Chapter Two
She awoke the next morning still being flooded with thoughts from her past. Thoughts of him. She couldn't help going back there in her mind, it was one place where she felt safe and content.
She was thinking about how for their second date they had planned to go to the beach. As if that wasn't enough, they also wanted to fly to Italy for a weekend. She knew it couldn't be possible. But it's all they talked about for weeks.
Vince however just couldn't spare them the time as Jay was a big part of the show at the time being. He told Jay they would just have to put it off for another time and apologized.
Jay went back to the hotel room that Stacy was sharing with Lillian, who was probably the best friend she had. He stood outside her door playing with his fingers. He dreaded having to tell her that they wouldn't be able to go just yet. He knew he'd make it up to her, but he just didn't want to see the disappointment in her eyes.
He finally built up the courage to knock on the door. It didn't take long for Stacy to rush to open it, she knew it was him far before she reached it. She threw open the door with a huge smile plastered to her face. He loved that smile. "Can I talk to you for a second?"
"Out in the hall?" He nodded in response. She became slightly worried by the look on his face and the way he was acting. She felt her throat close up and thought her world was about to end. "Sure, of course." she closed the door behind herself trying to find something in his eyes to convince her that this wasn't the end, but all she could find was extreme sadness.
"You don't know how bad it hurts me to say this, but it looks like we won't be able to go out on our vacation away from life anytime soon. Vince needs me to stay around. I'm so sorry doll, I wanted nothing more than to take you away and show you the time of your life."
She felt a small smile creep across her lips. He looked at her puzzled, not understanding how she could smile at this news when her heart had been set on this trip. She threw her arms around his neck. "Oh baby, I thought you were going to leave me. I thought we were over. The trip isn't nearly as important to me as you are. I can live the rest of my life without the dream vacation as long as I still have you." He soon found himself smiling as she said this.
"I'm so glad you aren't upset with me. I wouldn't know what to do with myself had I made you sad. I promise you I will make this up to. I won't ever let you down. I love you."
"I love you too Jay. I love you so much." She brought her lips to his kissing him lighly enjoying the light taste of tangerines upon his lips. This was the first time they had told each other that they loved the other. And it was the best feeling she had ever felt.
Again she shook herself away from the blissful past to find herself still so alone. It had been weeks since Jay had hurt his back and went back home. It had been weeks since she had been able to reach him. No phone calls, no letters, nothing. She had tried many times to reach him, but to no avail. And it tore her up inside not knowing why she couldn't contact him, and why he hadn't tried to contact her.
But she pushed these thoughts from her head. She just felt that she physically couldn't cry anymore. She had to stop letting herself travel back to all the times they shared, only to realize he wasn't here with her now. She had to force herself to go out and do something to take her mind of him, off the past, and off them.
She stepped out of the lonely bed and into the shower to start getting ready for the day. She was trying to think of all the things she could do that would be completely Jay-free. She had to make herself forget, if even only for a day.
She awoke the next morning still being flooded with thoughts from her past. Thoughts of him. She couldn't help going back there in her mind, it was one place where she felt safe and content.
She was thinking about how for their second date they had planned to go to the beach. As if that wasn't enough, they also wanted to fly to Italy for a weekend. She knew it couldn't be possible. But it's all they talked about for weeks.
Vince however just couldn't spare them the time as Jay was a big part of the show at the time being. He told Jay they would just have to put it off for another time and apologized.
Jay went back to the hotel room that Stacy was sharing with Lillian, who was probably the best friend she had. He stood outside her door playing with his fingers. He dreaded having to tell her that they wouldn't be able to go just yet. He knew he'd make it up to her, but he just didn't want to see the disappointment in her eyes.
He finally built up the courage to knock on the door. It didn't take long for Stacy to rush to open it, she knew it was him far before she reached it. She threw open the door with a huge smile plastered to her face. He loved that smile. "Can I talk to you for a second?"
"Out in the hall?" He nodded in response. She became slightly worried by the look on his face and the way he was acting. She felt her throat close up and thought her world was about to end. "Sure, of course." she closed the door behind herself trying to find something in his eyes to convince her that this wasn't the end, but all she could find was extreme sadness.
"You don't know how bad it hurts me to say this, but it looks like we won't be able to go out on our vacation away from life anytime soon. Vince needs me to stay around. I'm so sorry doll, I wanted nothing more than to take you away and show you the time of your life."
She felt a small smile creep across her lips. He looked at her puzzled, not understanding how she could smile at this news when her heart had been set on this trip. She threw her arms around his neck. "Oh baby, I thought you were going to leave me. I thought we were over. The trip isn't nearly as important to me as you are. I can live the rest of my life without the dream vacation as long as I still have you." He soon found himself smiling as she said this.
"I'm so glad you aren't upset with me. I wouldn't know what to do with myself had I made you sad. I promise you I will make this up to. I won't ever let you down. I love you."
"I love you too Jay. I love you so much." She brought her lips to his kissing him lighly enjoying the light taste of tangerines upon his lips. This was the first time they had told each other that they loved the other. And it was the best feeling she had ever felt.
Again she shook herself away from the blissful past to find herself still so alone. It had been weeks since Jay had hurt his back and went back home. It had been weeks since she had been able to reach him. No phone calls, no letters, nothing. She had tried many times to reach him, but to no avail. And it tore her up inside not knowing why she couldn't contact him, and why he hadn't tried to contact her.
But she pushed these thoughts from her head. She just felt that she physically couldn't cry anymore. She had to stop letting herself travel back to all the times they shared, only to realize he wasn't here with her now. She had to force herself to go out and do something to take her mind of him, off the past, and off them.
She stepped out of the lonely bed and into the shower to start getting ready for the day. She was trying to think of all the things she could do that would be completely Jay-free. She had to make herself forget, if even only for a day.