Chapter 5 part 2

Previously on Full House...

Jesse, he was miserable. He sat in the front row of the church slumped over with tears coming out of his eyes non-stop. He had always hated funerals. He had always found them boring, but this time it wasn't boring. This time was the worst day of his life.

"Becky was like a mom to me. I lost my mom when I was young. And right now I feel as much pain as I did when my mom passed away. Becky was so fun and full of life and adventure," DJ smiled.

"Now I realize we are all going through the same pain and it is ok to cry. I remember when Jesse's grandfather died and Michelle didn't want to cry because she thought she would make her uncle sad. Then Jesse talked with her about not being afraid to feel sad and you will feel better if you share your emotions with your family," Danny was starting to cry but he had to finish.

The room was quiet, Jesse was supposed to speak next. The priest stepped up to the podium. "Jesse Katstopilis?" He said into the microphone. Everyone looked around the church. Jesse was gone.

The whole family looked around. "Oh no," Danny said rubbing away tears. "He is taking this so hard." "There is no one better to find him than his family," DJ said. "Yeah, and we all need to help him get through this hard time," Joey added. "It's hard for ALL of us," Michelle said looking as sad as ever. "It's different for Jesse," Steph said putting her hand on Michelle's shoulder. "Joey can we wake up mommy now?" Nicky asked. "Yeah, she can help us find daddy," Alex added. Joey sighed. "Boys, that is not your real mommy." "It isn't?" Alex said confused. "Well, that is your mommy's body but her heart and spirit are up in heaven," Joey said. His eyes were welting up in tears. "But mommy said only dead people go to heaven," Nicky said. "Well," Danny said bending down to the boys. "Though your mommy is not alive, her spirit will always be with you in heaven." "Yeah, and she will always love you both very much," DJ said holding back tears. "And though we will all miss her very much, she will always be watching over us in heaven," Steph added. They all felt a little better talking about Becky watching over them. "And someday," Michelle started. "You will meet your mommy again in heaven. And you'll meet my mommy too." The boys looked sad but the whole family forced a smile so they felt a little better. "You promise we will meet mommy in heaven someday?" Alex asked hopefully. "Yes," Joey said smiling through tears. "Ok, let's all look for Jesse," Danny said sniffling. Then Danny announced to the rest of the church to stay seated and that his family would go find Jesse.

DJ started looking outside. She walked along the bushes, until she saw a bush rustle. DJ peered behind it and saw Jesse. He looked like a little boy. He was rolled up in a ball with his face in his knees. DJ walked back to get the others. Everyone crowded around Jesse until he looked up. His eyes were blotchy, red and puffy. His face was drenched in tears. "It's time for you to speak," Joey said sympathetically. "Go back in there?" Jesse's voice trembled. "I can't stand looking at Becky's dead body anymore." Jesse began to sob. "Remember your wedding?" Danny asked bending down and putting his hand on Jesse's shoulder. "Of course," Jesse answered. "But I really don't wanna talk about that right now." "You sang the song 'forever'," Danny said. "Becky will love you forever you know," Joey added. "How can she?" Jesse said wondering why they had said that. "She's dead, gone forever!" Just then Nicky and Alex walked over to their dad. "Mommy isn't dead daddy," Nicky said. "She's in heave, watching over us," Alex added. "she will love us forever cuz' she's an angel in heaven," Nicky said. For the first time since they were home from the hospital, Jesse smiled. It was a sad smile but everyone could tell he knew everything was going to be okay. "Aw you boys are right," Jesse said giving the boys a tight hug. Tears were rolling down his face, but they were tears of joy. "And we will see mommy again in heaven someday," Alex said smiling at Jesse. "You bet we will pal," Jesse said and hugged the boys again.

When Jesse walked into the church, everyone clapped and smiled through tears. He stepped up to the podium. "Hi everyone, my name is Jesse Katstopilis and Becky is my wife," Jesse started. Then he gulped. "I was just outside because I was sad and afraid. Everything was happening so fast. I was thinking about death. But what I was thinking was all wrong. I was thinking, my wife is dead and gone forever and she won't love me anymore. But my two sons set me straight," Jesse looked over at Nicky and Alex and smiled. They gave him the thumbs up. "They told me Becky is in heaven and she will love us forever," his eyes started to water. "she watches over us. I remember when my boys were born. I had to have emergency surgery when my wife was in labor. When I got back with her I was groggy so I don't remember much. I just remember sitting with her in the hospital bed. We each had one of our sons in our arms. I also remember out wedding. I got scared before that too," Jesse said with tears running down his cheeks and a smile on his face. "Those were the two best days of my life. Though I will miss Becky so much, she will always be my wife," Jesse's voice was squeaking from crying. He looked over at his family and smiled. They were all smiling and crying as well. Jesse began singing softly. "If every word I said, could make you laugh I'd talk forever. I asked the skys just what we had, it showed forever," then the rest of the family started singing with Jesse.

"Forever, forever, I'd be so happy loving you."

There will be a few more up coming chapters about a few years after Becky's death.