Who Am I....

I don't have anything...The friendships I thought would last forever were torn away from me, the trust which was once so important to me...now...nothing is important. And...the love that never got a chance because he...wouldn't give it one.

During the final battle with Naraku, my friends...had perished. Sango...Miroku...Kirara...and little Shippo. Inuyasha...went to hell with Kikyo...just as he promised. But then again...what did he promise me? He promised to be there...with ME...forever. But where did he choose to go? To hell, with that dead, empty fool who-

Oh my God.

Why am I saying that? I don't hate Kikyo...sure...I envy her, but I don't hate her! But she took him away from me...not like he belonged to me though...

I cry myself to sleep every night...as I sit in the corner of my room....I never went back to school, the loss was just too great for me. I found something else out too.

Inuyasha never loved me.

The only reason he was there, the reason he was nice, gentle, sensitive, was because I looked like Kikyo...he was rude, annoying and arrogant because I wasn't her. Whenever he looked into my eyes...it was her he saw...Kikyo...not Kagome. In this world, I have no identity as Kagome Higurashi. My identity...is the pathetic reincarnation of Kikyo. Heh...but who was it that killed Naraku? Me...I showed them. Inuyasha was the only one I thought who could see our differences, but no. All he saw was the priestess he fell for 50 years ago...actually...55 years ago. I spent 5 years with Inuyasha ...I was almost 20....in a couple of days I would have been.

My friends all betrayed me for Kikyo...yeah...Sango and Miroku...even Shippo...they all betrayed me. I felt such hatred for them...at least I thought...Naraku tricked me into killing Inuyasha, and everyone...

I was under a spell, and I couldn't see anything...my body reacted on its own...but my soul couldn't see. That evil bastard...he woke me up just when Inuyasha collapsed on the gorund in front of me. I remember it like it was yesterday.

FLASHBACK

"Huh...Inuyasha? No! Inuyasha!!!"

"Ka-Kagome...?"

"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! You can't die on me! Please don't!!"

"Feh...I have a confession Kagome."

'No please no...'

"I...don't love you..."

Tears...nothing but tears. I couldn't say a word. I was speechless...he got it out...but it wasn't what I wanted to hear.

"At least this way I can't hurt you anymore." He smiled. The first time he ever smiled at me with such passion, friendship, and...love. "But Kagome...you have changed me...You will always have a place in my heart, but I will never love you like I do Kikyo...I'm sorry...Farewell Kagome."

"NO!!!!" Kikyo and Inuyasha would be reunited in hell...just as they wanted

END FLASHBACK

Oh why...why did I have to go through so much grief?! Why couldn't it be someone else?! WHY!!! Why?....Fate.

I don't have an idea who I am anymore....Who am I? Please...someone tell me...please...?

But it won't matter anymore...because I'm dying...slowly dying...Am I important to anyone anymore?....I'm going to die...and no one will care....I thought you guys would...but I guess I was wrong...

Darkness slowly swallowed up Kagome's world...she died a lonely death...it was true. Nobody did find out...not her mother, her little brother, or her grandfather. But during Kagome's last moments of life...she heard a whisper...and it was just what she wanted to hear.

"Kagome? You will always be in my heart...I was too stupid to realize...that I do love you...."

She died a lonely death...but she also died a happy one.