Misgivings
A/N: This is a Landis centered fic. I hope it to be only of five chapters. It would do me a great pleasure if you reviewed your thoughts on this.
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It is the darkness calling my sight to the new-day light. The darkness I yearn for as I remember what I had last seen.
Her eyes were so angry, Ayame's eyes were. Why was she willing to defend me from the attack? She is a shinobi and she loves her Sasari. Amusing, as that is to see that twerp with one of the few people I respect. The way the monsters acted. I could not get through them and if it were not for the fact that Ayame had casted a magic shield on me in time, I know I would've received the celestial bliss I want.
It was an admission, a grant that I wanted desperately. After living as the monstrosity as I am, I wondered why I had ever shed the name of Sid. I also had been left to wonder so many things.
There are the simple questions that I can answer but I don't want to say anything about it right now. The light beckons me to open up my crimson eyes. I don't want to. IT is something I tend to dread as I go to sleep in that dark cave that is my home for now. The underground caverns of Budahec castle is something to want after the caverns I've lived in but it is home for me.
The reason I want the darkness...I want to see my mother. I've never really ever met her but I heard the woman who created the race of the winghordes is really my mother. That damned light won't stop bugging me!!!
Feeling my heavy eyelids, the ones that want to refuse the dawning rays, I can't help but notice that my arms hurt, they itch horribly from where something emits itself into my pale complexion. My hearing seems horrid. I can't hear anything that is past five fucking feet and what I hear is the click-clack of Mio's shoes.
That damned woman had healed me!! She personally decided to violate my right to say anything about my condition. I hate that. I hate her!! Wait, light is coming through both eyes, well not necessarily the light but the top of the generally colored white ceiling in where the chandeliers shone with precise light, dampened somewhat by the rising sun.
It was a few minutes until I could actually move my eyes away from all those unimportant details in the top wall, my crimson eyes, the ones that my mother had given me from her blood as it were said, clicked groggily upon the face of Mio. Her short cut brunette hair swinging in the open-windowed breeze. A simple elegant smile plastered upon her disgusting face.
I hate Tuta and I hate Mio. They heal me when I want death, when I want my mother. I want to reach up and grab her perfect little motherly face, and twist it, put my claws to work and feel the rush of wind as I would drink her blood but that gore-fest would be nothing but a fantasy. I had been told over and over after injuring one of the medical staff for even coming near me, that I was not to kill any of them.
"How are you feeling today, Landis?" Her chirpy voice awakens me to the brilliant hot rage I have for all medicinal people. I want them dead and I want all of them killed by me and me alone. She smiles, awaiting my answer as she changes the bags of liquid from their post for me.
"Worse." I snap at her viciously. What did she expect me to say, 'Oh, I am just so fine!! I can even try hopscotch today!! I mean after all my body is pretty damaged up pretty badly, and the morphine is just wonderful. Won't you give me some more?' I feel myself laughing with my pointy canines, the teeth I often plunged into the hearts of my victims.
"Oh, that must be because the I.V. is becoming a little bothersome. My other patients tell me that's a little of the problem but this is new technology for the hospital right now." I settle for a low-keyed glare since I can barely see her fully. Why does she want to heal someone who is already destined for death? Why is she who she is?
These were the questions that were too difficult to answer. Her brown eyes seem to glitter magnificently as I try my damnedest to not reach up and snap her neck. I hate having to wake up in this damned hospital but no, Sasarai and Viki won't stop healing me after the damned battles. Watching Mio, her tender pale hands reached over to take a look at my wounds, sending icy trails amongst my paler skin.
"Well, do you want to know what is wrong with you?" She asked politely, the sweetness disguising the mal-content she hid well for me. I smirked, my lips touching the bar surface of her aggravation. My crimson eyes looking at the wall in silent contemplation. She'd tell me either fucking way. It was part of her job after all, even to ones like me.
Sighing in defeat, a loving defeat for me at least, she started on the diagnosis that I was given. "Well, you had three fractures on one leg, five ribs broken, a sprained ankle, poisoning, and lastly, a fractured skull." She smiled that same sickening smile, her brown eyes still glittering with the hidden defeat that I had won from her. I hadn't even thought I had been hurt as bad as some people.
"Well, looks like I'll be out of here soon, Nursie." I growled at her. Her disappointment could be easily seen from her deep eyes. There was something else she was not telling me. My toothy fanged grin seemed to disappear underneath my thick lips. I knew she wanted me out of here. It meant more time for me not to try to attack her.
"That is Ms. Mio to you, Mister Landis. And you won't. The poison that is in your system will take its course for about three days. You've already slept for two, that and the Flame Champion has issued a command that you are to stay here until you are asked for a mission, otherwise, you stay within our boundaries." Those empathetic lips shaping into a frown that I could feel it increasing upon my own. Plucking up a bottle and a needle, she took some of whatever they had given me earlier, flicking the bottle slightly, then turning with the silver point towards my trapped arms.
Trying to move away from that damned thing, I knew instantly that they had bound my hands and legs to the bed. Great, just fucking great for me. My thoughts were in a jumble as I felt the stinging pain of the medical tool easing morphine into my blood, mixing it in darkly, causing the light at the top of the room to blur with that damned nurse's face.
I think before the darkness overtook me, I told her to fuck off, but I am never going to be sure...
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"Dr. Tuta, do y-....know.....Psycholo-..." I can barely hear the medicine that she had given me for the tenth time this week doing its course. My bones were knitting well with the constant usage of earth and water runes by Tuta, Mio, and Estelle. Whenever Estelle comes near, I feel the exact sense of what one would say, 'crap,' coming nearer to me to make me dread her coming even within two or five feet.
I dare to wonder how that little broom-brat can stand it. The whispers utter from near my bed, the morphine easing off from my veins, becoming nothing. I could feel that my bones were better and that I would have the normal weakness whenever a broken bone was healed, the soreness or dizziness continuing for a short while usually.
Turning, my shaggy dark blonde hair, I open those same crimson eyes, the ones I hate to see the light with. Tuta, in his normal outfit of orange and white, sitting at his desk, with Mio and Geddoe in front of him. He was holding out some sort of folder, a little fuzzy but you really couldn't miss it I surmise.
Geddoe seemed to understand perfectly between the trio, Tuta accepting it somewhat, waiting for the decision from that bitch, Mio. Whenever I will, I will make sure my massacre includes them first. Growling underneath my voice, Mio was shaking her head in disagreement raising a ruckus as I felt a wind rune spell activate and make me sleep. I should have known that Queen was in here along with Jacques. The three of them out of the firebringer were always together, especially when it came to decisions about the members.
Damn that bitch. Damn both of them.
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Another sunny day, another day to be alone. A small pre-teen girl ran about the classroom near the castle. The other children were around the small built classroom like Melville, and Cecile, who was still in their version of high school.
The teacher was none other than Chris Lightfellow, an armed woman conned into being a teacher for a short while. The knight stared at all the children around her, trying to teach on the importance of logistics and not being conned into teaching.
The small pre-teen girl looked up towards one of the castle windows where Master Thomas sat listening patiently to his councilors. Flame Champion Geddoe and true lightening rune holder, Hugo, were out with two teams for awhile leaving Chris and Thomas to deal with everything, which was hell in itself.
"Gab-Rial!!" the white haired knight called out to the girl, sitting quietly, a distance away from all the others. It was not for the fact that Gabriel, as she preferred being called instead of her actual name, considered watching people a content activity for a girl with such life and optimistic views. The girl stood up, away from the window to the rest of the disordered class with the disheveled knight.
"Yes, Lady Chris?" Gabriel's voice was soft and silky as a feather from the spirits' wings. Standing behind the defeated knight was Nurse Mio and Dr. Tuta, who had come to see what the entire ruckus was about. His face was amused at all the children as Nurse Mio asked if Chris needed some help.
"Gabriel, Mel, Belle, and Sharon are the only ones who have been good enough to go about the castle right now as they wish. Though I think everyone should leave but they can't because of protocol." Chris droned on, Nurse Mio taking the four girls from the classroom with the dysfunctional Chris and even worse the disobedient kids.
Gabriel didn't mind taking a walk away from the noisy classroom. She was a person who preferred more contemplative silence except if it was just her and another, then she liked conversation. Smiling, they stopped by Mio's station at the hospital wing, the aforementioned nurse going towards a few patients when one patient caught Gabriel's fluorescent light green eyes.
"Hello," She told the body as she moved closer. He held himself with an aloof expression, eyeing her with an unnerving dark garnet ocular gaze. She wasn't scared as she stood right beside his bedside; his eyes seemed to call out for someone in their deep murky depths as he stared at her contemplating his choice of action. "I'm Gabrielle."
He reached up to her. His eyes unfocused as she reminded him of someone he once knew that had made Sid into Landis instead. Her small fingers fell into his reaching claw-like fingers. He knew instantly as they touched that something was up about her, much like it was with Jimba but much more.
"Who are you?" Her soft voice asked out of the blue. Her hands tracing the patterns on his palm, causing tremors of healing energy through him. She didn't have a rune on either of her hands so how was she healing him? He wondered it as he felt his voice arrive to answer idly.
"Sid but everyone now calls me Landis." He told her, wondering deeply why he told her his real name. The girl seemed to allow a wisp of a smile over take her face to only be taken away from the call of an alerted certain Nurse.
"Gabrielle!! Watch out for Landis!!" Nurse Mio reached out towards the girl, her hands brushing her shoulder to pull her away from the winghorde. A look of pain came upon Landis as he felt her hand fall away from his.
"Stop." Landis told Mio, whom in turn looked surprised at him. He didn't like anyone even trying to visit him, except for maybe Mamie. He liked her visiting when she cooked him his favorite food and told him about other recipes. (Though it was kept a huge secret that he preferred her and all those dogs great company to have when she cooked) Gabrielle tried coming out of Mio's grip to no avail. "I won't hurt her, you crazy bi-" He paused his mouth in mid-sentence. Should he curse? No, that would not do anything to help the situation at all. "You crazy nurse!!" he landed on instead.
"Why in the?!" Mio started; stunned that he did not curse as he normally would for the whole castle to hear normally. Her hand raised up from the girl's shoulder, Gabrielle moving forth once the retainer let her go to the winghorde.
"I have to go." She muttered to him, then looked over to Mio, a look of pleading grace crossing her face. "Nurse Mio, may I come back here and talk to Landis tomorrow?" Landis focused on her. His crimson eyes searching heavily upon her pale framed face. Mio's surprise was written across her face plainly.
"Only if Landis will allow you." She managed to answer through her stupor. Landis nodded to the girl and Mio. The three other girls were opening their eyes in fright as they had heard many things about the dark and morbid winghorder.
"I'll see you tomorrow then, Landis." The girl smiled, being taken by the hand away from him. Landis's face widened in concern. Why? Why did she touch him?! Why had she even dared to talk to him much less touch him and want to see him more? His mind was blurring together in bewildered thought. Only a few answers for tomorrow would answer them.
A/N: This is a Landis centered fic. I hope it to be only of five chapters. It would do me a great pleasure if you reviewed your thoughts on this.
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It is the darkness calling my sight to the new-day light. The darkness I yearn for as I remember what I had last seen.
Her eyes were so angry, Ayame's eyes were. Why was she willing to defend me from the attack? She is a shinobi and she loves her Sasari. Amusing, as that is to see that twerp with one of the few people I respect. The way the monsters acted. I could not get through them and if it were not for the fact that Ayame had casted a magic shield on me in time, I know I would've received the celestial bliss I want.
It was an admission, a grant that I wanted desperately. After living as the monstrosity as I am, I wondered why I had ever shed the name of Sid. I also had been left to wonder so many things.
There are the simple questions that I can answer but I don't want to say anything about it right now. The light beckons me to open up my crimson eyes. I don't want to. IT is something I tend to dread as I go to sleep in that dark cave that is my home for now. The underground caverns of Budahec castle is something to want after the caverns I've lived in but it is home for me.
The reason I want the darkness...I want to see my mother. I've never really ever met her but I heard the woman who created the race of the winghordes is really my mother. That damned light won't stop bugging me!!!
Feeling my heavy eyelids, the ones that want to refuse the dawning rays, I can't help but notice that my arms hurt, they itch horribly from where something emits itself into my pale complexion. My hearing seems horrid. I can't hear anything that is past five fucking feet and what I hear is the click-clack of Mio's shoes.
That damned woman had healed me!! She personally decided to violate my right to say anything about my condition. I hate that. I hate her!! Wait, light is coming through both eyes, well not necessarily the light but the top of the generally colored white ceiling in where the chandeliers shone with precise light, dampened somewhat by the rising sun.
It was a few minutes until I could actually move my eyes away from all those unimportant details in the top wall, my crimson eyes, the ones that my mother had given me from her blood as it were said, clicked groggily upon the face of Mio. Her short cut brunette hair swinging in the open-windowed breeze. A simple elegant smile plastered upon her disgusting face.
I hate Tuta and I hate Mio. They heal me when I want death, when I want my mother. I want to reach up and grab her perfect little motherly face, and twist it, put my claws to work and feel the rush of wind as I would drink her blood but that gore-fest would be nothing but a fantasy. I had been told over and over after injuring one of the medical staff for even coming near me, that I was not to kill any of them.
"How are you feeling today, Landis?" Her chirpy voice awakens me to the brilliant hot rage I have for all medicinal people. I want them dead and I want all of them killed by me and me alone. She smiles, awaiting my answer as she changes the bags of liquid from their post for me.
"Worse." I snap at her viciously. What did she expect me to say, 'Oh, I am just so fine!! I can even try hopscotch today!! I mean after all my body is pretty damaged up pretty badly, and the morphine is just wonderful. Won't you give me some more?' I feel myself laughing with my pointy canines, the teeth I often plunged into the hearts of my victims.
"Oh, that must be because the I.V. is becoming a little bothersome. My other patients tell me that's a little of the problem but this is new technology for the hospital right now." I settle for a low-keyed glare since I can barely see her fully. Why does she want to heal someone who is already destined for death? Why is she who she is?
These were the questions that were too difficult to answer. Her brown eyes seem to glitter magnificently as I try my damnedest to not reach up and snap her neck. I hate having to wake up in this damned hospital but no, Sasarai and Viki won't stop healing me after the damned battles. Watching Mio, her tender pale hands reached over to take a look at my wounds, sending icy trails amongst my paler skin.
"Well, do you want to know what is wrong with you?" She asked politely, the sweetness disguising the mal-content she hid well for me. I smirked, my lips touching the bar surface of her aggravation. My crimson eyes looking at the wall in silent contemplation. She'd tell me either fucking way. It was part of her job after all, even to ones like me.
Sighing in defeat, a loving defeat for me at least, she started on the diagnosis that I was given. "Well, you had three fractures on one leg, five ribs broken, a sprained ankle, poisoning, and lastly, a fractured skull." She smiled that same sickening smile, her brown eyes still glittering with the hidden defeat that I had won from her. I hadn't even thought I had been hurt as bad as some people.
"Well, looks like I'll be out of here soon, Nursie." I growled at her. Her disappointment could be easily seen from her deep eyes. There was something else she was not telling me. My toothy fanged grin seemed to disappear underneath my thick lips. I knew she wanted me out of here. It meant more time for me not to try to attack her.
"That is Ms. Mio to you, Mister Landis. And you won't. The poison that is in your system will take its course for about three days. You've already slept for two, that and the Flame Champion has issued a command that you are to stay here until you are asked for a mission, otherwise, you stay within our boundaries." Those empathetic lips shaping into a frown that I could feel it increasing upon my own. Plucking up a bottle and a needle, she took some of whatever they had given me earlier, flicking the bottle slightly, then turning with the silver point towards my trapped arms.
Trying to move away from that damned thing, I knew instantly that they had bound my hands and legs to the bed. Great, just fucking great for me. My thoughts were in a jumble as I felt the stinging pain of the medical tool easing morphine into my blood, mixing it in darkly, causing the light at the top of the room to blur with that damned nurse's face.
I think before the darkness overtook me, I told her to fuck off, but I am never going to be sure...
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"Dr. Tuta, do y-....know.....Psycholo-..." I can barely hear the medicine that she had given me for the tenth time this week doing its course. My bones were knitting well with the constant usage of earth and water runes by Tuta, Mio, and Estelle. Whenever Estelle comes near, I feel the exact sense of what one would say, 'crap,' coming nearer to me to make me dread her coming even within two or five feet.
I dare to wonder how that little broom-brat can stand it. The whispers utter from near my bed, the morphine easing off from my veins, becoming nothing. I could feel that my bones were better and that I would have the normal weakness whenever a broken bone was healed, the soreness or dizziness continuing for a short while usually.
Turning, my shaggy dark blonde hair, I open those same crimson eyes, the ones I hate to see the light with. Tuta, in his normal outfit of orange and white, sitting at his desk, with Mio and Geddoe in front of him. He was holding out some sort of folder, a little fuzzy but you really couldn't miss it I surmise.
Geddoe seemed to understand perfectly between the trio, Tuta accepting it somewhat, waiting for the decision from that bitch, Mio. Whenever I will, I will make sure my massacre includes them first. Growling underneath my voice, Mio was shaking her head in disagreement raising a ruckus as I felt a wind rune spell activate and make me sleep. I should have known that Queen was in here along with Jacques. The three of them out of the firebringer were always together, especially when it came to decisions about the members.
Damn that bitch. Damn both of them.
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Another sunny day, another day to be alone. A small pre-teen girl ran about the classroom near the castle. The other children were around the small built classroom like Melville, and Cecile, who was still in their version of high school.
The teacher was none other than Chris Lightfellow, an armed woman conned into being a teacher for a short while. The knight stared at all the children around her, trying to teach on the importance of logistics and not being conned into teaching.
The small pre-teen girl looked up towards one of the castle windows where Master Thomas sat listening patiently to his councilors. Flame Champion Geddoe and true lightening rune holder, Hugo, were out with two teams for awhile leaving Chris and Thomas to deal with everything, which was hell in itself.
"Gab-Rial!!" the white haired knight called out to the girl, sitting quietly, a distance away from all the others. It was not for the fact that Gabriel, as she preferred being called instead of her actual name, considered watching people a content activity for a girl with such life and optimistic views. The girl stood up, away from the window to the rest of the disordered class with the disheveled knight.
"Yes, Lady Chris?" Gabriel's voice was soft and silky as a feather from the spirits' wings. Standing behind the defeated knight was Nurse Mio and Dr. Tuta, who had come to see what the entire ruckus was about. His face was amused at all the children as Nurse Mio asked if Chris needed some help.
"Gabriel, Mel, Belle, and Sharon are the only ones who have been good enough to go about the castle right now as they wish. Though I think everyone should leave but they can't because of protocol." Chris droned on, Nurse Mio taking the four girls from the classroom with the dysfunctional Chris and even worse the disobedient kids.
Gabriel didn't mind taking a walk away from the noisy classroom. She was a person who preferred more contemplative silence except if it was just her and another, then she liked conversation. Smiling, they stopped by Mio's station at the hospital wing, the aforementioned nurse going towards a few patients when one patient caught Gabriel's fluorescent light green eyes.
"Hello," She told the body as she moved closer. He held himself with an aloof expression, eyeing her with an unnerving dark garnet ocular gaze. She wasn't scared as she stood right beside his bedside; his eyes seemed to call out for someone in their deep murky depths as he stared at her contemplating his choice of action. "I'm Gabrielle."
He reached up to her. His eyes unfocused as she reminded him of someone he once knew that had made Sid into Landis instead. Her small fingers fell into his reaching claw-like fingers. He knew instantly as they touched that something was up about her, much like it was with Jimba but much more.
"Who are you?" Her soft voice asked out of the blue. Her hands tracing the patterns on his palm, causing tremors of healing energy through him. She didn't have a rune on either of her hands so how was she healing him? He wondered it as he felt his voice arrive to answer idly.
"Sid but everyone now calls me Landis." He told her, wondering deeply why he told her his real name. The girl seemed to allow a wisp of a smile over take her face to only be taken away from the call of an alerted certain Nurse.
"Gabrielle!! Watch out for Landis!!" Nurse Mio reached out towards the girl, her hands brushing her shoulder to pull her away from the winghorde. A look of pain came upon Landis as he felt her hand fall away from his.
"Stop." Landis told Mio, whom in turn looked surprised at him. He didn't like anyone even trying to visit him, except for maybe Mamie. He liked her visiting when she cooked him his favorite food and told him about other recipes. (Though it was kept a huge secret that he preferred her and all those dogs great company to have when she cooked) Gabrielle tried coming out of Mio's grip to no avail. "I won't hurt her, you crazy bi-" He paused his mouth in mid-sentence. Should he curse? No, that would not do anything to help the situation at all. "You crazy nurse!!" he landed on instead.
"Why in the?!" Mio started; stunned that he did not curse as he normally would for the whole castle to hear normally. Her hand raised up from the girl's shoulder, Gabrielle moving forth once the retainer let her go to the winghorde.
"I have to go." She muttered to him, then looked over to Mio, a look of pleading grace crossing her face. "Nurse Mio, may I come back here and talk to Landis tomorrow?" Landis focused on her. His crimson eyes searching heavily upon her pale framed face. Mio's surprise was written across her face plainly.
"Only if Landis will allow you." She managed to answer through her stupor. Landis nodded to the girl and Mio. The three other girls were opening their eyes in fright as they had heard many things about the dark and morbid winghorder.
"I'll see you tomorrow then, Landis." The girl smiled, being taken by the hand away from him. Landis's face widened in concern. Why? Why did she touch him?! Why had she even dared to talk to him much less touch him and want to see him more? His mind was blurring together in bewildered thought. Only a few answers for tomorrow would answer them.