Chapter 15
Danny
A woman, a wife, a mother, a person. That's how most people knew Becky. But everyone who really knew her, knew she was something more. She was the kindest, sweetest, funniest, prettiest, most honest, reliable person you would ever meet. She was loving, considerate, responsible...God I could go on forever. She was all that and more. Now she is nothing more than a memory. But that's not how it was supposed to be. She was supposed to be here, on Earth. With her family and friends. But that's not how it is. Becky is not here anymore.
I assume she's in heaven. A place no human goes, or will ever go to. But she's there. And for a reason beyond my understanding, she will remain there forever. With Pam and Papouli. And other people who should still be alive, or not. The only thing I hope, is that she's happy. And while we miss her here, down on Earth, I hope she is not suffering the pain that we suffered, and still suffer, when she passed on.
Our family never used to say prayers. Never really saw the point. Now every night, at 8:00, we all gather and pray for Becky. And for everyone else who has lost a loved one. Praying won't make Becky come back to life or come back to us, but every time we pray, I can feel her presence in the room. Watching over us. Helping us get through life.
Now my kids have a mother, but Nicky and Alex will probably never have one. Jesse could only have one love. Or that's what he says. I think it would be a good idea to date around a little. That's what he always said to me when I lost Pam. I never thought I would be able to do it, but I found another woman who I love with all my heart. Though she could never replace my wife, she means a great deal to me.
Becky, life is just not that same without you. You brought so much into the world that is now gone. I regret everything I ever said to hurt you or make you mad. That's just the thing about life and death. You always feel guilty about the things you said to that person. Hope all is well, and I hope you know we all miss you more than words could ever explain.
All my love,
Danny