Title - Relationships Past Repair
By - PheonixFireBlack
Summary - Set in The Moth. About Charlie. Based on one of the flashback scenes. I don't really know how to summarize this....
Genre - General
Rating - PG-13 -- just to be safe
Category - Lost
Feedback - Please? I'll love you forever!
Criticism - I'd love it if you have it!
Disclaimer - I don't own anything. Life sucks. I'll go cry now.
Notes - I think I caught the right name for Charlie's brother. Leland.
Is that right? I hope it is cause that's the name I'm using. lol! I'll
have it confirmed on Saturday. I'm SO re-watching this episode! Anyway, just an idea in my head, had to write it or it'd be there forever. Here ya go...
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Relationships Past Repair
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You're still using, aren't you?
Oh, don't change the subject.
That's why you haven't been answering my calls
Oh, what are you to say? You got me into this!
-Leland, Charlie
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At first, I couldn't believe he'd even asked that. Then, as my brain actually decided to work properly, I realized that it wasn't so ludicrous, but it was still out of line. And completely off the subject. It was his fault. His fault I was doing it. He'd started it. He was the catalyst. That's what I've always told myself. Why should I have him believe any different? Of course, he probably doesn't believe that anyway. He probably thinks I did this of my own accord. But he's wrong. It was his fault! If he hadn't ever done the drugs, I'd have never thought about it! I was the one that had actually gone to a priest and confessed my sins. How did things get so screwed up? I barely even remember now.
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Look, I'm just trying to look out for you!
You never looked out for me!
-Leland, Charlie
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I know it's true. And he knows it too. This was the only time he'd ever tried to look out for me at all. It's almost as if, even though we're brothers, he never saw it fit that I really needed to be looked out for. Maybe that was part of my reason for starting the drugs. I honestly don't remember. But I do remember all the times he acted as if I didn't exist, as if we weren't related in high school, all those times he'd not been there. The only reason he's offering it now is because he "knows" what I'm going through. That's a cock and bull story. It's bullshit. He knows me as well as I know him any more. And that's hardly at all. And that's probably how it's going to be from now on. Especially with DriveShaft making a comeback. The only problem is a lead singer, now. Oh, well. That's a minor problem. We'll fix that. But Leland and mine's relationship is far from fixing. It's broken. Has been. For way too long. It'll never be repaired. And if it is, it'll never be the same as it was when we were eleven and twelve. Nothing will ever be the same....
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Notes - I don't know how much I like this one. It doesn't seem right to me. But it's what came to my mind and what my fingertips typed, so, I guess it's what I wanted, right?
Drop me a line! (any suggestions for a new line? lol)
Later days,
-PFB-