Title : Just Friends

Author : Me

Rating : PG-13

Warning : Slash. AU.

Disclaimer : Don't Own. Don't Sue. Don't Tell. Never Happened. Only in my dreams.

Pairing : Sirius/Remus

Chapter : 3/?

Summery : Remus and Sirius hid their true feelings about each other from each other, which begins to destroy not only their friendship, but all the other friendships they made with it.

Author's Notes : Read and Review please. Oh, by the way, if you have any questions, feel free to ask and I'll e-mail you asap. (as soon as possible) Also, I shall remain from writing any harry potter present/future setting fanfiction, as it has just been announced that one of Harry's friends will not make it to the 7th book. And in order to write properly, I have to know who she will kill off next..(the madwoman..) So I shall stick to this past fanfiction for now.

Also note that the spellchecker only got to Embarrassment before it started having problems so any mispelled words after Embarrassment can be blamed solely on the spellchecker.

I can see the magic floating in the air..

Being in with you gets me that way..

I can feel you breathe, watching over me, suddenly I'm melting into you..

Faith Hill

The rest of breakfast Sirius remained remotely quiet. He would pick at his food, or take a sip from his goblet, but he just would not talk to anyone. And it was making Lily more anxious by the minute. James, however, seemed not to notice and was deeply involved in an argument with Peter.

Breakfast would be over soon and something was just nagging at Lily, telling her that something was really wrong with Sirius. So she did the natural thing, "Sirius..are you okay?"

Lily's words seem to drift into one of Sirius' ears and float out the other. Sirius merely murmured a "Yes, its a lovely day James.." as he was lost in his thoughts. He liked Remus. Something was there. It wasn't a 'brotherly' feeling either. But what could he do if he was gay? He had no idea how Gay men act.. or even if he should tell Remus that he has a bit of a homosexual feeling inside him also. "More like homophobic.." Sirius said, staring at his food but not eating. Not aware that Lily had been staring intently at him.

The 6th year redhead slowly turned and tugged on James' robe sleeve. "James.. I think Sirius 's lost it.." She whispered harshly. James, who was suddenly annoyed, turned to face Lily. "Bullocks Evans! He's probably thinking of how to ask Moony if he could use his dream woman!" With that James turned to face Peter again, but just as he was about to make his point even more clear to Peter on whatever they were arguing about, he threw a "Just but out of their business" over his shoulder.

Lily stared at James in shock. Peter must be getting him on edge. James would never yell at Lily like that. Unless James suspected something.. "Sirius.. are you okay? Its me, Lily Evans..remember?" Lily asked Sirius as she turned back to him.

Sirius blinked a few times before looking up and staring intently at Lily, "He's probably having some gay P.M.S issues or something.." Sirius told Lily before turning back to his plate. Lily's lower lip trembled as she noticed she was the only one who thought Sirius was in need of medical help in this kind of mental state.

Remus had been too scared to go back into the great hall. And now his stomach was rumbling and breakfast was almost over. And he felt..lonely. No smiling faces, no pats on the back. Remus' eyes widened, horror struck as he realized that there would be no more 'Moony' and 'Padfoot'.

Remus took in a shaky breath and continued to pace in front of the great hall. He was having a mental debate - 'Embarrassment or Starvation'. Remus wasn't took happy with the latter of the choices. He supposed if he could have another chat with Sirius and strighten things out and maybe..

Maybe they could be friends again? It seemed like a feeble hope.

Sirius yawned stiffly as he stood gesturing to his practically full plate and annoucing to practically the whole great hall that he wasn't hungry anymore. As Lily watched Sirius' back as he walked to the large oak doors she couldn't help but wispher a "Poor guy.. he really needs help. He needs his best friend. He needs Remus."

As Sirius opened the door he froze. Remus looked up from pacing and froze also. Sirius immedently recovered and slinked out the door, staring at Remus as he tried to get past him with as little contact as possible. Sirius was trying to put as much space between themselfs as possible.

"Sirius..stop! I'm not as gay as you think I am!" Remus blurted out, somehow it had wormed its way from his throat to his tounge and just came right out of no-where. Sirius stared. "Look..Remus.. I considered our friendship special but not that special.." Sirius said worridly, backing away from the other boy.

Remus shook his head, "No. Sirius. It was Just a dream."

"But you said you liked it!"

"I said it was pleasant!"

"THATS THE SAME THING!" Sirius yelled, tripping over his feet and falling. Remus shook his head sadly again, "Sirius..please..listen... you're just a friend. In fact, if it will make you happy we can be just aquaintences." Remus pleaded, slowly making his way to Sirius. I just don't want to lose you, padfoot.

Sirius sighed but didn't take the hand that was offered to him. "..did you like it, Moony?" He asked quietly, his tone was barely audible. Remus was slightly taken back, "Sirius, I alread-"

"Tell me the truth, Remus John Lupin!"

Remus nibbled his bottem lip a moment or two before nodding slowly. "It was a good dream.. but it scared me.." He said.

Sirius nodded slowly also. "Remus.. look.. theres definatly something there.. but its freaking me out right now.. I mean..... I never thought of myself as..as..as.."

"Gay?" Remus offered. Sirius winced but nodded. "I just want to think it over. I never wanted to lose our friendship." "Its a little late for that.." Remus said sadly. "True.. I think I made things worse.. I think Lily thinks I'm mental.. I heard her say something about my needing mental help.." Sirius said, forcing a chuckle.

"So...were not friends anymore?" Remus asked, on the verge of tears again. "I don't know Remus. I need time to think it over. I need time to.." Sirius shut his eyes and exhaled the last word "Breathe." Remus nodded. "I'll miss you in the meantime Padfoot." Remus said, knowing it sounded corney.

Sirius nodded and stood from the ground by himself, brushing off. "Well.. by.. for now.. its not permanite though.. We'll work something out.." Sirius mumbled. Remus nodded solemnly and watched Sirius' back as he walked away.