Ruby: Yay! This fic got more appreciation than I thought it would! Thank you so very much, guys! Happy, happy, happy! Well, before dishing out the next chapter, I have an announcement to make. I know I said before that this was gonna be a three-shot, but then said I had another idea... Well, this is gonna stay as a three-shot, like I originally planned. After I see a couple G-Rev episodes, I'm gonna do the REAL "Complicated Hearts". (Note I changed this fic's name.) Well, I bet you're dying to know what Kai's thoughts are so... Ray, disclaimer, please!
Ray: Sure thing. Ruby-chan doesn't own Beyblade or any of its characters, especially Kai-koi, who belongs to me.
Kai: (wraps his arms around Ray's waist) Or Ray-koi, who belongs to me. (Ray giggles, Kai picks him up bridal-style, and Ray blushes)
Ray: (sweatdrop, blushing madly) Kai-koi!!! Put me DOWN!!!
Kai: (smirks and disappears with Ray out the doorway)
Ruby: (sweatdrop) Well, on with the chapter. It's in my brother Kai's POV, finishes in Normal POV. Words between ... is the dream Ray, ... is dream Kai. You'll know what I mean... Oh, I read in the Official BB site that in G-Rev, the Demo Boys aren't Demo Boys anymore, but Blitzkrieg Boys... Sounds cooler, no? Well, enough of my ranting! Three, two, one... LET IT RIP!!!
Confused Emotions Act II: Desperation and Guilt...........................................................................
I found myself in a dark empty space. I don't know why I wasn't falling, seeing as there was no floor, or walls or anything. It was all just a huge, endless, black space. And... I was all alone... Again.
"Where am I?" I asked as I gingerly looked around, trying to see if I could recognize where the heck I was, but to no avail. That's when I saw a figure in darkness walking towards me. It gave away a presence of intense familiarity, one that for some reason made my cold heart melt from the ice block it had been for so long. The shadow in question was slender and lean, clad in a traditional Chinese suit, with his long dark hair in a matching bind. Once the figure came into the light, my eyes widened in surprise when I recognized who it was.
"Ray?!"
Ray stepped forward, revealing a bright smile accompanied by two molten golden orbs that flashed with happiness.
Hi, Kai! he chirped brightly at me.
I felt myself flooded with a feeling I hadn't felt until I met the Chinese neko-jin, and which I have been lacking lately: happiness. It was like when he was around, everything turned warm and sunny, sending away the bothersome rainy-day clouds that always darkened my existence.
"This is how I feel right. This is where I belong. With you, Ray." I whispered more to myself that to him, as I lost myself in those captivating, gorgeous, shimmering golden orbs.
I reached out to touch his sun-kissed skin, but just when he was at arm's reach, he vanished, and everything around me blacked out. I shivered, the pitch-black darkness sending chills down my spine.
Coming as suddenly as the darkness, a bright light surrounded me now, causing me to shut my eyes tight. After a couple of seconds, I blinked, trying to bring everything to focus. What I saw next claimed a gasp from my lips.
In front of me, there was... ME sitting on the stone in front of the pond at the old man's dojo! "How....? How could I be here and there at the same time?" I thought bewildered.
That's when I saw myself (not me, the other me) look back acknowledging someone else's presence. Following my double's gaze, my eyes widened when I saw who it was... Ray again!
I watched as Ray slowly walked towards my double, fidgety and nervous. I gasped. No WAY! It's... it's the day that... that Ray told me...
Umm... Kai? Ray turned to look at my double, who had been meditating, as I had been that day.
Yes, Ray? What is it? my double asked as he motioned for my neko to sit down next to him. Wait... MY neko? Ray's not mine... I don't deserve him.
Reluctantly, Ray took a seat on the stone next to me, err... I mean, my double.
Well, Kai... I've, um, I've been wanting to-ah... to tell you something for quite a while now. he stuttered, blushing furiously. I remember... it was about that time that my anxiousness was driving me insane.
Look, Ray, just spit it out.
O...ok. Kai, I... oh jeez... Kai, I love you. He swiftly turned to the side, fidgeting with his fingers, waiting for a reply. My double just sat there, speechless, without moving. I couldn't help myself.
"Ray, I love you too!" I yelled, trying to make myself be heard by the neko, but it was as if I wasn't really there. None of them responded. And then, I heard Max calling Ray, who immediately left. Oh gosh... Going back on this... how could I have been so stupid?!
Once more, my world went dark, except this time, Ray appeared in front of me, looking pretty shaken. His hair was messed up, silky strands coming out of its wrap, his eyes were puffy and red, and apparently he had been crying. Then suddenly, he threw himself into my arms, gleaming tears falling from his eyes.
Kai, please don't go. Please. Don't leave me in the dark all alone.
"Ray, I-I'm sorry. I... I..." I stuttered.
That's when what looked like an enormous tiger paw slammed down between us, separating Ray from me. I was flung backwards and found myself on the ground. Ignoring the shock that was caused by the sudden incident, and wondering what the hell had that been what had crashed down on us, I desperately searched for the one person who had the power to make my heart beat without regrets.
"Ray? RAY?!"
Then I saw Ray... standing between two gigantic white tigers, his skin completely white like the tigers, with green stripes marking his cheeks much like my own blue shark fins, one running down his forehead, and the rest on his arms. He had a long white tail, which possessed the stripes too. His golden eyes were slit, and he bared fangs and claws at me.
You left me, Kai. You left me, not caring how I felt, not caring about how empty I would feel. When I first met you, I thought I had a chance of getting through to you, to show you that I cared. But that's all over. Sorry, but we've moved on and taken different paths. I am a White Tiger now, whilst you are a Blitzkrieg Boy. You and I are and forever shall remain enemies.
"But, Ray..." I stuttered, slowly walking to him, but Ray started to fade into the darkness.
Sorry, Kai. But I WILL forget about you. I have to... Your memories are just too painful for me... Goodbye. He whispered, a single gleaming tear rolling down his cheek as the rest of the darkness engulfed him completely.
"Wait, RAY!!!"
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My eyes quickly shot open as I snapped up, breathing hard, while beads of sweat rolled down my pale-looking skin. I closed my eyes again, having quick intakes of breathing while wiping the sweat from my forehead with the back of my hand. I was in my room, my bed. It had only been a dream. The dream... The same dream that had plagued me since I left the Bladebreakers to join the Blitzkrieg Boys because of those stupid new rules. The same dream that reminded me... how I cruelly broke Ray's heart, without so much as uttering a word.
I suddenly stopped my deliberating, hearing steps somewhere in the hallway outside my room. I turned to look at the door just in time to see it being opened by my redheaded captain and all-time best friend, Tala. In one hand he was holding a glass of water, while he had his other one resting on the doorknob. He turned his searching electric-blue eyes to look quizzically at me.
"Kai, what's wrong?" I heard him ask me, in a low tone of voice, so as to not disrupt the quietness and stillness of the night. I closed my eyes.
"Hn." Was my reply to his question, as I gave him my back while crossing my arms over my chest. He had no business knowing what was bothering me. If I were still with the Bladebreakers, and this had been that idiot Tyson, Max, or even Kenny, I know that they would've dropped the subject quickly. But this was Tala we were talking about here, not the human garbage dispenser, or the sugar-high brat, or the computer nerd.
"Don't give me that shit. I'm not Tyson." He pretended to pout, causing me to stifle a laugh that menaced to escape my lips. That Tala... he could act like such a child sometimes. He offered me the glass of water, and I took it gratefully, downing the cool liquid in seconds. My body was all sweaty, and the cold drink was eagerly welcomed. After I finished with my drink and sighed in contentment, Tala put his hand on my shoulder.
"Kai, you woke up screaming again." He said, taking me by surprise. Had I actually screamed in real life? I thought it had only been in the dream. "I need you to tell me what's wrong. You didn't use to be like this before. In fact, you've started acting like that ever since the Bladebreakers went their separate ways."
"Nothing's wrong, Tala." I snapped bitterly. If there's something I disliked more than Tyson's disgusting eating habits, it was someone prying into my life, even if that someone was my childhood best friend. But I should've known... Tala doesn't give in easily.
"Kai Hiwatari." I winced as he pronounced my name and last name, which he only did when he was utterly pissed at me. He was now towering over me, while trying to pull off a decent death-glare, which he achieved successfully. "I, Tala Ivanov, your best friend and TEAM LEADER, or captain, whichever you prefer, of the Blitzkrieg Boys, ORDER you to tell me what the hell is going on in that stupid little brain of yours!!!" he yelled, before clamping both his hands over his mouth. Jeez... idiot.
"Oh great. Now you're gonna wake up Bryan... That means I won't have any sleep for the rest of the night." I sighed, then smirked when Tala's cheeks turned the same shade as his hair.
"Forget about me and Bryan and answer my question, you moron!" he growled, glaring me down. Ooh... "big scary wolf"! Ha! Yeah right... As if. With my same sour attitude as always, I Hn-ed at him before giving him my back, once more crossing my arms over my chest. But Tala, that bastard... I should've known he bloody wouldn't stop annoying the living hell out of me no matter what the hell I did.
He narrowed his wolf eyes at me, before softening up and smirking at me. Looking at him, I raised my eyebrow in question. Oh shit... Something tells me he knows something I don't want him to know...
"Oh, and Kai, by any chance, does it have anything to do with that cute little Chinese YingYang boy that used to be on your team before you split up? Ray's his name, wasn't it?" he asked innocently as he turned to face the other way, smirking.
THAT took me by surprise. All I could do was sit there, gaping at Tala, my eyes wide as saucers. Damn him! How the hell...???
"He he... I guess you must be wondering how I know..." he laughed sheepishly rubbing the back of his head. "Well, it's just that every night I hear you screaming what sounds like "Wait, Ray!" or something like that. What's going on?" Tala turned quizzically at me, his icy blue orbs exploring the depths of my own crimson eyes, looking for answers. Trying to avoid his gaze, I turned to look at the side.
"Kai?" Tala cocked his head in question.
I sighed and got up, putting on my shoes, my jacket and tying my scarf around my neck. So I was sleeping with my normal clothes this night. Sue me if it bothers you. As I headed for the door, I felt the wolf's paw on my shoulder once more.
"Where are you going?" he asked me. I decided I would at least answer this question.
"I need to think about some things. I'll be gone for a while, and I want to be ALONE. If it's not a problem, LEADER." I emphasized the word "alone", making my point very clear to him. I was NOT to be followed. Tala just sighed and nodded his approval.
"Fine. Go. But be careful out there. And Kai?"
"Yes?"
"Follow your heart." With that, he shut my door in my face, leaving me speechless. What the hell did he mean by THAT? What the hell did HE know about what I was going through? Whatever, I shrugged.
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I spent what seemed like countless hours wandering aimlessly on the empty streets. All this time, I was reflecting on Tala's words, what he had told me before I left out.
"Follow your heart, Kai."
How was I supposed to do that? My heart told me I needed Ray. I loved him with all my heart, with all my soul. But thanks to my stupidity and pride, I had lost him. That simple thought just plain shattered me from the inside. What would I give to run my fingers through his hair... to touch his lips... to pull him close... to hold him near... to say these words I've been meaning to tell him...
Somehow, I found myself walking into the beach, the soft sand shifting underneath my boots. I don't know why I had come here... it was as if my body was controlling itself, moving on its own. Sure, I always came to the beach when I needed to do my thinking... I guess my body had just gotten used to walking here.
I raised my gaze from the sandy floor beneath me, and gasped with my eyes wide and quivery. I wasn't alone at the beach.
........................Normal POV.................................
Kai's eyes widened at the sight presenting itself before him. Standing right at the beach's shore was a complete angel in all his absolute glory. There was the gorgeous Chinese boy of his dreams, wearing a traditional long black sleeveless Chinese top over equally black pants, black wristbands adding to the effect. The dark outfit was formfitting, so the neko-jin's perfect heavenly body shape showed right through. His raven bangs tossed freely in the cool nighttime wind, relieved from the regular Yin Yang headband; the silky ebony tresses were tied back in a low ponytail by a black band. The Chinese boy had his back to Kai, who remained unnoticed by the raven beauty. Kai, still gaping, managed to choke out one word...
"R-Ray?"
To be Continued...
Ruby: Evil Cliffie, huh? (smirk) Well, I finally managed to sneak a computer to use. Normally I'd use my laptop to write but, like my cousin's, I've got a computer virus that won't let me write. So updates might be a bit slow. Anyways, here are review responses!
Raku Ozzarian princess: I appreciate your review very much. Thankies! Here's your chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie! (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
Keena Kon: Thanx for the compliments! I'm glad you liked "Dried Tears". The sequel might come out sometime in November but if you're lucky, it'll be before. Keep your eyes peeled! (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
Forfirith-on-a-sugar-high: Yeah. Kai WAS really mean to Ray. Even he thinks so. Lol Don't worry. I won't dispose of it, I promise. - (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
Tsunami: Well, coincidently, this chapter WAS what you asked for in your review, Kai's feelings. Poor him... he feels so bad. Serves him right, though. Lol Thanx for the review! (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
Autumnburn: Thanx for the review! (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
StarryNightObsession aka Mae: Yay! You're finally back to reviewing my fics! Yayness!!! Your apology is accepted, and I'm happy you accepted my apology as well. You're a terrific friend, Mae. I don't ever want to lose you. Thank you SOOO much for the compliments! (blush) I'm REALLY blushing a lot. My cousin just came in and asked me if it was you know who making me blush. I hope that gives you an idea. Lol I've always been told I'm a teenage drama queen... no wonder it was so dramatic, now that I go back and re-reread it. Lol Don't worry. Rei-Rei won't commit suicide. I hate character death fics. Glad you approved of my song choice, and everything. And your imagination was right on target! Kai meets Ray at the beach! Wonder what's gonna happen now... Ooh, I know! I know! Lol I'm not telling... yet! Well, that was a great review, Mae. Worthy of my two special plushies! Here you go! (hands chibi Sugar Buddies Ray and Maxie plushies)
A dragon's crystal aka Crystal: Yay! We're drama queen buddies too! My family's always telling me I'm a teenage drama queen. Lol Glad I made your day! After all, that's what I live for, isn't it? (smile) To be honest, I like Mariah's character, I think she's cool and all, but she must NOT be paired with Ray. She has to play her little sister's role when she's needed the most. I'll never write a fic with Mariah all clingy to Ray, or with Mariah-bashing, just in case. I know that's a bit unusual with a KaixRay obsessionist, but that's the way I am. Can't wait 'til you update "Breathe"! It's one of my absolute faves! Oh, and here's a present for you, to help complete your plushie collection! (hands chibi Sugar Buddies Ray and Maxie plushies)
Hyperness: Thanx for the compliments and the review. Hmm... well, it WAS gonna be a complicated situation and a long fic, but I found out I need to earn a bit more experience so it'll come out the way I want it to. So it's back to a three-shot. But don't worry. The REAL "Complicated Hearts" will be up once I'm ready. And I hope to have you in my list of reviewers then! Very nice review, here's TWO plushies for you. (hands chibi Sugar Buddies Ray and Maxie plushies)
ChibiNekoSakura: Don't worry. Ray will be better soon! (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
TNTiggris: Oh, lucky you! G-Rev! It's starting this Sunday where I live! I sure won't miss it! Can't make up your mind between Dried Tears or this? Personally, I like Dried Tears better because it was my first fic, and it got LOTS of appreciation. People seemed to like it more than this one too. Oh well. (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
Winged Wolves: Hi, Wolfie! I updated as soon as I could. Oh, and Kai, behave! Kai: (grumbling) Make me. Ruby: Ahem. Oh Ray!!! Kai's acting all rude again! Ray: ïï Kai-koi, please. Kai: (blush) Umm, sure. Whatever you say, kitten. Lol Those two... Thanx for the review! (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
Female Neko-jin: You luv this? (blush) Wow. Thanx. Here's your plushie! (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
Songs make me cry: lol Hide that sugar. Enjoy your plushies! I won't give 'em to you, seeing as you already took them. Lol
Darksaphire: Ok, ok! I continued! Hope you liked Kai's chapter. The last chapter will be up A.S.A.P. (hands chibi Sugar Buddy Ray plushie)
Well, that's all my thanks for now. I really appreciate the support you guys are giving me. I'll work hard to bring Dried Tears' sequel to you in November. And also, expect a new fic from me soon. You see, a storm passed by the island where I live, and I was without electricity so I read a novel, and I liked it so much I'm doing my KaixRei adaptation. Hope you guys like it when it comes out. Also, next chapter of this fic is gonna be the last. Look out for it! Hey, I read about this in a review, and it got me thinking... I want YOU guys to tell me. Which one do you like better? Dried Tears or Confused Emotions? Blitzkrieg Boys or Demolition Boys? Tell me when you review, please!
Ruby Hiwatari aka Neko Phoenix Girl