Kelly's life is in turmoil after she gets the results of her test. Brenda being back in California forces Kelly to face a past that she much rather forget and causes problems between her and Dylan. Brandon returns.
Ch 3 Torn
Later as Kelly is leaving the hospital from her doctor's appointment she can't help thinking how unfair life is. The doctor had just told her that even if she has surgery for her endometriosis that her chance for ever having children is still very, very slim. The doctor told her that the endometriosis has completely closed up one fallopian tube and that it will have to be removed. She also found out that she would have to have the surgery if there is any chance of saving the other fallopian tube. She would also have to start taken fertility drugs and even then there is still no guarantee that she will get pregnant. She can't help but feel like she is being punished for something and she feels she doesn't deserve what she is going though. She thinks that it just isn't fair after her miscarriage she thought that she could accept the fact that she would never have a child of her own.
But then her friends starting having children and she found herself longing for the same thing. She has tried to talk to Dylan about them one day having a family but every time she brings the subject up Dylan refuses to talk about it. Kelly had figured that once they got married and she was hoping that she would get pregnant and that after Dylan found out the he would get use to the idea of having a family. She had figured that Dylan indifference was do to the way he had gown up. But now after finding out that Brenda is back in town with a child she is beginning to wonder if Dylan indifference has to do with Brenda and Tyler. During her doctor's she had not been able to stop thinking about seeing Brenda at the hospital. And she can't as much as she doesn't like to admit it she can't shake her suspicion that Tyler is Dylan's son.
Meanwhile in his hotel room Dylan finds himself wishing he had never signed the final divorce papers. For a long time after he had returned to California a part of him had hoped that Brenda would change her mind and not go thought with the divorce but then just before David and Donna's wedding he had received the final divorce papers and he had to face the fact that thing were over between them so had singed them and sent them back. When he had first returned he had never told anybody what had happened between him and Brenda. He had just wanted to forget about her and shut out the pain but nothing seemed to help. And being back in California didn't help like he thought it would because he was faced with the memory of the times they had spent together there and not even being with Kelly could stop the memories from invading his mind. In a lot of ways being with Kelly only made things worst, he tried to convince himself that one day he could forget about Brenda and really love Kelly but he was only kidding himself. Because every time he was with Kelly all he could think about was Brenda.
At first he thought that in time he would forget Brenda if he didn't think or talk about her. But that hadn't work he would force the memories away for awhile but than when he least expected it the memories would return. He would be kissing or making love to Kelly when all of a sudden he would find himself wishing it were Brenda he was with. When the memories would get in the way Dylan pulled away from Kelly she wanted to know what his problem was. Dylan had told Kelly that nothing was wrong but Kelly wouldn't buy that and wanted him to prove it, so he had asked Kelly to marry him. He thought that if he just starting getting on with his life that he would eventually forget about her but that didn't happen. Brenda returned and everything only got more complicated and his feelings for her came back stronger than ever.
Dylan just doesn't know what to do as much as he loves Brenda he afraid that if he tells her how he feels she will not still feel the same way about him or that if they do get back together that things will not work out again and he not sure he can take that chance. But he can't image his life with out her either and it's driving him crazy. He wants to do what right epically for his son but he doesn't want to put his son thought what he went thought gowning up and he wishes that he could Tyler the stability he never had growing up but he doesn't know if he can. Dylan knows that he has made a lot of mistakes in his life and he regrets a lot of the choices he has made in his life.
He regrets ever getting involved with Kelly the summer that Brenda went to Paris with Donna and he wished that it never happened but it did. Before that summer anytime they had been able to work things out, but after that summer it seemed like something changed and they began to drift apart. When Brenda had first returned Dylan had tried to forget what had happened between him and Kelly that summer but Kelly wouldn't let it go. Dylan knew after it had happened that it had been a mistake and he had told Kelly that they could never be more than friends but she didn't seem to get the message. When Brenda wasn't around Kelly would make it quit clear to him that she wanted him no matter how many times he told her that he wasn't interested. After Brenda had broken up with him had started dating Kelly hoping to make Brenda jealous but all he managed to do is hurt her. He knew he was using Kelly but at the time he was hurting because Brenda had just broken up with him and he wasn't thinking very clearly. All he wanted was to have thing back the way they use to be before he made the biggest mistake of his life and he was desperate. When thing didn't turn out like he had hoped Dylan had stayed with Kelly out of guilt for using her the way that he had and he thought that if he gave it a chance that maybe things could work out between them but they didn't.
After they had gotten into college and towards the end of the first year Dylan had started to get close to Brenda again and before she left for London he knew that she was the one that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with but they were once again torn apart. Only to find each other again and he had thought that it finally would be forever but than once again something came between them. Dylan can't help but think that if he had only called Brenda back when she had left all those messages for him to call her back then thing may have been different and that their daughter would be where she belongs. Dylan doesn't like the fact that his daughter is being raise by complete strangers and he doesn't even know if the adoption is even legal. Brenda had been force to give the baby up when she didn't want to and Dylan never even knew he had a daughter until last night so he had never given up his rights to her and he never would have had he known. If he had known about her than he never would have let anyone take her away from Brenda it never should have happened and he it's going to stop until his daughter is back were she belongs. After he had returned earlier and had time to think about things he had gotten in touch with a lawyer specializes in adoption and set up a appointment to see if there is anything that he can do about the situation.
As Dylan heads out to go meet with the lawyer he still has no idea what he is going to do about the situation that he is in. He is in an impossible situation that he can't seem to escape from. He can't move on with his life because of his feelings for Brenda. At times he thinks that he should just go ahead and marry Kelly but Brenda would still be apart of his life because of the children that they share and he can't turn his back on them. Which he knows is what Kelly would never understand but she should considering that her father was never there for her when she needed him. And because neither of his parents were ever there for him is he can't and won't turn his back on them. As for his relationship with Brenda he can't cut her out of life and he absolutely will not take them away from her providing he can find their daughter. The problem is that he is finding increasingly impossible to stay just friends with Brenda after everything that has happened. And as he sees it he doesn't see Kelly ever accepting the situation if he goes thought with the wedding but he has no guarantee that thing will work out between him and Brenda either. Before he found out that Tyler was his son he couldn't ever image that he would ever have a family of his own. And he couldn't picture ever have a family with anyone but Brenda. Before Brenda had returned and he learned the truth every time Kelly would bring up the subject of them someday having a family Dylan would avoid the subject. Any time she would talk about them starting a family after they got married all Dylan could think about was Brenda and what could have been if he had been the father of Brenda's baby. Now all he can think about is what he lost because of somebody else always coming between him and Brenda. He may not be able to change the past but he is determined that he will be apart of both of his children's life no matter what. He knows that Brenda would never keep him away from Tyler but he doesn't know if he can't stand the though of only being in his life part of the time. Not when being with both Brenda and Tyler feels so right and he can't help thing how different thing would be if he had only been there for Brenda when she had their daughter then maybe they would still to together. Dylan blames himself for not being there for Brenda when she needed him and in the end it cost him the women he would always love. Even though she never came right out and said it Dylan now knows that because he let her down in the past she couldn't really trust him when he had told her that he would never let Greg take her son away from her. And he will never be able to forgive himself for letting her down.
Lather that night in her apartment Brenda is thinking about Dylan when the door bell rings. When she goes to answer it she is surprised to find her brother standing outside. After she lets him in she wants to know what he is doing in town. Brandon tells her that he is moving back to California because he wants to closer to her and their mother and friends. When Brenda asks him if his moving back has anything to do with Kelly, Brandon admits that he is bother by the fact that Kelly is planning to marry Dylan. When Brenda asks Brandon if he stills has feelings for Kelly. He tells her that it not easy letting go of someone you thought you would spend the rest of your life with. And he tells her that he doesn't want to see Kelly make the biggest mistake in her life by planning to marry Dylan when he isn't even free to be with her and doesn't even love her. Brandon tells her that she has to tell Dylan the truth before he marries Kelly. Brandon knows that Brenda has told Dylan about Tyler and about the baby she had to give up. Because she had called him while he was still in Washington and told him what was going on even though she had woken him up but she had need someone to talk to and Brandon was the only one that knew the truth that she hadn't signed or filed the final divorce papers. After she had gotten the final divorce paper she couldn't bring herself to sign them even though she is the one that filed for the divorce. She knows that Brandon is right and she should tell Dylan the truth but she doesn't know if she can. When she had first returned she had planned on telling Dylan everything but then she had found out that he was engaged to Kelly and finding out that he was with Kelly again had brought back a lot of painful memories for her. Brenda doesn't know what do anymore she tells Brandon that while she still loves Dylan that too much has happened between Dylan and her to go back to the way things were and she doesn't know if Dylan would even wanted her back after everything that has happened.
Brandon tells Brenda that while things may have changed between her and Dylan that one thing hasn't changed. He tells her that Dylan must still have feeling for her or he wouldn't be hanging around all the time if he didn't besides Dylan belongs with her and Tyler. Before Bandon leaves he again urges Brenda to tell Dylan the truth. While Brenda may still have her doubts telling Dylan the truth she tells Brandon that she will think about what he said.
Two days later at the Walsh house the gang is throwing a welcome home party for Brandon. Kelly is complaining to Donna about not being able to get a hold of Dylan for the past two days and he hasn't returned her phone calls. As she is talking to Donna, Kelly sees Dylan coming in with Brenda and Tyler. When Kelly sees them together it brings back a lot of memories for her that she much rather forget but she not able to push them away. Kelly recalls the night she had confessed to Brenda that she had tried to get a date with Dylan after Brenda had first started dating him. She remembers going after Dylan the summer Brenda had went to Paris with Donna and then after she had returned she remember Dylan going back to Brenda. Then after she had broken up with her Dylan had started dating her but when Kelly had wanted to tell Brenda about them but Dylan didn't. But Kelly pressured him to so they had told Brenda about them. As much as she tries Kelly can't shut the memories out as she recalls all the times that Dylan had went running to Brenda rescue in the past and she recalls the conversation that she had with Brenda outside the After Dark when she had told her the reason why she was so jealous of her even though she was the one who Dylan was with. A jealous Kelly doesn't want to face the fact that Brenda is the great love of Dylan's life although that is what she had told Brenda when she had asked her why Kelly was jealous. Kelly refuses to face the truth that she stole her befriends boyfriend and instead would rather believe that she had a right to go after Dylan because he was free and was no longer dating Brenda. Kelly believes that she is justified in what she did and since she is the one that is now engaged to Dylan then she has a right to know what is going on between Dylan and Brenda and she not about to let Brenda have him back now or ever.
Kelly pushes the memories out of her mind and goes over to Dylan and Brenda who are talking. When she gets over to them she starts to snuggle up to Dylan and starts talk and her upcoming wedding to him. Without saying anything to her Kelly lets Brenda know that she is not about to let Dylan go. When Brenda goes over to talk to her brother an extremely uncomfortable Dylan pulls away from Kelly and demands to know what she thinks that she is doing. Kelly tells Dylan that she should be the one asking the question and she wants a straight answer from him. Than she asks him flat out if he is Tyler's father. For a long time Dylan doesn't answer but when Kelly pressures him for an answer he admits that he is Tyler's father. A jealous and angry Kelly wants Brenda out of Dylan life so she heads for Brenda. Meanwhile Brenda is talking to Brandon. Brenda doesn't like the way that Kelly was hang all over Dylan. Brandon reminds Brenda that she could put a stop to Dylan wedding all she has to do is tell Dylan the truth. Brenda knows that but despite the way that Kelly has treated her in the past or even the way she is acting now she can't do to Kelly what she did to her. Brandon reminds Brenda that she is the one Dylan is still married to and not Kelly. Besides it should be Dylan choice who he wants to be with and Brandon for one believes that if Dylan knew the truth that he would choice Brenda. As for Kelly is concerned Dylan may care about her but he isn't in love with her and if he knew the truth he wouldn't be with Kelly. Brandon believes that Dylan is only with Kelly because he thought that he has lost Brenda for good. When Brenda asks Brandon how he would know that he tells her that she isn't the only one he been talking to while he was in Washington. Brandon and Brenda's conversation is interrupted by Kelly who wants to talk to Brenda alone. They go into the kitchen when they get there Kelly tells Brenda that she knows that Tyler is Dylan's son. And she informs Brenda that she not going to let Dylan go, so if she thinks that she can use Tyler to get Dylan back then she better think again. She then wants to know when Brenda is going back to London. Brenda can't believe Kelly nerve and informs Kelly that is not going back to London now or ever and she tells her that she better get use to it because she will not take Tyler away from his father just because Kelly is so insecure. Dylan who had seen Kelly and Brenda go into the kitchen followed when he hears Kelly acquiescing Brenda of using Tyler to get Dylan back, he walks into the kitchen and orders Kelly to knock it off. Dylan tells Brenda that he wants to talk to Kelly alone. Before she leave Brenda tells Dylan that she is going to take Tyler home. After she leaves Dylan tells Kelly that her behavior was totally uncalled for. Kelly can't believe that Dylan can't see what Brenda is doing and acquires him of always take Brenda side. Kelly feels like she is losing Dylan and there is nothing that she can do to stop it. In a desperate attempt to hold on to Dylan Kelly lies to Dylan and tells him that she is pregnant. Dylan stands there in stunned silence totally unaware that Kelly is lying to him about being pregnant and he is not happy about the situation.
Ch 4 Kelly is caught in a lie by someone she least expects. Dylan wants out of his relationship with Kelly and sees no way out. And will Brenda tell Dylan the truth about the divorce. Please Review
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