place."
He wanted to grimace, not in the mood to bring back all those bad memories, even if they floated to the surface with her words. He gave a squeeze and directed her to the house. "Someday I will. But we've got to finish going through the house to make sure you and I have everything we're taking."
"Un." She trailed behind, eyes on the ground, eventually stopping. She didn't let go of his hand, but the weight on her chest made teeth gnash her lips in ever-present blame.
He stopped at the sudden lurch to his arm and looked back. "K? Nani ka?"
She harshly swallowed, fighting to say the words. It would make her feel better, but she might just curse herself to loneliness over there if she said them. "I...feel bad." She whispered. He stopped in front and her vision suddenly switched from dirt to his face. She blinked back tears. "I asked you to come with me...and now you are. You're giving up everything just to be with me. I won't lie and say you should be with your family over me...or that I'm not happy you're coming...but I'm to blame for your decision. Gomen...I - I -"
His hand shifted and a finger rested over her lips. "Yes you decided to go. You did as I asked and reconsidered. That was all I wanted from you. At the time I hadn't thought about it either - I didn't know what I wanted. But as you thought, so did I. I realized I'd have nothing if I left you to go without me by your side."
She wanted to deny acceptance of his words. This responsibility of her actions wouldn't die just yet. "But your family -"
He cut her off again, this time with his lips. "My family understands." He murmured, pulling away. "They're happy I found someone I want to be with and who is so important to me. After nee-chan's wedding, I'm the only one without someone in that way. Even though hibososan is gone, hisofusan still has her memories and spirit to keep him company. If we separated, I would be alone again...there would be no one to override everything you gave me and no one to replace you." His hand moved away, sliding down her back to hold her. "I would never forgive myself for finding true happiness, regardless of how we were supposed to meet and our pasts, and losing it. I won't make the same mistakes Inuyasha did."
She blinked to clear tears from her eyes, so thoroughly touched. Love devoured her and she hugged him for all she was worth. "Arigatou..." She breathed. "I'll remember your words. I just hope - I hope you don't think differently when we get over there and settled and you miss your family too much and end up wanting to return."
"The same goes for you." He threw back. "I have no regrets about any of this...none since I met you. I'll flow with the changes in my life and not stop to wonder how it could affect me. I might miss the chance of a lifetime if I do." He pulled away with a soft smile. "I'm glad to be taking this journey together. Tanoshiminishite."
A beaming smile appeared, creasing the tracks on her face. "Un! Atashi mo."
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Nothing was more of a pain in the neck than trying to get through custom's rules. Her things were pretty much harmless, but Inaki's were the issue. Sure they weren't taking much; hardly any furniture and mostly small stuff, but his weapons gained the biggest disagreement. They were wrapped in cloth and rope, but to satisfy the shipping people, they wanted tape on Tessaiga's hilt and scabbard.
He nearly saw red and exploded in a fit of Inuyasha's temper, but K eventually looked over the rules again and a suitable agreement was found for all. No WAY would either be okay with any kind of tape on a sword at least nine hundred years old!
Sam took them to the airport in Miami and his entire family followed in a separate car. Jayden and Chad squeezed in with them for extra room for the elders.
They stood just out of bounds for check-in, since only those with tickets could get through the terminal. It was mildly awkward until Sam suddenly stepped forward with tears in her eyes and engulfed them both in a bear hug. Jayden and Kristine stepped forward, equally teary, and added to the mass. The men shrugged to each other before surrounding everyone, one big group hug taking up a chunk of floor space.
Never had she felt so loved by so many people than this moment. She would miss everyone dearly and silently vowed to herself as much as humanely possible she would find a way to write them. She would keep in touch with such a kind group even if she was stressed from life and there was little money or free seconds. It would be worse to lose them in her memories to the strand of time than be hungry because she spent money on mailing.
The mass finally separated and Omo grabbed his hand, putting a plain envelope in it. They stared at it, but she already knew what was inside, having gone through this before.
Brown looked from the paper in his hand to his father. "Tousan..." He mumbled, eyes misting.
The man smiled, eyes shunted. "This is a trivial amount compared to what we could really give you." The man reached over and took Kristine's hand, giving it a squeeze. "Our son has become more of a man than we hoped for and everyone wishes you the best of luck. I only hope the housing company we talked to and arranged will help you out over there."
Kristine stepped forward, clasping her son's free hand. "Gonbatte ne you two."
He stepped forward and engulfed his mother. "Aishite okaasan..." He whispered, harshly swallowing. He stepped back and looked to his family. "I will miss you all, but I will think of you often. Please consider visiting us in the near future."
Jayden's hand connected on his shoulder, lightly slapping him. "Baka, of COURSE we'll visit!" She announced. "You think we'd let you go and never see you again? Fool."
She smiled. "Thank you Jayden-chan for everything." She turned to the rest of his family and deeply bowed, remaining bent over in respect. "Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for everything you've ever done. I will never be able to pay you back for your kindness and generosity."
Mamorah's hand pulled her chin up, forcing her to stand. "You gave us as much as we gave you. You offered our son someone to love and we are grateful for that. No need to think of payback. You've done enough K-chan."
She nodded, rapidly blinking. "H - hai."
Feeling neglected, Sam intervened and hugged her. "I hope you'll have some of those same thoughts for me." She lightly admonished, a little sadness laced in her humor.
Arms went around her best friend, embracing just as fiercely. "Of course chica. Está mi hermana y mejora amiga. You think anyone can take that away from me?" She pulled away and gave her friend a smile. "I just hope no one replaces me on your behalf."
Sam sniffed. "No one will be able to replace your cooking, that's for sure." Everyone laughed at the well-placed and much needed humor. "But, you'd better get going...you're running out of time and they always board early."
The pair nodded; a final round of hugs and well wishes spread around. They receded away with some reluctance, walking backward as much as possible until asked for tickets and i.d. Her bag was set for x-ray scanning and Inaki was asked of the contents in the envelope forgotten in his hand.
Curious, fingers ripped the top open and reached in. Two pairs of brown went wide as he pulled out a crisp, five-hundred dollar bill.
He whirled around in shock, eyeing his family and Sam still in the same spot. His parents simply smiled and waved before turning and leading the group to the exit.
His throat clogged. Five hundred dollars!! That was a lot of money and would most likely pay their rent for a whole month! His family already took care of the deposit to hold the apartment and his share in shipping his things over.
There would never be a group of people like his family. He was so lucky to have them and he felt a twinge of guilt to be leaving them when he thought of his future with K. But he had twenty-five years with them; K would get more of his time now.
A smile tipped his lips as he grabbed wallet from his back pocket and safely tucked the money away. Everything from his bank account was emptied and set in traveler's checks taking up the remainder of space. He made doubly sure the wallet chain was clipped to it before setting it firmly in his pocket for safekeeping. Everything they needed in the next few months before things evened out was on his person, a little bit in K's.
Once their stuff was checked and given back and they passed through the metal detector, the pair headed through the terminal, checking for their exit. They had a short wait of standing around, but soon crowded the line with other passengers heading to the first stop as them.
"I can't wait." She breathed, hugging his arm. She looked to him with a grin, stopping as he handed their tickets over to be processed and returned. "I'm kind of scared though." She admitted, cheeks burning at the insinuation of fear. It was pathetic to be afraid since she was the one initiating this.
"It's okay to feel that way." He answered, taking her hand as they headed down the passage to the plane. "After all, we don't know what'll await us when we get there. It's going to take a while, but eventually our trip is going to end and we'll have to wait for our things to find their way to us."
She pouted, watching others in the narrow area around them find their seats and stow bags overhead. "That's going to take forever. Why did we think it was a good idea to send it the same time we were leaving? That company isn't going to get it to us for at least a week."
He smiled and let her have the window aisle, stashing her bag overhead for her before sitting down. "We put everything on rush delivery, so hopefully it won't be so bad." Brown looked past her to the tiny window, absently taking everything in. A hand moved and rested over hers on the armrest. "We'll just have to be patient. Things will turn out."
Soft eyes met him. "Ee. We'll be able to tackle anything, ne? After all, isshoni da ne?"
He returned her smile, tugging his seatbelt tight and giving attention to the steward explaining emergency procedures. "Aa." He mumbled, paying more heed to the feel of her skin than something he went through mere months ago. "Tsuini isshoni."
I am a BEGINNER Japanese learner...so if these are not 100 correct...please let me know if you care to do so. I only have a web page to learn from, a dictionary, and a few months experience to work with.
Translations: Aitsu wa...doko-Where...is he Tanoshiminishite-I'm looking forward to it Atashi mo-Me too Isshoni da ne-We're together right? Tsuini isshoni-Finally (we're) together
Spanish language will be translated underneath when it appears together. This language will be correct, as I have half put half a decade into learning.
Translations: Bueno suerte hija-Good luck daughter Está mi hermana y mejora amiga-You're my sister and best friend
AN -- Thus ends the actual Fate and Destiny story. Like I said before, this is a real life ending. I know some people were thinking 'oh come ON! Tokyo?? Lame', but I'm sure if you think of places you've been comfortable in and those you felt like a fish out of water, you'd want to go back to the comfortable. I am putting up an epilogue because even to me, this isn't much of an ending.
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If you count them up like I did (yes I went back through all 74 chapters), that's SEVENTY-TWO people who bothered to give me even a smiley face to indicate how they liked the story! I am touched so many reviewed once or more than that. Of course I thank those who read and DIDN'T review because I know there are a few out there. I will keep all your reviews in my mailbox because in the future I will reread this for grammar and to fix any Spanish and Japanese errors. I'm glad for the corrections I got because some I wouldn't have considered and you only help make the story that much better for the next person who gives it a try.
Thank you all for sticking with me till the end. The first chapter was finished on 5-13-03 and 'ends' (not including epilogue) on 10-24-04 -- 1 year, 5 months, and 11 days. The story will be fully finished and posted by the first week in November, making this the longest project I've ever worked on. Tis a bittersweet ending to have gone through everything, but I made a few friends in the process, which is amazing to me (you know who you are). I am considering pulling a future AU IY story out of my head, making some bios, and maybe working on it the beginning of the year, but we'll see.
For those who read since the beginning...and to those who read this after its completion (and any future reviews), thank you for giving your time and I hope the ride was worth it in your eyes.
Doomo arigatou gozaimasu minna-san and enjoy the epilogue!!