Disclaimer: CSI and the song are both not mine!
Spoilers: none
A/N: the song used here is 'To be with you' sang by Mr. Big, and it's in Warrick's POV.
Chapter twelve: To be with you
Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
"Are you - -"
"Cath it's just a friendly dinner, I just thought it would be nice for you to go out more often."
"Yea. Well... I guess I really could use going out."
"So.... I'd pick you up at around, seven?"
"Seven would be great"
"Okay! Well um – I'd go ahead, and check with Greg!"
"Okay, see ya"
Yes! Yes! Yes!
Finally!
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
I have been crazy for Catherine for such a long time, but I knew she had feelings for Griss so I just tried to become a good friend and thought I could work my way from there.
But two years ago, my fears came to life and they both weren't able to keep it anymore and they have confessed their feelings for each other.
But that stupid, son of a bitch just had to hurt her didn't he?! I really hate him for that, I want to kill him everytime I see her cry, and everytime I look into her eyes... coz though she ain't cryin' I know she's hurtin'.
So what if Griss don't want her no more? I'm here, and I want to be with her.
This is probably a chance given to me by fate. Yea, I know it's bad that Cath needed to get hurt, but I would do my best to make her happy, even happier than what Griss made her.
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
When she got divorced, when her father gave her that cheque, when her ex husband died, when Linds got into a fight at school, when she got attacked at the crime scene.... I was there for her.
She was only friends with Griss back then, those were the same times when they started on drifting apart, and was the same time we became closer and I fell for her.
I fell for her hard, but I knew she isn't interested on dating anyone from work. She has gone into a lot of relationships before, but none of those relationships really lasted, and I knew why... coz she has feelings for our boss though she won't admit it.
But I still had hope back then, coz we were becoming closer while they were drifting apart. I'm not saying that I'm glad they're drifting apart, I'm just saying that maybe she would develop some feelings for me too.
I was a little discouraged when we went to Miami, coz though it was just the two of us there, we are only alone physically, she's either talking with Horatio about the case or talking to Gris on the phone,and I doubt the talk is all on business!
But now, now he's gone.
He's gone, he left her, she's here and I'm here for her.... That's the way it is.
"Hey! Warrick, what are you smiling about?"
"What are you talkin' about Greggo?"
"You're grinning like an idiot!"
"Whatever Greg! Just give me the results of the swabs we found"
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up; who cares about
Little boys that talk too much?
I've seen it all go down
The game of love was all rained out
I really can't concentrate that much on what Greg is talkin' about. At last, Catherine and I are going out together!
I know that it's just a friendly dinner, but hey, it doesn't mean it can't lead to something more, right?
Tomorrow's friendly dinner could result to next week's romantic date, and next month's breakfast and lunch date, followed by thanksgiving, christmas and all other holidays spent together... and
oh yes... anniversaries.
Hey, I can dream, can't I?
To hell with Griss! I love Cath!
I have such great respect to the man, well I used to. That was why when they got together I kept my feelings and tried to move on and look for someone, but what did he do? He left her! He hurt her!
When he left the feelings which I thought have long been gone crept its way back to my heart. I was there for her so she would have a shoulder to cry on and someone to make sure she stays sane while waiting for Griss but when Sara told me about what she learned when she bumped into Griss in Chicago, damn, I wanted to kill him.
I'm not sure why I didn't stop Catherine from going to Chicago, but it's probably coz I knew I can do nothing to stop her.
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
And now as I enter the office of the beautiful woman I've been falling for, for some time now I see her body quiver a little, and I know what's happening.
She's crying again.
Because of him.
"Cath.." I murmured her name as I close the door behind me and walk towards her.
She dries the tears falling from her eyes to her cheek hurriedly.
"Warrick, you really have to learn how to knock!"
"So you could pretend you're not hurting and quickly dry all those tears away before I see it?"
"No! It is so I could have some privacy!"
"Cath.."
"Look Warrick, I just. I have to let it out"
"Let me hold you."
With that simple statement I walk my way towards her, I grab her hand and we sat on the couch located in her office.
I'm holding her, really tight, my arms are around her and she has buried her face on my chest and I can feel her tears, and I hate knowing that I can't do anything about it.
But I will.
I will make her happy.
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Yeah, just to be the next to be with you
I know she still loves him, coz if she didn't she won't be crying.
And I know I love her, coz if I didn't I won't be hurting like this when I see her cry
And I know he doesn't love her, coz if he does, she won't be crying. And I won't be the one in here with her, it will be him.
Though I hate seeing Cath get hurt, a part of me is glad about this whole thing. This is my chance.
I love her and I hope that Catherine could find it in her heart to love me too.
Why be alone when we can be together, baby?
You can make my life worthwile
I can make you start to smile
I will make her happy. I will treat her like a queen. I will love her. I will never hurt her.
I promise that.
I know that Griss probably promised the same things, but this time it would be different, coz this time I'm the one giving my vow, and I will keep it no matter what happens.
I will fight for my love for this woman. I can make her smile again, I know I can.
I'm going to erase all the pain he has caused to her. I'm going to fill all the longing and emptiness she feels, coz she too is the only one that could fill my longing and emptiness.
"You still really love him, huh?"
"But I don't want to love him anymore coz I'm hurting."
"You and him are not meant to be together"
"Maybe so... maybe so..."
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
Come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you...
They are through, and it's fate. They are not meant to be together, coz we are meant to be together.
I will love her, I will make sure that she will never have to go through this again.
She's crying over a man who don't want to be with her, while I'm here wanting to be with her.
And I will make Catherine see that. He isn't the only man who could love her. Coz I'm here, and I love her, and I will show her just what it is to be loved and not to be hurt.
Right here, right now, I am having this urge to tell her the truth, and I know I must tell her now or else I might never have the courage to do so. I've waited too long, I don't want to be too late anymore.
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Yeah, just to be the next to be with you
"Cath, I'm your friend, and I would always be here for you. Please don't think that I'm taking advantage or anything but I've been wanting to tell you this for a long time. I wanted to forget about it but it keeps coming back and now I can't keep it no longer."
She lifts her head and looks at me in the eyes.
"Warrick?"
I take a deep breath.. and I spill it out...
"Cath, I'm in love with you."
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you'll feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Yeah, just to be the next to be with you
Just to be the next to be with you
TBC
Tell me what you think!