A/N:
The author is still alive and successfully avoiding doing any real
work. There is fluent cursing in chapter. Ann can become violent when
in a bad mood. Just warning you.
9. Home
It was a bad
day from the beginning. Severus Snape, the most feared professor at
Hogwarts, awoke to find himself being cuddled like a giant teddy bear
by a ten year old. To make matters worse, Jack groaned and gripped
Severus's gray nightshirt even tighter every time he tried to
disengage himself, as so Severus was embarrassingly caught by Sirius,
his former schoolmate and tormentor, snuggling with a little boy he'd
barely known longer than a month. Before he could explain, Sirius
grinned, gave a mock bow and tip-toed away. It hadn't been a nice
grin. It was the same grin Sirius and James had shared every time
they were bored enough to bully Severus, which was often. "Damn,"
Severus muttered. His reputation stunk enough as it was - Sirius
didn't buy the "evil potions master" façade that the
rest of the school, including young Potter, accepted so readily. He
would have to remember to be especially nasty today.
Jack,
being the brat he was, chose that moment to wake up. "Damn!"
he repeated happily. Pleased with his newly learned word, he pressed
his warm body closer to Severus's cool one and fell back asleep,
pulling the deep blue covers closer around him.
"You're
getting soft," he admonished himself later as he glared into the
bathroom mirror on the way to his morning shower. He made the water
extra cold today, not even bothering to touch the warm knob. The cold
water splattered off the black tiles back onto his calves. He was so
used to waking up at dawn that even an hour or two later made him
groggy the whole day. Not willing to disturb Jack, he had lain there
for two hours staring at the ceiling. Although getting up at eight
was extremely early for a child so young, Severus was ready to
chastise him for taking so long. He even had a slightly witty comment
ready to fire at Jack when the little brat sleepily opened his eyes
and gave him a loud, sloppy kiss on his forehead. Severus was frozen
in shock as Jack yawned in his face.
"Brat," he
muttered as Jack started jumping up and down on the bed, anxious for
him to finish dressing and cook pancakes. "Brat, brat!"
Jack repeated, jumping on one leg, then the other.
It took
Sirius less than five minutes to appear in the long, narrow kitchen
after Severus. As much as the mongrel hated him, he couldn't deny
that the potions master was an excellent cook. In addition to banging
his big toe on the stove and burning his hand once in the fire,
Severus found afterwards that Jack and Sirius had finished all but
two of the pancakes, eating each one as soon as it was done. At least
there was plenty coffee. He gritted his teeth. He had no one to take
his anger out on because they both disappeared as quickly as the
pancakes. It wasn't that he was actually hungry, it was more the lack
of respect. He wished they had bothered to thank him so he could give
them a look of disdain.
He put the two remaining pancakes on a
tray and soaked them in butter and syrup, just the way Ann liked
them. Ann liked to eat a full, hearty breakfast, which Severus never
understood since she usually fell back asleep until noon after waking
at seven just to eat. The ways of woman were mysterious and
strange.
He knocked politely on the door, but didn't bother to
pause before briskly walking into Ann's room. 'My room,' he corrected
himself. 'On loan.' Ann sat straight up under her tangle of sheets as
soon as she heard the click of the door opening. She blinked her eyes
dazedly at the man walking around the room, setting the tray in front
of her and opening the windows.
"Don't!" she
complained. "Too bright." He opened the shade
half-way.
"And I'm the one they say is a vampire,"
Severus commented.
"You are - you stay up all night.
You're insane. What is this? I don't want your bloody pancakes. You
can take this syrupy concoction and shove it up your-"
"Cheerful
as always," he said dryly, sitting at the edge of the bed,
making sure he was far enough away that her feet didn't touch him.
She rubbed her red eyes furiously. Her face was still shiny from
sleep and her short dark brown hair stood up on the left side of her
face, but he thought she looked beautiful. If only she wasn't such a
damn bitch! She had been awake for less than a day now after being in
a coma three days, and had already tried to escape twice. The first
time she simply walked out the door and down the beach. She would
have made it back to her own house, too, if Severus hadn't been
playing with Jack outside. The second time she climbed out the window
- he had no idea how as she could barely walk. She neglected,
however, to consider the fact that Severus's window was directly
beneath her own. She had claimed at the time that she needed to go
for a walk or a short run. Pending further inquiry she said that she
was going to take back the book that was rightfully hers and that
Severus was an ugly bastard and she hated his guts. Rather than
becoming softer towards him after he saved her, she now proclaimed to
hate him with a passion.
Ann sniffed the pancakes
suspiciously. He had put sleeping potion in her soup last night, but
she had recognized the taste and thrown the bowl across the room,
narrowly missing his head. Finally, her taste buds overcame her
desire to annoy Severus, and she began eating in earnest. She glanced
up briefly when she was half-way done. "Yeah, they're great and
all if that's what you want to know, not that I give a fuck."
Being bed- ridden had put Ann in the sourest mood Severus had seen
yet - and that was saying something.
She finished the last
of her pancakes and downed the coffee in one gulp. She suddenly
struggled to stand out of bed, throwing back the light blue sheets.
He grabbed her arm, about to demand what she was doing, but she
pulled away and shouted in his face, "What the hell is wrong
with you? I'm freaking going to use the bathroom! Get off me!"
She was shaking with anger. There was a red mark on her arm from
where Severus had grabbed her.
'Geez, can we say PMS?' Snape
thought maliciously. "Of course, the bathroom is at your
disposal, your Highness."
She rounded back on him in the
doorway to the connecting bathroom. "Look you slime-bucket: I
didn't ask for you to bring me here, and I didn't ask for you to try
to control my life! I've lived for twenty-five years without your
help and I damn well don't need it now!" She slammed the door
behind her.
"You sure did a fine job of proving that!"
he shrieked into the closed door. "You almost died! You hear me?
You could have died from that bloody infection and you were too
stubborn, too proud - no, too bloody stupid to care! How could you do
that to Jack? How could you do that to me?!" But the door stared
back blankly at him. He heard Ann moving around inside, seemingly
ignoring him. "You want to go back and kill yourself? Well, fine
- but don't expect me to come after you to pick up the pieces when
you bloody fail!" It was the worst possible thing he could ever
say to her, he knew, but he couldn't stop himself from releasing the
bitter emotions he had held ever since Ann first left him.
She
gave up all pretense of ignoring him by opening the bathroom door and
glaring at him. She was in her underwear. Black underwear. Her skin
looked so smooth he wanted to reach out and touch it. He was so mad
at her obvious taunting that he seriously considered hitting her.
Maybe he should grab her hair and shove her head under water for
several minutes until she was ready to listen to sense.
"Is
that so?" she whispered. "Well know this - I never fail.
Never. If you continue to stand in my way, I will kill you." She
gently closed the door behind her.
He sat down heavily on the
bed. Geez. He dragged himself out into the hallway to find Jack
sitting on the stairs. "Why you yelling?" he asked. Severus
shook his head. "Why you mad?"
Severus sat down next
to him. "Jack. . .sometimes people just don't understand what's
best for them."
"But if you care this much, why you
yell?"
Severus stared at him. "Cuh - care?" he
sputtered. "That bitch! Look at everything I've done for her,
and what does she do? Yell at me! Call me names like a child!
Threaten to kill me!" He was spitting with rage. "She
doesn't care about anything: herself, you, or me. . ." He held
his aching head in his hands and groaned. Jack patted him on the
back. "I'd better make sure she hasn't killed herself."
He
knocked on the door but received no answer. "Ann?" She
didn't answer. "I'm coming in." The bedroom was empty, but
water was still running from the bathroom. The lazy bitch was taking
a shower. 'Great way to avoid me,' he thought. 'Take your time. See
if I care.'
He walked downstairs and paced his library
aimlessly. His relationship with Ann had been taking a turn for the
better a week ago, and now they couldn't exchange one civil word
between the two of them. He supposed it was better this way. There
was no point in getting close to people. The Dark Lord had been gone
now for over a decade, but he still couldn't allow himself the
leisure of pretending to be normal. If he were a normal wizard, he
would be worried over nothing more than who would win the World Cup
that Britain was hosting this year. Instead he was tracking rumors
about ancient curses and century old books and dark forests while
babysitting a woman with a death-wish and a serial-killer escaped
from Azkaban. It was strange that the two grown-ups required stricter
watching than Jack, who was only ten but still independent and
competent. "Why me?" he moaned out loud.
'Stop
that!' he commanded of himself. Potions masters don't moan and they
don't show weakness. He picked a random Dark Arts book off one of the
cherry bookshelves and tried to read. When he came across a passage
about curses, however, it brought back such strong memories of Ann's
trip that he ended up chucking the book at the opposite wall. 'I'll
talk to her,' he decided. 'Just talk.' She would have to listen to
sense. He would tell her everything: how he had been a Death Eater,
and why that enabled him to hear the rumors, and how her trying to
rescue her lost book was a dangerous mission. She would have to
understand. She would hate him, understandably, but she would
reconsider her plans. If she knew that Death Eaters were after her
she would have to stop. She would have to. Surely she could figure
out that she would come after the book? Surely she could figure out
it would be an ambush?
Determined, he swept back down the
narrow hallway to the stairs. Jack was no where to be seen. He
knocked on the door but received no answer. "Ann? We have to
talk. I have to make you understand. You won't like this, but you'll
understand. . ." He put his ear to the door. Silence.
He
opened the door to find the room abandoned. The water in the shower
was still running. 'That woman must take the longest bloody showers
of anyone I've ever known,' he guessed. He went back down the hallway
and sat on the top step of the stairs. Something irked him in the
back of his head. There was some small detail that kept running
around, trying to find a place to be interpreted. What? What? Oh, yes
- the room had changed slightly. Ann must have cleaned up.
He
went back in her bedroom and looked around. The covers were pushed
almost all the way off the bed and her bag had been moved from the
chair to. . .or had she taken it with her into the shower? In less
than a second he flew across the room and flung open the bathroom
door. He was greeted by an empty shower and an open window. He ran to
the window and looked outside to find nothing but trees. She had
escaped.
"Damn you!!!"
Ann couldn't see anything through all the grime that coated
the window, especially on a night this dark, but if she pressed her
ear to the crack at the bottom she could just make out voices inside.
She had followed Yakov from his house to this public swimming pool
which had long been abandoned. He had walked into the bathhouse as if
he owned it, but Ann had gotten close enough to see that his eyes
darted around furtively as he entered. Right now she was lying
stomach down on the roof and trying to determine what she was up
against. There were several voices inside: a man with a deep, gravely
voice, a woman with a high, nasal voice, another man with a curt
voice, and finally Yakov, who spoke with a thick Russian accent. The
other three had been speaking in French when she first climbed up,
but when Yakov entered they all switched to English.
"Have
you had any success?" Ann heard Yakov's asthmatic voice float
through the window.
"None, sir. There seems to be an
imperturbable charm on this case. We need to discover the key -
probably some kind of password, I would guess. Without it, we could
tear the case to shreds and not find a thing."
"Damn
it! You should have kept that blasted woman with you! What were you
thinking, just leaving her there to walk away?"
The woman
spoke. "There was no way that girl did any walking. You didn't
see the condition she was in. A strong wind could have knocked her
over. She was covered in blood, probably injured by some animal that
attacked her in the woods, and her foot was infected with what looked
like a strong poison."
"You still should not have
left it to chance that she would still be there when you returned!"
Yakov shouted, enraged that his will was being disputed.
"Our
priority was the book, sir. That woman obviously had help from an
outside source. If had stayed, we might have risked loosing the
book."
"You could have handled it."
"This
Wyvern fellow is extremely powerful. The only reason we have the book
is because we ran into some Muggle he was using to deliver the book.
If we had stayed. How can we find one faceless Muggle in thousands?
He has probably erased her memory by now," the deep voiced man
spoke.
Ann heard furious pacing. 'Just like Severus,' she
thought fondly. But then she remembered she was supposed to be mad at
him, so she quickly pushed the thought away. She grimaced at their
conversation; she knew she should be happy that they weren't
expecting her at all - they would only prepare for a direct magical
attack, not Muggle stealth. They would not even suspect her, but
assume she was acting under orders. She knew this should please her
because it meant they were unprepared, but their assumptions that
they were up against a powerful wizard - a man - it irked the hell
out of her. 'If only I could show them exactly how strong I am. . .'
she thought, picturing the repayment she'd give them for taking her
book last week, and worse, her pride. "Damnation!" she
whispered to herself.
". . .contact me at once."
"Oh
course, sir. Should we keep a full guard here?"
"No,
go ahead home, Estella, no one knows about this place. Even Reilly
doesn't know where we are," Yakov answered. Reilly! This was
news to Ann. Reilly was one of the most slippery characters Ann had
the misfortune of knowing. He wasn't actually an employee of
Hegemony, Inc., nor did he hold any official position of power, but
he somehow exerted influence over the entire company in ways Ann had
yet to find out. It was Reilly, for instance, that had converted
Yakov from the emotional but reliable man she knew into this lying
animal below. She'd never even seen Reilly, nor did she know his
first name. His! She caught herself making the same assumption that
most book thieves made about her. Maybe Reilly was a woman? 'And
maybe her first name is Mary,' she thought wryly, with a small
grin.
She waited more than ten minutes after Yakov left. One
man and a woman left the building and disapparated, but one more
drove up in a motorcycle and went inside. She also had to account for
the possibility that there might be more people inside. Not the
mention the fact that should couldn't discount anti-thieving wards;
although since they hadn't even bothered to put one around the
bathhouse to prevent people like Ann from listening in they couldn't
have put up many wards at all. They sounded extremely confident - too
confident. Either they were incredibly stupid or else they had reason
to be. They had put up the anti-Muggle wards, of course, making Ann's
head buzz faintly with worries of missed appointments. But Ann was
used to doing and thinking several different things at once; she left
her worries to another section of her brain and used the rest to
concentrate on the task at hand.
While planning the attack,
she realized exactly just how incompetent and unprepared she was.
Sure she had what equipment she had been able to sneak out from under
Severus's excessively long nose, but she felt so exposed without a
definite plan. Sneak in, find book, run like hell. Usually when she
did something dangerous it was after months and months of agonizing
research and strict practice.
'No, you can do this,' she told
herself. She had her knives hidden in her boot and sleeve, her
pixie-dust to cover her tracks, a few healing and explosive vials of
potions tucked into her pouch. She was woman enough to take them all
on and win. The lack of security continued to disturb her, but she
would deal with what happened as it came.
The strangest thing
was, she couldn't stop thinking about Severus and Jack. She wondered
for a brief instant if she had let someone know where she was, just
so they'd know if something went wrong. What would Jack do without
her? She shook her head. What was she, his self-appointed guardian
angel? Severus would take care of him. Severus. She found she didn't
want to think about him at all.
After searching, she found a
window that had been broken, leaving only an empty frame. It was on
the opposite side of the building from where the voices had come, but
at least this way she'd have a chance to sneak into the room unseen.
'Or be caught wandering around trying to find it,' she amended. She
traced the outline of the knife in her sleeve nervously.
The
room was dark except for the moonlight that fell in the window after
her. She let go of the ledge and dropped down to the ground. She held
her breath, hoping no one had heard the slight noise she had made
upon landing.
Silence.
She was in a dressing room of
some sort. She could make out showers to her left, and what looked
like gaping holes on her right - no, those must be either changing
rooms or bathroom stalls, but she was too creeped out by them to want
to get any closer. She found a door along the opposite wall, but
found it was stuck. Damn! It took her a good five minutes to pry it
open without making any noise, and then ten more minutes to open it.
She had to go millimeter by millimeter because the hinges were well
rusted and would creak otherwise. Outside was a hallway that led to a
lobby. She peeked out into the lit lobby. There was a front door on
at the far end, a desk closer to her. A man sat at the desk, his back
to her, as he was facing the front door. Time for her darts. She
dipped one in her strongest sleeping potion and shot it at the man's
neck. Bull's eye!
He didn't even make much of a sound when he
fell. This was good. She edged along the wall and peeked out. There
was the outside guard, his back to the door. She sneaked across to
the short hallway that led to the changing room on the other side.
'Oh, look at me, going in the men's bathroom!' she thought. 'Heh,
heh, you pervert, you.'
It was as easy as annoying Severus
(which was extremely easy indeed). After checking the room for any
lurking villains, she strode over and took the case. "Book,
book, I love you!" she whispered to it, snuggling the case close
to her breast. She didn't think she could get any happier than she
was now. She turned to go, but suddenly found herself surrounded by a
gold haze.
And she had assumed they wouldn't have any wards
up. She tried to go through it, but it stopped her. It was like
trying to cross a brick wall. She heard running footsteps coming from
the lobby.
'Fine, try to stop me, go on,' she dared them. It
was taking a risk, a huge risk, but she couldn't let herself be
captured again and it was the only plan she could think up on the
spot. Wards are set into the ground - mess up the ground and the ward
will fall. Unless made otherwise, for instance, you could crawl
underneath a ward like it was a fence if you were capable of
burrowing underground. But she had a more convenient way: she took
out her vial of EXE and threw it against the floor on one side of the
ward circle that encompassed her. It was extremely dangerous to be in
such close contact with the substance, but what was life if not
dangerous. The outside guard was here. He started to reach through
the ward towards her, his wand outstretched and ready to stun.
Without hesitation, she made herself as small as possible and hid
behind her case, which had the strongest imperturbable charm on it
money could buy, and said the incantation.
She must have
passed out from the impact, because the next thing she knew she was
lying against a moldy wall. Her head throbbed, and her entire body
felt sore and broken. After a few moments of dizziness and after a
minute or so of retching, she felt well enough to lift her head and
look around. The only good thing about the explosion, besides
crumpling the ward, was that it had thrown the man against the wall
too. He was still passed out. She crawled closer, ready to use
another vial of sleeping potion to ensure that he stayed that way
when she saw she had been mistaken. His head had cracked open against
a corner of a pillar he had sailed past.
'Oh good,' she
thought numbly, 'now I'm a murderer. Murderess. Fuck!'
She
limped out the door and back across the lobby to the other changing
room. There she stopped and sat on a dusty bench, opening the case.
It was illogical and stupid, but she couldn't go through another
minute without even looking at the book. She only wanted to touch it,
just for a second, to make sure. It was there, sure enough, and as
beautiful as it had been the first time she laid eyes on it. She
inhaled it's wonderfully musty aroma and brushed her cheek against
the cover. She sighed.
'Stop that now!' she commanded herself.
She put the book away - she would read it on the flight home. She had
a night flight and a seat by the window, and would have it finished
within the eight hours and several different planes it would take to
arrive at London. She climbed out the window with considerably more
difficulty that it had taken to climb in. The trees of the
surrounding wood were just beginning to block her view of the
bathhouse when she heard the pops signifying the arrival of more
wizards and witches. No doubt the ward had served more as an alarm
than anything else. She shuddered to think how close she had been to
being trapped like a fly in a jar. Thankfully, they all ran inside
first instead of immediately searching the grounds.
She wasn't
worried. They couldn't follow her using magic because of the pixie
dust she had used, and if they managed to find her and try to stop
her she would run - a moving target was much harder to hit with
curses and they wouldn't be able to keep up with her for ten miles,
magic or no. She had her book, her pride was newly intact, she could
beat up anybody that threatened her, and in a couple of months she
would go to London to exchange her goods for a shitload of money.
Life was good.
'Maybe life isn't that great afterall,' she
amended as she walked down the path towards Severus's house on the
cliffs. She prepared herself to be as cold as possible. 'I won't show
emotion, I won't! I won't let that git bait me. I'll walk in, cool as
you please, thank him stiffly for his hospitality and say that I'm
there to pick up Jack and go home.'
And then it would be time
to move on. She couldn't stay in the same place, not with a new
project. It wasn't in her nature to be tied down. Severus had no
right to know any of her business anyway. If he tried to stop her she
would sock him in the nose.
As the glow from the windows of
the house grew larger and larger in the still night air her stomach
shrank tighter and tighter. It had been a couple days since she had
ran away - no, she didn't 'run away,' she left. 'Run away' made it
sound like she was doing something she shouldn't. Severus was the
only one who thought she shouldn't go. Even Sirius had been
enthusiastically for her adventure, but then again his judgment
wasn't completely reliable as he had apparently been caged up for a
very long time and was still caged up by Severus all summer.
She
tried to picture Severus's look of fury when she explained this to
him, not staying long enough for him to argue back. The only reason
he was so adamant about her going was because of the stupid rumors he
had heard - mysterious activity in Albania, searches for books that
never should exist. . . He was afraid someone would use her to find
Lyrinx. . .no, she wouldn't even think about it. The possibility of
anyone finding her, much less using her, was absurd. She was M. A.
Wyvern and she had outsmarted the best of the best. 'Ha, I am woman,
hear me roar,' she sang to herself.
'In fact,' she realized,
mulling over the details, 'he probably doesn't give a shit about me
at all. Which is fine. He just wants to make sure no one gets that
book.' Well, he didn't have to worry, because her next project would
be taking her eventually to Antarctica or the North Pole - one of the
poles distinctly mentioned in references to a book on using mind
control over animals. She had her own commissions for books, whether
Severus admitted it or not. 'Gosh, it's too bad some of us have
lives,' she thought maliciously.
She had herself almost ready
to smack him by the time she knocked politely on the door. It was
less than a minute later when it was opened by a disheveled looking
Severus. She stepped into the parlor. He closed the door behind her
and followed.
"The business has been taken care of,"
she said nonchalantly. "I've come for Jack. It was exceedingly
generous of you to look after him while I was away - what the blazes
happened to you?"
She had been avoiding his gaze but
turned to find that his face, under bright light, was drawn and large
shadows were under his eyes.
He stared at her. "I should
bloody be asking the same thing. Look at you - you're covering in
grime, there's blood on your case, I can smell it - you're face is
covered in bruises. You look like you've been run over by a rampaging
Hippogryph. I've haven't gotten a wink of sleep in nearly two weeks
because of you! You go traipsing halfway across the world and then
just walk in like nothing happened." His words were angry, but
his voice was soft ('and silky', she added). He looked
distracted.
"What? What's wrong? Did something happen?"
she demanded. Was it Jack? Her heart hammered in her ears.
"There
have been some strange things happening. Black's godson, Potter,
awoke a few days ago with a sharp pain in his forehead, where his
curse scar is. The last time that happened, according to Albus, was
when Voldemort was at Hogwarts."
"But it doesn't
mean-"
"A group of Death Eaters paraded around at
the Quidditch World Cup earlier this evening, ending in the Dark Mark
being displayed over the area. I just heard the news a few hours
ago." He was looking out the dark window, his back to her. She
could see the weariness in his back. "All this. . .you see, I
was worried. But if you don't even care about yourself, I don't see
why I should."
"Because I didn't ask you to! When
will you grow up? This is serious - Death Eaters exposing themselves
publicly? And you're still being a - mhpp- " Severus covered her
mouth with his thin hand. He drew her close to him and whispered in
her ear, "Shhh, shhhh." She turned her head so that her
cheek was pressed against his robe. He stroked her back so lightly a
spider could have been crawling across it. She tried, unsuccessfully,
to stop herself from shivering.
She pulled away from him just
enough to look up into his obsidian eyes. "I still hate you,"
she said, but the venom that she had held in wait to attack him with
was slowly leaking away. She felt weak and numb. What did any of it
matter?
He heard her, but not what she said, only what she
didn't say. He nodded. "You miserable old-" she tried
again, but he stopped her from talking again, stroking her cheek with
his long fingers.
"Welcome home," he murmured, a
small sarcastic grin on his face. She felt her lips tremble and
wasn't sure if she wanted to cry or laugh or scream, or perhaps all
three at the same time. He leaned down and kissed her softly on her
cheek, then the corner of her mouth, then he was kissing her for real
this time and she was sure she was going to scream. His lips became,
for a second, an extension of her own. She felt his hands reached up
and brushed lightly through her hair.
She couldn't stand
anymore - she was ready to explode. Or kill someone. While eating ice
cream.
"Do you have any ice cream?" she asked,
jerking her lips away from his.
He blinked. "Ice
cream?"
"Yes, I'm hungry," she said over her
shoulder, striding into the kitchen as familiarly as if it was her
house.
He watched her disappear into the living room on the
way to the kitchen. Women! He walked out the front, slamming the door
behind him. The path was dry and dusty but the night air was perfect
for helping make the knot in his groin disappear.
A/N: I will
try to update more often than once every six months. Please don't eat
me! I promise to be a good girl!
Thanks to Wingsong, Lisa
Beattie, MegMeg the one and only, Lady Slytherin3, and Bex the Bold
for reviewing! Thanks especially to Lisa Beattie for threatening to
kill me! I love death threats - they keep me on my toes and remind
me, every now and then, to update.
