Disclaimer - Not mine. I only own Bethany. But this is her first and last appearance unless I decide otherwise.

Author's Notes : My brother graduated The Cor Don Blue Cooking School in Orlando. He got a Crystal Apple and he's giving it to my dad, and my dad is not his dad so that is a real nice gesture.

So, in hour of that, a happy chapter. Sorta.

And some graphic kissing, but nothing over PG-13. Promise.

Also, I don't know how this story will end anymore. I had this happy ending in mind but now.. I don't really believe in Happy Endings, yet now.. oh well. I'll figure something out.

Sirius hissed. Remus sighed. If Sirius wanted him to do this than Sirius would have to take the pain. "Hurts..Remus.." Remus shook his head. "If you won't see Poppy then I'll have to do it this way."

Sirius sighed and arched his back as Remus continued to apply 'Magic Mister's Cream for Broken Bones and Scraps' to his side. "Well, its defiantly broken" Remus stated, continuing to rub the creamy bare skin. Sirius glared at Remus for a fraction of a second, "No shit sherlock."

Thats when Lily came into the Common Room. "James Potter told Peter that..Oh I can't stand him! I never liked Peter as much as I did in first year but what Potter said.. James is such a Bullock! A complete bas..." She stopped when she saw Remus and Sirius.

Sirius laying on his back on the couch with his shirt off and Remus standing next to him rubbing an extremely swollen, black and blue spot. "Did James do that to Sirius!?!?" Lily asked, horrified. Remus started to say something but Lily dashed to him and threw her arms around him, somewhat sobbing.

Remus had his chance to flinch, but he didn't. He wrapped his free hand around Lily's waist. Her sounds were muffled, "I loved him so much at first..but now he hurt Sirius..HE HURT SIRIUS!"

Remus watched as Sirius watched this. He couldn't tell if Sirius was feeling jealousy...or malice.. but Remus felt Sirius tighten up. The skin tensed.

Sirius was so mad at James. First himself and now Lily. He had mentally raped her. "Oh Sirius I'm so sorry!" Lily cried, pulling herself away from Remus. She knelt down beside the couch, her hair, a thousand shades of red..like flames, swishing behind her. "I'll get him for it Lily, don't you worry."

Lily gave a small smile and leaned over to place a kiss on Sirius' forehead. Once again Remus was given the opportunity to flinch away but he didn't. He just watched Lily as she pulled away from Sirius and bounced off to the girls dorm as if it all was better. And to think she thought Sirius was mental!

Remus finally sighed, Sirius looked quite pleased with himself but he knew that if he was feeling angry at James at the moment Remus felt jealousy, even if it was just a spark of it. Sirius stared at Remus' face. It had gone from helpful to expressionless the second Lily's lips touched Sirius' forehead. He was jealous.

Sirius recalled the lonely feeling he had felt earlier. He had felt guilty. Horrid. He couldn't let Remus feel the same way.

Remus kept rubbing the cream on Sirius' skin. Acting as expected, hiding behind a mask, remaining silent. Sirius couldn't stand it. He trailed his hand along Remus' arm and continued reaching until his fingers were buried in Remus' hair. Sirius drew Remus' head down to his and..

He was back there. The world had stopped for him. Everyone staring. It was all quite. Remus kissing him back, being gentle yet hopeful. Everyone staring.

Sirius was jolted out of the great hall memory when he felt Remus try to pull away. No. No more guilt. He wouldn't let Remus feel that way. He gave Remus a forceful tug and licked at his lips, determined to, at least, keep their friendship in tact. Determined to see if there was anything between them. Sirius continued to nibble, trying to get Remus over to is side. Remus was..

Spinning out of control on an icy road. His older sister and her boyfriend were making out in the backseat of the old car. Remus couldn't remember what car it was, but it was old and big. He was trying to do the same with his date, but his passenger seat wasn't all that big. And he couldn't concentrate.

The car kept spinning, the driver drunker than all hell. Remus felt like he would die. It was holidays, and this is how it would end. Thats when Bethany gave Remus his first ever real kiss, and everything felt like it all stopped spinning. Silence.

Sirius felt Remus slowly give into his hold. He was back. And Remus was with him.

Silence. The great hall. Everyone staring. Why was everyone staring!?!? The world stopped. They were vaguely aware of someone shouting "Fucking queer" or something like that.


They were spinning in the clouds. Feeling warmth. Comfort. But this time it couldn't end..

Sirius forced Remus' lips apart, the kiss connecting them as Sirius demanded to explore. To get more.

Remus could feel Sirius taste bud's on the roof of his mouth. Sirius kept at it more instant. Let me feel he pleaded. He didn't want to be lonely, Remus made him lonely. But he couldn't be mad. He wanted to be happy. Wanted Remus to be happy.

Pressure. Rubbing their two tongues together. Feeling.

Remus shifted so he was starting to lay on Sirius. "RIB!" Sirius gasped out, shoving Remus away so he could get the word out more clearly, "RIB! HURTS SO BAD!" Sirius slammed his eyes shut to prevent from crying.

Remus slid to his knees and put some more cream on his fingertips, going back to rubbing the spot. Sirius smiled at bit at Remus, and Remus smiled a bit back. But Sirius didn't know what Remus was thinking..-

I hurt you Sirius.....again.