Remember

Summary: Sirius "talks" to Wormtail as he thinks in Grimmauld Place.

Disclaimer: Hey...I DO own them! I own them! I swear! ...Aw, c'mon. A girl can dream.

I never thought I'd care for you after all this, Wormtail. I can hardly believe sometimes I think about you as I lie here in my old home, wondering what's happening to you. I can hardly believe I care whether you're being tortured or not. You deserve it, Wormtail, and you know that, don't you? You little rat. But we all loved you once, Wormtail. Loved you like a brother, even if we teased you.

You're the reason I was locked up like worthless vermin – the vermin you are – for twelve bloody years. You're the reason Lily and James died. You're the reason we thought Remus would betray us. You're the reason that Remus hardly seems to live now. That I hardly seem to live, Wormtail. And do you live more than I do, Wormtail? Are you happy now? Both power and just a pawn.

Do you ever think about us, Wormtail? Did I always know, Wormtail?

You're the reason I'm locked up, even over here. You're the reason Dumbledore hardly trusts me anymore. You're the reason for everything.

And you'll always deny it, won't it? You'll cling to your fantasies forever. Even in Voldemort's presence, you'll just think – Oh, Sirius forced me to join them. Swear he did. He threatened me.

I thought you cared about us, Wormtail. I thought I cared about you.

James cared about you. Don't you remember, Wormtail? He tried so hard to get you on your feet after Hogwarts. He tried so hard when he helped you become an Animagus.

Do you remember that Quidditch match, Wormtail? Do you remember when you calmed James down when he was practically tearing himself apart at the notion that he would lose? Do you remember when he told you he won that game truly just for us – us, the Marauders, but mostly you.

And you betrayed him. James. Our brother. My brother.

Lily cared about you. She always defended you in those silly fights we had.

Do you remember when Lily chased Snape away for you? Do you remember the anger burning in her eyes when he said you were a filthy rat?

We all cared for you.

But you just decided to throw that away, didn't you?

Wormtail. The rat. The coward. Who you are now.

Do you remember who you used to be, Wormtail?

Do you remember?