Letting Go of Rain

Am I being punished for all those years of being a rebel to people trying to help me? Lessoned learned never let five women stay more than an hour together, I will seriously need Rebecca's help before I help her.

Again I don't own G-gundam I may not have added the disclaimer to Chapter three but the same applies to the previous chapter.

Chapter 4

My first Counseling Session Part one

Shirley says, "Chibodee we have a visitor."

I ask, "Oh who Shirl?"

A figure steps out and says, "Hi Chibodee."

"R-Rain what are you doing here!?"

Her eyes look downcast as she asks, "Not happy to see me Chibodee?"

"No-no Rain I'm very happy to see you it just shocked me I'm sorry to sound rude." I respond trying to get her not to be hurt by my blunt question.

She looks back in my eyes and says, "Oh ok Chibodee." 'You have no idea how your beautiful blue eyes affect me Rain.'

She asks "Chibodee are you sure you ok? You left in a hurry without saying one remark to Domon, even my husband noticed."

'Aw great my problem has been noticeable what to do or say? THINK CHIBODEE THINK!' "Uh well I've met this new girl and I was thinking what I should do to get her full attention. She works a lot from what I could tell and I only ran into her twice."

Rain smiles in interest and ask, "What's her name?"

"Rebecca." I answer confidently.

Rain nods and says, "Ok I'm glad you're not hurt or anything."

'Actually I am hurting a little in my heart but maybe Rebecca can help me? I don't know how she'll react when I tell her I used her name.' I smile and say, "Tell Neo-Japan I'll give him hell later right now I'm trying to be romantic with a lady."

Rain smiles at my girls and says, "Thank you for letting me visit, and I'm glad Chibodee is alright. I'll see you all later bye."

As Rain leaves, I wave bye to her and Shirley's green eyes of curiosity were burning through my shoulder. 'I've relit that flame again I know it, just play it cool.' I look at her calmly and ask, "Yes Shirl?"

She asks, "You've been seeing a girl?"

I smile and answer, "Well I only ran into her twice I don't know too much about her. I'm not really seeing her but I'm curious about her."

Shirley looks in his eyes and saw I wasn't lying about not "seeing" the girl I mention, but she notice I haven't been acting like my usual proud self.

Cath smiles and says, "Shirl we shouldn't be worrying so much if he is flirting with a girl that means he hasn't lost his personality."

Bunny laughs and says, "Cath's right he'll be ok as long as he hasn't given up his manly charm."

"Oh gee thanks girls, if you don't mind I need to take a walk."

Janet smiles and says, "Sure Chib go ahead."

I smile and walk out the door my eyes are looking to the sky. 'Damn I'm in such a rut. I not only had to lie to Rain but my crew as well. I've preached to them to be honest with me and here I am breaking my own rule. I really need someone to talk to.' I walk to Kelso's hoping Rebecca would be there but to my bad luck streak she wasn't there, it was another woman but it wasn't the young bright girl I knocked down twice.

I let out a shaky sigh this problem won't solve itself. I walk into the park and it starts to rain, the cold wasn't bothering me like usual. 'Rain even though I don't like cold rain drops but there's something soothing about rain anymore. A soft and gentle touch I probably will never have.' I hear someone approaching me but I don't even bother to look up. I hear a familiar giggle and a bright voice saying, "Gee I constantly run into you, people will probably think I do this on purpose."

A smile appears on my face. 'There is a god after all my heart is aching and here she is, Rebecca I'm so glad she's here.' I look in her eyes but her smile faded, to a mix emotion expression.

"You're hurt Chibodee I can tell even thought you're smiling. I've seen many people who try to smile when they're in pain." Rebecca says gently.

"Gee am I that obvious Rebecca?" 'Stupid question if Domon was able to notice it anyone with half a brain would see it. I won't tell her anything until we're in a building.'

She smiles and says, "I understand Chibodee let's go to my place and to answer your question you're not obvious to the point anyone would know, only the people close to you would know."

I got shell shocked with her first statement and just nod in response. 'What is this girl a mind reader? I have to usually spell things out with my girls but she picks up on what I'm thinking without me saying much.'

She sighs and says, "I'm sorry to scare you, like Kelso said I'm like a loaded cannon."

"It's ok you just caught me off guard." 'Even though she not only caught me off guard, she sent a bolt of electricity to my heart. I won't say all this though she seems to get people fearing her a lot.' I change the subject by asking, "So where do you live?"

Rebecca smiles and says, "Follow me but I must warn you it's not exactly ritzy or anything."

"Fine you don't look like you're made of money." 'You're not making what you should be getting.' To my surprise she didn't take my comment as an insult. We walk together but she was looking down, with misty eyes. I see the small tear forming on her left eye.

"Rebecca is something wrong?" I ask in concern.

"No I'm fine just smoke got in my eye." She responds half-heartily with a covering smile.

'She's lying I know it something is wrong. She isn't the only one who can see behind a smile.' She smiles and says, "Let's not dwell on me; you're the one seeking my help."

I didn't flinch that time I half expect her to do that. I nod agreeing to this for now. We finally got to her place and I am not satisfied with this place she has to live in. It was small and she's has pictures of four women, and some art work. I can tell she's tried to bring some life to this place but I just don't like the place.

She looks at me and says, "I know it isn't much but at least I have a roof over me."

"I don't mind Rebecca." 'Actually I do but I don't want to hurt her feelings.'

She nods and walks over to a chair, and says, "The couch may be comfy."

I nod and lay down she was right it was comfy. She smiles and says, "Before I start asking questions I want you to be open with me. However, if you should ask me a question about my past or any of that I won't answer them but some that are related to your problem I'll answer."

'Well that's a little stupid but I will go along with this for now.' "Ok."

"So you've had a crush on rain since the gundam fights correct?" Rebecca asks

"Yes."

"Do you think a major tragedy in your life may have some influence on how you feel about Rain?" Rebecca looks at me with curious look as she asks.

'I never really thought about that could it have to do with my mom dieing?' "I . . . don't . . . know." I answer.

Rebecca sighs and takes in a breath, and asks, "Have you talk to your crew at all about this?"

"Rebecca they wouldn't be able to understand and it may hurt them."

"I take it that's a no." Rebecca looks at me curiously.

"You're right I haven't." I reply. 'Looking at my reaction just like Rain does with Domon. Always looking at his face taking care of him, I wish I could've had the same.'

Rebecca smiles and asks, "Jealous of Domon?"

"Me jealous no he is the hero and gets a wonderful woman." 'DAMIT YOU'RE LYING TO HER! STOP THAT ADMIT IT YOU'RE JEALOUS OF NEO-JAPAN!'

Rebecca giggles and says "You're not saying what you truly feel. I can't help you until you fully accept what you feel."

"What are you talking about, of course I am." 'This is going to be harder than I thought.'

Long chapter I was feeling generous. I won't update for a while family troubles if you care. Anyway hope you enjoy until next time this is Starangel or Rebecca if you want to use my name. Thanks to any and all reviews