Title : Just Friends

Author : Me

Rating : PG-13

Warning : Slash. AU.

Disclaimer : Don't Own. Don't Sue. Don't Tell. Never Happened. Only in my dreams.

Pairing : Sirius/Remus

Chapter : 7/?

Summery : Remus and Sirius hid their true feelings about each other from each other, which begins to destroy not only their friendship, but all the other friendships they made with it.

Author's Notes : Do. Dum de dum dum..daaaaa... Review my cruelness..sorry. Sorry about this chapters shortness. I just had to update.

Sirius pulled away from Remus. Everyone was looking at him. Shocked. Everyone. Remus was staring, almost relived yet in a way horrified. Unless Sirius was imaging it. "Sirius.." Remus breathed, taking a look at all those around him.

"I'm Sorry Remus, I shouldn't have..I didn't mean anything.." Sirius said, looking around him. He stood and backed away from the table, everyone still watching him. Remus watching him. Remus..hurt. "I'm so sorry Rem.." Sirius whispered in a harsh tone, still backing up.

Thats when he heard it. And he knew who said it. "Black's a fucking queer!" "I'm not-" Sirius started to protest, but it wasn't doing any good. He should just sit down know and confess everything.

But he couldn't. He kept picking the wrong words. He seemed to be hurting Remus more. Remus' chest was burning. His eyes were burning. His skin.. his skin cells were burning. So Sirius hadn't meant it?

Now is the time to really find out, right? "Sirius, you really didn't mean it?" Remus asked quietly, ignoring the "And Lupin's a fucking queer too!" That came from the Slytherin table. Sirius chewed his bottom lip.

This was unfair. Blackmail. Pain. "I..I.." Sirius was at a loss for words. He spun around and charged for the doors with all his might, throwing them open and hearing them as he ran down the hall. Everyone knew. Everyone..except Remus.

Why would Remus do that to him? Why..

Remus shook his head. So he hadn't meant it. Oh well. The pain was there. And Remus knew the pain would remain until he could hear the words pass from Sirius' mouth - 'I want you Remus. I need you moony. I love you.' But Remus also knew the difference between that dream and the reality he was in now.

Sirius continued running. He couldn't believe what he had just done. He had his chance and might not get another one. He had made a fool of not only himself, but Remus as well. Remus would never want him after this. Sirius once again felt lonely. Only this felt much worse.

He felt lonely and guilty. He felt the world had shoved it's finger in Sirius' face and yelled "Do it..do it or I'll fucking kill you!" and when Sirius had..done it.. his heart had died. It felt horrible. Sirius felt useless. Sirius felt..unfeeling. And he knew Remus felt ten times worse.

But Sirius couldn't handle it. His heart was in the right place but his mouth wouldn't do it. He wanted so much to say 'I want you Remus. I need you Moony. I love you.'