A/N: Thanks to Hawkeye's girl, Satan's Apprentice, BroncoBabe007, Frankie,
Kilikina, Assilem, Sweet Preserves, Heaven's Littlest Angel, Princess-Pixie-
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Warning! This story is a bit graphic, and may upset readers. I guess it should be R rated, but this is the only chapter that's going to be this way.
Feb 1959 Continued . . .
Her sky-blue eyes are glassy as she focuses on only the pen. She no longer sees the doctor holding the pen, nor her husband, father-in-law or his wife as they creep into the room to watch as the mystery is unfurled.
"Annabelle, were you in a POW camp for some time during your service in Korea?"
"Yes," She replies in a quiet, trusting voice.
"During that time, were you ever raped or sexually abused in any way?"
"Yes I was, a lot." Her voice is low, and she stares only at the pen.
"By many people, one person?"
"By the Commanding Officer of the camp. Only him."
"This may be hard to talk about but I want you to tell me every detail about the first time, everything, where he touched you, how he touched you, what you felt, if anything was said, tell me everything." At this command, her husband and father-in-law anxiously share glances.
"The first time, I had been in the camp maybe a little more than a day. I had been made to operate on a injured soldier and he asked me to come to his office. There was a little step there and I tripped on it. I banged my head too, and I was really dizzy but I couldn't get up because my shoulder was hurt. Kwang, the CO came up behind me and picked me up."
"Bingo." Hawkeye whispers, only to be given a murderous glare from Sidney.
"Go on Annabelle." He presses gently.
"Then Kwang took me into his quarters, he was real gentle because he knew I hurt. Then he put me on his bed and rubbed my shoulder, saying he'd make it better it but hurt worse. I was concussed from the fall, and I couldn't stop him he started taking my clothes off, he wasn't rough, it was like he was trying to make love to me, cause he kept touching me, really gentle."
"Where Annabelle?" Sidney asks, watching to see that her eyes never leave the pen.
"On my chest, and my stomach at first, and he was so careful, he was doing everything to see how I reacted. He didn't say much, just that he was making my shoulder better and I believed him because my head hurt so much. Then he told me to lie down and I did, I was tired, I hadn't eaten in ages, and everything hurt." She pauses for breath, even in her semi-conscious and barely with it state, the memory is painful.
"What happened when you laid down Annabelle?" Sidney asked, only because he had to, not because he wanted to. He loved Annabelle a lot, and didn't want to hear of the torture she'd undergone, and he warned her anxious family, "Daniel, Hawkeye, Edna you might not want to hear this." Edna scuttled silently from the room, while the men stayed put. "Go on Annabelle, tell me."
"I did what he said, and then he used my nightie to blindfold me. He told me not to be scared. He talked good English, and knew what to say. I could hear him, the noises as he undressed, the rustle of clothes, his breathing got quicker too. He sat down on the bed next to me and he started kissing and touching my body again, telling me to be calm, if I fought, it would hurt. Then he took my hand and put it on him, and he told me I was good. I tried to take my hand away but he held there, and he moved my hand on him, making me give him an erection." Though she is obviously focused on the pen, she is in pain, her voice is cracking.
"You're doing great Annabelle, just keep going."
"Then he took my hand off him and kept touching me, and he started by putting one finger inside me. Then he put two, and then three. He kept stroking me there, really carefully, gently. He was trying to get me aroused, but he saw it wasn't working so he took his fingers out, climbed on top of me and pushed inside me. I started crying, because it hurt, and he was heavy on my broken ribs and shoulder." Hawkeye gives a choked sob and leaves the room, Daniel hot on his heels. It is all Sidney can do to keep going.
"He was moving inside me slowly, then a bit faster, like I was a virgin, trying not to hurt me, but everything he did hurt. Then he finished and he got off me, I heard him getting dressed, while I just I lay there then he took off my blindfold and told me to get dressed. While I did that he went away and came back with a potato from the kitchen, and he told me to eat it. He said I'd be sleeping in his quarters from now on, and told me to go back to work."
"How many times did he rape you?"
"A lot, at least twice a day."
"Was he always gentle?" Hawkeye had returned, a little calmer, in time to hear the question directed to her.
"No, once he just grabbed me and pushed me against a wall."
"Tell me about that time." Sidney said steadily.
"Pak, a guard there hated me a lot. Every time he saw me, he'd hit me and he'd just finished hitting me with a wooden pole and I was still lying on the ground when Kwang came over. I was supposed to be working and he got angry because I wasn't and he dragged me up. My clothes were nothing now, just a ratty nightie, and he pulled it off. Then he undid his pants, and rammed me against the wall and raped me. He was really hard, I kept getting bashed on the wall, and the whole time he was laughing because I was in so much pain. He finished and by then I was bleeding, which he laughed about when he saw, then he turned me around."
"He sodomized you?" Sidney asked
"Yes. There was blood for three days after that." Hawkeye left again, and Sidney was vaguely aware of someone vomiting outside.
"Did he ever do that again?"
"No, never. He was usually gentle about it. There were times when he was rougher, but most of the time he did it really slowly, and touched me, trying to make me come. Once I did, and he was so pleased that he tried again for three hours. The way he was so gentle and considerate hurt worse than the times he was violent about it."
"Annabelle, you've been very good, very helpful, we're going to be talking a little more about this later. You need to know, that it's all over, no one is going to rape you here. You're safe. Now, I want you to come back to me Annabelle Do you understand?"
"Yes." She replied.
"Good, come back now Annabelle." He clicked his fingers suddenly and the sharp noise jolted her out of her trance, she stared at Sidney for a brief second, before bursting into tears.
"It's okay I'm here." Sidney braves putting his arms around her and he succeeds without being hit. Annie burrows into his chest, crying hysterically. There's no one in the room to comfort her but him, Daniel's too busy crying in his office, Hawkeye's still vomiting and Edna is no where to be found, so Sidney holds her tightly while she cries.
"Anne-girl, I'm here, you're safe in the Cove. It's alright baby, no one's going to hurt you now." Slowly her tears stop, and she lifts a tear-stained face to look at Sidney.
"Thankyou, I never told anyone about the gentle times. It was too embarrassing, too degrading to let the others know a complete stranger who was raping me made me come."
"It's okay, we know now, we're not going to think you were wrong. You couldn't help it, we're only here to support you." Sidney's dark eyes are gently serious.
"Well, thankyou." She whispers. Slowly her family return to see Sidney with his feet up on the bed, and a blonde mass of curls lying in his lap. She's talking and he's listening while playing with her hair.
"BJ and Lyss are starting kinder in September. I can't believe it's been five years since I spent almost 20 hours trying to get them out of me."
"Really? Aaron is going to school then. They grow up so fast. But I think you have some visitors." Tiredly she sits up to see Hawkeye hovering at the foot of the bed. "Go easy on her Hawk, and she'll be just fine."
"I'm sorry about pushing you." She leaves the safety of Sidney's side. Slowly, carefully, he opens his arms and she moves into the offered hug and he wraps his arms tightly around his beloved wife. She was going to be okay.
Warning! This story is a bit graphic, and may upset readers. I guess it should be R rated, but this is the only chapter that's going to be this way.
Feb 1959 Continued . . .
Her sky-blue eyes are glassy as she focuses on only the pen. She no longer sees the doctor holding the pen, nor her husband, father-in-law or his wife as they creep into the room to watch as the mystery is unfurled.
"Annabelle, were you in a POW camp for some time during your service in Korea?"
"Yes," She replies in a quiet, trusting voice.
"During that time, were you ever raped or sexually abused in any way?"
"Yes I was, a lot." Her voice is low, and she stares only at the pen.
"By many people, one person?"
"By the Commanding Officer of the camp. Only him."
"This may be hard to talk about but I want you to tell me every detail about the first time, everything, where he touched you, how he touched you, what you felt, if anything was said, tell me everything." At this command, her husband and father-in-law anxiously share glances.
"The first time, I had been in the camp maybe a little more than a day. I had been made to operate on a injured soldier and he asked me to come to his office. There was a little step there and I tripped on it. I banged my head too, and I was really dizzy but I couldn't get up because my shoulder was hurt. Kwang, the CO came up behind me and picked me up."
"Bingo." Hawkeye whispers, only to be given a murderous glare from Sidney.
"Go on Annabelle." He presses gently.
"Then Kwang took me into his quarters, he was real gentle because he knew I hurt. Then he put me on his bed and rubbed my shoulder, saying he'd make it better it but hurt worse. I was concussed from the fall, and I couldn't stop him he started taking my clothes off, he wasn't rough, it was like he was trying to make love to me, cause he kept touching me, really gentle."
"Where Annabelle?" Sidney asks, watching to see that her eyes never leave the pen.
"On my chest, and my stomach at first, and he was so careful, he was doing everything to see how I reacted. He didn't say much, just that he was making my shoulder better and I believed him because my head hurt so much. Then he told me to lie down and I did, I was tired, I hadn't eaten in ages, and everything hurt." She pauses for breath, even in her semi-conscious and barely with it state, the memory is painful.
"What happened when you laid down Annabelle?" Sidney asked, only because he had to, not because he wanted to. He loved Annabelle a lot, and didn't want to hear of the torture she'd undergone, and he warned her anxious family, "Daniel, Hawkeye, Edna you might not want to hear this." Edna scuttled silently from the room, while the men stayed put. "Go on Annabelle, tell me."
"I did what he said, and then he used my nightie to blindfold me. He told me not to be scared. He talked good English, and knew what to say. I could hear him, the noises as he undressed, the rustle of clothes, his breathing got quicker too. He sat down on the bed next to me and he started kissing and touching my body again, telling me to be calm, if I fought, it would hurt. Then he took my hand and put it on him, and he told me I was good. I tried to take my hand away but he held there, and he moved my hand on him, making me give him an erection." Though she is obviously focused on the pen, she is in pain, her voice is cracking.
"You're doing great Annabelle, just keep going."
"Then he took my hand off him and kept touching me, and he started by putting one finger inside me. Then he put two, and then three. He kept stroking me there, really carefully, gently. He was trying to get me aroused, but he saw it wasn't working so he took his fingers out, climbed on top of me and pushed inside me. I started crying, because it hurt, and he was heavy on my broken ribs and shoulder." Hawkeye gives a choked sob and leaves the room, Daniel hot on his heels. It is all Sidney can do to keep going.
"He was moving inside me slowly, then a bit faster, like I was a virgin, trying not to hurt me, but everything he did hurt. Then he finished and he got off me, I heard him getting dressed, while I just I lay there then he took off my blindfold and told me to get dressed. While I did that he went away and came back with a potato from the kitchen, and he told me to eat it. He said I'd be sleeping in his quarters from now on, and told me to go back to work."
"How many times did he rape you?"
"A lot, at least twice a day."
"Was he always gentle?" Hawkeye had returned, a little calmer, in time to hear the question directed to her.
"No, once he just grabbed me and pushed me against a wall."
"Tell me about that time." Sidney said steadily.
"Pak, a guard there hated me a lot. Every time he saw me, he'd hit me and he'd just finished hitting me with a wooden pole and I was still lying on the ground when Kwang came over. I was supposed to be working and he got angry because I wasn't and he dragged me up. My clothes were nothing now, just a ratty nightie, and he pulled it off. Then he undid his pants, and rammed me against the wall and raped me. He was really hard, I kept getting bashed on the wall, and the whole time he was laughing because I was in so much pain. He finished and by then I was bleeding, which he laughed about when he saw, then he turned me around."
"He sodomized you?" Sidney asked
"Yes. There was blood for three days after that." Hawkeye left again, and Sidney was vaguely aware of someone vomiting outside.
"Did he ever do that again?"
"No, never. He was usually gentle about it. There were times when he was rougher, but most of the time he did it really slowly, and touched me, trying to make me come. Once I did, and he was so pleased that he tried again for three hours. The way he was so gentle and considerate hurt worse than the times he was violent about it."
"Annabelle, you've been very good, very helpful, we're going to be talking a little more about this later. You need to know, that it's all over, no one is going to rape you here. You're safe. Now, I want you to come back to me Annabelle Do you understand?"
"Yes." She replied.
"Good, come back now Annabelle." He clicked his fingers suddenly and the sharp noise jolted her out of her trance, she stared at Sidney for a brief second, before bursting into tears.
"It's okay I'm here." Sidney braves putting his arms around her and he succeeds without being hit. Annie burrows into his chest, crying hysterically. There's no one in the room to comfort her but him, Daniel's too busy crying in his office, Hawkeye's still vomiting and Edna is no where to be found, so Sidney holds her tightly while she cries.
"Anne-girl, I'm here, you're safe in the Cove. It's alright baby, no one's going to hurt you now." Slowly her tears stop, and she lifts a tear-stained face to look at Sidney.
"Thankyou, I never told anyone about the gentle times. It was too embarrassing, too degrading to let the others know a complete stranger who was raping me made me come."
"It's okay, we know now, we're not going to think you were wrong. You couldn't help it, we're only here to support you." Sidney's dark eyes are gently serious.
"Well, thankyou." She whispers. Slowly her family return to see Sidney with his feet up on the bed, and a blonde mass of curls lying in his lap. She's talking and he's listening while playing with her hair.
"BJ and Lyss are starting kinder in September. I can't believe it's been five years since I spent almost 20 hours trying to get them out of me."
"Really? Aaron is going to school then. They grow up so fast. But I think you have some visitors." Tiredly she sits up to see Hawkeye hovering at the foot of the bed. "Go easy on her Hawk, and she'll be just fine."
"I'm sorry about pushing you." She leaves the safety of Sidney's side. Slowly, carefully, he opens his arms and she moves into the offered hug and he wraps his arms tightly around his beloved wife. She was going to be okay.