~Chapter 4~ Here's chapter 4! Hope
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It was the middle of the night but I found myself in the bathroom putting a pair of jeans and a yellow shirt on. Then I felt myself run a brush through my soft curls. I had to get out of my cabin. I needed to go anywhere that wasn't my cabin. I felt like I was being smothered by the tension of knowing that Johnny was here. Why did Lisa have to go and tell me he was here? No, I shouldn't blame it on Lisa. She was just trying to help and sooner or later I'd find out if Johnny was here or not. Later would have been better though.
"Where are you going?" I heard a soft-groggy-almost drunk voice ask me when I opened the door.
"Out." I waited for the voice to reply to that but it didn't so I continued. "I'll be back later, Lisa." The only response she gave me was a yawn. I don't blame her for just yawning considering it was two a.m. It was also pitch dark outside until you got to the main path so I grabbed a small flashlight off the night stand before I walked out the door.
The cool crisp night air felt good on my body. Anything cool would feel good on my body. My blood pressure has a tendency to go up when I get upset or stressed out. In return it makes my body temperature go up. Plus it had finally stopped raining which was good, because that would have sucked if I would have walked outside and been enveloped in big rain drops.
I sighed and looked up at the stars. They shone brightly and reflected off the small pool of water that Kellermans call a lake. They were beautiful, just like at home. Speaking of home, if I would have been there I know exactly what I would have been doing. Josh would be waiting at the door. Once I went outside to say hello to him he would give me some kind of present, either roses or chocolates. I always told him that he didn't have to get me stuff but he always insisted that he wanted to. Then we would get in his car and he would drive me to this beautiful park. He would set up a little blanket and a picnic basket under this giant weeping willow tree and we'd lay there watching the stars and feeding each other chocolate covered strawberries.
The park was across from my house; I still lived with my parents. Almost every night in the summer I went there with Josh and we always watched the stars. All of my friends expected Josh to propose to me right there underneath that weeping willow tree, but he hadn't yet. Frankly though, I was glad he hadn't proposed to me. I didn't know what I'd say, part of me was still holding out for Johnny.
I shook my head to get that thought out of it. Nothing was ever going to happen between Johnny and me. Second chances didn't exsist. There's no such things as second chances. If something was meant to be there wouldn't be a need for a second chance. There would only be a need for a first time or first chance, and as many people say, "there's a first time for everything." I'd had my first chance 3 years ago. Johnny and I just weren't meant to be.
"Wonder if there are still people in the main house?" I asked myself; I was desparate for some company. I just didn't want to be alone, yet at the same time I didn't want to be in the presence of my family. The only people that are still in the main house are probably Max, and Neil, or maybe I should say "Little Bossman." I laughed at that thought. "Little Bossman" was Billy's, Johnny's cousin, nickname for Neil. It wasn't far from the truth either. That's what Neil was; he was a little bossman that had two, not one but two, hotels.
"Might as well go see if Neil remembers me or if some unlucky lady finally claimed him," I said to no one in particular but myself. Then I started off toward the main house.
The lights in the main house were very bright and the reflected off the smooth white tiles. It looked just like I remembered it. There were, however, more people then just Neil and Max there. At two a.m. people were still sitting in the dining room, people were ballroom dancing, and some people were just sitting on the couches. Did these people not have cabins? I didn't even see Neil anywhere until I went into the dining area.
I felt a tap on my back, so I turned around half afraid of what I'd see. I was afraid of the tapping being Johnny's finger on my back. What would I do then? Finally I took a sigh of relief when I saw Neil standing there with a big stupid grin plastered on his face. Neil? Of course it would be Neil! I should have thought of that! I always wind up running into someone that I don't really like when I go places. I gave him a fake smile. I didn't want to see him really. Like I said before, I just didn't want to be alone. There was no ring on his finger. Darn. This meant the poor guy would spend the entire summer following me around like a little puppy dog. He'd follow me around like he had three years ago.
"Baby!" He squeezed me around the waist so tight that I felt like I was going to throw up. "I heard you were coming here this summer." He clapped his hands excitedly like the dork that he was.
"Yeah." I was at a complete loss of words. Why was he so excited to see me? I wasn't exactly the nicest person to him in '63. "Well, I heard you were going to be here this summer." I realized how stupid it sounded after I said it. Of course Neil would be here, he came to Kellerman's every summer.
"Why wouldn't I be here?" He tried to be funny but failed. "I wouldn't want to miss you, now would I?" I shrugged. It was hard to believe that Neil was even talking to me still after I ditched him for Johnny, or as he called it, "a dance person," three years ago. I realize now that that was a mistake. Johnny and I should have never got together; I should have just spent the summer of '63 having a fling with Neil. Atleast I wouldn't be so nervous now that I was back at Kellerman's because I never would have really cared about Neil. Like I said, it would have just een a fling. No though, I had to get involved with a guy that was as great as my dad, a guy that I actually cared about; Now here I was at Kellerman's and I was as nervouse as I'd ever been. Every time I heard a footstep, I jumped thinking it was Johnny.
Being afraid like this made me upset. It made me angry. I wasn't supposed to be afraid. As Johnny had once put, " I've never met anyone like you.You're not afraid of anything." My response however had been, "Me? I'm afraid of everything! I'm afraid of what I saw, what I did, who I am, and most of all I'm afraid of never feeling like I do when I'm with you." This was the truth. Ever since I left Johnny, I had been afraid of how I felt; I was afraid of my feelings. Everything scared me.
"Baby?" I turned around to see the surprised face of Max. "What are you doing out so late? Do your parents know where you are?" I just stared at him. I'm twenty years old, not ten, yet he was still treating me as if I was ten. Being treated like this upset me. At home I was still the Baby and everyone treated me like a baby, but when I go somewhere people usually didn't treat me like a baby. I guess at Kellerman's I was still the baby. See what I mean? Now I'm afraid of being treated like a baby. Everything at Kellermans scares me. It just brings back to many memories, too much pain. "Are you ok?" Max wondered.
I shook my head. "No, I'm not. I think I'm going to take a walk."
A/N~ The end of chapter 4!! Tell me whatcha think and review!! Johnny will appear in the next chapter I promise!!! If you didn't get the name of this chapter it was called "First Encounter" because it was Baby's first encounter with someone from Kellermans that she'd known 3 years ago. Well, besides Max. Just had to clear that up cuz some people would probably be confused cuz they'd think it meant Johnny but yeah!! Anywho please Review!!