WAKE UP SAN FRANCISCO

Chapter Nine—Nicky and Alex

Nicky... I know my mom died. I really wish she didn't. I was only four when the fire occurred. I can't remember anything that happened. I do kinda remember a lot of people being sad and hugging us. Joey told me dad hid before he had to make his speech at the funeral because he was so sad. In a way, I'm kinda glad I don't remember her dying. I can imagine it would be way too sad.

My dad didn't talk about mom at all after she died. Danny and Joey told me he was way too sad to talk about her. So, my brother and me forgot all about her. That made dad really sad. He told us he would talk to us now about our mom. I'm glad I'll finally get talk about her. Even though I don't remember her, I really wish she didn't die.

Joey told me after my mom died, everything died. The house was a lot happier with her in it. I wish I could hug my mom again. I wish the stupid terrorist attack never happened. Then everyone would be happy again and I would have a mom.

The other day I looked at my mom and dad's wedding book. She was really pretty. I've gone through the book about 20 times now. I want to keep that picture in my head. My dad gave me a picture of me, Alex, him and my mom. I keep that picture by my bed so I can look at it all the time. Too bad I can't jump into the picture...I just wish it was back the way it was when I was four.

So mom...remember that I love you. Someday I'll see you in heaven. Then I can hug you and you can hug me back. I think everyone will be happy when we are reunited in heaven.

Alex... I was only four when my mom died. I don't remember a lot. My brother and me had to close her coffin at the funeral. I don't think I really got what was going on when it happened. I was only four. Nothing has been the same since my mom died. I don't think it ever will be the same.

My dad told me he wasn't going to ever marry again. He said my mom was the only one for him and he could never find another woman like her. I feel sorry for my dad. It must be hard to lose a wife. But I feel sorry for me and my brother too. We will never have a mom.

My dad never wanted to talk about mom after she died. It made my brother and me forget about her. Dad felt guilty about not talking to us. Now he does, but it's still hard. I can see her face on a picture, and I can hear her voice on old reruns of Wake Up San Francisco but it's just not the same as having her in the same room.

I wonder what it would be like to have a mom. I know I used to have one, but what would it be like to have one now? I know dad doesn't wanna get married or date or anything, but I think he would be happier. I think everyone would be happier.

Mom, I miss you. I wish you didn't leave us. We are miserable without you. I send my love. And I know dad does too. Bye.

Next--Michelle