Summary: Irina is called back to the KGB, forcing her to leave Jack and Sydney. But she couldn't leave her family behind, so Sydney came along. The KGB, unknowning of the fact that Irinia took Sydney with her, gives Irina a child to train, to get her thoughts off Jack and Sydney.

Pairing: S/S of course.

Disclaimer: No point in putting it up, cause everyone knows! YAYAYAYA!

A/N: I LOVE MYSELF! LAAAAA! Jkjk. Nways. Hope you guys like this chappy. Thanks for all the reviews. And yeah. So...

Chappy 4: With me

Free from Khasinau at last. Free to cry on my own.

I snobbed.

Sydney, Jack. What am I going to do without you?

I started walking aimlessly, through forests, malls. I wondered if anyone knew that I was supposed to be dead. Khasinau would kill me, literally, if he knew I was walking through such populated places.

I left the mall, and walked around.

I turned into a neighbourhood, hoping that this place would give me more cover from Khasinau's spies.

My house!

I ran to the door, and got my keys out.

Irina! What the hell are you doing!

I'm not Laura anymore. I'm not Laura.

But Sydney is still my daughter!

I went to the backyard, and climbed up the wall, until I was level with Sydney's window. She was in a hurry to put on her cloths.

"Shhh. Sydney! Shhh." I whispered, trying to get her attention.

She looked to me, wide-eyed.

"Mommy?" She whispered back.

"Do you want to come with mommy, Sydney?"

"Yes!" She quickly clambered over to me, and wrapped her arms tightly around my neck. I climbed down slowly.

"Mommy, aren't you supposed to be at work?"

"Yes, that's where we are going right now."

"But I haven't had breakfast yet!"

"You can have it later honey." I tried to convince her to stay with me.

"Can Daddy come with us?"

Oh no. Please no, Sydney, come with me.

"He can come later."

"I want to have breakfast with Daddy."

Sydney, no. Please. You promised me.

I sighed

"Okay." I said reluctantly.

I led her back into the house, and opened the kitchen window from the outside. She climbed in, and I closed the window. I saw Jack running to the phone.

Oops, thought it was a kidnapping.

I stayed hidden, near the window and watched Jack, as he and Sydney ate and talked.

The love. I want to share that love.

Irina Derevko doesn't need love.

I quietly left.

Of course I need love. Everyone needs love.

Every person needs love.

I stretched.

Maybe I'm not a person. Leaving my daughter because of this damned intelligence work, betraying the world, appearing on the most wanted list. That's not what a person does.

I need my family. I love them.

I hugged myself and cried.

Sydney, why won't you come with me? I love you. I might not be the best mother there ever was, but I have money, I have a job that I'm very good at. I love you, Sydney. Isn't that enough?

I snobbed harder.

"Sydney, I need you. I need Jack. I need you both."

But I can't have you both. Jack wouldn't understand. He would probably think that I had betrayed him. But I have. Sydney woulnd't understand. She's to young to. I can only have you, Sydney, by my side.

I stopped crying and slowly looked up. An idea crept into my head. Few people knew that Laura had died. The school won't, Jack wouldn't have told them yet. He's probably still grieving, hopefully.

I could go to the school! I could pick her up! And take her to Russia with me. I oculd hide her. I can do many things. I could slip her past customs, buy her a ticket. Tell her to go with another lady. Khasinau would never know. My cottage in Russia is filled with hiding spots. Khasinau could never find her there.

I looked at the clock.

2 more hours till lunch. I hope there's enough time to prepare everything.

I got out my laptop, and bought a ticket for Sydney.

Damn. Passport. That's at my... the house. Jack's there. Damn. 2 hours to get it. That should be enough.

I slipped back into the house that I used to live in. I heard Jack singing loudly in our... the bedroom.

"My wife-y lies over the ocean. My wife-y lies over the sea. My wife-y lies over the ocean. O bring back my wife-y to me! Bring back, bring back, o bring back my wife-y to me, to me. Bring back, bring back, o bring back my wide-y to me!"

I heard him sobbing.

O Jacky, I'm so sorry.

"DAMNIT! Give me back my wife!"

Crash.

"I WANT MY WIFE BACK! I NEED HER MORE THAN YOU DO GOD! GIVE HER BACK TO ME!"

Jacky. My Jacky.

I cried silently.

My Jacky, I'm so sorry. I want you back too. Jack. I love you. I do.

"Laura. Where are you? Why did you do that? WHY!?! GOD, WHY DID YOU LET HER DO THAT!?! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL SYDNEY!"

Sobbing

"How am I supposed to continue? Without my wife? Laura. Why did you take her away from me? Laura."

I watched him until he fell asleep in the bed, with a bottle of vodka in his hand.

I slipped into the bedroom silently, and opened the drawer that contained our ID cards. I took all the ones of Sydney, and her passport.

Looking back at Jack in the bed, I felt a huge sense of guilt. I was not only stripping him of her wife, but of his whole family.

I'm sorry Jack. I really am. At least you can have a life without lies now.

I kissed him softly.

"Laura." He murmured. "Laura."

He grasped me tightly, and opened his eyes.

"Laura. I knew they were lying when they said that you were dead. You're alive. I feel like such a fool now."

Jacky. I want to stay so much with you.

I smiled through my tears.

"Laura, don't cry, don't cry."

Jack, you make me feel so loved. I want to stay with you forever. I want to stay with you. I want to be with you and Sydney forever. Why couldn't we both have lead normal lives? O Jacky. What am I going to do without you?

He wiped my tears away.

"Go to sleep, sweetie. You've had a lot of vodka."

He smiled and nodded. "Is that why you are crying? Because I was drinking? I won't do it again. I won't ever do it again. Cause I know you're alive and well."

How I love you Jack. How I do.

"Go to sleep." I murmured softly.

He nodded and fell asleep.

I stayed with him for a long time. He looked so happy.

I left him silently, and went to pick up Sydney from the school.

Oh Jack, how I want you both to stay with me.

I want you both by my side.

I want you with me.

A/N: So. How did ya like it? I had to fix this chappy like 10 times. It still seems so corny. Man. It took me such a long time to fix, and it's still so bad! ARGH! And I know, I'm moving extremely slowly. Sark will be here in.................. soon. I think. Not the next chappy. I promise before chappy 10. And I'll update faster. I can't help it if my internet is always down. Stupid dad. Killing the internet cause I won't practice piano. ARGH! I'll try to get Sark in as soon as possible. But some things just need to be written! :D hehe. Torture! MUAHAHAHAHA!

and erm. yes. I need a beta. I knwo some parts of the story were screwed, like how Irina mysteriously was carrying a laptop with her etc. but I need a beta.