Once inside Arwen's room, Sawen looked around her spacious and luxurious room. It had a beautiful king size bed (for a king and queen of course), the walls had golden wallpaper with finely decorated symbols and elvish writing. Huge exquisite paintings that seem to tell their own story, most of them about the war of the ring but some were just beautiful.

"Please, sit down Sawen." Arwen said gently as she guided Sawen to a chair. But same as before Sawen had no reaction to what she said but followed her and sat down looking to the floors with her eyes staring blankly, but those splashes of gold once in them were no longer showing. " Legolas told me what happened." Arwen told her, raising her pitch as if asking her. "He really didn't mean to say so. You shouldn't stress yourself about it. Please, I hope you find it in your heart to forgive him."

It was burning her. It was burning every part of her body to have heard what Legolas said. But she couldn't help but think that some of it was her fault. She knew from the start that she wasn't sure about him and now she was blaming what he said. All of a sudden it came to her mind that she wasn't Legolas' anyone, not his fiancée of wife. She had no right to blame him for what he said, Legolas wasn't her own. And now, she just felt selfish and horrible for how she acted.

"I'm.....sorry." Sawen said softly, but loud enough for Arwen to hear in her quiet room.

Arwen was surprised yet showed a smile. "You have no reason to be sorry, this was not of your making." She stood up and Sawen followed.

"I'm sorry, I've been so cruel and selfish. It just all came to me as a sudden shock and I didn't know how to react so I just stopped and..."

"There there, it's ok."

"No, it's not, I really felt like I had no control at all. Please forgive me." She pleaded Arwen as she again but only slightly broke into tears.

"I'm not sure you have to be forgiven, but if you are, it is not for me to say so." Arwen kissed her friendly on the forehead and walked away. And Sawen walked back to the dining room, back to where the prince was. Legolas and Aragorn seemed to be making the mends to their argument last night, but Legolas was still concerned if Sawen was still mad, or if Arwen had gotten into her yet. He was walking impatiently in circles until Sawen walked. He caught a glimpse of her to the side and turned and gasped. He thought Has she turned back to normal yet, was she still mad at me. Maybe I shouldn't approach her, yeh that's it, I'll stay right here.

Sawen walked in closer as Aragorn took his leave. "Umm. Legolas I came to say I'm sorry." She looked down in shame. "I was completely wrong about everything. I had no right to blame you for anything, I mean, I'm not like in control of you or anything so I was out of line to slash out on you like that, I...lost control and I froze all day. I'm sorry. Please forgive me."

He stood there, his mind saying What is she saying, why? "No please! You have no need to say this. I was wrong, I put you into such a position I couldn't. I didn't know what I was thinking at all." Legolas was cursing himself in his mind How can she say these things about her, how could she blame herself for what happened and ask for my forgiveness when the fact of the matter is, I was wrong. I am the one that should be blamed. How can she be so strong all of a sudden? Legolas was still gasping over what he heard. He almost collapsed over that thought. "I'm sorry. I made it so hard on you."

"No no no!!! It's alright, I mean, I can' stop you from saying you love someone hehe. But are you still willing to be my friend?" Yes as much as it hurt her to say so, she meant it. If she let anymore time slip pass then she would never find what she had longed all her life. She thought deeply if this is the only way I can stay with him then, it's better than not being with him at all.

A disappointed face appeared on the prince's face, but Sawen didn't quite understand.

"Just friends? Sawen?"

No, the truth is, I want to be your love, your life and soul mate. And it was true, but then again her grief of their love forming and being ended would be worse than a thousand knives stabbing her. She didn't think it clearly and only saw in her mind Prince, I would rather you be my friend and we could be happy together than you to be my love and to have the love we share taken away if you never say. "That's all I have to give you." She held stronger than ever and forced a cheerful smile, "My friendship."

Devastation grew between them especially the Prince. "If last night had never happened. If I had never said. Could we have been more?"

"It doesn't matter. Last night has nothing to do with this. I'm just glad we can still be friends. Right?" she looked down trying to make it easier on him but what he felt couldn't be soothed with " No. How can you be saying this! I don't want to be your friend, you know this, I care about you and even more I love you. If only he had put his thoughts in his voice.

"Great, then we shouldn't lose another second! Let's go." She said grabbing his arm and heading out the door. Oh how she wanted to shoot herself just now she took a deep breath and cheered up.

If this is what she really wants. If this is how we can be together then, so be it. He smiled with a half broken heart. Is there anyway I can make her change her mind?

They walked outside to the courtyard and looked over at the scenery. It couldn't compare with any building she had ever seen in her life! The White City was magnificent. Even the air smelt more alive, the city was filled with people and it all seemed so, breathtaking. The two walked down the city levels exploring the places and houses. A bit quiet but very merry as well. As they walked pass people smiled and greeted them, a man at a flower stand gave Sawen a free rose, which in her heart smelt as fresh as spring. Another man at a bread stand gave her a small loaf of a freshly baked fruit bread, which felt soft and warm in sense. How she felt lucky enough for what was happening, she could ask of no more. But the prince, he had had his feelings bottled for so long and now he wouldn't have the chance to release them.

"Legolas? Legolas?" Sawen looked at her friend waving her hand in front of him. He had looked as if he were spacing out for a second.

"Yes? I'm sorry I was..thinking."

"Yeh. Well, aren't you gonna show me around? I really want to see umm, Osgiliath." She was filled with excitement and couldn't wait. "I want to see everything, explore all the forests, climb the mountains, visit Hobbiton. Oh! I can't wait!." She smiled and took deep breaths controlling her excitement.

Seeing her so happy, and smiling for real, it made the Prince a bit happy too. " Alright. But we must head back and get our things first. Then we go off."

She was so caught up in the fact that they were heading off she spread her arms around Legolas and hugged him closely. The Prince hesitated for a second but then wrapped his arms around her too. A second later Sawen snapped out of her thoughts and pulled back straight away. Legolas tried to keep her but then he let go. They walked back to the courtyard and back into the halls finding their rooms. Legolas packed some things in his bag and grabbed his bow. Sawen walked into her room and also packed some things and she looked to see if anyone was looking and then took out the small notebook she had hidden. She kept it in her carry bag wrapped around in a cloth and walked out. Aragorn and Arwen were together in the main hall as Legolas and Sawen walked in.

"So leaving so soon?" Aragorn asked.

"Yes, we wish to go exploring in Osgiliath and traveling for a while. Don't worry, will visit you again sometime." The Prince said and bowed.

"It was a pleasant visit King Aragorn and Queen Arwen. Thank You" Sawen said smiling and looking especially at Arwen.

"No vaidel gelin a i waew adel len. Namarie" ( May your paths be green and the breeze behind you. Farewell.) The queen exclaimed.

They all said farewells and headed out. Guards had prepared their horses as they walked outside and they rode off. Out of the city and towards Osgiliath, which was still rebuilding from all the destruction during the War Of The Ring.

Not every single one of the orcs died when Sauron was defeated, some survived but very few, some of which attacked Sawen at Mirkwood when she first arrived.

When they had reached Osgiliath the city seemed in better shape than they expected. More than a quarter was remade and although there was still a lot of construction, there were people living there. It was past midday and their journey was quiet. They spent the day going through the city and skipped lunch, Sawen was much too occupied to think of her stomach. And the day went by quickly, but it was all fun. Later they stopped at an Inn to stay overnight. And this time the Inn did have two separate single rooms, which they decided to book. They ate a nice dinner and spoke about the day. He couldn't see it but under her cheerful glimmering face she was hurting just as he was. When they finished they went upstairs and almost walked into the same room but then walked into their separate rooms which were next to each other.

Legolas undressed and lay on his bed sighing. After a whole day journey and non-stop walking he didn't feel tired at all. Is this how we're going to be from now on? I guess she is only my...friend. But I can't help my emotions. I want her. Legolas rolled over on his bed and looked at how empty it felt without her. He imagined her sleeping by his side and that he could wake up like he did last time. But didn't know if that could ever happen.

In the other room Sawen also didn't feel tired. She looked in her bag and took out that small notebook and started writing;

Dear Diary

Today I finally explored Osgiliath, everything is more wonderful than I thought. Legolas and I had a sort of argument last night and it was all my fault. I can't believe I could be so cruel to him. Now I decided that we should only be normal friends. Oh, I am so happy to have met him, and I'm even happier to have fallen in love with him. But this is how far it should go and no more. It would hurt him more if I were with him. The days are still counting and I've already been here 8 days at least. I found my true love, but for some reasons I can't explain I just feel I can't be with him. It tares me apart and I know that he feels the same but, some things are just not meant to be. If I let myself love him, then when the time comes and he never speaks those words, I would leave him to suffer and grieve for his whole life. He would never live life the way he use to and it would be all my fault. I would rather it be this way.

Sawen.

She hid the book away and went to bed feeling much the same as Legolas. Looking over on her bed imagining him by her side to protect her.

Next morning, Sawen woke up very early and the sun had not risen yet. Legolas was still in bed and she decided to make them some breakfast. Walking downstairs into the kitchen she though aloud to herself as no one was in the kitchen. "Hmm what to make, what to make. Cereal is too boring. Bacon and eggs is too oily and fried." She walked around the large kitchen looking through the pantry at what foods were stored. "Let's see, some flour, eggs, ooh some milk and some sugar." Then it hit her, like the light bulb just turned on. " Pancakes! I wonder if they eat them here" It didn't really matter, she already started mixing the ingredients and started cooking. Surprisingly fast 15 minutes later she had finished and cleaned up every speck of what she used and left the kitchen with a plate of pancakes and milk as if she were never there. No one had waken up yet and she slipped quietly into Legolas' room without a sound. The sun was just about rising and Legolas was still sound asleep in bed.

"Legolas." She spoke into his ears. He woke up and saw her. His first sight of the day was her, it couldn't have been any better. "I made us some breakfast, so we could set out soon." She walked over to bring the tray in. The Prince sat up in bed and looked at her from tip to toe. She was all dressed and ready to go.

"How long have you been up?" He wondered as he reached for his shirt.

"Mmm no long, just enough time to make breakfast. Here, pancakes and some milk." She sat down on the bed with the tray on her lap. The pancakes smelt delicious and hot. "You do know what pancakes are don't you?"

He laughed and answered "I'm not familiar with it either. I don't often eat foreign foods."

She laughed too and cut a piece of the pancake and held the plate and fork in front of him. Legolas kindly took the plate and ate the pancake.

"I must say, were you a chef before? Because this taste much better than anything else I have."

She blushed and smiled. The prince finished the whole plate and drank his milk. She looks so bright today. I can see the gold back in her eyes. Her smile has more taste to it. I wonder if she still remembers. Could I kiss her? He put aside his tray. Sawen was still on the side of his bed looking out the window at the sun until she felt him lean closer in towards her.

"Sawen" he said and moved his lips closer and closer.

It has only been one day. Did he really think I didn't remember? He was an inch away but she stood up. "Legolas. I told you yesterday about us, we can't do this, we're just...."

"Friends" He finished sadly. And looked away in shame. "You should pack your things, I'll be out in a minute."

"Legolas I didn't...."

"No I'm fine." The truth was he wasn't fine at all and far from it.

She stepped back to her room and grabbed her stuff, along with her notebook. It was dangerous having all her private things written down but it made her more relieved when she wrote it down. When she was younger she would write her most secret of secret things down on a piece of paper, but she was so scared that someone would find it so she burnt it. From then on, whatever she needed to say, she wrote it and then set it in flames so that when the smoke rose and the ashes got blown away it seemed like she released it from her without someone knowing.

For the Prince, it seemed everything was wrong. He was dying to be with her but the closer he tried to get the further she would pull away. "How could it be like this! Ahh I can't stand it any longer. What do I have to do to get her back the way we were. Ahh being in love is so confusing!" He frustrated over a minute but pulled together and walked outside to meet Sawen.

"Where to 'milady'?" He asked trying to be polite and not so disappointed.

"Show me around. Anywhere." Sawen didn't want to bother him with all her opinions so she let him lead the way.

They took the horses and rode out the city watching it slowly become smaller and smaller in the distance until they could see it no more.

"I hope this is not the last time I see you." Sawen whispered looking at the disappeared city.

Her life had made a huge turn out of nowhere, and she was in a place she thought would only exist in her dreams, she had met heroes and kings she thought only existed in stories, she finally knew what it was like to be in love and yet she couldn't be happy for herself. Why did she let him go?

Both of them were unusually quiet for a long time. Both couldn't see what the other was thinking, but in a way they already knew and it was no help to bring the subject up. Hours and hours passed until they finally stopped for a quick rest. Legolas took the horses to a creek close by, few trees surrounded them, tall mountains but mainly bare rock and grass. Sawen sat down on the grass waiting till Legolas came back. Her throat was extremely sore and there was nothing to treat it with like better menthol or strepsils, only lembas or water. Not long after, Legolas came back with the horses and carried two water bottles he had refilled.

"Are you alright milady?" he asked looking at her rubbing her throat. He handed her the water bottle, which she drank a sip from but it was no help. It seemed painful to swallow anything and she was in a lot of pain already.

"My thr.....i..can't...spe" She tried to tell him her throat was sore and she couldn't talk but even that was too much. He kneeled down and looked at her throat, he placed his hand on her neck and felt it was strangely burning.

"Do not force yourself to talk, I understand." He gently felt up her neck and the side of her face to see if she was sick but it only seemed like her throat. "We should rest here tonight and keep moving tomorrow." He reached on the horses for the blankets and quickly set a fire. The sky was dark and the weather seemed perfect to camp under the stars. He loved the outdoors and watching the stars in the open, every time he had the chance to get away from his father he was happy. They both looked up at the stars and lied down. "The stars shine bright this night. Brighter than I've seen in some time." He said trying not to look at her. But a side glimpse was all he needed before he turned his whole head and saw her looking up, smiling with her eyes closed breathing in the air.

In her mind Oh god, thank you. Thank you for this. I only hope we will have more nights like this. I don't mind if I have to leave when the time comes, of course I don't want to but if I do, I just hope my last days will be just like this night.

She quickly fell asleep not saying a word. He kept his sight on her, why can't I control myself. She just looks so normal, so sweet. After a moment with the stars he fell asleep. Elves didn't usually always sleep but when he was troubling it was better to rest.

The next morning was bright as usual. Something unexpected for Sawen though. She had just sat up and she found a huge black crow at her feet. It was glaring at her but she tried her best not to look back and force it to attack. She was never too good about birds, they scared the hell out of her and especially crows. And one this large right in front of her made her froze. So afraid to move her only hope was that Legolas would wake up. She looked over at him and tried to call for him but she couldn't find her voice. She started worrying, she lost her voice at a time like this. The crow pecked at her leg and then slowly stepped closer to her. Her body was frozen and scared out of her skin. Finally Legolas woke up and rubbed his eyes as he sat up. He looked over at Sawen to find her sitting rock still with a crow moving in on her. She looked over at him and the fear in her eyes almost made him giggle but he didn't. He quickly got up and shooed the bird off into the sky, and it flew far off. She sighed in relief and Legolas was giggling.

"Are you scared of birds?" He teased.

"W...oh no why can't I talk now, I cant even say well, ahhhhh how can a sore throat lead to this.! She pointed at her throat and made funny hand actions trying to tell him. He laughed and answered.

"You can't talk?"

She nodded.

"Funny, how a sore throat could have that much affect." He gave her a bottle of water that she gulped down quickly but it had no help. She needed medicine, quick.

She wanted to ask where they were going but that was no use.

"We're 2 days from Lothlorien, but we can get there in one if we take a short cut." He said answering her question like he knew.

She was delighted to hear he was taking her to Lothlorien and agreed by nodding. And they went on their way. Legolas helped Sawen feel better about her throat by singing her soothing songs in elvish. He had a smooth gentle voice that kind of scared Sawen for a second there, it was weird to hear a male sing that beautifully, but in Legolas' case it was beautiful.

The shortcut was just another road but it was dusty and rough. The horses didn't mind it but the riders were uncomfortable. At least it was a faster route and after riding what seemed like forever they came to a sight of green. A huge forest before them. As they rode in under the tall shades of green trees they came to a huge tower like of trees with entwined stairways and lights. Two elves approached the riders and questioned who they were, but suddenly another elf came in and ordered them to take their leave as she approached. She was tall with a pale face but very beautiful. She had deep blue eyes with glittering light and long golden hair. Galadriel. Legolas bowed as he saw her and so did Sawen.

"Ernil Legolas. You have wandered into my woods or visited?" she asked politely.

"Visited. I just wish to show my friend your great realm in the woods, if that is alright of us to stay. It will only be a few nights."

She looked over at Sawen who only looked up at her a little, she tried to look in her eyes but she couldn't. There is something curious about her she thought and her sense in that was strong. She nodded and led them to some trees ( around the same place the fellowship rested at when they were in Lothlorien) and she ordered some elves to bring them food and water and she left. Legolas felt comfortable at last, an area surrounded by his own kind. Sawen felt also relaxed and peaceful here.

Galadriel was determined to find out more of this Sawen, there was more to her that she found than Legolas could of and intended to ask the prince of it.

LALALA guess what im gonna say... no guess. Yeh MORE TO COME!!! Its sad eh?, well I'll give you a hint of the next chapter. Galadriel finds out more about Sawen when she catches her eye but not all of it. What will Sawen do to protect her secret.? ANYWAYS review n tell me what u think.