Letting Go of Rain

Rebecca has started my healing, but now she's leaving it to me to find the answer. I don't know if I can but I'll try.

Chapter 6

Diggin' Down Deep, and Lose Some Sleep.

Rebecca's question is stuck in my head. 'Do you think a major tragedy in your life may have influenced how you feel about Rain? It's possible I guess.'

Shirley asks, "Chibodee are you ok?"

I playfully kiss her on the cheek and say, "Never better Shirl."

She smacks me on my face and says, "STOP BEING SUCH A PAIN!?"

'It has been nearly 3 weeks since I've been able to act normal. Still why do I feel for Rain, is it because her touch reminds me of my mother? Am I just lonely?' Cath and Bunny were doing the dishes and Shirley was looking in my eyes looking for an answer.

I sigh and say, "Shirl I know you love my eyes but can you please stop starring so deep. That's my job remember to look in your eyes."

Shirley smiles and says, "I'm sorry Chib I can't resist I'm glad you're getting better."

I sigh and say, "Thank Rebecca, Shirl without her I would probably be in a slump."

Shirley asks, "What's she like?"

'Words can't describe her, only the fact that she is Rain's American twin. Wait do I feel a twinge of jealousy in Shirl's voice.' "Well she isn't exactly common. She is willing to help a stranger in need not asking for money. Trust me not many people in New York City alone would be as generous as Rebecca."

Shirley's eyes examine me and ask "Are beginning to have a crush on her?"

"No Shirl she's just talking to me." I respond, but not exactly believing my words. 'I'm interested in her but I wouldn't say I have a crush on her.'

"I'm going to go train a while, I feel like I'm losing some of my sexy muscles." I say smugly and Shirley throws a pillow at me. I walk into my personal gym; the air smells clean I've been lazy lately. My bag stuffed for me to practice my punches, but before I do that I run 5 laps around the gym. The floor is nice and polished but not too slick, and I smile inwardly. 'I'm glad the girls did this for me. I should thank them later.' After I was done running I do a few stretches and the dream I had before I met Rebecca comes back in my head. 'Was the woman in my bed Rebecca?' I punch at my bag, memories of my mom pop in my head.

Memory

"Chibodee honey your lip is bleeding what happened?" The woman with pretty violet blue hair asked.

"I. . .gots in a fight mommy."

She frowned at her son and got a warm wash rag to pat his lip. She looks a lot like Rebecca only difference is their hair color. Same height, and same figure, Rain also resembles her. She says softly, "Chibodee honey you need to stop showing such anger."

I look in my mom's eyes and saw worry in them. "I'm sorry mommy."

She had a tear in her eyes but wipes it away just like Rebecca did. She only gives a half smile, and she hugs me. "Promise me Chibodee when you get older, you'll be happy."

I look in her eyes and said, "I promise mom." Even though I didn't have a clue on why mom wanted me to make such a promise, but she smiled and hug me. She took care of my bruised lip, and made me some pasta dish. We ate, and I was curious on why mom looked so sad. The expression on her face matched Rebecca's when I asked her if she was a shrink.

"Mommy are you ok?"

She doesn't answer she looked at me. Suddenly she holds me close, as she rubs my hair. I don't ask again I just hug her back. I'll never forget her touch, it is a little like Rain's but it isn't quite the same. She kissed me on the head and got out a book that I always loved her to read.

End of Memory

A tear creeps in my eyes, but I blink them back. I had confided in Rain in the gundam fights, now I'm confiding in a strange yet interesting young woman. I stop practicing and sit down on the floor, again Rebecca's question rings like a ringing church bell. I have some paper stashed in the working out machine; I usually keep track of my blood pressure.

I can't do words so I draw Rebecca, Rain and my mother. I add some more things to get the pain and hurt out. I finally get down and for once in a long time I cry. It has been so long I faintly remember my dad but he seemed to be distracted by something. I sort of doze off but I had a weird dream, it wasn't about me but about Rebecca.

Dream

"Mommy where are you?" The little girl with long brown hair asked.

"Here I am sweetie." A woman with blonde hair, and gray eyes responded.

"You not my real mommy, but I still like you." The little girl said. The woman tries to hold her but the girl doesn't really smile. The girl holds the woman, but she isn't smiling.

"Is something wrong Becky?" She looks in her so called mother'seyes with tears.

"MOMMY THE TRAINING IS VERY BAD! CAN'T I JUST GO TO SCHOOL LIKE OTHER GIRLS!? THE MAN WHO HAS A GREEN COAT IS MEAN TO ME PLEASE TAKE ME OUT!" The little girl with light brown hair pleads.

Then a stern man walked out and said, "ABSOLUTLY NOT REBECCA IT WILL BENEFIT YOU! He has told me you made progress."

She cried and pleaded, "DAD PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME GO BACK!"

Her mother pipes in and said, "Rebecca dear you'll be better off then those girls."

"PLEASE I PROMISE I WILL BE NICE TO KIDS DON'T MAKE ME GO BACK!" The girl pleaded again.

"YOU'RE GOING AND THAT'S FINAL, REBECCA DOREEN RICHHEART!" The man said sternly at her. The little girl only nodded and walked away with tears. She fell to the floor with red eyes.

She muttered "God have I done bad, why won't my parents listen to me? Will you please help them see what the mean man does to me? I won't be a bad girl; I will be a good girl for them. Please help me and help my parents. Amen."

She goes to sleep into a bed to the floor like they would do in Japan. Her outfit looked like a night outfit made in Japan.

End of Dream

I wake up and had bags under my eyes. I look out the small window it was still dark out. I get out more paper and draw all the scenes that I had seen in my dream. I look to my left and see food for me, I smile at this. I know who did this and I eat with swirling thoughts. I eat with one hand and draw with my free hand, I know desperate but it is one way to let out pain. 'Rebecca is it true you had a bad past too? Is that why you can read my mind? What was the training you were pleading not to go to?'

I walk back out to a dark house, and I sigh figuring the girls had gone to sleep. I walk slowly to my room, and I lay down in my satin sheets. I go to close my eyes but that dream still wakes me up.

"Well Hell no sleep for me tonight it figures it's when ever I think about a woman. I swear Rebecca only has me more confused. I WILL FIND OUT WHAT I'M DIEING TO KNOW!"

Well here's six I hope you like it. Now I get to thank my reviewers that are supporting me.

Jen: Thanks for the review and good luck against Hurricane Ivan. I will finish reading your story and review it. Hope to get more reviews.

Ravenf6: Lol you may be right but Chibodee thinking usually ends up kinda a disaster area. Anyway thanks for the review hope to get more.

wolfegurl006: Sorry I didn't mean to confuse you. I meant I haven't been updating on my squeal. It usually takes a while for your story to upload. I saw you updated in your info. Anyway I'm glad you like this story, I may do more stories in Chibodee's POV. Glad to have you back in the groove, until next update.

This is Becky or Starangle signing off Hasta Luego Amigo's/Amiga's